A/N: Anyone always has the option of saying NO in a sexual situation, whether it's a first time or something that's no longer comfortable. It's sad that some people forget how to say no. But there's really no excuse for it – even in BDSM, it seems like the dom has all the power, but in reality just one word (safe word) from the sub will end everything. Who has the power now?
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::: CHAPTER TEN – CONTROL :::
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"You were with Ibiki?" Kiba asks Asuma.
Asuma nods once.
Kiba wanted to yell, Why didn't you tell me? but he didn't. So Asuma had slept with Kakashi and Ibiki. When they were hugging in Asuma's classroom, did that mean something? Was there something still going on between them? Kiba had too many questions.
"It doesn't matter now, I've taken Kiba under my wing," Asuma says.
Ibiki looks at Kiba. "He's already an excellent submissive." Kiba wasn't sure if that was a compliment or not. Ibiki didn't say it like it was an insult. He looks Kiba up and down like he was looking at a new sword he was interested in buying.
"That's why you want to get your hands on him," Asuma accuses.
"No, it's because he's been disobedient, and doesn't know how to knock on doors," Ibiki says.
"Well he's mine," Asuma says.
Ibiki nods. "I know that now."
"And by the rules you taught me, you can't touch him," Asuma says.
Ibiki smiles a wicked, knowing smile that makes Kiba back away from him, closer to Asuma. With his back to Asuma he doesn't notice the ninja move until he bumps into Asuma. He presses his back against Asuma's chest, not taking his eyes of Ibiki.
"You might need to review your rule book," Ibiki says, and grins. It's not at all pleasant. "This isn't over, Asuma, but I have to leave. I'll see you first thing Monday morning." He walks out, his trench coat flailing out behind him.
Kiba is frozen in Asuma's arms. He's still trying to figure out what just happened.
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Kiba went home that night with a lot of thoughts and mixed emotions. Asuma had slept with Kakashi and Ibiki. He slept with Kakashi while Kakashi was still with Iruka. His relationship with Ibiki sounded like something that went back a few years and it sounded like more than just casual sex. This dom/sub thing was another language to Kiba. He just knew that those names went with some kinky things.
Kiba waited for midnight and it couldn't come any faster. Akamaru could feel Kiba's tension as his master watched the clock. When midnight finally hit Kiba turned towards his bedroom window and waited.
But Asuma didn't come.
"Is he backing out?" Kiba asks Akamaru. He sat down on the bed and pulls the dog into his lap. He didn't change into his pajamas, but easily slipped on black pants and a white t-shirt. He still had his sandals on. "Maybe it was just too awkward for him…"
Kiba continues to wait while running his fingers down Akamaru's back. 5 minutes later Asuma climbs through the window with a sigh. Kiba puts Akamaru down on the bed and doesn't hide his excitement.
"You came," he says.
"You think I wouldn't?" Asuma laughs.
He opens his arms and Kiba rushes into the embrace, loving the feel of Asuma's body against his own. He looks up and expects Asuma to lay a kiss on him, but he doesn't. Kiba leans up to kiss Asuma instead. The kiss didn't hold the same level of heat it usually did.
Kiba pulls back. "Asuma-sensei?"
"You're not upset?" Asuma asks.
"About you and Ibiki?" Asuma nods. "No, you guys are done, right?"
"Yes," Asuma says with feeling.
"Then why would I be upset?" Kiba asks. "It was a surprise, that's for sure. But it's in your past. How could I be upset over something that happened in the past? How can I be jealous when you and I are together and not you and Ibiki?"
Asuma chuckles. "I just thought… I'm sorry."
"So, will you explain what all of that dom and sub stuff meant?" Kiba asks.
Asuma flushes. Kiba's never seen Asuma act so shy before. He'd always been so assertive and… and dominant. Ibiki had called Asuma a submissive earlier. Could the encounter from earlier be affecting Asuma now?
"Yeah, sure," Asuma says. "Um, we should probably leave your room."
Kiba nods. Asuma pulls him into a tight embrace before going to the window and leaping out. Kiba holds onto Asuma tightly as they fly through the trees at high speeds. Asuma goes down and lands gently.
"We're here," he says.
Kiba pulls away enough to see they stood near a little pond, with colorful flowers lining the rim. The water looks clear enough to drink from, but Kiba just wanted to get naked and sit down in it with Asuma. Any excuse to be naked with Asuma was a good one.
Asuma pulls away but takes Kiba's hand and leads him to the water's edge. He sits down and Kiba sits beside him.
"Ibiki was my master," Asuma says. "My dominant. He had complete control over me, and I gave him total power."
Kiba tensed. He didn't like the sound of that. "That's what this dominant and submissive thing is about? Power exchange?"
"Yes."
"What's the point?"
"Because it feels so good," Asuma says, "To let go, and be consumed but a different, sexual world… the sex was intense, powerful, and so satisfying."
"Because of what?" Kiba asks.
"It's hard to explain, but it has something to do with letting go, letting yourself go, being at someone's mercy… it was amazing. The sex was like nothing else, truly unique and powerful."
Kiba shudders. This is Asuma, he realizes, looking into Asuma's eyes. This is the real him. Maybe he was done with Ibiki, but he wasn't done with the kinky sex. It was a part of him. That's why Asuma got such a kick out of spanking Kiba. It was a part of the kink.
"So what happened? If it was so good?" Kiba asks. He wasn't jealous before, but the look in Asuma's eyes gave him a little flare of jealousy. He didn't like Asuma remembering his time with Ibiki while having that expression.
"He had too much power over me," Asuma says. His expression darkened, and Kiba didn't like it any more than he liked the last one. In fact, he'd rather Asuma be happy remembering his time with another man then looking so sad and lost now.
"When you get into that kind of sex you need safe words, just in case. Ibiki and I didn't have any safe words. I had no control, I had to trust him completely. And sometimes he abused that trust… he abused me." Asuma shudders. "I couldn't say no to him. He'd trained me so that I couldn't say no."
"Then how'd you get away?" Kiba asks. He grabs Asuma's hand and gives it a soft squeeze.
"I turned to Kakashi for help," Asuma says. "Luckily they didn't have to fight. In the end I just needed someone to hold my hand while I found the courage to finally say no and put an end to all of it."
"If he were so cruel why were you hugging him yesterday?" Kiba asks. He tries to sound vaguely interested, and not jealous. He fails on both accounts.
"He was letting me know that he misses me," Asuma says. "He told me I could come back to him whenever I wanted to."
Kiba tenses and Asuma notices. He lifts Kiba's hand to his mouth and kisses the back of Kiba's palm gently.
"I won't be going back," he says.
Kiba breaths out a sigh of relief he didn't realize he was holding in. "Good."
"I guess our plans for this evening are ruined?" Asuma asks.
Kiba remembers he was supposed to be losing his virginity, but… he gives Asuma an apologetic smile. He just wasn't in the mood for it. He didn't want to have sex after the conversation they just had because the only thing Kiba would be able to focus on was Ibiki abusing his Asuma.
"I'm sorry," Kiba begins.
"Shh," Asuma says, laying a finger on Kiba's lips. "There's always tomorrow. It's the weekend."
Asuma moves his finger and replaces it with his lips. The kiss starts out chaste but quickly heats up. When Asuma's tongue enters Kiba's mouth the flames are ignited, and Kiba is panting when Asuma pulls away only to tilt his head and came back in for anything kiss. Kiba moves his tongue against Asuma and moves so his upper body is pressed against Asuma.
When Asuma pulls away he has the old look in his eyes – Kiba's glad to see the normal Asuma has returned. The softest smile crosses Asuma's lips.
"Ibiki could never kiss like that," Asuma says, and he licks his lips, savoring the taste of Kiba.
Kiba turns red.
"Well, even if we're not going to have sex we can stay lie down together," Asuma says, pulling Kiba into an embrace and lying down on the grass. Kiba was very comfortable, lying against Asuma, feeling the other man's body against his own, as those toned muscles.
"I used to think I loved Iruka-sensei," Kiba says softly. "But today, when he tried to use me, because he knew I had feelings for him… I realized it wasn't love. Because when you held me in your arms it didn't hurt anymore. I realized I could forget all about Iruka in your arms, Asuma-sensei."
Asuma smiles.
"I want to do it," Kiba says. "I want to have sex with you, now."
"Are you sure?" Asuma asks.
Kiba turns and straddles Asuma's body. On top of Asuma, with his ass on Asuma's crotch, he felt blissful. Iruka never gave him these kinds of emotions. When Iruka looked at him Kiba didn't flush and fight against an erection. Not like now, with Asuma.
Kiba leans over and pressed his lips against Asuma's mouth. At first he's the only one kissing, until Asuma kisses back. And his hands work their way up and down Kiba's thighs, reaching his ass and grabbing, squeezing. Kiba moans against Asuma's lips.
"I'm sure," Kiba says.
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::: TO BE CONTINUED :::
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A/N: Finally they begin to have sex! If Kiba hadn't run away it would have happened in the fourth chapter! That's what I originally planned, but as I typed it Kiba had plans of his own. Anywho, see you in the next chapter!
