Ch8 Reactions
EPOV
I sat there, holding my angel, watching her sleep. The rest of the family was
in the living room , talking to Alice. When we first arrived, Jasper had thought
he had went crazy. When we finally convinced him that he wasn't, and that we
really were back, he literally attacked Alice. All I could hear in his mind was
" I love you, I love you, soo much!" He was saying out loud too.
He wouldn't let go of her. I knew it really tore him up to think that Alice was
dead, and I will always hate myself for leaving my family. For leaving her.
For Alice risking her life to come help me, for breaking her love's heart.
I hated myself so much, especially after what I saw in Jasper's mind.
He tried to block out his thoughts, but I caught a glimpse.
I saw......all the pain, all the suicidal thoughts, all the worry for Bella.
I saw the images of him and Bella in the corner. Grasping each other
and sobbing. If I could die, that single image would've killed me.
"I'm so sorry Jasper." I tried to tell him, but Alice already had him dancing
into with her into the kitchen. He unblocked his thoughts, and told me to go
see Bella.
He must have felt the pain, the pure hatred I had for myself.
But all of this was forgotten momentarily, as soon as I stepped
into the bedroom and saw her. I sat on the bed beside her.
She began crying, and I thought she had awoken. But she
was having a dream. A nightmare. Because of me.
She looked so tired and gaunt. She wasn't getting enough sleep.
Tortured by nightmares. All because of me. If possible, I hated myself
even more , then.
Then, she began to wake. I prepared myself for her reaction: love? Hatred?
But what I didn't expect was for her to think I was Jasper.
"Jasper, what's wrong? Were my nightmares causing me to scream again?
Oh, Jasper! I had the worst nightmare! I dreamt that he died because I was
too slow to save him! I miss him so much!"
I held her face with my hands, knowing that it was too dark for her to know that
it was me, and not Jasper.
She began shaking, she was crying so hard.
"Bella" I said, trying to calm her.
I felt her whole body tense up. Her heartrate accelerate.
She slowly looked up at me, then started screaming,
"No! No! This is a dream. This isn't real. It isn't real!"
She stumbled out of my arms and went running down the hall.
I hadn't expected that reaction. I expected her to hate me for leaving
her again.
I heard her run downstairs, her shrill screams shaking the house.
I sat on the bed, unmoving for a minute. Thinking.
Had I lost my Love? My Everything?
I knew it was wrong to leave her like that, again.
But, I didn't really have a choice, did I?
When I finally went downstairs, Bella was on the living room floor, shaking and crying,
while Carlisle was trying desperately to calm her.
She kept screaming , "No! No! No! No!"
Jasper and Alice walked in, hearing Bella's screams.
Jasper ran over to Bella and she clung to him, as tight as her small
hands could. He sat on the ground next to her and lifted her onto his lap.
"Jasper, I can't take it anymore. Not without him.
Not with these dreams. These nightmares."
He continued holding her, humming softly. This seemed to soothe her slightly.
Then, he began to speak to her quietly.
"Bella, it's real. Your Edward, and my Alice are back. It's not a
dream. I promise you Bella, I wouldn't lie to you about this, not
even in a dream."
Her eyes grew very large when he said this, and she stumbled to find words.
"You mean he- and she- and we? Oh Jasper!" she screamed, as she
gave him another tight hug.
Then, she slowly turned around to face me. I was quickly by her side.
I held her face in my hands, gazing in her eyes.
"Never let me go again" she begged.
"Don't worry, I won't" I whispered.
And we stood there, hand in hand, as I smelled her scent. Intoxicating. Felt her warmth.
Listened to her heartbeat. Saw her blush.
With her arms around me, everything felt right.
It felt like home.
Gunslinger By Avenged Sevenfold
I've always been true
I've waited so long just to come hold you
I'm making it through
It's been far to long
We've proven our love over time's so strong
In all that we do
The stars in the night,
They lend my their light
To bring me closer to Heaven with You
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