Heeey guys, so it's kindof been a while, *I guess*. I've been swamped with school prep, moving, and I'm going on a trip soon, so I have to get ready for that too! So I can't guarantee anything for length or constant posting. (Ive actually considered posting stories before but was worried I would just… lose interest over time.) So I'm going to do my best to make sure that I don't give up on this! You guys have to keep reviewing and whatnot, so I know that there are people reading this! So… lets get to it! Its Gajeel turn!
He crossed the intimidating room over to one of the plush chairs. The room was decorated with shelves of potions and books lining the walls. The desk that Makarov was sitting at dominated the room though, commanding attention. It was hard dark wood, covered in twisting engravings all over it. The top was littered with scrolls, books, and other tiny toy like things. Makarov was sitting in a large chair that was obviously raised to fit his tiny stature to the overly large desk.
The kind looking old man of a headmaster was still scribbling away on the parchment, seemingly content to let Gajeel stew for a while. His heart raced, he had never felt that nervous before. Come on old man! Lets get this over with! Expel me! Do whatever, just don't drag this thing out any longer! After what seemed like an eternity Makarov finally finished crossing all his T's and dotting all his I's, and looked up at Gajeel. His expression was masked, but a knowing look in his eyes gave Gajeel goosebumps. Shit. What does he know?
Seeing the obvious effect he was having on Gajeel (no matter how hard he tried to conceal it) he decided to wait, let whatever internal turmoil he had going on drive him to the edge.
Gajeel couldn't take it anymore "Well?!" Makarov held in a smirk "Well what Gajeel?" "What.. am I doin' here?" he stuttered.
"Well that was a nice hello indeed. Not big on manners I guess. What do you think you're doing here?"
"To tell you about what happened in the dungeons? With the troll..?" He left unfinished, filled with uncertainty.
"I suppose so, if that's where you want to start. We can start with the dungeons, and the troll." He replied keeping all of his cards close to the vest.
Not knowing how to respond to that, Gajeel raced to think of how to start without tipping Makarov off about Ivan. Especially since it already sounded like the old man knew more than he was letting on.
"Uhh.. well… You see… I was droppin' off a late assignment in the dungeons, when I heard this loud banging noise, and it felt like the school was shakin'. So I went to check it out. So I saw this giant thing attackin' Shri-Levy, so I went to help her, and we managed to take the thing out, it was mainly her though, I didn't really do anythin', in fact I was barely there at all. You'd probably be better off talkin' to her I don't know nothin' useful." He finished rambling, finally taking a breath.
Lifting a brow, the Master asked; "So that's what you want me to believe?"
"Uh, I guess, yeah. Do you?"
"If that's what you want. Then yes. I have no reason to doubt you." That made Gajeel freeze for a moment. He..trusted him? But why? It was obvious (even to himself) that he was lying and not telling the whole truth. In addition to that it was clear that Makarov knew more than he was letting on, but headmaster was… going to pretend that he believe the bullshit that Gajeel was spouting?
A wave of guilt suddenly washed over Gajeel. This man, who barely knew him was giving him a free pass even though anyone could tell that there was more to the story. He wasn't accustomed to having people just.. Trust or believe in him for nothing. Everything in Gajeels life had needed to be earned. The master suddenly reminded him of Levy. They both were kind and trusting to others for no reason. The thought of Levy and what her trusting nature had given her brought another wave of guilt. A wave so big that he felt like he couldn't breathe.
"Gajeel? Is everything alright?" Makarov asked sounding concerned.
Through his guilt ridden mind he felt the sharp stabbing of fear. Of fear of what could happen to him if he let this kind man know the truth. Knowing that this kindness would end as soon as he revealed himself. So instead of listening to his regularly ignored conscious he abruptly stood up saying;
"Is that it then? Can I go?"
A disappointed look flashed across the Masters face for a moment before raised his hand halting Gajeel from leaving. "Before you go, I feel as though I should tell you something, some advice."
"There is no need for you to fall into the darkness. You don't need to be alone, there are many here who wish to see you succeed. Total isolation is not the answer. No one deserves that no matter their past. It's your choices now that decide who you are and will be. But."
Suddenly the air pressure changed. Gajeel who had been looking away unable to hold the Masters gaze looked up surprised at the sudden change in the man. Where the once kind looking old man sat, fierce gaze stared at him.
"There are some despicable acts that I will never be able to forgive. Like allowing others to be hurt. Innocent people who have done nothing to deserve it." It was clear he was talking about Levy. " But I cannot keep a clear conscious when any student of mine to falls down into the darkness. Especially not when I know I could've done something to prevent it. I cannot make your choices for you. I can offer a better path to go down but ultimately it is up to you."
After a pregnant pause he finished with "Well that's all for now, you can go" smiling as he waved Gajeel off. Gajeel finally managed to break from his trance when the Master waved. He walked out of the office as fast as he could without full out running. As soon as the door closed he sprinted down the stairs, having no idea where to go or what to do. Hearing the door slam behind Gajeel the Master chuckled saying "No manners at all." to himself.
So… yeah. That's that. If anyone wants to know where I got inspiration for Makarovs little speech, you should check out the video Makarov invites Gajeel to Fairy Tail (on youtube) so you don't have to go through and watch (or rewatch) the entire episode (though it is awesome). I hope it was worth waiting for. I like the idea of Makarov knowing but not really showing, you know? It kindof reminds me of Dumbledore in a way. But yeah :) I hope you all enjoyed it. Cya Later Doves.