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I have never felt so good and so bad all at once before. My whole body tingled with pleasure and satisfaction while my stomach churned and my heart sunk into it.

"Hey, am I hurting you?" Alejandro murmurs, pausing for a moment to caress my cheek.

"No not at all. Do I look like I'm in pain?" I laugh nervously and he smiles.

"A little. Tell me if I'm hurting you okay?" I nod and he resumes, sending me back into bliss. No, he wasn't hurting me. He was doing the exact opposite. And that was the problem.

He was never going to hurt me. Alejandro was fucking perfect. He knew all the right words to say, he didn't do drugs, he didn't flirt with other girls…he was so different from Duncan it was funny how I could be attracted to both boys. My eyes shoot open and I moan, a whole new kind of pleasure hitting me. Alejandro is grinning and hits the spot again, making me cough and lose whatever I was thinking about. Oh right; Duncan. Duncan was rude and snarky yet smooth and charming. Alejandro was only smooth and charming.

I hated comparing the two, honestly.

I feel like it's all that runs through my mind though. I wasn't Heather or Lindsay. I hated getting attention from boys. From anyone, really.

I'm a virgin…was a virgin in so many ways. I didn't know how to flirt and bat my eyelashes; I didn't know how to talk sweet. I just go with the flow. I guess everyone learns that way though right? I moan again, gripping onto Alejandro's hips. He says something, but I'm not listening. I'm too focused on how good this feels, and how guilty I'm going to feel when it's over.

But why? Why the hell do I get that damn guilty feeling? Whether I'm with Al or Duncan, I get the feeling.

I wasn't dating either of him; though it did seem I was dating Alejandro now. In an odd way, I was okay with it. Then there was the other part of me that didn't want that. The other part wanted Duncan. I think about how I sound like I have two heads, but I don't care.

I let myself relax on the couch and enjoy what's going on while it's happening.

XXXXX

"I'll see you tomorrow,"

Alejandro smiles and kisses my cheek. I wave him off as he goes into his car, shutting the door quietly when he starts to back out. Duncan won't be home until tomorrow. Home; I make it seem like he lives here.

I wonder what he's doing, but then the other part of me doesn't care. I have to care though. I mean, he's my best friend. He has been since we we're young.

Even if I end up finally deciding on Al, I still love Duncan.

What am I saying?

I let out a cry of frustration before grabbing a bottle of water and running to my room.

I end up just sulking in my bedroom for the rest of the night. For some reason, laying in a truckload of my own self-pity makes me feel a whole lot better.

"But if you call in the next five minutes, you can own two of these magnificent finds for only nineteen ninety nine!"

The television was showing off some 'gold coins' a group of 'archeologists' found in 'Peru'. "We only have a limited supply!" The man said next.

I mentally cursed him and grabbed the remote to find a more suitable channel. I ended up on an old-time movie, a girl crying over a boy getting me interested.

"I just…don't know what to do. Joseph is so nice and wonderful…but Evan is so brave and handsome!" The girl had long brown hair, her face painted with her tears.

"Well Hope, you have to make a choice." An older woman patted Hope on the back, making her cry again.

"Who do you think will treat you best? Who will love you forever? Evan may be handsome and brave, but Joseph is loving and nice. While both love you, I believe Evan's love only runs so deep."

"I suppose you're right, Mama. Thank you. I'm going to sleep now."

"I love you, my child."

I clicked off the T.V quickly, staring wide-eyed into the darkness. That was…weird. I turn over in my bed, my knee hitting the empty water bottle.

I feel oddly empty in this bed without Duncan's arm wrapped around my waist and his breath in my ear. Even though I had school, my eyes would not shut.

XXXXX

I resembled a zombie in a movie.

Puffy hair, puffy reddened eyes, pale skin and an angry expression. I attempted fixing myself up, only getting to 'okay'. That was better than zombie though, I guess.

My phone rings and I jump to answer it. "Hello?" I say, tying my shoe lace.

"Hey baby. Need a ride to school?" I had never thought about it until now. I had no way of getting to school. "Yeah, actually. Thanks, Alejandro."

"No problem. I'll be pulling in…now…" As he says it, I hear a car honk outside and a chuckle from the phone. I roll my eyes and hang up, going outside and shutting the door.

"Well don't you look cute today?" Al teases and I hit his shoulder. "Shush! I couldn't sleep last night." We stare at each other for a moment, and I feel myself leaning toward him for a kiss.

He must see it because he catches my lips in his and I can feel the smile he's hiding. "We're going to be late," I mutter even though I really don't care at this point.

"Mm, you're right. Let's get going." He pulls away gently and puts the car in reverse.

I try not to look down at his crotch and remember the beautiful shaft underneath his dark wash jeans. I shiver, and he glances over at me. "Cold." I say, and he rolls his eyes playfully.

"Do you want to come over Friday? My Mom makes a mean dinner. I'll have to translate for you, but still it'll be fun."

He wants me to meet him Mom. How could I say no? "I'd love too!" I smile at him, placing my hand on his knee.

He pulls into the school parking lot and shuts off his car. "We have five minutes to get to first period." He mutters, and I nod. "Kiss me for three, and we run for two?"

I roll my eyes and nod. "Sounds like a plan."

XXXXX

Entering the classroom together, all eyes are on us. I smile anyways and take my usual seat beside Alejandro and across from Geoff.

While making our way here, I nervously asked Al if I could tell Bridgette about yesterday. He said he didn't mind, so I pull out a piece of paper and scribble down:

I HAVE TO TALK TO YOU. LIKE, REALLY BAD. IT INVOLVES ME AND ALEJANDRO.

I lean over the table and put the note in her lap. She raises and eyebrow but I shake my head and motion for her to open it. She reads it quickly before nodding and sticking the note into her bag beside her.

The class is long and dumb; the only good thing about it is the smiles and touches I'm getting from Al.

He rubs my knee under the table, and when I giggle he stops so McLean doesn't look over at me for the tenth time with the evil eyes. By the time the bell rings, I am dragging Bridgette out to tell her.

"Me and Alejandro…we had sex."

Hey eyes double, and she slaps my shoulder a good dozen times. "No way! No way! No way!"

"Yes, Bridgette." I roll my eyes at her.

"You guys…oh my God!" Her surprised expression turns into a huge grin. "Can I tell Geoff? Oh, let me tell Geoff! He'll be so excited!"

"Um," I don't know what to say. "You have to ask Al first."

She nods before giving me a quick hug and disappearing into her classroom.

"Whore."

My entire body freezes. "Excuse me?" I turn to face the voice, sighing loudly when I see it's Heather.

"I heard everything, smart one. You are such a dirty little slut." She smiles at me and I narrow my eyes at hers.

"I can't wait to tell everyone!"

She flips back her cheap hair-dyed hair and enters her classroom. I have got to find Alejandro. I enter Hatchet's room and sighs. The board was full of work to do. Which means there was going to be a test later this week.

My phone buzzes loudly and I press down on my pocket to stop the noise. Once seated in my seat, I bring my bag up to my desk to make it more hidden.

Care to tell me about you kissing Alejandro in his car in your driveway this morning?

Of course Duncan would see that. I ignore his text and put it back into my pocket. I couldn't deal with this today; I didn't want to.

I would have to see Duncan afterschool, but for now all I could was ignore him. As if on cue, my phone vibrates in my pocket again.

Okay, first things first: I decided to make this a viewer decision. On my page, you will see a poll. It's up to YOU to decide who Gwen ends up falling for. Yes, a lot of responsibility, but you can do it!

As you know, this is a quicker update than usual. If I get as many reviews as last time, I'll make an extra long chapter full of juiciness and drama! Yaay~