Toxic Love

TemptressKitten17

Rated: NC17

Disclaimer: I do not own the characters from Sailor Moon. If I did, don't ya think I'd be charging money for my stories?

Chapter 7: To Fall in Love Again

Serena hadn't said a word to Darien the whole drive back to her apartment. He didn't pay much attention to that fact however since he was after all, a guy. It wasn't until they were at the door to Serena and Mina's apartment that Darien realized that something was wrong. Serena unlocked the door and stepped inside, not even acknowledging Darien's presence in the white carpeted hallway.

" Well?" Darien asked, causing Serena to turn around and face him.

" What?" she replied, sounding slightly irritated.

" Aren't you going to invite me in? Or am I supposed to just stand here in the hallway all night?"

Serena crossed her arms over her chest defiantly. " You don't have to stand in the hall; you could always go home. Personally I don't care what you do tonight or any night."

" Wait a second! You said WE were staying at your place tonight!"

Serena laughed. " You're really dense! Did you honestly think I would have forgiven you that easily? Despite the many women you've bedded, you STILL hardly know anything about them except how to satisfy them in bed."

" But you said-"

" Oh PLEASE! I only said all that shit so that I could get laid. Men aren't the only ones who can manipulate someone in order to get exactly what they want. And I only said you would be staying the night with me because I wanted to leave the party early and I needed a really good excuse. So thank you Darien for a wonderful evening, with the exception of that fight we had earlier. Now if you'll excuse me, I would like to be ALONE tonight."

She moved to shut the door, but Darien was too quick for her and he pushed the door open before it could close all the way. " I'm sorry you feel that way, but I am NOT going home until you tell me exactly what the hell is making you so damn bitchy all of a sudden!"

" So not only are you arrogant, clueless and a total asshole, but you are also so much of a bastard that you'd enter my apartment uninvited just to call ME a bitch. I KNEW it was a mistake to sleep with you, but did I listen to myself? NO, I just went ahead and did it anyway! DAMN IT!"

Stepping inside, Darien shut and locked the door. " You can swear and call me all the names you like Serena, but it won't cause me to give up on us."

" US?" she sneered. " Last time I checked, we weren't in a relationship."

" Really? Enlighten me then SERENA, what do you consider a relationship to be? I always thought that two people who were monogamous were in a relationship but if you think there's more to it..."

" Oh there is! For one thing, people in a REAL relationship actually love each other."

" And what if I told YOU that I DO love you!"

Serena felt as if Darien had just paralyzed her when he said those words. She couldn't find the strength in her legs to move as he came toward her.

" No..." she whispered when she felt his arms encircle her waist and pull her against him in a warm and seemingly loving embrace. But Serena was not as foolish as she had once been. She knew that men only said the things they thought women wanted to hear in order to get what they wanted. Darien was just using one of the many deceitful tactics men had used for centuries; and Serena was on to him. She tried to pull away from him but he simply held her tighter.

" Don't! Don't tell me you love me, because we both know that's a load of crap and only works in love stories and fairy tales! So why don't you just stop with all the lies and realize that I know all of your games. If you wanna get laid, just say so. Don't try to make me think this is a relationship OR that you actually care about me, because let's face it; once you've satisfied your lust you'll just end up leaving me. " She avoided his gaze, hoping he wouldn't notice how much it hurt for her to say those words. But it WAS the truth, and if she didn't say it now then he would continue to lie to her and eventually she would believe him. And then, he would hurt her and she would be even more messed up than when Devon had tricked her.

" What makes you think I'm lying to you?"

" And don't act like you're being sincere! If you want to stay the night so badly then you can stay! But if you ever lie to me like that again in a cruel attempt to toy with my emotions, I'll kick you out of my bed so fast that you won't even have time to get dressed! Let that be your first and final warn-"

The rest of that sentence was cut off as Darien pressed his mouth to hers to silence her with passionate knee-weakening kisses. She tried to pull away, determined not to surrender herself to her burning desire for him, but he held her tightly to him, making escape nearly impossible. She beat her hands against his chest in frustration and anger, but all that did was cause him to deepen the kiss until she was sure she wouldn't be able to stand on her own. She whimpered, knowing that she was losing what little sliver of control she had left. Darien kissed the corners of her mouth, licking gently, before moving to the side of her jaw where her pulse was beating rapidly. He nuzzled her there, and that little sliver of control was gone.

Serena unclentched her fists and slipped her fingers into the gaps of his buttoned shirt. She sighed in satisfaction as the sound of ripping fabric and buttons scattering everywhere echoed through the large furnished living room. In seconds, the shirt was off of him and Serena's gaze fixated on his hard chest and toned arms. And he's all MINE! Serena thought in satisfaction. She wrapped her arms around his neck and pressed herself closer, sliding a leg up to hook around his. She couldn't seem to get close enough to him and it was driving her crazy with an insatiable lust.

"Darien..." she moaned as he continued his assault on her senses. " If you don't stop that we won't make it to the bedroom.."

" I don't mind." he replied, his lips still brushing over the thin skin of her throat and jaw.

She moaned with pleasure as he gently sucked and nibbled at the corner of her jaw again. His fingers trailed up her spine and before she realized what he was doing, he had unzipped her dress.

" No...I'm serious about this Darien! We have to go to my bedroom if you want to continue this."

" Fine, we'll go there later...right now, just enjoy."

Serena groaned in both pleasure and frustration as he once again nibbled at her neck.

"But...I promised her!"

" What did you promise, Sere?" Darien asked as he slipped the thin straps of her dress off of her shoulders, pulling the fabric down until it fell to the floor.

" I promised I wouldn't do this outside of the bedroom."

"Why?"

"I'll tell you later okay? Right now, just take me to bed."

"Where is your room?"

"I like a man who listens!" she purred. " Upstairs, it's the second bedroom on the right."

Darien lifted her up into his arms and carried her upstairs bridal-style to her room and placed her on the bed before laying down next to her on top of the white bedspread. It seemed a little odd that Serena would have chosen such a PURE color, but then again he didn't really know her as intimately as he knew her body. He couldn't help but smile as he remembered never wanting to fall in love again. Well all that had changed the moment he had laid eyes on his beautiful Serena...oh yes, she would become his and his alone once he put his plan into action. But first, he needed to show her how much she affected him.

Serena had known that getting involved with Darien was a very bad idea, especially since she didn't want to fall in love again. But no matter how hard she tried to deny it, the attraction was too strong to ignore. He could make her ache for him just by looking into her eyes and she was unable to resist temptation for very long. Right now was a very good example of just how little control she had around him. Hadn't she been furious with him earlier? She couldn't seem to recall an arguement, but she knew there had been one before he had kissed her fiercely and made her forget.

The flames of passion burned through her skin and heated her to the very core of her being as Darien kissed her mindlessly once more. He slid his tongue teasingly behind her ear before working his way down the side of her jaw. He traced the thin skin of her throat and the spot between her neck and shoulder, as if he was following an invisible line. His lips moved back up to her ear again, and this time he kissed his way down the path he had traced out with his tongue. He did the same to the other side of her neck before kissing his way down to her breasts. She couldn't stop the moans of pleasure from escaping her throat as he took one of her breasts into his hand and massaged it while suckling on the other one. She began to grind her lower body against his, trying to bring herself to climax and relieve some of the pressure that had built up within her.

Darien knew that Serena was hanging on by a mere thread, but he wasn't ready to let her come just yet. No, he wanted this to be a night she would remember for the rest of her life. She would feel his love for her, and the burning desire that consumed him would consume her as well. He would make sure that she felt it. He could feel her grinding against him and immediately pulled away, smiling when she let out a frustrated groan.

" I need you Darien!" she pleaded when she realized he had pulled away from her.

" And I want you just as badly Serena, but I haven't even begun to pleasure you yet; and after all the things I have done today to piss you off, I really think I owe it to you to do this right."

"But I don't think I can handle anymore Darien! I'm so close...please!"

Before Darien could stop her, she grabbed his hand and placed it between her thighs so that he could feel how warm and wet she was through the dampness of her panties.

"You feel that, don't you? This is how badly I need you right now." She gasped when she felt Darien slip his fingers under the silky fabric and slide up to stroke her velvet heat. She sank down into the pillows and raised her hips up slightly so that Darien could slide her panties off of her; but he didn't. Instead he pulled his hand away from that tempting spot and moved it to rest at the side of her waist. His hands traced over her sides in circular patterns while he placed soft kisses over her breasts and ribcage. He moved lower, his hands slipping down to the curve of her hips. He traced a path from her chest to her belly button with his tongue before kissing his way downward in the same way he had done with her neck.

Serena was tingling with anticipation as Darien slowly placed kisses along the waistband of her panties. She was surprised, however, when he didn't remove them. He spread her thighs apart and slid his tongue along the inside, slowly moving inward. Serena moaned in pleasure and near pain as the pressure inside her continued to build up even more. It was as if something inside her had been wrapped up too tight and was trying to break free of its restraints.

"Darien, please...please, I'm so close! Oh, Darien! Oh Baby, PLEASE!" she cried out, not even realizing that she had unconsciously revealed how she truly felt about him. The endearing pet name didn't go unnoticed by Darien. She called me 'Baby'! She feels the same way I do, which means she's just pretending that there's only lust between us...Oh Serena, there's no way I'm going to let you go now without a fight.

He placed a soft kiss over the silky fabric of her panties before sliding them off of her to be ignored until much later; after he had finished showing her how much he loved her. He spread her thighs apart again and quickly found her sweet spot. He flicked his tongue over it rapidly until Serena was shaking and gripping the sheets so tightly that her knuckles were turning white. Darien couldn't imagine a more erotic image than that of Serena naked; her long blond hair splayed over the pillows and the beads of sweat causing her skin to glisten. Oh Serena, my love! You are so beautiful, I love you... he thought as he continued to pleasure her.

Serena couldn't feel anything except for the exquisite pleasure Darien was giving her. She rolled her head from side to side as her jewel became even more sensitive that it was almost too much for her body to handle. Suddenly she felt Darien rapidly flick the tip of his tongue over the left side of her hot pearl. She felt the intense heat within her and the pressure that had built up inside her seemed to explode. Darien didn't let up with the movements of his mouth and within mere seconds Serena went over the edge again. " Now! Darien I need you..." Serena pleaded, her heart racing so fast that she was sure Darien could hear it too.

After ridding himself of the rest of his clothes and taking care of protection, Darien moved over Serena and thrust into her in one smooth motion. She cried out in satisfaction as she felt every inch of him filling her up perfecly, as if he had been molded for her alone.She mentally kicked that thought out the door. If I start thinking like my old self I'll end up getting hurt again. She didn't dare look at him, because she knew that he would see it on her face ; realize that she was falling in love. Instead she closed her eyes and let the sensations take over her completely so that she didn't have to think and didn't have to feel anything beyond the physical.

Darien recognized the look in her eyes, he'd had the same look in his own eyes all the time before he'd met her. She was trying to hide behind her defenses again, and sex was a means of escape for her; just as it had always been for him. He wasn't about to let her do that now; not when he wanted her to realize that she WASN'T just another fling to him. Darien wanted to prove to her how much he loved her and how well he would treat her if she was his girlfriend...or dare he dream it, his fiancee? His beautiful wife? Oh how he wanted that dream to come true. But unfortunately, if Serena kept up that emotional barrier she wouldn't feel that love, nor would she see it in his eyes. Darien had to think fast before he lost her again. He stilled all movement and gently cupped her cheek in his hand, placing a soft kiss over her lips before pulling away slightly. "Serena. Baby, open your eyes please and look at me." he coaxed, gently stroking the side of her face with his thumb. Serena slowly opened her eyes, and Darien could see just how vulnerable and exposed she felt. He continued to stroke her cheek and whisper soothingly as he spoke. "I don't know why you're so afraid, Serena, but I promise I would never hurt you physically OR emotionally. You don't have to hide your feelings from me, I don't even understand why you would need to. If you'll just trust me and understand that I'm not going to simply leave you one day, I promise you that you won't regret it."

Serena trembled beneath his gaze. He sounded so sincere, as if he truly cared about her. But how could she trust him when she had been fed so many lies in the past from Devon and the others? How could she believe him when the first thing they had done when they first met was tumble into bed? What if all they really had was sex and Darien had just become infatuated with her and would eventually come to his senses and leave her? Or worse, marry her just because he'd promised never to leave her and he felt he needed to keep that promise? Oh god, what if they ended up in a marriage like that of her parents? He would be sleeping with his secretaries, she would become an alcoholic socialite who had affairs of her own...and the children would suffer because of a stupid mistake she had made in her late teens to early twenties. She didn't want to risk being hurt, but a part of her believed in the fairy tale story he was promising her, and she found herself seriously considering giving him a chance. She bit her lip, considering her options. She could say yes and either have the greatest love of all time or get her heart stomped on all over again, or she could close off her heart from ever knowing love and possibly die alone.

"I don't know..." she whispered. "I am just so scared that this'll end badly and I'll be hurt again...and-"

Darien kissed her again, trying to put everything he felt for her into the kiss. He pulled away again, looking into her beautiful eyes once more. "Say yes to this, Serena. Say yes to us." He placed his lips over the sensitive spot beneath her ear and began to lick teasingly. "Darien!"

"So what do you say?" he asked, sliding a hand to her breast to tease her nipple.

"I really don't know..."

"Tell me." he said almost playfully as he suddenly moved his hand even lower to tease her jewel.

"I...I...Darien PLEASE, just stop teasing me and just make love to me!" she whimpered, feeling the heat rising within her again.

"Is that a yes then Sere? Will you trust me and let me love you?" he asked, aware of how much he was arousing her but refusing to bring her to climax again; at least not yet.

"Darien, PLEASE!"

"Is that a yes?" He repeated. Suddenly he pressed into her jewel a little bit harder and Serena cried out.

"Yes! Okay! I'll trust you, now can you please just-" she never got to finish that sentence. His mouth came down over hers and at the same time he began to thrust inside her again. Serena didn't suppress her emotions this time, and she was soon kissing him with as much feeling as she possibly could put into it. This was new for her since she had never made love before. This ran deeper than just physical pleasure, THIS was everything she had ever dreamed of when she was still innocent and full of love and romantic notions and it was even more than that. She felt as if she had a part of his soul and he had a part of hers, that they had been only half a soul before they'd found each other. It didn't make any sense, and yet it DID make sense to her. She felt like he had brought her back to life when she hadn't even realized she'd been dead inside. She wrapped her arms around him in a loving embrace, afraid that if she let go she would wake up from this delicious dream and be alone again. If this is a dream, I wanna be comatose cuz I never want it to end!

Darien continued to thrust into her rhythmically, paying close attention to the spots that made her cry out the most. Soon he could feel her body begin to shake and he knew she was almost there. He continued his movements inside her, loving the sound of her passionate moans and cries as he brought her over the edge. He didn't stop his movements, determined to make her come again...and this time he came with her. He slowly lowered himself over her, burying his face into the skin of her neck; kissing, licking, breathing in her intoxicating scent. Serena slowly ran her fingers through his hair and closed her eyes, savoring the moment. She had never felt so happy and relaxed in her life, and it was all because of Darien that her body was still tingling all over and her pulse beating so hard she could feel it everywhere at once.

After a minute or so, Darien slipped out of her and headed for the bathroom. Serena tossed the decorative pillows to the floor and turned down the bed. When Darien returned, he couldn't help but chuckle. "What?" Serena asked, curious to know what he found so amusing. "Nothing. I just saw your sheets and..."

"And what?"

"Well, your bedding is just so much like you and the way you portray yourself. At first glance, your bed looked so pure and innocent, just like everyone seems to think YOU are. But then you reveal those sexy red bed sheets under all that white... It's like your passionate sexy side that very few people get to see."

"How very insightful. But there's just one little thing you forgot."

"And what's that?" he asked, stepping closer to her.

"I have a leopard print quilt under the white bedspread which must mean that I'm also a wild woman according to your theory."

"Mmm...you are definitely that, my wild and sexy temptress."

Serena giggled, something she hadn't done in a long time. It felt wonderful to be able to act so playful without having to stay on her guard at the same time. "Well then, maybe we should test that theory of yours and find out just how wild I can be?"

Darien grinned. "Oh I like that idea a lot."

"I knew you'd say that." she giggled again, then she pulled him closer. They tumbled back onto the bed again, lost in each other's embrace.