Hi everyone this fanfic is reaching its end but I loved writing it so much that I'm considering doing a sequel. Anyway please keep reading and reviewing it means so much to me. No copyright intended at all everything is made for entertainment purposes and no profit is being made from this fanfic at all. Anyway as per usual on with the story.

Angel stood motionless as loads of thoughts flooded his mind. How was it possible that Buffy still had her soul? This was the most important unanswered question in Angel's head. He of course was glad that the demon that had possessed him wasn't strong enough to possess the slayer. That might be the reason, Angel thought racking his brain nervously at why Buffy Summers still had her soul, she is the slayer.

"Well what were you going to?" Buffy roared tears streaming down her cheeks.

It was enough for her that she was a vampire, a creature of the night that she would kill in a heartbeat but the feeling of her desertion that Angel was going to cause her was to much for her none beating heart to bear.

She tried to keep calm like her mother would have done but staring at the man who she thought loved her caused her so much pain that she just couldn't keep it from her face.

Angel didn't answer he was still in to much shock to be able to form a coherent sentence.

"WELL?" Buffy screamed in his face.

She collapsed down in tears then and Angel just managed to catch her. They both fell to the floor and Angel held a broken Buffy in his arms. One of his hands rubbed soothing circles on her back while the other held her to him. So much guilt washed over him at

that moment that he wanted to go and end his life right there and then. But Buffy needed him and he still loved her so what he had been thinking was now out of the question.

"You were going to leave me," Buffy whispered not making it that much of a question.

She lifted her head from Angel's shoulder to see his reaction.

His face immediately softened and he cupped her face in his hands. He just shook his head and Buffy felt relieved.

"I'm sorry," Angel said staring Buffy in the eyes and knowing he would never be able to apologize enough, "I'm so sorry, it's all my fault if only I-"

Buffy stopped Angel by putting her finger on his lips. She didn't want to hear apologies and certainly not from Angel.

"It's not your fault," She said softly lowering her finger from his lips.

He tried to argue but the second he did Buffy put her finger right back there.

"It's not your fault," She repeated sternly, "Its Angelus fault."

Angel tried to argue yet again but this time Buffy silenced him with her lips. They kissed softly for a bit with the kiss going no where fast since Angel didn't feel right about it. When they stopped Buffy looked at him once more.

"Now then," She said trying to sort out the mess in her head so that it made sense, "I'm a vampire."

Angel nodded weakly.

"Angelus turned me into one."

Angel nodded again.

"I love you."

Angel was half way through a nod when he realised what Buffy had said.

"You still do?" He asked not bearing to believe it, "Even after what I did to you?"

Buffy gave a loud sigh and was just about it to tell him that it was Angelus but it was Angel's turn to silence her.

The kiss was slowly progressing into something more but Buffy heard her name being shouted from far away. It was weird to hear with her new ears. She could hear things so much more clearly and from miles away too. It was so serene to her. They broke off the kiss and Angel helped Buffy up from the ground. He held her close to him just in case she couldn't control her thirst for human blood. He could tell straight away who the voices belonged to. Giles was running through the graveyard past tones of tiny graves to see them. A smile etched across his face as he found his Buffy again. A tiny Willow was following behind with Oz. They all came to a stop the moment they saw her and Angel more clearly. Willow and Giles almost fainted while Oz kept silent with nothing but a surprise reaction radiating from him. Xander finally caught up with them and the minute he saw Buffy he fainted. Buffy rushed from Angel's side to awaken her friend but the moment his eyes opened he screamed terrible heart wrenching screams and crawled away from Buffy with fright. Giles just stood there with a look of loss and disappointment on his face. Willow stood gaping and grasped Oz's hand tighter to her own. Buffy rushed back to Angel instantly. What was wrong with her? She thought her friends would be more understanding then this. She looked at Angel with the question on her face but all he did was sadly take her hands and make her feel her own face. She felt the cold and ruff ness there. She knew she was now a vampire but forgot what her true face looked like now, that of a cold killer. A demon that didn't deserve to be in this world. She broke down in sobs and fell to the floor banging her fists against it. Angel took a step back and watched with guilt and fear as Buffy smashed in all the graveyard stones and sobbed. Xander was holding Willows waist in fear and despite all that was happening around them Oz still managed to look down at Xander with a warning look. Xander however didn't recognize it. A tear fell from Giles cheek as he and the others all realized that Buffy still had her soul and knew what she had become. Xander rose from Willow and walked over to Angel. He raised his hand in a fist and was just about to punch him in the face but half way there a stronger Buffy stopped him. She snarled and Xander, in shock, fell over again. She stood in front of Angel with a protective look that told anyone they were dead if they tried to harm him.

"Buffy," Willow said amazed, "It's still you. I mean well it would be you I mean its you. Well its still you, nice Buffy not grryy," She tried to make a demon face, "grr Buffy at all."

Buffy smiled at her friend and in doing so felt her face transform back into her old human one. Everyone felt more relaxed instantly around her. Angel hated the resentment there, didn't they realize they were making it harder then it already was?

"How did you keep your soul?" Giles asked puzzled taking off his glasses to wipe them and quickly put them back on again.

Buffy and Angel looked at each other, Buffy gave a tiny shrug.

"We don't exactly know," Angel said trailing off as he tried to think of reasons why Buffy still had her soul.

Xander stared as Buffy's hands found Angel's and they held each other close. It sickened him to his very core.

"How can you still feel for him when he's done this to you?" Xander sneered at Angel.

Buffy looked quickly from Angel's eyes to Xander's and he wished he hadn't have spoken.

"It wasn't him," Buffy said not only talking to Xander but to everyone else, "It was Angelus."

They all nodded wisely except Xander who just rolled his eyes.

"Keep telling yourself Buffster but you would have got older and realized you wanted a normal relationship and he just couldn't handle that. Now look what he's done to you," He said waving his hand in the air.

Angel got angry with Xander. It was true Angel had always known and feared that one day Buffy might want a human instead of him but he would have let her go without a fight. And for Xander to question that just made him so angry that he felt like he could burst.

Buffy stepped forward with her eyebrows raised at Xander who stood his ground glaring at Angel.

"Stop it Xander," She whispered taking his hand.

This gesture shocked Xander and he shivered as her cold skin touched his. She let go instantly in shame and returned to Angel's side.

"I would have let her go," Angel said simply containing his emotions.

Xander snorted, "Of course you would have."

Giles made a loud sigh at Xander which made him shut up instantly. Buffy felt a wave of sadness wash over her as she looked at now what she considered as her old friends. They would never look at her the same way. They would always be disgusted or in fear of her. She didn't want that in friendships and turned to stare at Angel.

"I want to go home," She whispered taking his hand.

"No don't Buffy," Giles said taking her other hand.

He flinched slightly at the cold touch but didn't remove his hand. She turned to look at him.

"You're still our Buffy," He said staring into her eyes.

Everyone nodded in agreement.

"Nothing could change that Buffster," Xander said taking her other hand which he tactfully removed from Angel's grasp.

"You are still mine and ours Buffy," Willow said stepping forward with Oz and hugging Buffy, "And nothing that happens to any of us will change that."

Oz nodded in agreement.

She stood there feeling accepted once more and her and Angel quickly told the story of how she had turned. They were all sympathetic and Xander even apologized to Angel about what he had said before. Giles wanted to hug Buffy more then anything and tell her everything was going to be ok. Willow wanted to tell Buffy that they were still best friends and Xander wanted to keep apologizing for what he had said to both Buffy and Angel. But none of these things needed to be said. It was so obvious to each and every one of them what the other wanted to say. What felt like hours later Angel grabbed

Buffy's hand and pulled him towards her.

"The sunlight is coming," He whispered trying to make it so that the others wouldn't hear him.

They did though and all fell into an awkward silence. But they still made arrangements to see each other tonight at Giles house. With a quick goodbye Angel pulled Buffy back to his place just before the sun came up. They entered his place and the first thing he did was run to the fridge and through her a packet of pig's blood. Buffy turned her nose up at it and with a good hours persuasion from Angel she finally drank it. They sat in silence for a while until Buffy got fed up with it.

"So its day time," She said trying to see the light but failing knowing she never could again and feeling a great wave of sadness wash through her, "What do we do?"

Angel stared at the bed and Buffy raised her eyebrows.

"That will just bring Angelus back," She said putting her head in her hands in a depressive way.

"No," Angel said helping her out of her chair, "Bedtime."

She looked up at him and gave a slight giggle, "Oh right and I wondered what you did during the day."

Angel raised his eyebrows and Buffy gave a shrug, "I can be stupid."

Angel nodded in mock agreement and Buffy gave him a playful slap.

"It's going to take me a while to get used to sleeping during the daytime," Buffy said sitting down on the bed.

"You'll be fast asleep in a moment," Angel said getting a pillow and putting it on the floor.

Buffy couldn't believe it; he was going to sleep on the floor!

"Angel," She said sighing and was just about to complain before Angel stopped her.

"I will sleep on the floor," He said lying down.

She peered over at him, "Angel we wont do anything."

Angel didn't even matter if he lost his soul again to Buffy; he needed her body and everything about her. But he didn't feel right about it. Looking at what he had done to her he doubted he could ever just sleep in a bed with her again.

"Angel just-" Buffy said trailing off as she thought why Angel didn't want to be in the same bed as her.

He mustn't want her anymore now she was a vampire. She must have changed in more ways then she thought. She got up from the bed and tried to find a mirror. It took her a while of searching until Angel finally asked her what she was doing. She told him she needed a mirror and he looked at the floor sadly and turned his back on her.

"You can't," Angel whispered.

Buffy suddenly remembered why, vampires couldn't see their own reflections. She felt instantly guilty as she knew her thoughts before had been stupid and Angel was just ashamed of what he had done to her. Even though it wasn't him but Buffy knew he would never accept that. She walked slowly over to him; his back was still facing her. She wrapped her arms around him and hugged him. She buried her face in his shoulder as he just sat there and finally turned round to face her.

"I'll take the floor," He repeated and Buffy instantly let go.

She got up on the bed in defeat and Angel watched her instantly fall asleep.