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Jasper had told me to pack my bags because we were going home. I couldn't even bear to look at him now, let alone not speaking to me, he shortened our holiday on the island significantly.

To say the plane ride home was slow is an understatement. I wouldn't be surprised if I was an old lady when I got off. "Jasper take me to Charlie's."

"Bella, me and the family need to talk to you, you can go to Charlie's later." I sighed and gave up after that. There was no arguing with that tone, and to be honest it scared me. I kept racking my brain for reasons why I would need to come home early just so we could talk. I couldn't think of anything that made sense, so I just sat back into the comfortable car seat and let my imagination take me to my happy place.

I was visibly shaking by the time we pulled up at the house. Jasper sent a wave of calm over me, but I gladly accepted any sort of communication from him at the moment. I felt so detached from him. As soon as the engine was cut I was opening my door and walking up to the house, I didn't know where I found the strength in my legs to carry me but I did it.

As soon as I walked through the door I noticed everyone sitting down on the floor silently. I frowned and shot my eyes down to the ground. I felt a cold hand placed on the small of my back that led me forward and onto the floor with them. Carlisle looked at me and took a long breath before speaking to me.

"Bella, what I am about to tell you is not your fault. But you need to know for your own good. Rosalie has been attacked. Victoria's newborns got her while we were fighting and she is no longer with us. Whether she is in heaven, or non-existent is your belief. But you have no need to worry about Victoria anymore" After sitting there for countless minutes staring at Carlisle, his words finally sunk in. I killed Rosalie. I burst out in tears and crumpled onto the ground.

Jasper picked me up and placed me on the couch. That's when I saw Emmett, his eyes were dark, and if he could have cried, the house would be flooding. It broke my heart to see him so sad, and it was all my fault. I stood up and ran out of the house. Not particularly caring where I went. I let my legs take me, as fast as they could. I couldn't stand to be around them anymore. I knew it was pointless running, but I was hoping they'd hate me as much as Jasper did and not come after me.

I felt two cold fingers wrap around my shoulders and pull me back. I turned around and sobbed into Edwards chest. "Bella you have to understand; this is not your fault."

"Why does Jasper hate me then?" I sobbed.

"He doesn't hate you, he was in shock. What if that had been you Bella?"

"I don't care about me! I killed her! It's my fault!" I screamed. I wanted to just run away. To keep running and never look back. Edward was silent as he let me drench his shirt in my salty tears. I heard him whisper something about taking me home, but I couldn't really understand any noise over my cries. I nodded my head weakly while he pulled me into his car.

The last thing I comprehended was Edward telling me Jasper would be here soon, and then kissing me on the forehead.

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I was glad Charlie was on a two week fishing trip with Billy. Because I really couldn't face him in the condition I was in. I couldn't really explain to him why either Oh I just killed a vampire by accident because a psychopathic one was after me to avenge her mate's death. I had a feeling that wouldn't go down well.

It was about 7pm the following day, and I still hadn't heard from Jasper. I didn't really blame him. He must hate me for killing his sister, even if he didn't particularly get along with her. I decided it would be a good idea to go eat some food, maybe that would distract me. I was hit by the familiar smell of bacon when I came downstairs.

I couldn't say anything as I stared at the back of the most beautiful man alive. Why was he even here? I already knew what he would come to say. I just didn't understand why he would be cooking me breakfast. Jasper turned around when he heard me sob. I fell to the floor and cried over everything that had happened in the last week, I cried until I felt the need to vomit. I ran to the kitchen sink and emptied my already empty stomach. Jasper rubbed soothing circles on my back while he waited patiently.

I quickly rinsed my mouth of the disgusting taste of bile and looked up at Jasper. All I could see on his perfect face was worry. "Bella are you alright?"

"Do I look alright?"

"I guess not." He pondered.

"Why are you here?"

"To make you breakfast, and tell you how much I love you." Jasper leant in to kiss me, and as much as I hated myself to do it, I pulled away, avoiding his gaze.

"Bella, none of this is your fault."

"Yes it is! Why does everyone keep saying that? I killed Emmett's love of his life! I killed Rosalie! I killed your sister! Alice's sister! I killed Esme's daughter!"

"I've killed lots of people Bella, even people I knew. Time eases that pain."

"Jasper, I finally understand why Edward left me, not to protect me, but to protect you guys. It'd just be better if you left and we didn't see each other. Ever." Jasper's face crumpled with pain as I said the last bit of my rant.

"I'll give you time. But I won't leave you. Never. I love you." I nodded with the ounce of strength that I had left, being too tired to argue.

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It had been a few weeks since I had last seen Jasper or any of the Cullen's. Charlie was pestering me all the time about whether they left or not, but I came up with an excuse about them going off to the snow or something. Charlie understood my hatred for cold, so he dropped the issue after then.

Though I missed Jasper with everything I had, I told him to never see me again. Even if he said he'd never leave me, I knew I should get on with my life regardless.

I was currently working at the local music store, though I didn't have a passion for music it was the only place with an opening with decent pay.

After getting ready for my shift I got into my Mazda and drove off towards the store. I was driving along the empty road when out of nowhere a car pulls out in front of me, giving me a fright. I slammed the breaks and rested my head against the wheel, suddenly feeling very sick. I dizzily opened the door and fell to the side of the road, vomiting all that had been eaten this morning.

After sitting on the cool pavement for what seemed like hours I got back into my car and drove the rest of the short distance to the store. My dizziness came and went as it pleased, and all of a sudden I was feeling a lot better for someone who had just been sitting on the side of the street puking.

I walked into the comforting heater of the store and acknowledged a few of my co-workers with a 'hey'. I got to work straight away straightening and putting the piano books in order. I was figuiring out where Beethoven symphony 7 went when I ran to the bathroom and dry heaved until tears streamed down my face. If Mike gave me that stupid swine flu that was going around, I was going to kill him.

I sighed and stood up slowly, trying to find my balance when Angela walked in. "You okay Bella?"

"Sorta, not really. I don't feel well. Can you tell Meg I'm going home." Though Meg was my boss she was definitely one of the most coolest people I had ever met.

"Bella, did you throw up?"

"What was possible after my episode this morning, why?"

"I don't mean to pry, but um, did you ever consider that maybe you're pregnant?" I stood there with my mouth gaping. I had never thought I could become pregnant with Jasper's baby, considering he was a vampire and all. But we never researched it, and we never used any protection.

"I- I have to go." I managed to get out of my mouth. I ran from the building until I was comforted by the warmth and smell of my car. I took a few deep breaths and drove mindlessly around Forks. I finally decided a pregnancy test was in order, so I pulled into the service station and bought the test while getting weird looks from Jessica as she sold it to me. Nothing is private. I thought to myself.

I went home as fast as possible on the wet roads and ran straight to my bathroom to read the instructions on the packet. I had to wait for five gruesome minutes until I could find out? Great. I peed unmercifully on the stick and set it down on the bathroom sink ledge before washing my hands vigorously. I was visibly shaking by the time I went to change out of my work clothes, I found it difficult to undo the buttons on my shirt let alone pull it off myself.

After changing I walked back into the bathroom to grab the stick. I purposely didn't look. I didn't like the idea of my future being on a little stick I marked with my urine. I lied down on my bed and closed my eyes for a long minute before peeking out of one eye and lifting the test over my eye. Positive. I couldn't believe my life was all layed down in front of me like this.

Considering I didn't know anything about vampire babies, and neither did any other human on the planet I decided I'd have to get in contact with Jasper, quick smart. I pulled my phone from my bedside table and dialled the familiar number. After the first two rings he picked up. His voice sounded strained and upset.

Hello?

"Hey Jazz."

Bella! Oh my god! Are you okay? How are you?

"Jasper, I'm not good." I bit my lip deciding on what to say next when there was an expectant silence on the other line.

Bella?

"I'm pregnant Jazz."

What? How is that- look I'll be there as soon as possible, I'm only in Seattle. I will see you soon.

I closed my phone and watched my window silently for twenty minutes until Jasper jumped through it. I jumped up and ran into his arms, letting tears cloud my vision. Jasper wrapped his arms around me and leaned his face into my hair. It felt so good to be with him again.

"Bella. Bella." Jasper cooed. I didn't realise how much I missed the sound of his sweet, velvet voice. I put my arm on my stomach reflexively and stared up at Jasper. He smiled down at my and placed one of his hands over the one on my stomach. I leaned into his touch and reasted my head against his shoulder.

"Did you know human could get pregnant?"

"I knew it was a one in a million chance, I'm sorry I didn't warn you it was possible. But no contraception works with mutant vampire sperm anyway." I laughed and motioned with my hands for him to continue. "The pregnancy will go as a normal humans would, the only thing that will be different about our baby than a humans is that she may or may not have supernatural powers like Edward, or myself. Oh, and she will stop growing when she hits the age of about 16 and become immortal with us."

A/N I hated how renesmee was with the whole, growing fast, super pregnancy, and blood thing so I made it how I wanted. Thats what fanficiton is all about anyway isnt it? :)

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