Drew stood in his room and stared down at his shaking hands, wondering how he could've screwed up so bad. It had started out innocent enough; him and Bianca were just throwing insults at each other and laughing about nothing. Then they had started making out, then the party had ended so they had taken their little 'party' back to Bianca's house. Before long their clothes were gone and—oh gosh what had he done? It wasn't that he was so drunk that he hadn't realized what was going on; he could still recall everything that had happened the other night which definitely meant he was not completely drunk. He still didn't understand why it had happened.

He loved Alli. He was even planning on telling Alli his new revelation that day at school; but he was suddenly too sick to go to school. Miraculously he had weaseled his way out of early morning football tryouts and was allowed to sleep in a little more but he highly doubted that his mother would let him stay home from school.

"Drew; hurry up!" he heard Adam shout from the other side of the door before he started pounding on it. Drew wiped his sweaty palms on his jeans and looked up at the door. It was ironic that he was normally the one banging on Adam's door in the morning and now it was the complete opposite.

"In a minute!" he called back, wincing at the crack in his voice and praying Adam didn't hear. Silence met his ears from the other side of the door and he wondered if Adam had left before receiving a reply. A second later his brother's tentative voice reached his ears and he cursed his brother's ability to realize when anything was wrong.

"Everything ok Drew?" he asked and Drew bit back the bitter laughter that bubbled to his throat. Was everything ok? Was everything ok? He had cheated on the girl he loved with Bianca; the girl that had made his brother's life living hell! But it's not like he could tell Adam that. He remembered how his brother freaked out about the text and that was when Drew hadn't done anything with Bianca. Now that he had done something who knew how his brother would react!

But it wasn't like he could keep it a secret forever. He already planned on telling Alli and trying to talk things out with her. Maybe if he begged and pleaded for a long time she would eventually forgive him for being one of the biggest assholes in the world. It was basically the way he got her to go out with him so it could work a second time. And who knew who Bianca had told already? She was probably bragging about getting the faithful football player in bed anyways so Adam would find out soon enough. Finding out from Drew was probably a better way to find out.

Apparently he had been silent longer then he thought because Adam was knocking on the door again, a little louder and faster than before.

"Drew?" he asked, his voice rising slightly. Drew watched the doorknob jiggled and finally decided to sit his brother down and just tell him. Before he could chicken out he pulled on the lock, ripped the door open and yanked his brother into his room. Feeling very much like an undercover agent he slammed the door closed again and pushed Adam onto the bed, glancing around like someone would be watching and videotaping his every movement. "Drew?" Adam repeated, completely startled and slightly worried.

"Adam; I did something very stupid." Drew said seriously.

"Don't you always do something stupid because you are, in fact, stupid?" Adam teased, trying to make light of the situation. Normally Drew would've cracked a smile but this wasn't his normal stupidity; this blew every other stupid thing he did out of the water.

"I slept with Bianca." He blurted, taking Adam's words of advice and 'ripping the bandage'. The awkward smile slid right off Adam's face.

"What?"

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Bianca sat on the side of the school and roughly ran a hand through her hair the same time she had put the cigarette to her lips. After taking a rather long drag she blew the smoke out, still trying to perfect the 'O' form she had seen the caterpillar do on her favorite movie 'Alive in Wonderland'. She'd never admit that it was her favorite movie; that would severely ruin her image and take away her dignity. Another thing that would do that would be if she admitted to everyone that she liked Adam Torres.

Oh shit.

She liked Adam Torres. The little tranny that had drove her crazy the first time they ever danced. The way he stared at her without looking away; like she didn't scare him. And now she did seem to scare him. Every insult she hurled his way and every time she went out of her way to make his life hell obviously had some effect on him. It didn't necessarily scare him, which really pissed Bianca off, but it seemed to make him hate her more and more.

And in a sick attempt to get over her feelings for the boy she had went and slept with his step-brother. It had been the only way she could get close to the infuriating little weasel without actually being with him. her. it. All of it was just too confusing for her. She wasn't a lesbian; but repeating that didn't make her feelings go away. Then there was that little itch in the back of her mind. The tiny voice that said that she didn't have to be a lesbian to be with Adam. He was considered a guy; so much so that her, Owen and Fitz screwed up pronouns and found themselves using 'him' and 'he' to refer to Adam. There were plenty of people at the school that considered him a guy; even if his anatomy was female.

But that voice was squished whenever she hung out with the two and they did nothing but insult Adam, or insult anyone that was relatively friendly with him. It pissed Bianca off but she never said a thing to stop them; choosing to just go along with it instead. And because she wasn't able to be with the younger Torres she chose to hook up with the older Torres instead.

She just prayed that when she had reached her climax she had not shouted 'Adam.'

xxxxxxx

Adam had been surprisingly calm and supportive throughout the whole conversation. He had agreed that it would be a good thing to talk things out with Alli. Now that Drew stood face to face with the girl he really wished he had not done it; especially with tears sliding from her big, brown eyes.

"Y-You and Bianca?" Alli choked out, finally able to find her voice after the shock she felt at the words. Drew nodded sadly and Alli let out a gasp mixed with a sob. "How could you?" she whispered and Drew reached for her arm. Without a second thought she pulled it from her gasp and took a step back. The memory of Johnny's lie slammed to the front of her mind. How sincere Johnny had looked when he said she was his first, when she definitely wasn't.

"It was a mistake!" Drew insisted, hurt by the way she had flinched away from him. "I didn't know what I was doing."

"You obviously weren't too drunk to not remember what happened. Every. Single. Detail." Each word was like a stab and Drew winced but did not back down.

"I swear Alli!" he continued desperately, reaching for her again only to have her pull away. "It meant nothing! I was hardly in control of any of my actions; the alcohol obviously had some effect on me. I'm sorry!" he sounded so damn sincere and crushed that Alli just wanted to pull him back into her arms and say it was ok. But she remembered just how sincere Johnny looked when he said she was his first.

She was not going to fall so easily for the puppy dog face.

"Even under the influence of alcohol; how could you do that?" she asked, a whole new row of tears waiting to leak from her eyes.

"I'm so sorry Alli; there's no excuse for what I've done. How much I've hurt you." By the end of his mini-speech he started whispering. Alli squared her shoulders and stood up a little straighter, forcing back the tears that continued to fall.

"You're right." She said, making her voice stronger. "M-Maybe we should take a break." She wasn't strong enough to completely break it off with him. But the minute she said that sentence she wished she hadn't; she could see the pain in his eyes and how even more crushed he looked.

"No, Alli, please." He begged; something no one had ever gotten Drew Torres to do. A tiny part of Alli's brain knew this and ordered her to take him back. He was obviously sorry for what he had done; otherwise he wouldn't look like a kicked puppy and wouldn't have told her exactly what had happened. He would've kept it a secret and tried to push it under the rug.

"Drew, don't." she whispered; she was already struggling and his begging was just making it worse.

"Please, Alli; don't do this to me. I love you." He choked out, trying to hold back sobs. That wasn't how he expected to tell her. He wanted it to be romantic and memorable. Now it would be memorable, but not in the way he wanted. All he knew was he had to get it out there; so if they did break it off she'd know his feelings for her. Alli's knees nearly gave out from under her and she could tell he meant what he said.

He really did love her.

Disclaimer:

I don't –sob- own Degrassi D:

Author's Notes:

There is this delicious looking drink just sitting in my fridge and I want it! D: I think I'll eat it even if it has my sister's name on it xP

And I'm never, I repeat never to show you the importance of that word, wearing a dress to school ever again. I wore purple today because it shows your support for LGBT people (twitter is an amazing source of information! 8D) and the only purple thing that didn't need washing (too lazy to do my laundry xP) was this purple dress. The immaturity of some people -_- just because I never wore a dress for my entire high school career doesn't mean people can comment or gawk! D:

And then my English partner (damn him! We changed seats (score!) and he still finds a way to make my life hell) made this ignorant comment and pretended to pull it up like a ducking dumb ass -_- I was wearing leggings underneath! (as well as these cool looking combat boot type things that aren't really combat boots more like black army boots or something because they aren't big and chunky but still hurt when you stomp on ignorant English partners' feet (: I (stole) borrowed them from my friend Kenna because I love her shoes~) So I'm never wearing a dress again… D: and I have to return the boots to Kenna because she said that I had them for too long (since freshman year which was last year xP)

And at lunch we got in this whole discussion of how my twin Marcus has the most normal name in my entire family xD and how all our names are unique apparently :P I'm used to them which is probably why they aren't unique to me. We were also discussing how huge my family is XD

Anais (me :D) Kensie (my real sister; pronounced Ken-C), Mercy (my step-sister), Fynn (my step-brother) and then Marcus (my twin). XD

It was amazing because this chick that I hardly know came up to me and asked if I was the same Anaisishere from fanfic… I'm practically famous! 8D People are recognizing me in the hallway (: it was really cool because she said she likes my stories and that she thinks Adam is amazing too. I invited her to my lunch table and am super excited because I found a fellow Adam-lover! 8D

Wow this is a long author's notes; to wrap it up I'll tell you how Kensie, Marcus and I are going to be going to be driving to my dad's new house tomorrow (ditching school; hecksickles yeah!) so that we can visit my him and his family (: He just moved from another state so we're going to see his new house (it's going to be some big family reunion with my dad's side of the family since we all live very close now) xP. I'm super excited cause it's on a ranch/barn/thing… and he has goats! 8D Those are like the most amazing creatures on the earth (aside from penguins and white tigers, of course) and I've never really gotten to pet one before. I'm looking forward to that (:

…And I'm pretty sure I can still use the internet so that's another plus! 8D

I'd also like to apologize for how infrequently I have been updating D: I'm just working on the next chapter of Hero, little one-shots that I'll be posting soon, this new BiancaAdam fic that came to my mind, a fic centered around my friends Degrassi OCs (original characters) as well as working on a book that has nothing to do with fan fiction. Don't worry though; it shouldn't take me longer than a week to update.

I apologize for any OOCness (:

Right.

I'll stop talking now.

Kthxbai! (I never knew about this until my friend texted it to me 8D it's all speedy and cool)

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