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And we now have a gender reveal! You guys are awesome! You really are!

This diary entry is going to be a bit longer. There are mentions of Donna, of course. Can't leave her out, now can we? I might bring her back for a few chapters if you guys want.

So, guys, here's the next chapter. I've got to wake my daughter up and get her ready for Mother's Day with me and my mom.

Happy Mother's Day to all my readers who have children of their own!

Love always,

Avoline

May 24, 2007

My precious Dakota,

Today we find out if you are a boy or a girl. I'm praying, with all I have, that you're a little girl. I want so badly for you to be a little girl who looks just like her mummy, and have the fighter's heart to go with it. I want to spoil you until you can't stand it, cause you are the first child in a very long time.

Who knew just writing this could get me choked up? I'm damn near crying right now, Dakota. But not because I'm sad. No, I could never be sad, ever again. I've got you and your mummy now. I'm happier than I've been in years.

I had to drop off a woman today before I could write in the diary for you. She just materialized in the TARDIS. I don't know how or why, or even who she was. She didn't appear to be special, or extraordinary in any way. She was just a woman in a wedding dress, and boy, was she mean. She and your mummy faced off, and all I could think was, "Oh, boy, this will not end well."

But that mean woman who appeared out of nowhere did something amazing. She saved me, Dakota. Saved me from standing there and damn near drowning. She saved me from my own vengeance towards the Arachnoid empress. I was so angry at the spider bitch, cause she had put you and your mummy in so much danger, and I wanted nothing more than to watch her suffer as her children drowned.

I don't ever want to be that enraged again, Dakota. Rage does nothing but make you a monster, and that's what I was becoming until the woman, Donna Nobel, saved me. All she said was "You can stop now," but that's all it took. That's all she needed to say to save me from myself. I hope you never have to see me like that, my child. I hope I can bury that side of me forever.

Well, I've got to go. Your sister is here, and Mummy is quite impatient to find out what you are. She tends to get like that about new adventures.

Don't ever think, for one second, that you are not loved.

Rose stared at the monitor, waiting, barely breathing. This was it. They were going to find out if they were having a daughter or a son. She wanted a little boy. Someone to be just like her Doctor, and be more compassionate than anyone else. She wanted to see him grow up to be tall and strong, and maybe have children of his own.

"Alright, there it is," the Doctor murmured. "Now if it'll just shift around so we can see, that would be great." She giggled. He was just as impatient as her. Jenny eager sat next to her father, and the three of them were ready.

Rose couldn't figure out why Jenny was so eager. She already knew, and could just as easily tell them. But she was just as eager and anxious as the duo, so Rose wondered if maybe she's making sure.

"It's moving," the Doctor informed. "It's moving. Just a little bit more, kiddo."

Rose gasped as something came into view. Jenny squealed, and the Doctor stared at the screen. Rose was beginning to wonder if he was having a double heart attack until he turned to her, a huge smile on his face and tears in his eyes.

"A boy," Rose whispered. He nodded. "We're having a son. Oh, Doctor, we're having a little boy." His smile widened as he turned back to the monitor. She knew why he wasn't speaking. He was far too happy, and words would never express his joy. She reached for his free hand and gently squeezed it.

"Oh my God, it's a boy," Jenny squealed, bouncing around the room. "Oh, I'm going to help spoil him and help him get into so much trouble! I'll teach him how to use a gun and how to fight like the best of them and, oh my God, he'll look just like you, Dad, and-"

"Jenny," he interrupted softly. "You're rambling." She giggled while Rose stifled a laugh.

"I get it from you, ya know?"