Chapter nine; I'm a lightweight, you're in control of my heart.

Nick and I decided to spend our one month anniversary at home. Actually, I'm the one who didn't wanted to go out. I knew that usually going out meant eating and the last thing I needed was food. My diet was going great. I would eat two or three meal a week. Every week I felt like I was actually coming closer to the perfect size. But that's not the point. The point was that I celebrated my first anniversary with my boyfriend. Not only my first anniversary with my boyfriend but also first anniversary at all. And also, something else happened on that day… Something I can never take back.

I must have spend four hours to get ready that day. I made sure my hair, nails, make up and basically everything about my appearance was perfect. Yes, I know, Nick and I have been friend forever so he saw me at my worst but that's no reason to look like crap.

Six o' clock finally arrived. Being the punctual guy that he is, Nick was already at my door. I smiled and wrapped my arms around him as soon as I open the door.

"Happy one month anniversary, baby!" I smiled hugely.

"Happy one month, babe." He smiled and kissed me. You would think after one month I would get used of this feeling but not at all. I still feel like my feet are taking off the ground and like everything is spinning around me. And that's only the feeling I feel from outside. The feeling I have inside is like a mix of butterflies and I don't know what. I haven't been able to describe that feeling yet. Did anyone did?

"Come in." I smiled pulling away.

"You look beautiful."

"Thank you…" I blushed. At that moment, I really hoped he was being honest. And I wanted to believe him but something inside of my head was telling me not too. I knew I wasn't. Angelina Jolie, Taylor Swift now these girls were beautiful. Selena, Nick's ex or Demi, Joe's girlfriend, these girls were beautiful. Not me.

"I bought you Starbuck." He smiled and hand me a iced coffee. "I know it's your favourite."

"It is… Thanks." I took a sip of my coffee. "So what do you want to do, boyfriend?"

"Movie night?" He smiled taking a movie out from his bag. "I knew you wanted to see that one so I thought we could watch it tonight." He smiled.

"Ah! Yes! I love you!"

"I love you too." He chuckle. "You want to watch it upstairs?"

"Euh, we can watch it in the living room?"

"No. Let's watch it in your room." He smiled and took my hand leading me to my own room.

"Okay." I laughed.

We started the movie and of course, it had to be one of the movies that once you've seen the trailer, you've seen everything. I was quite disappointed with this movie. The cast was great and all but it was missing something from the story line. Nick seemed pretty bored with it too since he kept kissing my cheeks. He was sitting behind me and I was sitting between his legs so it made it very easy for him to kiss me. Every time he would kiss my cheek I would giggle. Yes, very annoying of myself, I know. He then started to kiss my neck. Of course, in a month things had heathen up a bit but not that much. Usually we would kiss until we both needed oxygen and that's it. I got to admit, it felt kind of good though.

"Nick…" I moaned.

"Shhh." His hands made their way under my shirt. Usually I would have pulled away but his hands sent chills all over my body, I just couldn't pull away. His body then slowly made its way on top of mine. Of course he wasn't putting any weight on me, probably too scare to crushed me. We kissed, one of those passionate kiss we'd share. The one that would last until we would ran out of oxygen. This time, his hands made their way to my bra. He unclipped it and took it off under my shirt.

"Nick…" I spoke pulling away out of breath.

"Shh, Miley." I did as he told me. I needed to relax. Tons of girls were doing this with their boyfriend. It was time for me to give it a shot. We kissed once again and this time his hands made its way to my boobs. He massaged them and yes, it did felt pretty awesome. I moaned through the kiss and he smirked and then pulled away and his hand made its way to the end of my shirt.

"Can I?" He asked politely. I simply nodded. It would be okay. Last month I would have been insecure about my weight and of course, I still was. But I was getting closer to the perfect size. It would be okay, I told myself. He took my shirt off and smirked checking me out. I blushed. "You are beautiful, Miley." He said and kissed me once again. His hands made their way to my boobs once again. This time, it got more intense. Our legs intertwined and the kiss only got more passionate. Nick pulled away and started kissing my neck as he massaged my boobs. I moaned and he just kept on going.

"I love you, Nick…" I said.

"I love you too, Mi." He smiled and his way made its way to my pants. He unbuttoned them and slowly slid them off and kissed me once again. "So much." He said pulling away and then kissed me once again. His hands now made their way to my thigh and he rubbed them. I felt a weird feeling down. I wasn't a complete idiot, I knew what was going on. "It does feel pretty good, eh?" He chuckle.

"Mhm…" I moaned.

"Alright, now let me do something else." I simply nodded and he took my underwear off. He looked up at me to know if I was okay. I nodded once again. He started rubbing me and all I could let out was moans. Then I felt his fingers inside of me. It did feel kind of weird at first but then it felt so good. After a while he inserted another one.

"Nick… Don't.. stop…" I finally spoke. I didn't know what was going on with me. But damn, it felt so good. Nick chuckled and kept on going for a while and then he stopped and looked at me.

"You ready?" I bit my bottom lips. I was. I needed to be. And after what he did to me, he couldn't leave me like this.

"I think I am…" I nodded. He smiled and took his shirt off. I putted my hand on his chest.

"Your heart is beating fast…"

"It's always beating that fast when I'm with you. You sure your ready?" I nodded once again.

"Good. Because you're so sexy, I can't resist anymore." I smiled a little shyly. Then his pants went off and his boxers. My eyes widened at his 'man hood.' Wow…

"You okay?" He chuckled. I simply nodded again.

"Can I…?" He chuckled once again and nodded. I touch his man hood and starting rubbing it without even noticing.

"Miley…" Nick groaned. Now I realize what I was doing.

"Oh… Sorry." I immediately stopped. Nick laughed a little.

"No… No. Don't stop…"

"Oh… Sorry…" I started rubbing him once again. As I did he took a condom out and looked at me.

"I love you, you know that?" I nodded.

"I love you too…" And the next thing I knew, he was inside of me. And damn, it hurted at first. It was my first time. My first time at everything. I never did any of this with anyone. Well, Liam but I tried to forgot about that one. Nick was nice though. He waited a bit at first when he saw me winced. When I finally gave him the signal he kept on going and a couples of minutes later it felt pretty great.

And that's the definition of one thing lead to another. I could guarantee, when I woke up that morning I never thought I would have sex. Well, to me it was more than sex. It was love. I lied my head on his chest after just to listen to his heartbeat. "Your heart is still beating fast…" I said.

"Yeah, well… I got to go, Miley." He said sitting up.

"What? I thought you were spending the night…" I said sitting up covering myself with my blankets.

"Turned out I can't." He kissed my forehead "I love you. I'll call you later tonight."

"But Nick.." I spoke.

"I love you, Mi. I'll call you okay?" He said raising his tone a bit.

"Okay…" I finally said.

I watched him leave that night. I stayed in bed and tears streamed down my face. He probably got an emergency or something. He wouldn't sleep with me and just leave… That's not Nick. He told me he loved me so many times tonight. I told myself he would have spent the night but he just couldn't. I kept telling myself that. A couples of hours later, I grabbed my lap top and went on facebook. I needed to change my mind a little. Nick was the first post on there. He was tagged in a picture. "13 minutes ago from mobile web." There he was. At a party. With guys. With beers. With girls. I quickly closed my lap top and threw it on the ground. I didn't care if it broke. I really didn't. "Happy one month anniversary, babe." I told myself and cuddle up in a little ball position and cried.

Something happened on that day. Something I can never take back.

A/N: Sorry if some of you don't like Rated M. scene I just thought it was important to demonstrate Nick's character! Please tell me what you think: If you want more rated M or not. Please review! Btw, Have you guys heard Unbroken? I think the album is awesome! I name this chapter after one of her song. I love Demi. :)