The concert at Scotiabank Saddledome is the last time Tevor and I started off Abel's show. Now we just sing Shameless. I honestly find this to be a relief. I don't have to learn new material in short amounts of time anymore.

We're on a two hour flight from Vancouver to Oklahoma now and I'm sitting next to a window staring at the clouds that pass by. I've never been to California, the few times my mom has flown out here she's left me with my Aunt Gemma because I had school. That was another unfulfilled non business trip she promised to take me on.

I look across the aisle to Aubrey who's knocked out cold. After the Lacy thing Abel let me pick my own stylist, Aubrey is the only girl who popped in my head. She's been doing my hair and make up for years. Plus I trust to not betray me so I got Abel to give her a job.

She showed up for the concert in Vancouver very excited she doesn't have to be a waitress anymore.

Abel pokes his head over my seat,"Hey, what are you doing?"

I look over my head, "Nothing"

He looks over to Aubrey shaking his head, "Your friend is crazy"

I laugh remembering last night and how she over did it a little bit at the after party, "Leave her alone. She's never done this before"

Abel comes around the seat to sit next to me, "Neither have you, I had to threaten you to come to a party"

I shrug swinging my legs around to rest them on his lap. He takes my flip flops off so he can massage my feet. "What are you going to do?"

He takes my hand kissing my knuckles, "Don't test me"

"Is that a challenge?", I wonder

He shrugs telling me it is. I lean forward turning him to face me so I can kiss him. It's a nice feeling knowing I can kiss him whenever I want now.

"You are really pushing it", he says rubbing his nose against mine.

"It's not my fault you haven't fucked me yet", Abel has made me so daring.

He leans back giving me a look I can't help grinning at, "Never thought you'd say that", he pauses as if this interests him, "I like it".

"What? You know I have a smart mouth".

He nods his head looking past me out the window, "Are you staying in my room? Or did you want to share with her?"

I lean my head against the seat in thought, "I guess it'd make sense if I shared a room with her"

"But you don't really want to", Abel guesses.

"Can't she just stay with us?", I've gotten use to sleeping with Abel.

He runs his fingers up my leg, "Can't sleep without me already", he smerks making me blush, "Of course she can stay with you me and Lamar. The more the marrier"

I roll my eyes looking back out the window. We're almost to California and I'm so excited. "What hotel are we staying in anyway?"

"The Skirvin Hilton Oklahoma City"

"Ooo, sounds fancy"

"You get fancy shit when you're famous"

I turn back to him, "Do you enjoy being famous?", I've wondered this for a while now.

He shrugs, "It has its perks. Though I do sometimes wish paparazzi didn't follow me around everywhere, I'm lucky they don't follow when I'm with you"

This is news to me, "We've never been followed?"

He shakes his head, "Not once but when I'm with Bella they always seem to be there"

I want to suggest she calls them but I say nothing. "So being with me is like-"

"An escape from my life", he finishes although that's not what I was going to say. "I feel normal again with you".

I sense he's uncomfortable telling me this so I take his hand with a smile to reasure him it's okay. I can tell he's experiencing a lot of emotions he's not use to feeling and he doesn't know how to handle them. I'm honestly surprised he hasn't drowned them out with drugs and alcohol.

I catch him staring at me and I smile wider, "Stop staring at me. What do you want?".

"To take you out tonight after rehearsal", he answers.

"Oh yeah, where?", I wonder.

He shrugs, "Where would you like to go?"

I think about that for a second, "How about we go dancing?"

I expect him to laugh, "Sure. I'll get Aubrey to find you something to wear"

Oh, never mind. Looks like we're going dancing.

Finally in Oklahoma California, we unboard the jet piling into the two SUV's and head to the Oracle Arena.

In Abel's dressing room Aubrey is on the phone with Charlotte Russe ordering me an outfit for tonight. I now wonder if that's where my costumes came from.

"Okay, it's being picked up by Cash right now", Aubrey says hanging up.

"Great", Abel says lighting a blunt, "You're a lot better than the last stylist, she didn't know how to order shit over the phone. Had to get Lamar and Cash to do that shit for her".

Aubrey laughs at him, "I've been dressing Rae for years. She has her own style but I love dressing her up, she's like my own little doll"

I roll my eyes, "Shut up Aubrey"

She laughs taking my hand in hers, "Oh, you know I love you"

"And I love you but I'm not your little dress up doll or whatever".

Abel sits next to me wrapping his arm around my waist pulling me close into his side after giving Lamar the blunt. I look around wondering if anyone is paying attention, I'm surprised he's holding me like this in front of people, "So Raven, Tre. I've been getting a lot of requests from the fans for you two to finish this tour out singing songs from Trilogy and Kiss Land"

"Really?", Trevor says taking the blunt from Lamar.

"Yeah, you guys can do your own thing. It doesn't have to be duets or anything", Abel laces our fingers together before kissing my knuckles as if this is normal. Don't get me wrong I like this but it's weird with other people around.

To distract myself I say "So say I picked Initiation. It'd be my song?".

"Exactly", he answers kissing my forehead.

I look at Trevor seeing annoyance and irritation color his face. I almost feel bad Abel won't let me spend time with him. I was kidding myself to think there was anything left between me and Trevor. That chapter in my life is over and he's having a hard time accepting that.

Ignoring his expression I shrug my shoulders, "I'm okay with it I guess". As long as I don't have to learn any new dances or wear costumes.

"We're heading your shows for the rest of the tour?", Trevor questions looking to Abel.

Abel runs his nose along my jaw as he squeezes my ass. I'm glad no one can see this, "Yeah. You guys have attracted a lot of attention the last few shows"

Trevor passes him the blunt, "I guess we did, singing together"

Abel takes a hit, "Now you're solo until Shameless. Are you doing Initiation Rae?", Abel's voice sounds so silvery in my ear.

A shiver runs down my back as I look at him, "It was an example".

"You should sing it tomorrow night"

"Why?"

"Because you're the only person I know who can sing that song without breathing", Aubrey laughs.

I laugh with her, "It took months before I could do that"

"All the more reason to do it", Abel chimes in handing the blunt off.

I bite my lip, oh why not. Next to Wicked Games, it is my favorite song. "Sure, whatever"' I mumble.

"What are you going to do for it", Lamar asks bringing out the drinks.

I shrug, "I don't know but I'll figure it out before tomorrow"

ABEL:

I'm in my room getting ready for my date with Rae. I'm a little annoyed I can't find the right outfit for dancing. I've pulled out all my clothes and nothing is popping out at me, I feel like a fucking girl.

Not giving a shit anymore I pick out some black jeans, a black shirt and my long black jacket. I pull out my black timberlands and finish off with my stud diamond earrings and silver necklace.

I brush my teeth real quick then go to the living room to see if Rae is ready. I gave her an hour.

Aubrey is touching up her lipstick when I walk in, "Okay, I really think that's enough", I hear her complain.

"Oh stop being difficult, he'll love it".

"What will I love?", I ask leaning over the back of the couch.

Rae's eyes snap to mine, "How I dressed her up. She's not a big fan of lipstick or foundation or blush or eye liner or mascara", Aubrey explains dabbing Raes lips again.

Now I want to dab her lips, no I want to kiss and bite her lips. They're so juicy, especially now that they're rose pink. I look over Rae liking the way Aubrey thinks. She ordered her black waist high skinny jeans, a rose pink long sleeve crop top and a black cardigan. Black high tops and a rose pink hand bag, I'm around Bella enough to know what girl clothes are even called. Aubrey kept her jewelry simple, rose pink diamond stud ear rings and silver necklace.

I've never wanted to rip her out of her clothes more than I want to right now, "You look great Rae"

She folds her arms with a pout, "What? I don't look good any other time?".

I laugh moving around the couch to take her in my arms. She smells fruity tonight, "Of course you do angel", I kiss her forehead.

"Whatever. Are you ready?", she says trying to break free.

I'm not sure why she throws her guard up when I'm affectionate towards her. Isn't that what she wants? For me to willingly show how much I want her.

"Yeah, let's go", I sigh. She can be so confusing.

In my Bentley that I had Cash pick up, I drive to The Night Light. I randomly picked this place, I know nothing about it but that they play good music.

While I drive I take Raven's hand lacing our fingers together. She glances at me with a shy smile, there's the look I wanted to see earlier, "Do you not like it when I show you affection in front of our friends?", I wonder.

I look over to her when I stop at a red light, "It's not that. I'm just not use to it"

"Being given affection?", I frown.

"Getting it from you of all people", she corrects me.

I concentrate back at the road a little bothered she feels like this. Does Bella ever feel like this when I'm with her?.

Pulling up to The Night Light, I find a parking spot. Getting out I go around the car to help Rae out. She takes my hand and follows me inside.

Inside I'm immediately recognized, a little down side to being famous. I suppose the owner was made aware of my appearance because he came up to Rae and I at the bar offering me the VIP section. I look to Rae wondering how she feels about it, I wanted a normal night with her.

If that means I'm paying for the food and drinks then I didn't mind. She smiles leaving the decision up to me. Sighing, I accept his offer.

He leads us to their most exclusive VIP lounge then leaves us promising to come back with bottles I didn't really want tonight.

Rae and I sit in the middle of the big U shaped couch, she sits her hand bag aside giving me her attention. "Is this part of the fame package?"

I nod my head relaxing into the seat tangling my fingers in her hair. I'm glad Aubrey left it down. Rae leans against my side dragging her finger up and down my chest, "You don't seem happy about it"

I shrug, "I wanted this to be a normal date"

She giggles turning me toward her for a kiss, "There is nothing normal about you".

I stare at her lips wanting to kiss her again. It's quickly becoming my favorite thing to do with her. "You're what's normal about me", I point out as a bottle of Grey Goose is sat in front of us.

Rae picks it up offering it to me before grabbing the two glasses left for us, "Here, pour us a glass and let's make a toast"

I take the Grey Goose popping it open. Filling our cups I ask, "And what are we toasting to exactly?"

She takes her glass turning her body to me, "Our third date"

I frown, "Third date? When was the first one?"

She giggles, "In New York. The Second one was in Montréal, this is our third date"

Thinking about it I smile seeing she's right, "So, Abel, I want to toast to our third date and that you're trying with the affection thing", she holds her glass up with the cutest smile I've ever seen.

Raising my glass I say, "Okay Raven, I want to toast to our third date and that you accept the fact that you're mine".

Her smile slightly fades but she quickly fixes it bumping her glass against mine. We take a sip of our vodka as we stare at each other.

A little while later after I put in an oder for an appetizer, Rae takes her cardigan off sitting back in the seat crossing her legs. I take her thigh drinking more of my vodka, she put hers down. "So why is Trevor giving up the fight? Since Winnipeg all he does is give me the evil eye"

I shrug thinking back to that conversation we had at the after party. I lied to Rae about Tre and I letting her choose between us. I chose for her.

After I watched her down her seventh shot I turned to Tre to figure out what the hell her problem was. I didn't but it when she tried to say this thing between us wasn't working, we've barely just begun. But I didn't say anything, I was going to let her squirm a little before I showed her who's in control. Her getting drunk off her ass was not part of the plan.

He noticed me staring at him, "What?"

"Aren't you going to get your girl?", I nod at her.

He turns back to her with a sigh, "She's okay. She can take care of herself", he nods.

I felt this sudden urge to punch him but I controlled it pushing the bitch on my lap off. I stand ignoring her complaining, "What did you say to her bro? Her getting too close to me making you nervous"

He glances up at me, "What I got to be nervous for? She didn't want you in the first place"

That made me laugh, "No, you didn't want her to want me. Let me guess, during the ride you made her feel guilty for not wanting you anymore, threw Bella at her to make her feel like a slut", I shake my head laughing some more thinking back to how she tried to say I treated her like a hoe. "Believe me when I say she is over you. Leave her alone or I'm going to fuck you up, I'm not about to let you fuck this up all because you're insecure", I've never been this quick to defend something I wasn't sure about myself. All I knew was I had to get him off her back so she'll stop worrying about him.

He gives me a look then glances around at everyone who's listening, I didn't give a fuck, he was threatening my relationship with Rae. "Get it through your head right now: Raven. Is. Mine, got that?. I swear on everything if you try to take her from me again you're going to find yourself in a fucking body bag".

I walked out then to save Rae from a bad hang over.

"I ain't say shit. Guess he wasn't serious", I shrug finishing my cup.

Rae smerks at me obviously not believe me. I put my cup down getting my arm around her waist to bring her closer, "Come here, we're not out to talk about Tre. We're here to have fun". I kiss her tasting the vodka on her breath. It tastes good on her.

She kisses me back running her fingers down my jaw. Deepening the kiss I groan knotting my fingers in her hair keeping her where I want her. I feel her fingers dance down my body to my belt where she pulls at it as if she wants to undo it. I idly wonder if she can feel me through my denim.

Reluctantly taking her hand from my belt I kiss down to her neck, "Don't start something you can't finish".

"You wont even let me start", she whines trying to take her hand from me. My grip on her wrist is tight, I pull it across my body bringing her closer to me.

"You're not ready. Trust me". I grin

I'm being dead ass serious and she's studying my face like shes trying to see if I'm joking. When she sees I'm not she curls her fingers in my jacket pulling me closer then I already am so she can reach my ear, "I think your the one not ready", she whispers in my ear before kissing it.

Whoa, she's really pushing it being this brazen. I have the urge to fuck her every time she opens her mouth. She's not begging though, she's been trying to provoke me with her words and body since Alberta Edmonton. That was a frustrating concert and after party.

Rae's wearing my patience a little but I'm not going to fuck her. I can't, she's not ready yet.

Kissing her cheek I put her hand inside my jacket so she's holding my waist. She wants to touch me so badly there, she can touch my waist.

With a deep sigh she lays her head on my shoulder throwing her leg over mine. Has she always been this touchy feely? I don't know if I like it or not. I kiss her forhead when she says, "Is it because I'm not on birth control? I can always get condoms"

My body heats up with this knowledge. She's not on birth control? An idea sparks my mind that I quickly dismiss as I gaze down on her.

"No Angel it's not that. I'm just waiting until the time is right for us"

She glances up at me, "Us?"

I grin seeing she likes the sound of us. "I mean, you are mine"

"You say that and I don't know what it means. Are we in a relationship? Boyfriend girlfriend? I mean what are we?", her brown eyes shining with curiosity tugs at me demanding an answer. An answer I don't have right now.

When I don't give her one she starts guessing, "So maybe best friends... friends with-"

"No, we're not friends with benefits", I interrupt before she can finish.

She pulls away so she can see my face, "Then what Abel? I'm so confused"

"About what?"

"Why you'd want me in the first place is a good start. Is it like a 'I see you want her so I'm going to take her' type thing or-"

I touch her soft lips with my thumb to shut her up, I'm as confused as she is but I like it. I enjoy this confusion because it pulls her toward me instead of push her away, "Can't we just be Raven and Abel? Do we need a title?"

Her eyes cast down as her cheeks turn redder then they already are, "I just want to understand"

I chuckle, "Not everything is meant to be understood. Sometimes you just have to go along with it and enjoy the ride"

"Rides have an end"

Not this one, I think smoothing my thumb over her heated cheek, "Understand that I want you, that I'm as much yours as you are mine", I take her chin making her look at me, "No one is going to take me from you and I'll damn sure make sure no one takes you from me"

"Possessive much", she grins.

The realization shocks me once she says it. I've never been possessive unless it's over my weed and drugs. I can take a girl and leave her but not Rae.

No, she's different.

I could never up and leave Rae without a really good reason. Her eyes and her voice call to me on a level I didn't even know existed. It's so strong and addictive she has to be mine.

"Is this really what you want to talk about?", I wonder.

She shrugs biting her lip, "This date was your idea"

"I wanted to be alone with you"

"You could have taken me somewhere private then", she shoots back

"You wanted to go dancing"

She shrugs, "I was joking"

What?, "Do you want to leave then?"

"No, we're already here and an appetizer is on the way"

If she didn't really want to be here why is she worried about a stupid appetizer. "We can eat somewhere else", I point out.

"I know but I don't want to"

"Like how you didn't really want to come here"

She rolls her eyes leaning away from me, "Are we really going to argue about this?"

I got excited when I should have been annoyed how indecisive she is, she didn't want to be here and now that we're here she doesn't want to leave, "Yes we're going to argue over this, that manager guy has probably gone and called TMZ or some shit telling them I'm here with a girl who's not Bella. I could have avoided that if you'd been straight forward with me"

She gives me a look between shock and annoyance, "Oh no, you're not about to blame this on me. This is part of the fame package remember, this wasn't going to go unnoticed"

I can't help the laugh that bursts out of me. She frowns for a couple seconds then starts laughing herself, "You suck, get away from me".

I take her chin pulling her in for a kiss, "No come back, I'm sorry", I grin against her lips.

Not breaking contact she climbs in my lap wrapping her arms around my neck, "So you're all mine huh?", she mumbles nipping my lips.

"Have been for a while now", I answer clamping my fingers in her hair.

"Then what are you waiting for? Why haven't you taken me yet? You've had plenty of opportunities"

I sigh, not this again. "Rae it will always be the same answer, you're not ready"

She moves down my neck pushing my jacket off my shoulders, "Can I try to seduce you?"

That sounds fun, "No. You can kiss me and that's it. We're not doing anything beyond me eating you out"

She pulls back to see my face, "I feel how much you want me, how about I help you out?"

My eye brow rises to her suggestion, "Like what?"

She shrugs biting her lip, "You know... return the favor"

Is she offering what I think shes offering? I'm uncomfortably hard as it is. I don't know how much more I can take if she keeps this up.

She smiles obviously reading my face, how will I ever keep things from her, she can read me so well.

Taking her waist I move her from my lap, she's too much of a temptation.

Luckily the appetizer shows up. Rae sits back as if she hasn't been teasing me for the last ten minutes. When the waiter leaves she picks up a potato skin offering it to me, "Here, you look hungry"

I look between her and the potato skin, "I think I'd rather eat you"

She shakes her head, "Open your mouth Abel"

"Are you not an option for if I get hungry?"

"No, I'm not edible like this potato skin here"

I laugh moving closer to her, she cozys up to me still expecting me to take a bite. Instead I dip down and kiss her neck, mmm I think I might like this fruity smell on her. "Abel", she gasps when I bite her neck.

"You taste pretty edible to me"

She puts the potato back on the plater before making me kiss her. She's let go tonight, I can tell how free she feels with me. I can't help the tingle running up and down my back when she makes me touch her. A couple weeks ago she didn't even like the thought of me touching her, now here she is with my hand between her legs in the VIP loung shoving her tongue down my throat.

She's adapted to my style so quickly and I don't think I would have her any other way. She's still Rae just with a twist of me.

I pull back to see her face, her lipstick is smuged other wise she's beautiful. She giggles whipping my lips, "Sorry, I forgot I'm wearing lipstick"

She moves my hand leaving me cold, "I'm sorry about that, I just..."

"Lost control, don't worry I get it. I loose control when I'm with you too"

Rae rubs her lips together, "So let's go dance"

"We haven't eaten the appetizer"

She gets up taking my hand, "I didnt want this in the first place and I tried to feed you now come on let's go dance"

Rolling my eyes I get up and follow her to the dance floor where she wraps my arms around her waist. 'Wicked', by Future is playing. I still remember when I did 'Low Life' with him. I can't wait till it drops this Christmas, a little present to the fans.

I think I'm going to make that a thing, drop a new song every Christmas.

Rae dances to the beat against me in her own little world while I scan the crowd for those sneaky fuckers.

I may have been playing with her about the owner calling TMZ, but I hate the paparazzi. There should be a line between work life and private life. Rae is private and I want to keep her that way no matter what.

X'O❤