Summary: The Loner hanyou and the popular miko…will their love surpass the restraints that the popularity chart has put between them? Will it be allowed? And with Inuyasha current state, how can the two survive being apart?
Hopelessly Devoted 2 U
(This is an Alternate Universe Fic)
By: Kikyo's Lova
AN: Unfortunately, the current situation of Inuyasha and Kikyou will NOT be discussed in this chapter, probably because I didn't want the story to be so biased on them. Hopelessly Devoted 2 U has an array of characters and I figure that they should get the chance to tell the story from their POV than from Inuyasha and Kikyou's. So I will take you into the life of a misunderstood HD2U character, Kouga, and explain a bit of his story, with the help of a common reoccurring character.
Hopelessly Devoted 2 U:
Chapter 10: Significant Realization
Being the leader of a dysfunctional gang wasn't easy. Stupid members, the opposition, the challenges…the goal…
Kouga wasn't a good leader. He constantly pondered on how to get his gang into shape since their rise to power. But when so many things linked together, they all drew back to one thing- why did he even create "The Pack"?
He didn't start the gang because he wanted to harm little kids and rob other people. He didn't start it because he wanted to be feared… "The Pack" was started because of the way his teachers treated him in school. Teachers don't do much for a kid's self esteem when they call you a "loser" or ask you why do you even bother coming to school. So 3 friends, Kouga, Ginta, and Hakkuko started "The Pack" for kids emotionally abused…and it erupted into something that deep down, he was ashamed to say that he had any affiliation with the gang.
"Kouga baby, come on…please take me…"
"I'm really not up to par Ayame," muttered Kouga softly. As Ayame was blocking his view of the TV, he pushed her out of the way, her body landing on his bed with a soft thud.
"I swear, you gotta be a fucking oddball, you know?"
Uninterested in where this conversation was going, Kouga needlessly continued it to see his girlfriend's corrupted point of view.
"And how is that? How am I personified as an "oddball" as you say?"
"Most men would be happy that their girl is putting out all the time. Every time that I put out, you deny me…I just don't understand you anymore Kouga…you haven't been the same ever since that incident with Inuyasha and Kikyou…"
Kouga took the time to modify his words so that Ayame could truly understand how he felt right now because right now, he felt like punching her in the stomach.
"So basically you just wanna be my fuckoff?"
"Huh?"
"…I'm saying if you just wanna fuck me all the time, why the hell do I need you in my damn condo? You can just go back home with your parents and I can call you when I need some, okay?"
"Fuck it then Kouga, I'll leave. I don't like the way you treat me anymore."
"Get out."
"I need to get my…"
"Get the fuck out my house," he repeated, in a dead calm voice. It struck fear in Ayame, as that was the original intent.
"Kouga I need to…"
"GET THE FUCK OUT! ARE YOU FUCKING DUMB?! GET OUT!"
The sudden increase in Kouga's voice caused Ayame to jump from her stance. She still didn't move as one would expect, surprising Kouga to an extent.
Resulting to force, Kouga quickly got up and snatched Ayame with her writhing, trying to escape the grip that Kouga placed on her. Being a wolf herself, Ayame also executed force onto Kouga by scratching his face with her claws. It was this that caused Kouga to throw Ayame from the condo than to just set her down. As he slammed the door in silent rage, Ayame tried to rip the door with her claws, to no avail. This display of anger and hatred continued for an estimated 30 minutes until Ayame herself gave up. Noticing that the wolf girl had finally left he continued to watch the program on the TV until he got fed up with that. Ayame was going through his mind…that and the pain of the scratch that she had induced on him.
"Bitch can scratch me but she can't harm Kikyou…fucking useless…I don't need inferiority in my life right now."
Grabbing his bomber jacket, Kouga walked into the unusually cool spring and began to walk…to no apparent place. He didn't want to be in the house but he also didn't want to see his gang…that was actually the last thing that he wanted to see at the moment.
So he wandered Kyoto with no place in particular to go…not thinking about anything. His mind was a complete blank, unable to generate any kind of thought…empty.
He mindless walked into a small café and ordered a small coffee. It began to rain, making the scene in his head more depressing than it already was.
"Hey Kouga."
"Huh?"
Kouga was greeted by the smiling face of Kagome, who seemed to run into the café just o avoid the rain but to nullify that suspicion, she also purchased a small coffee.
Kouga grinned slightly.
"Something's funny?"
"I thought that you would hate me for…"
"…giving "The Pack" the order to sick my sister and her boyfriend? I was pretty furious about it, but like things die, it faded away. I harbor no ill will towards you."
Kagome's warm smile brought a smile to his face but also a lingering feeling in the back of his mind- that is the smile of the girl that he could never have possession of, probably because of the cocky persona that he developed while running the pack. It hurt him, more than the gash that Ayame produced on his face.
"I guess that's good to know, Kagome."
"What's with the scratch? Got into a scuffle with Ayame?"
"Well aren't you the psychic?"
"Are you gonna tell me what happened?"
"Why should I tell you what happened Kagome? Is the mark on my face going to suddenly disappear? How is me telling you what happened going to improve my situation? Or do you want it so you're little gossip bitches can start spreading rumors, majority of them being untrue?"
It was strange to see Kouga talk with some intellect, Kagome thought, as she was just the victim of a verbal onslaught by Kouga. But she reached the deeper definition of his words, and the pain that lay beneath.
"Something you want but can't have?"
Kouga jumped out of his seat quickly, causing the table to jerk. After regaining himself from the sudden surprise of Kagome's words, he sat back down and took a deep breath. He was going to poke at the situation, to see if she truly understood.
"What?"
"I know how you feel Kouga…just that something that you want but can't have? It's a pain to realize that you can never exist in their heart the way that you want them to. You would even change for them if they requested it so, do anything for them just to please them…but just as destiny interwove the threads of destiny, your thread and the person you desire's thread somehow became tangled and was soon out of your reached…I know how you felt about Kikyou truly, but the gang you were running and the way that you talked to her drew you two apart, and at a time she felt so isolated, so alone…and she found love with the hanyou Inuyasha…"
"It hurts Kagome."
"I know…"
Kagome was a person that he could actually trust…
"It was selfish on my behalf, what happened."
"With that wound on your face? How?"
"She wanted to have sex with me," he said, grinning to the thought. "And I denied her."
"…she wanted you to please her and you denied it? Are you serious?"
"Just hear me out Kagome. It seemed as that was all she wanted to do when she was over my house. That and talk about dumb shit that happened at school. But it was sex ALL the time…I hated hearing it…I just wanted to respect her for a woman and not cloud my perception of her…I wanted to actually love Ayame but with her just giving it out without a fight, how am I supposed the view it? I didn't want the girl to be viewed as a "woman that satisfies my sexual needs" or "slut" in my eyes. It's like a mother who doesn't enforce discipline- the child won't respect her and will do as he pleases. I didn't want her to be viewed like that in my eyes…I…"
"…you wanna love her."
"But…I sorta snapped and kicked her out. It was during this that she scratched me with her erected claws and I throw her out the house-literal."
"I still see the story in your POV, regardless of what happened to Ayame. I see it in your eyes Kouga…it just contrasts with your forming of "The Pack". You're so intellectual…what's the need for a street gang?"
"I'm gonna disband it."
"Huh?"
"Yeah!" exclaimed Kouga, pulling Kagome's hand. "Come with me! I want you to witness it…"
Kouga suddenly let go of Kagome's hand.
"I'm sorry…do you wanna come?"
Kagome nodded.
"Okay then…we've got to go back to my house to get them all together…and endure the rain…"
The rain seemed to pick up in speed when Kouga made his comment.
"…or we can wait until they bring us our coffee."
Kouga shyly scratched his head.
"Okay."
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The duo made it to Kouga's condo at about 5 o clock. To Kagome, it was surprising that Kouga had his own little place to crash at, as she and her sister still lived at home with her parents (which was debatable, as their parents were hardly home). It made him seem much more mature, even though he was a senior in high school.
"Chill for a moment while I gather the gang at the abandoned warehouse we meet at. We'll drive there…I just need to call them."
"Okay," answered Kagome.
Kouga was really disbanding the gang…wow…
She took the time to inspect the oddly clean spot of Kouga's and made the assumption that he, like the rest of them, were just a misunderstood bunch of fucks, who didn't know exactly where to be placed.
"…okay let's go Kagome; they're all going to be at the warehouse in about 7 minutes. We should get going."
"Kay."
They drove to the warehouse quickly and waited for the ENTIRE "Pack" to show up. With the battle against Inuyasha and Kikyou, that was only one "sect" (section) of "The Pack"; there were about 20 sects of "The Pack" with 14 members each, with 1 as leader of that particular sect. 280 people packed the warehouse. Kouga, with Kagome, reached the higher level of the warehouse.
"Quiet," he said calmly. He should have known that this wouldn't work; his gang was speaking much too loudly for them to hear that.
"SHUT THE FUCK UP!"
The gang got quiet and focused on their leader, who was noticeable pissed, with just a hint of depression.
"You know, while it was raining just about a hour ago, I came to a conclusion within myself. What is the point of "The Pack"? It wasn't designed to become Kyoto's toughest street gang. It wasn't made so that we could rob people without anything happening to us. The group was a pure idea gone corrupted…and I'm ashamed to say that I'm a part of this group."
There was a sufficient amount of murmur after Kouga finished exhaling his first thought. The words being tossed around were "ashamed" and "part of this gang".
"Let me finish," said Kouga. The gang respectfully quieted down.
"Nothing good has really come from me running this gang, and it has corrupted my own thinking. Robbing a fucking orphan?! For what?! A kid that lost his fucking parents! Not anymore…not anymore…"
A long pause followed Kouga's words. One of the sects gangs leaders spoke on his thoughts.
"Are you handing the position of leader to one of us?"
Kouga glared at him with a rage nobody every saw. The leader stood down, and apologized for the question.
"I'm disbanding "The Pack"…for good."
An enormous uproar began in the warehouse when Kouga finished his statement. The gang member continued their yelling until one of the gang leaders quieted them.
"I say that we continue "The Pack", minus one leader! We don't need Kouga; we can do just fine without him!"
That statement only got a brief amount of applause. Many of the gang members didn't know what to do.
"I think that we should respect the original founders' wishes and disband the gang here and now," mumbled one of the lesser members. This response generated an even bigger amount of applause than the previous gang leader suggestion.
"I'm continuing "The Pack"! Anybody who is with me come on my side! Anybody who wants to puss out, go to the other side!"
The gang members divided themselves until there were two halves, one side much greater than the other.
"Wow," said Kouga in a sarcastic tone. "27 members joined you. 253 members are with me disbanding it. And…do NOT use my name "The Pack" with your new gang. If I hear that "The Pack" is still roaming around, albeit 200+ members, I will hunt you down. Do you understand, Chad?"
The former "Pack" gang leader known as "Chad" scoffed Kouga off and left the warehouse with the few people he had. The remaining former members turned back to Kouga.
"I think that it was smart on your part to disband the gang, boss," said one of the sect leaders. He shook Kouga's hand, who had by now reached the lower level with Kagome.
"I'm your friend now, just call me Kouga."
"We promise to never join another gang, or start one. We respected you as our boss and now we are respecting your wishes for the gang to split. Just wish Chad chose the right path…"
"Chad will get his…and it won't be on shoulders…"
Kouga turned to leave the warehouse with Kagome by his side. as soon as they got into the car, Kouga turned to face Kagome.
"How'd I do?"
"Excellent!"
"Good…I'm surprised that I was able to disband it…but the gang deviated from its point long ago…"
Kouga kissed Kagome on her lips quickly
"…and it was because you that I was able to disband it. Thank you so much…"
Kagome nodded as she seemed to savor that kiss…
"Ayame is…lucky…"
"…and I'll end it for you Kagome."
Kagome looked at Kouga, shocked.
"Why?"
"I need a girl that can stand by my side without fail, to be my Muse when ideas don't, or won't come to me. A beautiful princess that's happy just to see me, and not attempt to fuck me everywhere we end up…I need…"
"…me?"
"You."
"Kouga, you have to promise me that you'll keep this attitude of yours…the good, logical Kouga that I want…and you can't treat me bad, even if things are bad…I just wanna be yours…without ANY hassle…"
"I can do that Kagome. I can do that…"
"I still feel bad for Ayame though…"
"Doesn't matter; we split and that's it. I just need the girl's shit out of my house…"
"…so that you can return her possessions to her, right?"
Kouga sighed disapprovingly.
"She did produce this mark," he growled, pointing to the scar, which was healing fast.
"It's going away…your powers are working…just wait a couple more hours…and give the misunderstood girl back her stuff, okay?"
"Can I get another kiss?"
"Only if you give her back her things."
"Deal," said Kouga, reaching for another kiss. Kagome sealed the agreement.
"Drop me off at my house…I need to make a quick phone call to someone."
"Yeah, and I'll clean my condo of Ayame's stuff."
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8:00 pm. Kagome arrived at her house at 8:00 sharp. Kouga had sped off, and she walked slowly into the house. When she was safe that she was the only in the house, she pulled out her cell phone and called the person she needed to talk to.
"Hey…wassup?" asked the person on the other end. Kagome sighed.
"Sup doghead. I need to…well…"
"It's okay; Kikyou isn't around. I'm still at work. What's wrong?"
"I've been guilt ridden from that kiss that I gave you, Inuyasha. It was…"
"I know that it was a mistake Kagome. I'm not worried about that, and you shouldn't either. Is that what's bothering you?"
"Yeah…I have these nightmares about you and Kikyou talking and you tell her…and she tries to kill me…"
"Guilty conscience…Kagome it was a harmless accident. Plus it wasn't on the lips or any tongue contact so…"
"Inuyasha, thank you so much. My day had been great today."
"Glad to hear it blockhead. I gotta go…and maybe we shouldn't make our phone calls so secretive…actually makes us seem like we have something to hide, you know?"
"Yeah…I hope you aren't mad at whom I'm going with either…"
"Who is it?"
Kagome giggled.
"You'll see when they accept your appeal…you might hate me."
"I already hate you."
"Well you're gonna hate me more."
"I'll check you later blockhead, boss is asking me for a favor…you and your boyfriend should come with me and Kikyou to the movies tomorrow night…"
"Yeah…I'll see you later doghead."
There was a brief laughter then the phone clicked . Kagome then collapsed on her bed smiling.
"I'm happy."
She called the next person that was on her mind…
"Kouga…are you done cleaning your condo of Ayame's stuff? I want you to make room for some of my crap…"
AN: Yeah I had to break off some of the tension from me forming ANOTHER KikyouxKagomexInuyasha fic…I didn't want HD2U to be a contest like Out with the old, In with the new…Kouga was able to find someone to better suit him and Kagome doesn't have to be afraid to sleep…I think I did a good job…what do you think?
-Kikyo's Lova-