(A/N): I had to come and do an epilogue. I was hit with sudden inspiration... Yes, inspiration rocks. And, I just had to do this. It just seemed like a fitting ending to a dark story.
Shuichi and Yuki go back to the apartment Hiro and Shu once shared together. They were going to pack everything up and take it back to Yuki's place. Upon packing up Hiro's things (just so you know, this took Shuichi a lot of courage and strength to do this...and, if anyone is wondering, all of Hiro's stuff had been sitting in that apartment for a year. Shuichi still paid the rent and stuff, because he couldn't cope with giving the place up), Shuichi stumbled upon what looked to be like Hiro's journal, which, turns out, was just one of many. There was only one entry in the one Shuichi found. So, basically, Hiro didn't use the whole notebook that he put that entry in. Why? Because he just started it before he died. This is all I am going to tell you, because...well, you have to read the rest to find out. This is Hiro's journal entry.
Epilogue:
Step one, you say we need to talk
He walks, you say sit down, it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to the right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong?
I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness
And, I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
'Cause, after all, you do know best
Try to step past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you told him all along
Pray to God he hears you
Pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong?
I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And, I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I know how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or, break with the ones you followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or, he'll say he's just not the same
And, you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong?
I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And, I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I know how to save a life
It's been so long now. I don't know what to do anymore. Shuichi hasn't gotten any better. We moved away from Kyoto three years ago to escape the past, but the past seems to always follow him. I wish there was just something I could do to help him. He asked me not too long ago if God hated him. Of course, I said that God didn't hate him. God doesn't hate anyone. Then, he looked at me all strange and asked if it was wrong to hate himself. I didn't want to tell him it was wrong because I knew he would feel guilty, but I most certainly wasn't going to tell him that it was okay to hate himself. Who knows what he would have done if I told him that?...
I just don't know what to do anymore. It's all I can do to stay with him. He depends on me. He clings to me like a life support, and I just want to be able to make him better. I thought when he met Yuki-san that things would get better. And, they did. They really did. I always knew, since the day Shuichi told me Yuki-san asked him to meet up with him that Saturday to go see the city that he would be the one that would heal Shuichi. I knew for a long time that I couldn't heal Shu. But, I could be there for him. I made that promise to myself. I won't leave him, not for anything. Even if I die before he does, my spirit will always be there to help him.
Yuki-san was a huge help. Shuichi seemd to brighten up after meeting him and getting involved with him. But, then, that stupid Ryo had to show up after a three year silence. That man burns me inside and out. He's the whole reason Shuichi went on a downward spiral. Sure, Shuichi would have his depression moments, but after Ryo...it was a constant thing. He thought he loved Ryo and he thought Ryo loved him. But, that was completely shattered. And, I could never forgive Ryo for it. I won't let him get Shuichi again..
I just want Shuichi to get better. That's all I would ever ask. I want the old Shuichi back... I don't want him to keep feeling like he has no place in life. So what if his parents abandoned him, so what if my grandmother beat him and I, so what if his parents shot us, so what if Ryo shattered every ounce of liveliness inside of him, so what if my parents died... All of that doesn't matter anymore. All that matters is that Shuichi gets his life back in order. Maybe Yuki-san could do that. He could do it better than anyone else could. Maybe he could fill that void in Shuichi that I never could.
Well, I have to wrap this up.
Till next time,
Hirou
Shuichi's eyes filled with tears as he read, Yuki reading it over his shoulder.
"What does the song mean?" Yuki asked, taking Shuichi in his arms.
"If I am reading right, he based the song off of a conversation we had a long time ago. I think it was around a year after we moved here. The 'how to save a life part' I don't really know. I guess, he thought he couldn't help save me from losing myself..."
"He really cared about you, Shuichi. You know that right?"
"Yeah..."
"He wanted you to be happy."
"Yeah..."
"So, don't linger on this, okay?"
"Okay... Yuki...I love you."
"I love you, too."
I took Hiro's lyrics to Suguru to let him read it. Soon, we made it into a song. It was quickly a best seller. The song was made in dedication to Nakano Hiroshi, and the dedication was even stated on the album.
That night, while I was watching Yuki fall to sleep I felt something cold on my cheek, and something whisper, "Thank you..." I looked around and saw nothing, but the voice sounded familiar. I shrugged it off, though I was still shook up. Falling into a deep sleep, I had a dream. A face appeared and it said the same two words: "Thank you..." I smiled as my eyes opened slowly, the image still in my head.
"Your welcome...Hiro..."
(A/N): This is the end! If anyone is wondered about what Hiro's spirit was thanking Shuichi for, it was for recovering and becoming happy. And, partially because of the song. Shuichi finally found closure. Well, of course, I expect reviews. I want to know opinions about this... Was it good? Someone tell me if it was actually worth something. PLEASE REVIEW!
PS: I don't own Gravi. And, 'Hiro's song' was really How To Save A Life by The Fray.