I'm holding on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say, but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry, didn't think I'd turn around, and say (that)
"It's too late to apologize (it's too late)"
I said, "It's too late to apologize (it's too late)
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It was 3 days since Brady and Seth went to the coffee shop to see Chelsey. It's been 3 days since they came back with a message from her telling me to grow some balls and apologize to her myself. She wouldn't accept the apology I sent Brady to give, and I knew she wouldn't. But there was a hope that maybe she would.
But she didn't.
I frowned and reached for a tool I needed to fix the engine of my new old car. I still hadn't sought her out to talk to her yet. I hadn't stopped thinking about her, she was always on my mind; and so was her daughter.
"Dammit!" I threw the tool I was using across the room and watched as it hit a bunch of spare parts and knocked them off.
"Dammit!" I stood and kicked the tires. I was pissed. I was pissed off.
"Fuck this." I turned away from the car I was working on and walked out of the garage I was in, and made my way to my car. I was going to find her and I was going to end this bullshit.
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The music in the café was playing in the background and it was a nice companion to the almost empty café. If there was any day that was miserable inside and out, today would be it. It was pouring outside and you could hear the loud clapping of the thunder and the flashes of lightening. I normally loved thunderstorms and loved to sit by the window and watch them, but today was different.
Today was a miserable day.
I felt like shit because I was thinking of Embry and every time I let my mind wander, it would go back to him. It would go towards his big, muscular frame, those beautiful dark eyes, and his tan skin. I would find myself fantasizing about Embry and I hated myself for it.
To make matters worse, I was hitting a brick wall when it came to situations involving Kaelynn. For 3 years I had told her father to not take any interest in her. I had told him to stay away from her and me. And for 3 years he had listened. For 3 years he told me that even if I hadn't had told him to stay away, he would've. But all of a sudden out of the blue, he sends me a letter telling me he wants to see Kaelynn.
I didn't understand why he was taking such an interest in her lately, but it was not going to be okay with me. I was not going to let him come into her life unless he had a damn good reason. And if he did want to be in her life then the dick was going to pay child support.
"Hello. What can I get for you?" I didn't look up. I didn't have to. I knew the cash system, I knew I was in reach of cups and a sharpie.
"I need you to talk to me." My head snapped up and looked at him so quickly, I was surprised I didn't get whiplash. There he was. Standing in front of me, soaking wet. He was soaked to the bone and I could see every outline of every muscle he had. I could see every imprint of his broad, strong chest and as the shirt cut off to the bottom, I could see his narrow hips leading to his muscular lower half.
I mentally cursed and ignored the rush that flowing through me. I was not going to give into whatever emotions I was feeling right now.
"What the hell do you want? To insult me some more? Because the door is behind you and you can gladly get your ass out of this café." I crossed my arms over my chest and looked around the café, looking for anyone or anything that could help me.
"I want to apologize to you but I'm not going to until you stop and look at me. You need to listen to every word I say. You have to." I rolled my eyes. He comes in here and tells me he wants to apologize but then says he won't if I don't look at him? That's the stupidest thing I've ever heard.
"I don't have to do anything." There was a pull and every word that came out of my mouth that was hostile felt wrong. It felt terrible.
"Dammit Chelsey! Why won't you listen to me?" He was shaking and I was becoming more aware of the way his muscles moved under the shirt. It didn't help the shockwaves that were running through me.
"Why don't you stop being such an ass? I don't have to do anything you say and you can't force me to do anything!" We were staring at each other now. Embry, still shaking, and me, standing behind the counter glaring at him.
"I'm trying to apologize to you but you make it so damn hard!" Embry stepped up until he was leaning against the counter. My eyes flickered to the café. There was no one in here but me and him.
"You're a dick." I took a step away from the counter and grabbed the disinfectant spray and a cloth. I needed to get out of this area.
"Chelsey listen to me. I'm sorry. I am. I shouldn't have judged you so quickly. I was an ass and a dick. I was. I don't know what your situation was like and I am sorry for making you feel bad." I watched Embry. He looked sincere and he certainly made it seem like he was sincere, but he wasn't very good at apologizing.
"I forgive you." The same pull was there and it didn't lessen. It was like there was a chord that connected him to me and it didn't want to be cut. If anything, it was tightening and shortening, drawing us closer together.
"Your forgive me? Just like that?" Embry looked surprised. He looked shocked. Like he didn't believe I would forgive him this fast. But I did.
"Yes. I did. Any apologize in any way, shape or form is still an apology." I stopped and looked at him. He was giving me an odd look.
"I am trying to set a good example for my daughter. I am trying to not hold grudges. Even though you royally pissed me off. You did apologize."
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