Title: If Only

Character: Severus Snape

House: Gryffindor

Name: Eccentric11- Lune

She was right there in front of me, and yet I couldn't seem to say anything to her. It's just that, she's so beautiful- her red hair looked flawless, and her green eyes… How could anyone not get lost in those green eyes? Even I had to snap myself back to reality once I fell a little too deep in admiring those eyes. If I'm going to talk to her, I'll have to do it right, and nothing, not even the girl herself, would stand in my way. I could always blame my lack of communication with her on her sister, though. Of course, being blood-related to the girl of my dreams, I know she must have some good in her. But what good she has, she's not showing. Her and her sister went everywhere together, which was getting annoying. I would never get a chance to talk to her if her sister is always around and protecting her like that. From another person's point of view, yes, that's good, because she is just doing what she's supposed to do, keeping her sister safe. From my point of view, no, she's just keeping one lonely boy from getting a friend and maybe even love. But I never had anything to say, and time doesn't stop just so this certain boy could have enough courage to say something-anything- to a girl. I'm 13 and things are still never in my favor. I watch her everyday, but there seem to be no opportunity for me to suddenly walk to the scene and start a conversation with her (and her sister, if that's what it takes). So I just sat there, and enjoy looking at her especially when she laughs. She gets more beautiful everyday, in and out, and it made me doubt my chances even more.

"Oh look, Tuney! Such a pretty flower." She exclaimed one day.

"It's dead, Lily."

"I know it's dead, since it has fallen off its tree, but it's still beautiful." The girl, Lily, picked the flower up in her hands.

"Do you know that there is a flower called Lily?" It was an impulse.

"Yes, I guess." Lily finally answered after being startled for a moment or so.

"It's a really beautiful flower." Just like you, I wanted to say.

"Who are you and what are you doing here talking to my sister?" Lily's older sister ruined the whole thing and glared at me.

"I was just sharing a fun fact, none of your business." I said, rather too harshly.

"Don't talk to my sister like that!" Lily put her arms defensively in front of her sister.

"She started it." I mumbled.

"You're the one who creepily appeared out of nowhere!" The older sister said. "Why haven't we seen you around much anyway? Don't you go to school?" She chuckled.

"Actually, no." I frowned. Lily looked at me sympathetically, but then turned to her sister.

"Come on, Tuney, it's getting late." And they left just like that.

I didn't dare watch her anymore for the next few days, and when I finally saw her again, it was her that had been watching me.

"Is it true?" She said, slightly out of breath. "That you don't go to school?"

"My family doesn't have the money, besides I won't need it anyway."

"Why?"

"I don't know what I'm going to do with the things I'll learn. So I thought maybe I could save my efforts for something else."

"You can't do anything else without education. Do you know anything about maths?"

"Basic stuffs you use for buying or selling things." I sighed. "I'm more interested in how in the world did you get rid of your bloody sister?"

"I did not get rid of her. She's just particularly busy today." I could see that Lily was trying to ignore the fact that I just said 'your bloody sister'.

"I bet it's nothing good."

"What do you have against my sister? And what's your name?"

"I just dislike her, and Severus."

"Well Severus, she's a really nice person once you get to know her."

"Problem is, I do not intend to know her any further."

"Harsh. But I'll forget you ever said that. I forgive you this time." Lily paused. "You know, I could teach you some things I learn from school. Better than nothing at all…"

"That would be great!" I beamed, realizing that it would mean spending more time with Lily.

"But how will you be able to meet me? Today I'm- I mean you're just lucky… You might not be as lucky next time."

"Ouch!" I heard a few twigs snapping from behind me.

"Who's there?" Lily was alarmed.

I spotted her before Lily does, but decided to stay silent.

"Tuney?"

"Lily!" She went out of her hiding place. "I cannot believe you're talking to him!" She called me with so much disgust it became painful.

"I met him and I'm just trying to be friendly." So she didn't mean to?

"One more time and I'm telling mum." The older sister shook her head and grabbed Lily's arm.

"See you around, Sev." Lily smiled weakly.

"See you." I waved half-heartedly.

If only I had something… something like magic.