The Beach Apartment

It had been a month since Brandon had left and Kelly was standing outside of the place she had called home for so many years. She had just gotten back from the doctor's office and the look on her face said it all... Something was obviously wrong! God Brandon... why did you have to leave? I can't do this by myself... I really need to talk to someone! Kelly's mind was racing, and she hoped beyond hope that Donna was home alone. This was the only place she could come that she wouldn't get the third degree. In fact she couldn't believe that she was still living at the Walsh house. Everyone there was always asking if she was okay, especially Steve... he was always up in her face about anything and everything. She guessed it was because he couldn't talk to Brandon but she wasn't sure.

"Donna are you here?" Kelly asked opening the door.

There was no answer so she figured that she had gone to work already. Why couldn't her friends ever be there when she needed them? She was having a major battle with herself over what the doctor had told her that morning. I guess that explains why I haven't been feeling well lately... she thought in her head as she went over to the couch and sat down. She placed her head in her hands and started to cry softly. I can't wait I need to tell someone... Kelly thought to herself as she wiped the tears from her already swollen eyes and picked up the cordless phone.

"Donna Martin..." Donna answered happily.

"Hey its me... are you busy?" Kelly asked the friend she had since the third grade.

"Not really... Kel are you okay?" Donna asked noticing the hesitation in Kelly's voice.

"I just don't want to be alone right now." Kelly stated flatly.

"I'm on my way... are you at home?"

"No I'm at your place I just couldn't go back to the Walsh house..." Kelly wanted to tell her right then and there but chickened out at the last second.

"I'll be right there..." Donna told her... she knew that Kelly wanted to say something else but couldn't.

The two said there good-byes and hung up the phone. Donna just grabbed her purse and coat and ran out of the building. Kelly just continued to sit on the couch and think about her options. Why is it when I want something I don't get it, but when I don't want it... I always seem to get it? She was beating herself up over nothing... This wasn't her fault... at least not entirely her fault. Brandon had contributed to her situation as well. As she let her mind wonder Donna walked in the door.

"Okay I'm here what is going on?" Donna asked half out of breath because she had ran up the stairs.

"I went to the doctor today because I hadn't been feeling well and I thought that I had the flu or something..." Kelly began as she pulled her legs up on the couch and wrapped her arms around them.

"I take it you don't have the flu." Donna said watching Kelly curl up in a ball on the other end of the couch.

"I'm pregnant..." Kelly said just above a whisper.

"Their sure about that?" Donna asked as she sat down next to Kelly and put an arm around her.

"Positive! I'm about five weeks which means that I got pregnant on my wedding day... I knew we shouldn't have... I just couldn't stop myself..." Kelly began ranting as the tears began to fall again.

"Have you told Brandon yet?" Donna asked hoping that she hadn't... this wasn't something he needed to hear right now.

"No... you're the only one that knows... I don't know how to tell... If I call him what am I suppose to say... Hey it's Kelly, sorry to ruin you life dream of become a great journalist, but I'm pregnant with your kid! Yeah that'll go over real well..."

"Okay for one, stop beating yourself up and two, Brandon doesn't need to know..." She regretted saying the second part as soon as it came out. "Kel, I'm sorry it's just that he's just getting started and if you tell him, you know he'll come running back, and he will regret not staying and taking a chance at something that could be great for him..." Donna began.

"But if I don't tell him and he comes back what will I tell him then?" Kelly was pacing back and forth in front of the couch now.

"I don't know I guess we will cross that bridge when we come to it..." Donna said unsure of what the right thing to do or say at the moment was.

"I want this... I really do... but I want Brandon to be there with me... I can't do this on my own... I don't know how to be a mom!" Kelly was about to have a major panic attack when David walked in.

"Donna? Is there something you need to tell me?" David asked only hearing Kelly saying the word 'Mom' as he walked into the room.

"Not that I know of!" Donna said starring at him wondering what he heard before walking in.

"Okay... how about I ask who's gonna be a mom?" He was a little curious and a little scared that Donna was pregnant and keeping it from him.

"I am..." Kelly said looking down at her feet... all of a sudden there was something interesting about the shoes she was wearing.

"What are you gonna do?" David asked.

"I don't know David, I thought about calling Brandon, but I wouldn't know what to say to him right now... I just want everything to go back to how it was before this all happened!" Kelly didn't want to argue but there was no other way to say it.

"Calm down we'll figure this out... everything is going to be fine..." David was trying his best to be a friend, but he really didn't know what to tell her.

"It's not going to be fine David... I'm pregnant and this baby's father is in Washington DC and can't know about this... I don't know what I am doing... I don't know how to be a mom and I am already screwing up this child's life!"

Kelly all but screamed as her knees began to feel like they were going to fly out from under her. It was a feeling she couldn't control and she hated it. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath trying to steady herself, but it wasn't working as she had hoped. She grabbed the arm of the chair that was next to her and pretty much fell into the chair. It seemed that every time she had gotten worked up in the past few weeks that this would happen... and Kelly was really beginning to hate it.

"You okay Kel?" David asked concerned.

"Yeah I just got a little light headed that's all... it happens when I get fustrated... I'll be fine." She said still trying to get her balance.

"I told you, you needed to calm down... You aren't in this alone... you have your friends... if you need us... we're here!" David explained.

"Yeah... we won't leave you when things get rough and you know that... I'm sure the rest of the gang will feel the same way when you tell them... and I bet Nat would help out too..." Donna said hoping it would cheer her up.

"I'm still not sure about this, but you're right... I have a lot of people that care about me... Thanks!" Kelly said as a slight smile played across her face.

The day was slowly getting better for Kelly as her friends continued to reassure her that everything was going to work out for the best. She spent the rest of the day talking with Donna and David and everything that was going to happen to her. She smiled as she placed her hand over her abdomen thinking about the baby growing inside her. Donna knew what she was doing and smiled as well... Kelly was going to be a great mom.

"Hey is anyone else hungry?" David asked, getting tired of sitting on the arm of the couch.

"I could use some peach pie..." Kelly trailed off.

"Let's pay a visit to Nat then!" David said as they all got up to leave.