(Thanks for all the great reviews! I agree that the story needst to have some more focus on the parents because now it's mostly Ryan, Marissa, and Summer which is great but I want to get a Sandy and Kirsten chapter in here sometime so next chapter well have Summer and Marissa and Ryan again but this chapter is for Sandy and Kirsten, thanks for pointing that out Cheeleader2006. See I do take all of your suggestions into consideration and some of them as you can tell I use! So keep on brining up suggestions, because they do help me see what the readers want to read!)

Kirsten's griefing will be similar to how Julie's dealing with Marissa's death because I think they are handling that extremly well and very believable and Kirsten herself would probably distract herself too if Seth died instead of Marissa.

Disclaimer: I borrowed the coffee scene from the movie Man of the Year where the Laura Linny character had drugs in her and she didn't know about it. She acted similar to my writing for Kirsten but I thought it was such a powerful scene and I thought it would be interesting if Kirsten flipped out that way because she had drugs in her that she did know about it. It's similar but different if that makes sense. So don't sue me! It'll make more sense if you saw the movie lol. If not I just wanted to point that out:)

Chapter 10

Julie and Niel and Jimmy walked Sandy and Kirsten back to their home.

"You okay Kiki?" Julie asked knowing how the funeral was for her.

"Yeah I'm fine." Kirsten said plastering a smile on her face. She sighed. "No I'm not fine. But I will be." Julie nodded.

"Remember if you need anything..."

"I know where to call." Kirsten squeezed Julie's arm. "Thank you. For everything." She said seriously.

"You would have done the same for us if one of our daughters died." Julie said thowing away that compliment.

"Thank God they didn't." Sighed Jimmy and Niel nodded in agreement. He wasn't sure what he'd do if he lost Summer.

"Well I'm glad for your sakes that you didn't." Sandy agreed. The other three adults looked at each other.

"Say Sandy you want to hang out sometime?" Jimmy asked. "Marissa and I are staying here for a while. Perapes we could golf and hang out and..." He trailed off at the look Julie gave him. "Or whatever." He shrugged.

"No thanks, not now." Sandy patted him on the shoulders. "But thanks for the offer. Perhapes I will take it up sometime."

"Sandy Cohen golfing?" Julie asked skeptically. "Now there's a sight I'd have to see."

After a few more minutes of polite conversations the Roberts and Jimmy finally left much to Kirsten and Sandy's relief. They were finally alone. Ryan was with Marissa and Summer so they didn't have to worry abou him for a while. But then, Kirsten realized, she'd be alone with Sandy. She wasn't sure if she'd like that seeing how uncomfortable things had been between them lately.

"I um...I just remembered." She said. "We're out of bagels and cream cheese. I need to run to the store and get them. You know how this family lives on bagels."

"Great, I'll come with you." Sandy offered.

"No it's all right, you don't have to." Kirsten said, waving her hand.

"Then Rosie will do it." Sandy told her firmly.

"I can do it." Kirsten snapped, equelly firmly. "I am capable of this one small task Sandy."

"Kirsten we are going to have to talk about this sometime." Sandy told her.

"I know." Kirsten said. "And we will! I swear. I just need to get the bagels and go to the pharmacy..."

"For what?" Sandy asked sharply.

"For my prescriptions." She said. "You know the medications the doctor prescribed me."

"You mean the anti-depressions?" Sandy asked arching his eyebrows. "I don't think the doctor meant to have you wolfing them down and consuming them with alcholol." Kirsten avoided his eyes.

"I don't know what you are talking about." She said firmly.

"Are you taking anything else that's not good for you?" Sandy asked. "Any other drugs?" Kirsten was silent. "Kirsten?

"No!" She shouted and grabbed the keyes from her purse. "Listen I'm fine Sandy, I really am fine."

"One more fine and I won't believe you." Sandy said trying to lighten the mood.

"I just need to do this errand all right Sandy? I need to do this errand and then...and then we'll talk."

"We better." Sandy said. "We can't avoid this forever." Kirsten looked at him with her eyes asking why but she nodded her head in agreement.

"I know." She said. "I know!" She repeated at the look Sandy gave her. "I know..." She said one more time and then hurried into her car. "I'll be back in a jiffy." She promised and took off before Sandy could say anything leaving him alone in a house full of memories that he wasn't ready to remember yet...

Scene switches to a grocery store. There Kirten is at a starbucks part of the store.

"I would really want my coffee today." She said, ansy.

"One cappachino coming right up." the man said. Kirsten drummed her fingers on the counter-trying to hold her hands still. For some reason they couldn't quite moving. The man watched her closley as she impatiently waited for her drink.

"I was here first!" She shouted to a guy that called out an order. The guy looked at her oddly muttering 'Bitch' before he left.

"Any day now!" She shouted to the man and he handed her the coffee. She took out her wallet from her purse, her hands shaking and shakingly gave him the right amount. He watched, worried. She picked up the cup and tried to stir in the suger and cream but the coffee spilled.

"Shit!" She shouted. "Shit, shit, shit." She grabbed napkins as she tried to clean it up. The man behidn the counter got the mop out. "My mess!" She shouted at him, grabbing the mop. "My mess and I'll clean it up, I can clean up one goddamned mess. Look at me! I'm a mess, godamn it this is so humiliting. Damn, damn, damn, look at this mess. Over one measly cup of coffee. Seth would be so dissapointed in me. So dissapointed..." She kept on muttering to herself while barely able to mop of the mess.

"Kirsten honey?" One of her Newport friends went to her. "Are you all right?"

"I'm fine!" She shouted. Her friend stared at her crazy eyes and looked at the man behind the counter.

"Call 911." She said and he nodded. "Call 911...Kirsten honey can you hear me? Everything's going to be all right, everything's going to be fine..."

"My mess, my mess. I don't need help. My mess...Oh God Seth would be so dissapointed in me if he was here, so dissapointed..."

"Eveything's going to be fine...Everything's going to be fine..."

"My mess...I don't need help, this is my mess...my mess...my mess..."