Author: Seether79

Characters: Jack/Ianto, Team

Rating: PG-13??

Spoilers: General spoilers for both seasons,

Summary: "I have this dream" Ianto begun as he looked up at the woman sitting in front of him. "I'm not sure what it is… memories from a life forgotten; or just me going crazy."

Beta: lj user"the9thdoctor" at lj user"plotbunniesinc"

Author's Notes: No longer canon, since Exit Wounds aired.

Disclaimer: I do not own Torchwood (There would be a lot more boy action if I did)

Chapter 10: Falling Away With You

"Jack..." Ianto mumbled as his eyes fluttered open. He was a little confused, but then the memories of the day's events came flooding back. He looked over and saw Jack watching him with worried eyes. "Hi."

"Hi." Jack replied with a smile as he looked into those beautiful blue eyes.

Ianto grimaced with the pain of his injuries; he felt as though he had just gone ten rounds with an elephant. "Water."

"Here" Jack replied as he picked up the glass of water Owen had placed next to Ianto. He was thankful there was a straw in it because he really didn't think Ianto could sit up just yet. Jack held it and moved the straw to Ianto's mouth. The young man gave him a grateful look as he sipped the cool beverage.

"Thanks." Ianto whispered as he closed his eyes. "Were you saying something?"

"What?" Jack asked him with a confused look.

"I thought I heard you talking." Ianto mumbled with a sleepy voice.

Jack ran his hand lightly across Ianto's cheek. "Rest now." Jack told him; he was pretty sure Ianto mumbled something like 'okay' before he drifted back into slumber.

XOXOXOXO

Jack was relieved to see Ianto walking around the Hub a few days later. It was obvious he was in pain, but at least he felt well enough to move. They hadn't talked much but Jack figured that was for the best. There were so many things he wanted to say but he didn't know the right way. Even though he was keeping his distance from Ianto he made sure to keep a close eye on him; he knew Ianto was stubborn and didn't want him making his injuries any worse.

Ianto wasn't blind; he could see Jack watching his every move. The concern was written all over the older man's face and he actually felt guilty for causing Jack all this trouble. He even thought about apologizing - this whole situation had caused Ianto's already busy mind to kick up another gear, he couldn't stop thinking about everything; the aliens, his life and Jack.

"So, I think you can go home." Owen told him. Owen hadn't let Ianto return to his flat, insisting that they both stay at the Hub near the medical equipment just in case.

"Finally." Ianto said happily. "I miss my kitchen."

"You would." Owen laughed. "How are you... emotionally?"

"That's a hard question to answer." Ianto sighed as he rubbed his temples. "Alright I guess... I'm not really traumatized by when happened; I've been through worse."

"That's Torchwood." Owen sighed. "If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here."

"Being dead has turned you soft." Ianto laughed.

"Never." Owen said as he rolled his eyes and walked away.

Ianto turned his face to the right and wasn't surprised to see Jack watching him closely. He waved at the older man and Jack turned away, quickly walking towards his office. Ianto hesitated for a moment before getting up off his chair and following his Captain. He reached the office door and didn't bother knocking before he walked in. Jack looked up at him with a slightly surprised expression. "Jack."

"Ianto." Jack said as he sat down in his chair. He had seen Ianto watching as he spied on him many times now and had been expecting a confrontation any day now.

"I wanted to tell you thank-you." Ianto said as he took a seat across from Jack.

"Really?" Jack said with a raised eyebrow. "Have to say, I wasn't expecting that."

"You saved my life. If it wasn't for you I don't know what would have happened, but I imagine it wouldn't have been good." Ianto told him. For a moment he was back in the cold steel room screaming, he shook his head and returned to the present.

"I would do anything to keep you safe." Jack told him with an honest smile that made Ianto's knees go slightly weak.

"I am very aware." Ianto replied. "That's part of our problem I think."

"I guess it is." Jack agreed with a bitter laugh. "Do you remember what was playing the first time we kissed?"

"What?" Ianto asked, confused by the sudden turn in the conversation.

"The song that was playing the first time we kissed, do you remember what it was?" Jack asked him , looking very serious.

"Of course." Ianto smiled. "'Save the Last Dance For Me'."

"You were in my office and you just looked so... lost and innocent and I needed to taste you. I've never wanted anyone more than I wanted you and it shook me. But being the type of person to go after what they want, I pulled you to me and kissed you hard." Jack smiled as his mind wandered back to that night.

"If I recall I just stood there like an idiot." Ianto chuckled.

"At first, but once you got into it there was no stopping you." Jack reminded him. "You're so quiet. I don't think anyone would ever believe me if I told them you were the most passionate person I've ever met; and I've met a lot of people." Jack said as he smiled at Ianto. "Every time I hear that song I stop and think about that kiss; it was the best kiss of my life."

Ianto looked at Jack, unsure of how to respond. He leaned back in the chair deep in thought before replying quietly, "Mine as well."

"Do you ever miss me?" Jack asked with a painful voice.

"I see you all the time." Ianto said quietly.

"That's not what I meant." Jack replied seriously.

"I know." Ianto whispered turning away from Jack and his soulful eyes. "I can't do this."

"Can't do what? Talk to me? We used to talk all the time." Jack said quickly. He got up and walked to Ianto, kneeling in front of the young man and holding his face so that he had to look at him.

"Things are different now." Ianto replied as he tried to turn his head away but couldn't because of Jack's hand.

"Why?" Jack asked him in a broken voice.

"Because I don't trust you... Because you care so much." Ianto told him.

"Caring about you isn't a bad thing Ianto." Jack replied as he lowered his hands so that they were on the younger mans shoulders.

"It is when it causes you to do stupid things." Ianto told him. "I can't do this."

"Ianto," Jack said as he pulled the younger man close to him. Their mouths were only centimeters apart. "Please don't say that. I need you so much."

"No, you don't" Ianto replied as he tried to ignore their closeness and the effect it was having on his body.

"Yes, I really do." Jack said as he leaned up slightly to kiss him. When their lips met Jack felt the familiar tingle in his stomach. He was amazed when Ianto started to kiss him back, hands moving over his face and they kissed each other with passion. Kissing the younger man felt like home, he was where he was supposed to be.

Ianto felt himself moan into Jack's mouth as the kiss intensified; he felt Jack's tongue caressing his own and that was when he realized what he was doing. He stopped kissing Jack and pushed him away as he stood up quickly.

"Ow." Jack said as he rubbed his lower back while standing up.

"We can't do this." Ianto told him as he backed away from Jack, ignoring the deep ache in his lower region.

"Why not? I know you want me, Ianto, and I want you. Can't you just let go of the rest?" Jack asked him. He stood still wanting to give Ianto his space if that was what he wanted.

"I want to." Ianto replied as he ran his hands through his hair; God, how he wanted to just forget about all the bad stuff and just fall into Jack's arms.

"Then just do it. I promise you things will be different, just give me another shot." Jack practically begged.

"How do I know?" Ianto asked him, needing assurance.

"Nothing is one hundred percent for certain, you just have to take a chance; and I believe that if you give me a second chance it'll be worth it." Jack told him as he took a few steps forward. "I can do it right this time."

"I know you'll try." Ianto told him. "But you are who you are, Jack; like you said, you'll do anything to keep me safe, even if it means wiping my memory."

"I wouldn't do that again." Jack said sternly.

"Yes you would, Jack; you'd do it in a heartbeat." Ianto laughed dejectedly.

"Then I guess you don't know me as well as you think. I'm a selfish man and losing you that first time was hell, I could never do it again." Jack said, but they both knew he was lying. Jack would do anything to save Ianto's life.

"I think I make things more complicated than they have to be." Ianto sighed.

"I agree. I think it's time we simplify things. I want to be with you, you want to be with me - simple as that." Jack replied with a small grin as he stood in front of Ianto and placed his hands on his hips.

"I really don't know what to do." Ianto said to Jack. He loved the feeling of Jack's hands on his body and the familiar feeling of need that hit him every time he was near him, but at the same time he couldn't stop thinking about all the reasons to leave and not start this crazy whirlwind again.

"Do what feels right." Jack whispered to him. "It's up to you, Ianto; it's your decision to make."

"Yes, I miss you." Ianto told him and rolled his eyes when he saw the smirk appear on Jack's face.

"Of course you did, I'm a very missable person." Jack replied with a wicked grin.

"Missable and egotistical." Ianto told him as he placed his hands around Jack's next and moved his face so that he was just inch away from the other man. "But I guess that's just part of your charm."

"I guess so." Jack smiled. Ianto pecked his lips lightly and then draw back and Jack couldn't help but moan with annoyance over losing the contact.

"This doesn't mean anything. I'm still not sure." Ianto told him seriously before leaning in and pressing his lips to Jack's; feeling content for the first time in what seemed like forever.

TBC

A/N: Thanks to my lovely beta, thank for reading and comments are love :))