Sorry I haven't been able to update lately, during the summer were I live the electrity and water turns off and on constantly and I haven't had 30 minutes to update :( But I've given you a longer chapter to make up for it and just incase I can't updated for a while because I'm helping riot clean up in London in 2 weeks. Sorry if I don't know much about babies, I was a premature baby myself, but I know very little and I haven't had time to research.
Blaine stayed with Ruth, just looking at her and stroking her back, for over 2 hours. Before Carla told him that Kurt woke up - and was asking for him. Blaine didn't like to leave his newborn daughter but he needed to fix things with Kurt.
Blaine found Kurt sitting up on his bed, head resting on his bend knees. "Hey you." Blaine said while standing in the door frame. Kurt doesn't reply but Blaine walks over to Kurt's bed and sits down. He notices that there a 2 photos on the bed that Kurt was looking at.
"That's me when I was a baby." Kurt says holding up the photo for Blaine to see "I was early, but nowhere near as early as Ruth."
"Who's that?" asked Blaine.
"That's my mom as a baby."
"You look just like her."
"Thanks, my dad dropped them off before he left."
"When did he leave?"
"A while ago, Carole shooed him away after he came to beg for forgiveness." . Then came an awkward silence between the pair. It stayed this way until Blaine moved closer to Kurt and started to whisper to him, "I saw Ruth in the NICU, she's so small" Blaine gestured with his hands "She's the perfect mixture of me and you, I love her so much."
"Blaine, no matter how much you love her, we can't make it work."
"Wait, Kurt, what do you mean?"
"To be honest Blaine, I've been thinking, I have no idea about children or parenting and having a premature baby is going to be ten times harder."
"Kurt, we'll learn and our parents can help."
"It's not just that; if we can't manage our relationship or our families in less an 6 months, how are we going to raise a child? Plus, Carla said that a baby born this early has a high risk of learning difficulties or mental problems, how are we going to manage that and money and our education?" Kurt exclaimed at Blaine and Blaine was left completely speak less, "So I've been thinking about Adoption."
-klaine-
Over the next few days Ruth was looking better and so was Kurt. Ruth still wasn't allow out of her incubator. She had a barely any visitors in the NCIU, Blaine was still in there every hour of everyday. Andrea, Finn and Carole had all visited her, Carole and Andrea even brought Ruth some clothes and small toys to put in her incubator; Finn had brought Kurt his clothes and moisturisers by demand. Blaine and Kurt still hadn't discussed the adoption thing. Blaine still wanted her, Kurt still wanted to give her up.
One day they had some unexpected visitors, Puck, Will and Artie. Artie was there visiting Kurt; he was one of people Kurt could trust during his pregnancy, the glee girls had taken to ignoring Kurt, Mercedes had just replaced him with Rachel, Quinn wouldn't even look at Kurt and when Brittany or Santana were talking to Kurt Quinn would drag them away. As Artie was talking with Kurt in his room; Puck and Will went to the NCIU to visit Blaine and Ruth.
They found Blaine sitting down, hand in the incubator, finger stroking Ruth's back.
"She's precious Blaine." said Will, placing a hand on his shoulder. "She looks just like you." Added Puck taking a seat next to Blaine.
"Thanks you guys." he says, not taking his eyes of her.
"Does she have a name?" Will asks.
"Ruth Vivian...hopefully Ruth Vivian Hummel-Anderson." Will gave Blaine a strange looks just before he explained, "We're thinking about giving her up for adoption.".
-klaine-
Blaine thought about the first time him and Kurt got coffee together as he sat down, paper cup in hand, at the hospital Cafe with Will.
"Blaine, You're probably wondering why I asked you to talk to me." Will told Blaine, "Blaine I need to ask you if...Me and Em...Blaine you need to understand that this isn't easy for me."
"Mr. Schue, I don't know what you're talking about, can you explain?"
"Ok," Mr. Schue taking a breath "Me and Emma can't have our own children, we tried for so long, we've started to think about adoption and-"
"WAIT! Are you saying you want me to give you my daughter?"
"Blaine, listen, I just thought if you decided adoption it's better your daughter is with someone you trust and you know that will love her."
"Will, I don't want to hear this." Blaine shouted, causing many others to look at them, and stood up and walked out. Leaving Will looking like an idiot.
-Klaine-
"Artie, I'm thinking about giving her up for adoption." Kurt said bluntly. Artie was left speechless. "What does Blaine think?" Artie asked. "He wants to keep her, he loves her so much already and I haven't even seen her yet."
"Well, maybe, if you saw her you would feel different."
"Artie, I can't raise a kid, I haven't done any research like Blaine has. I don't even know were I'm gonna stay after I'm out of the hospital!" Kurt shouted, Artie tried to calm him down and grabbed his hands firmly in his own. "Kurt, calm down ok, don't get to stressed you'll just make yourself more sick" Artie helped Kurt take a few deep breaths and after Kurt was calm he was ready to talk again.
"Thanks Artie," Kurt said giving Artie a smile "Seriously, you were one of the only people who would even talk to me during my pregnancy."
"Kurt, you're one of my best friends, I wouldn't let anything stand in the way of that.". "Do you know why none of the girls would talk to me during my pregnancy?" Kurt asked. "Kurt, do you really want to know?" Artie asked, Kurt slowly nodded, "Well, Quinn thinks that this is another way to get her attention, I heard her say that this is part of your plan after stealing her prom queen title, I have no idea about Mercedes or Rachel, but they've been talking to Quinn a lot. Tina, Brittany and Santana all want to talk to you but one of the other girls always stop them.". Artie said, shooting Kurt a sympathetic look.
-Klaine-
"Kurt, Blaine I've got great news, Ruth is stable, she come out her incubator today." Carla said as she walked into the room. "Does that mean I get to hold her?" Blaine asks. "Of course!" she replied.
Blaine followed Carla down to the NCIU as quickly as possible when walking but Kurt nervously walked a few steps be hide them in an itchy hospital gown. As soon as they entered the NCIU Blaine walked straight over to Ruth. Kurt stood by the door, taking slow steps, towards Blaine. Kurt took in all the sights, smells and sounds; the thick scent to bleach, the beeping of monitors and all the incubators, only a few with babies actually in them.
"Kurt, come here." Blaine said to him quietly, trying not to wake Ruth. Carla opened up the incubator and Kurt saw is daughter for the first time.
All Kurt could think about was how fragile she looked. Carla slowly lifted Ruth out of the incubator and put her in Blaine's arms. Blaine held her close, her head on his chest, just like he had practises after days of research. Kurt stared as Blaine held their daughter so lovingly. Blaine was kissing the tiny baby on the top of her head, hummed to her and rocked her back and forth. Kurt had no idea about babies.
"Kurt do you want to hold her?" Carla asked.
"No, no I don't know how." Kurt replied.
"It doesn't matter, I'll show you." Carla slowly took the baby from Blaine's arms; Ruth started to squirm when she was taken from Daddy's arm. Carla passed Ruth to Kurt and he heard her like a foreign object, now she was crying on the tip of her little lungs, "I'm sorry, I can't do this." Kurt said placing Ruth in Carla's arms as gently as he could.
"Kurt, relax, I have an idea." Blaine said walking over to Kurt. He stood directly behide him and placed his arms around Kurt. Calra gently placed Ruth in Blaine's arms and Kurt shadows the position Blaine's arms were in. After 3 minutes of calming her down, Ruth finally stopped yelping and opened her eyes for the first time. Both parents looked down into their daughter's big beautiful hazel eyes. "Blaine, she looks so much like you." Kurt whispered to Blaine.
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