Here we are again...the next chapter as I promised...this one is from BPOV...and I must warn you this is definitely going to be a doozy...

Again, my absolutely wonderful beta, Arc Morpheus has worked her magic and took the other half of my mess & made it fantastic...*smooches*...(love my wifey muches)

All copyrights still belong to SM...still want copyright of Robert's body...well, it doesn't hurt to dream...

So, I'll stop now with the monologue and give you...

CHAPTER 10

THE OFFER OF AN ADVENTURE, & THE FIRST TRANSGRESSION THERAPY

OUR LOVE IS LIKE THE WIND. I CAN'T SEE IT BUT I CAN FEEL IT.

~UNKNOWN~

~BPOV~

Finally, after a lengthy talk with Victoria, James and Alex, it has been decided that Victoria thinks it is important enough to do the regression therapy's and that she is going with me to Los Angeles. There must be more in those journals than what they are really telling me. But, I can't worry about that now. I am totally exhausted, hungry, and just want to make it home and forget everything for now.

I arrive home I just drop my bag, trudge into my bedroom take my clothes off throwing them in the hamper, find me some on my comfy pj's, and head back into the kitchen. I start prowling around in the fridge and find the makings for a salad. I start chopping up the lettuce, the tomatoes, boil some eggs', olives, grate some cheese,and wait for the eggs' to cool so I can chop them up.

While I'm waiting I go to my messenger bag looking for my journal. No, it' not here, wait a minute... I know I threw it in my bag. I dump the contents of my bag on the table, but it's no where to be seen! So, I then dump everything out of my duffel and still no God, where could I have left it? Wait, retrace your steps Bella...think about it a minute, it will come to you. The last place I remember seeing it was on the nightstand at the hotel. Damn, I put it in the top drawer of the nightstand and I don't remember getting it out.

I've lost it, or maybe just maybe, Edward's people have it. Maybe Emmett found it, and has it. I'll just have to give him a call tomorrow and find out for sure. I decide I won't worry about it now, as I'm just to tired. I'm finishing my salad, and going straight to bed. I just can't take anymore of anything being thrown at me today.

After finishing my dinner, I wash the few dishes, gather up my clothes and duffel and head for my bedroom. I fold my clothes and put them away. I go into the bathroom, brush my teeth, and head for my bed. I pull the covers down, and crawl in pulling the covers up tight around me.

Before I know it , I am falling into a deep sound sleep.

At some point during the night I am awaken by the softest touch upon my lips and as I try to open my eyes to focus on what it is...I see Edward lying beside me, lightly running his fingertips across my lips, as I am caressing his cheek. I feel him move is fingers lightly brushing across my cheek, and it's as if we are frozen looking into each other's eyes, I feel a lone tear run down my face onto my pillow, and I close my eyes trying to clear away the tears threatening to break through. I open my eyes to look at his face again, and he is gone.

I lay there a few minutes trying to understand what just happened, and I feel as if my heart is starting to break. I feel as if my very soul is calling out to him...I love you. I pray to God that this therapy will help me understand what is going on with me and then between us so I can finally go to him and explain it in a way that won't scare him away, and hopefully then maybe we can be together...finally forever. I close my eyes and I can see his beautiful face as I drift off back asleep.

When I awaken the next morning, I sit on the side of my bed and swiftly try to write everything down about the experience I had last night. Was it a dream? But, yet his touch felt so real, and the look in his eyes'...how can I deny what I saw there...all the love. God, if he only knew how much I love him...but, if I can figure this all out, then I will be able to tell him, show him...be with him.

After noting everything from the dream, I go to fix my coffee in the kitchen and I return to my bedroom, make my bed up and go about my normal routine of picking out my clothes for the day, grabbing a shower, gathering all my stuff in my bag, and make myself another cup of coffee and toast me a bagel.

Heading out the door to the lab I know I have to give Professor Cullen...Carlisle an answer this morning, and after talking to Victoria last night I know I will be able to take the offer.

So, once I arrive at the lab, I go to Carlisle's office and knock.

"Come in," Carlisle says sounding cheerful. "Well, good morning, Bella."

"Good morning, Carlisle," I answer also cheerfully. "I thought I would come and give you my answer to the offer, and after some thought last night, my answer is yes. Yes, I would love to go to the Azusa Pacific University. In fact, it would be an honor to actually get to study something so profoundly important of our time," sounding almost giddy.

"Well, alright. I will give the university a call today and let them know you are taking the offer, and get all the information you will need as to your departure date and when they will want you to come to the university. I am very pleased you came too the right decision. I only wish it was me getting the chance. Now I'm envious, but this is going to be a wonderful experience for you,and opening many doors for your future. I'm sorry that I am going to be losing such a valuable asset to my staff. You have always done such marvelous work, and I still plan on writing you a letter of high recommendations. I'm very happy for you, Bella," Carlisle states excitedly.

"Carlisle, I hate to push my luck with you, but would it be alright if I kind of take the day to...I guess, enjoy and maybe celebrate this with some of my friends. They are going to be so shocked about my leaving, and there is so much I have to explain to them," I ask excitedly.

"Whoa Bella, calm down. You don't need to say anymore. Go on and enjoy your day with your friends. I will let you know tomorrow about the information I gather for you in the morning. Now, go," Carlisle says with a slight chuckle.

I turn around and go running out through the doors of the building heading straight to my car. I have so got to tell Rose, and Alice all about this...and I need to see if Rose has talked to Emmett. I need to know for sure where my journal is.

I have also got to find time to talk to Victoria today, too. We have a lot of planning if she is going with me to LA. That's going to be an adventure in itself. Once I reach my car, I pull my cell phone out and call Rose first.

"Rose's Garage," she answers sounding cheerful.

"Well, someone must have gotten them some last night or this morning," I enquire snidely.

Rose excitedly says, "Bella, you need to get over her a.s.a.p., and don't ask any questions, and no stopping anywhere. Just get here ...hurry!" Rose didn't even tell me...hell, not even a hint as to what was so important,she just hung up, unless...Emmett got home last night. I need to hurry so I can talk to him, and ask him about my journal.

So, short of causing any major accidents, within a matter of about fifteen minutes I am pulling up at Rose's. She comes running out and stopping abruptly in front of me, staring wide eyed, out of breath, and just grabbing me into the biggest hug. At that moment, she kind of threw me off, wow, Rose ain't a big hugger but slowly I started to return her a hug back.

Slowly I pull out of her grip and look at her, I start to ask her what is going on that has her so excited, but she doesn't even give me a chance to say another word. She just starts dragging me by the hand into her office.

"Come on inside, hunny. We have a lot to talk about," practically having an Alice episode.

"Rose, calm down and tell me what is going on?" I ask questionably. We both take a seat, and she sits there with this silly grin plastered on her face, and shaking her head.

"Well, first off I would ask you what you were doing home so early, and why your still not in Chattanooga. But I pretty much got that answered last night...late last night," she states excitedly.

Looking at her as if I had just had the breath knocked out of me I ask her, "Where is Emmett?"

"Sweetie, he is with this other security person that just so happens to work for Edward Masen. Now, the way I understand it from Emmett is that you are a 'hot commodity' wanted by the lovely Edward. That he has practically demanded Emmett and this Jacob guy to find you and either have you call and speak to Edward himself, or them take you to see him. What in the name of all that is Holy happened?" Rose looks at me shocked.

All I can do is sit there and take deep breaths and look at her totally confused.

Before I can even start to answer her questions a yellow Porsche screeches into the garage forecourt , and Alice hops out running right towards us both. Without even taking a breath she starts firing questions left and right.

"First off, I want to know why you have not called me in over a week. Then this trip to Chattanooga to see Edward Masen filming for that movie WFE, and then I get this frantic call from Rose this morning about Edward having his security here looking for you. Bella, what in hell is happening? Did you do something while they were on the set? And you haven't called me too ask me about Jasper. So?" Alice looks at me with big sparkling eyes full of excitement and anticipation.

Dang, I didn't think she was ever going to stop there, and she doesn't even appear to be out of breath. That girl can flat talk faster than she can get that car of hers to run. Rose and I just sit there staring at her, and shaking our heads unbelievably..

"Damn Alice, how much caffeine have you ingested this morning?" Rose asks snickering.

Even after everything Rose has just dumped in my lap, we look at each other and burst out laughing. We can't stop even when Alice puts her hands on her hips, and stomps her foot. I think that only made it worse. There was no stopping us now. We were laughing until we were both in tears. Finally, after a few minutes we start to calm down. Meanwhile, Alice just continues to look at us as if we were the crazy ones'.

Rose grabs Alice, making her take a seat along with us, and our interrogation begins. We both ask her first how things' have been developing with her and Jasper, and it seems they have been dating on and off for this past week. Then, two nights' ago, she stayed with him at his place. You can just look at her and see the love that is written all over her face, she is really smitten with Jasper. Boy, if he hurts' her, I don't believe there is a jury that would convict us of putting some real bodily harm on his ass. You just don't mess with us three amigos...well, sisters. But, she insists it is very serious for both of them...that they both have very strong feelings for each other.

I looked at both my best friends int he whole world and knew I had to explain a lot about the last couple of days, well here goes nothing, I motion for both of them to stop chattering and listen to me. The both stop and turn to look at me, I could see they really wanted to understand and help in any way they could. So I began at the beginning and asked them not to interrupt till I finished and then they could ask anything they wanted of me. So with a deep quivering breath I began.

"Firstly Alice, sweetie, I am so sorry I didn't call you before all this came about. It was kind of a quick moment of decision thing... and don't think I didn't consider chickening out, cause I sure did more than once. But, it felt right to just get out of town for a few days and put some perspective on my life and dreams."

Alice remained silent and smiled, this was a first for Alice being quiet. I continued.

"Rose' Emmett took very good care of me when I arrived there. Had me a beautiful place 'away' from everyone so I wouldn't get in their way whilst the shoot was happening. But as I approached the area I began to feel unwell and the closer I got too the film set. Then whilst we tried to get through the crowds of fans , I just got that more sicker, and he had to send a city police officer to help escort me to the other side of the barricades. It was just a mad house. But, that's not the weirdest part. So, when I finally got settled under this beautiful tree, I was waiting for them to start filming, then out came Edward, and I don't know what happened really. He started looking around and finally set eyes' on me and I was looking back at him, and it was like...like there was the magnetic pull for us to be near each other. I walked out from under the tree and it was as if...well don't laugh at this girls...I had finally found the missing piece to this puzzle of dreams and feelings I had been suffering. He started down the hill towards me with a kind of shocked and expression of relief on his face, and I just couldn't tear my eyes' away from him. I felt as if I had been looking for him...in my dreams...forever."

I glanced quickly at the girls whilst I pictured the scene again in my mind, they had a look of awe and intrigue across their faces, but they still sat quietly and just nodded for me too go on.

"I started walking towards him, and then he stopped, looking back at some man hollering at him. I don't know what for, but then it hit me that I couldn't do this right here in that moment, what was I thinking with all these people around us. There has been something going on with us ever since I bought this 'ring'. It nearly burnt my finger that day and I feel things from it when he is close too me. These feelings between us were so strong, and it kind of scared me. I didn't want to cause Edward, Emmett, or myself any trouble...so, me being me, I just left; I started backing away from him and then I found myself running, and he started to run after me. His security was right behind him and he didn't think a thing about going right through the barricades...right into the middle of that mob. I jumped in my car and I couldn't see too clearly because my eyes were full of tears, I was crying so hard. So, once I got myself under control enough to see I started the car, turned it around and as I was pulling away I looked in the rear view mirror and all I could see was him standing in the middle of all these security men and him looking right at me, and I think he was crying, too. I went back to the hotel and just broke down. Then the more I thought about it, all the security people in and around the building. I just knew he was staying there also and I just couldn't stay there another second, so I packed my bags, called down to the front desk and told them I was checking out and I came straight back home. I was so tired when I finally got here, emotionally and physically, I barely made me something to eat and went to bed. But, what's really bad is when I got home and started looking for my journal...it wasn't there. I think I left it in the nightstand drawer."

I turned and looked at Rose with pleading eyes "Rose, please tell me Emmett found it, ohh please I can't bear the thought of losing it... Please!" I all but begged.

"Bella, sweetie, calm down, I'm afraid it came out that you were staying there and when

Emmett went and found the room empty he knew by the looks of things' that you had left in a hurry. So, he was called Edward, as he had sent him down there to get you to agree too talk to him, and informed him you had left. Edward came down to the room and joined Emmett looking for any clues as to why or where you had flown off to, they went through the room to see if you had left anything...Edward found your journal in the nightstand, and has not turned it loose or out of his sight since he found it," Rose stated calmly.

I just slumped in the chair, not able to say anything. He has my journal...my words...my thoughts...I groan internally.

Rose asked me if I needed something to drink, and I just nodded. Alice scooted her chair next to me and I just fell into her arms crying. I knew he would read the things' I had written in there and probably think I was crazy women, but, maybe just a part of me hoped he would not. The way he was looking at me it was as if he was having the same feelings I was, which would only go more with the dreams I had been having, the translations in my journal and the 'ring'. Yet, there is more to this than just those little pieces...lots' more, and I just had to find them...to put the pieces together. Then, I could go to him and explain openly what was going on...at least what was going on with me...what I was feeling.

Rose came back with something for all of use to drink, and after a few minutes I began to feel a little calmer and better, I sat up in my chair taking a deep breath. That's when Rose looked at me as if there was something else she wanted to tell me.

"OK Rose, spill it. I know there is more to the story. What else has Emmett told you?" I asked questionably.

Rose hesitantly said, "Bella, Hun, Edward wants you to come voluntarily with Emmett to California and talk to him. That he felt the two of you could work this, what ever this is together. That he was in love with you, he doesn't have any idea what is going on with himself either. It seems he has been having these same dreams as long as you have. I personally think you really need to go talk to him. But, it is your decision and I will stand right beside you in what ever you decide, or in front of you if it takes it. I'm not going to let them take you against your wishes," Rose says sternly.

Alice pipes in, "Yeah, they will have to go thru me, too. What do you want to do Bella? Just tell us. You know we got your back, we love you and just want you too be happy."

I sit there looking at my two best friends, I wave my hand to gesture that they sit back down while I tell them what I've been doing, and a few other things'. So, they sit and look at me anxiously .

"As you both are aware, I have been having these dreams for almost seven years. Well, over the years they have been becoming clearer where I can almost see the man's face as if he was standing in front of me. It did not hit me until I saw Edward in the flesh that day at the set. It was like someone slapped me into the reality of my conscious. I have had two professors translating some of the strange writings in my dream journals. Some of the words are apparently written in a very old version of Latin and Aramaic, which was used by Jesus and his people. I don't know how to speak either language, much less write it. But, they are trying to translate it for me. They managed to translate one whole page that was scrambled up and it came out saying...'I will always be with you'. I also wrote the symbols down on another piece of paper off of the 'ring' and it translates to say...'Forever Yours'. The closer I got to Edward that day on the set the ring started to burn my finger, and the feelings coursing through my body were so strong they were practically making me dizzy."

I just stopped at that point letting them absorb what all I had just told them. They looked back and forth between each other and then at me, then as if on cue they both started asking questions at the same time. "There is more I need to tell you, if you want to listen," I stated.

Rose hopped in saying, "Might as well give us the whole story, so go ahead. We are all ears."

So, I continued, "There is also a Professor Victoria Johnston, that is a psychologist and past life regression therapist. She seems to think I might have lived at least three previous lives before this one, and maybe possibly a fourth. That they all ended more or less violently with my death, and Edwards, too. That is why we are being brought back over and over again, as there is some unfinished business in our lives. Don't you both sit there looking at me as if I was crazy. I have done some research on this on the computer and at the library at the university. There is such a thing, and that it can be carried over from one life time to the next. I honestly believe this is what is going on with Edward and I. This 'ring' was made around 218 A. a woman that gave it to her husband as his wedding 'ring' the day they were married. Apparently it has traveled through time, to me.' I stopped again at this point to let them absorb that bit of information.

"Do either one of you understand what I am telling you?" I asked questionably. I looked at my two friends, and we all three just sat there for a few minutes until finally Alice spoke up and told me to continue. I asked them if they were sure and asked if they had any questions. They shook their heads no, and so I continued.

"I have been offered a position at a university in Los Angeles to study some pieces of the 'Dead Sea Scrolls', and I have accepted the offer. I'm not sure when I am suppose to be leaving, but Carlisle is talking to them today and will have have all the information either later today or tomorrow morning when I go in to see him. Victoria is going with me to continue the regression therapies. I have to go as it is such a wonderful opportunity and it means I will get my doctorate earlier. Then I have a chance at any job I want, any where. I can't pass it up," I said assuredly.

Rose took a deep breath, and looking at me she began to tell me what had been offered to her and Emmett. "Edward wants Emmett to come to work for him personally. Not with the security company, but for him personally. Emmett told him he could not leave me, which I think pretty much speaks for itself. At that point Edward offered to help me as a 'silent partner' to franchise out to the west coast. That he would see to it that I had everything I would need to open shop. He has also offered to help Emmett in anything he needed too to make the relocation smoother. With your going out there, I just don't see how either one of us could say no," she said confidently.

"But what about me?" Alice said flashing her puppy dog eyes at us. "You can't just both move off and leave me all alone."

Rose and I looked at each other and then back at Alice. We all three looked like we had had the wind knocked out of our sails. Until...

"Alice, didn't you say that Jasper worked for a big law firm?" I asked.

"As a matter of fact he does. A very big firm. Why?" she replied curiously.

Rose, realizing where I was going picked it up, "Well Alice, why don't you get him to see if they have a firm in California and see if he can get himself a transfer? I mean, if things' are as...strong as you say between the two of you, don't you think he would be willing to at least try?"

Alice looked apprehensive, but finally a big smile came across her face and she said, "Well, I can talk to him and see what he says, but if he doesn't think our relationship is strong enough to try to go through with it, then I'm coming on my own. Now, if you two will excuse me, I've got to go talk to a young sexy lawyer."

Rose and I said at the same time, "Hold it right there sister Alice. You need to get your fanny back over here right now." Alice came back over to us, and we all three joined pinky's together looking at each other, and each one of us said, "Thicker than blood." We were sisters, and we knew that meant for life. We would always be a package deal, and had been since kindergarten. We smiled at each other and wrapped ourselves together into our version of a group hug.

Alice went flying out to her car, Rose looked at the clock and told me I needed to leave. That Emmett and Jacob were due to be there in about thirty minutes. I asked her not to tell them she had seen me, but that I had called and did not tell her where I was. She agreed , naturally I would not expect anything else from my Rose. So, with a wink at each other I hopped in my car and took off towards the university and the lab to see Victoria.

I arrived at the lab I noticed that Alex and James were working diligently over the journals, so with a quick hello, I asked where I might find Victoria and they pointed me off in the direction of Alex's office. I walked in, and Victoria was sitting behind the desk, so I sat in one of the chairs facing her. She looked at me questionably, but smiled the same.

"Victoria, can we do my first regression therapy today?"

She looked totally surprised, but said," Yes, if you will give me a few minutes to set things' up I don't see a problem with it."

I nodded, and crossed my legs' waiting for her to get started. She went flying out of the office, and in a few minutes she was back with a video camera, a tripod, a legal pad, and after a few more minutes she was ready.

"Bella, I need to inform you that I am going to have James present during this session. This is only a precaution in case of your experiencing a traumatic experience which results in any form of physical activity other than what I tell you to do. This means, if you start thrashing out, or any type of physical action which might result in your being harmed, then James will try to control your outbursts so that no harm comes to you. He will only try to restrain you as mildly as possible. Usually this only requires his maybe holding your arms to your sides, or any other activity along these lines. You and I have spoken of this in length the other night. So, if you are ready and willing to proceed then I will need your verbal consent and for you to sign this paper. This is just a legal form to acknowledge that you have agreed to go through with this procedure without duress. I will be video taping this session as documentation and if you wish to show you at an time what happened during the procedure. Anything you say will be recorded. All I need is for your verbal consent, and your signature. Do you wish to go ahead with this procedure?" Victoria ask authoritatively.

I proceeded to speak as professionally as possible. "My name is Isabella Marie Swan, and I am giving my full consent to go through with this procedure, and under no duress. I am giving Professor Victoria Johnston, full authority to do this procedure, with Professor James Johnston accompanying to keep any physical harm I might inflict to myself during the procedure."

I turned to Victoria and asked her if this covered everything legally, as I did not want them held responsible as a result of anything happening beyond their control. Victoria informed me that that statement had been recorded, and tried to reassure me that they were there to do everything they could to make sure no harm came to her. I then turned to Victoria and James to go ahead and start the procedure.

"Bella, I am going to make a slight hypnotic suggestion to you, but first I would like for you to relax as much as possible. My suggestion when I have a hard time going to sleep I start at my toes, and go through every body part, such as my toes, then my ankles, my calves, and so on. You will be surprised how well this works, as it has helped me fall to sleep many a night," Victoria said smiling.

So, I took a deep breath and started with my toes willing them to relax, then my ankles, then my calves, and I could really feel each body part almost as if it was turning to jello. Each part was totally relaxed , so I kept going on up to my thighs, my hips, and I was starting to feel 'very' relaxed, almost to the point of falling spoke very softly telling me to keep going on up my body as far as I could go and if I felt I just wanted to go to sleep to do so without even thinking about it. Just let it happen naturally. I just barely remember getting to my stomach, and then I don't remember anything.

The next thing I know Victoria and James are sitting on either side of me holding my hands, and had very cool clothes wiping my arms, hands, my neck and face. I still felt so relaxed I couldn't even form a word to ask them what happened. I was becoming more aware with every passing minute, and finally told them I was fine, and James asked me if I would like something to drink. I suddenly realized I was very thirsty, and told him yes, and that anything would do as long as it was cold and wet with a laugh.

Victoria was just sitting there looking at me and kept asking me if I was feeling alright. I told her I was feeling fine, and then James appeared with a bottled water. I couldn't drink it fast enough. When I finally stopped to take a breath I realized I had drank every bit of the water.

After taking a few minutes to compose myself I started to sit up and felt a little dizzy. James grabbed me around the waist and took hold of one of my arms to help me sit up and told me to just sit there for a few minutes. I was finally beginning to feel like my normal self and I turned to Victoria asking her what happened. I asked to see the video footage and Victoria and James turned and looked at each other rather concerned. Victoria tried to answer me calmly, but she sounded a little shaken.

"Bella, I would like for you to take the rest of the day and go home and just rest. You may not realize it, but you are going to feel very drained by this experience, and then you can come back tomorrow and we all will sit with you and watch the video together and answer any questions you may have at the time. Does this sound alright to you?"

I looked at her apprehensively and asked her if everything was alright, and if there had been any problems during the procedure. She assured me that everything was fine and they would be glad to show me the video in it's entirety, and answer any questions I had, but that I really needed to rest and recover before she continued.

So, I agreed that I was feeling a little tired and that I would see them tomorrow and asked if it was alright if I made it early in the morning around nine o'clock. She said that would be fine, and they said they would see me then. So, I went home, made myself a sandwich, had some chips, and proceeded to almost drink a quart of water. I could not get over how thirsty I felt. I was to tired to question anything at that point and just got ready to go to bed.

Meanwhile, back at the lab all three professors' sat in Alex's office and watched the video. There were certain points at which they had to stop the video and broke out into deep discussions about what they where witnessing and what was really going on in the video. None of them could believe what they were seeing again even though they had seen it with their own eyes a few hours earlier, but the hardest moments where still to come. how and could they explain it to Bella tomorrow.