Hi again,

Another short one- building up ;) everything needs a build up

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Cold

Everything thing about this whole week has been cold

So god dam cold, that I tried going for a run and needed a scarf and ear muffs- and yet my nose is as red a Rudolph's

I sigh into my cereal bowl, looking at the over cast outside

Dreaming of the days I was back at camp, waking up sweaty and tired and always covered in a layer of dirt even if I had showered the night before

'All packed' Aunt Cathy shouts from upstairs as Caleb waddles down with yet another suitcase

How did this boy have so much stuff.

I continue to eat my breakfast watching him struggle, he's the one who wanted to take so much stuff

I finish eating and place the bowl in the sink

While I got up at my normal running time It was strange for everyone to be up, but since Caleb was moving out to college today it's to be expected

Again I sigh, making sure it was heard

While me an Caleb have drifted over the years, he's still my brother

And dam is this house going to be empty without him

What with Cathy's late night and strange work hours at the hospital this place will basically be mine

And I revel in the thought

I smile to myself, I can have music as loud as I want, eat what I want

'Come on' I hear Caleb shout through the front door

Once again I sigh, its Saturday

The day I get to get down and sweat with Four

However we haven't had a session since the kiss, and dam I couldn't wait

Well I had to wait

Because not only did I have to cancel I have to travel in the car for two hours there and back just to drop Caleb off

I love Caleb- but he's not going that far away

I rush to the car, the grass under my feet crunching from it freezing over, and slide into the back of the car

Cathy pulls away going over a checklist of all the things Caleb had to make sure he had

I stare out the window throwing in some headphones

This really was going to be a long drive, Cathy could be just as anal about organisation as Caleb

No wonder they always got on so well- plus super bonus about Caleb getting full scholarship, means that I can go to college

Cathy works crazy hours, and because of a legal issue the money from mum and dads insurance cannot be issued till we are 21

However Cathy has been saving since she got up- praying she could afford for the pair of us to go to college, and no it's not such a big deal since she only has to pay for me

Well till I get my inheritance then I plan to pay her back as best I can

We stop at some red lights and I notice Four.

He's stood in the cold, unloading a box from a van with a small Asian woman

I look harder and notice him walking into a small semidetached house

Well that explains why he cancelled on me before I cancelled on him

I calm down a little bit more now

I was half way through typing my text when his sounded telling me he couldn't do out class today

This must be why

I frown slightly watching him interact with this woman

But before I can think to hard we are driving away

And so the car ride from hell begins

And when I say hell I mean hell

Every time Cathy has to drive more than half an hour she gets….. a little loopy

Like so loopy she starts singing kids songs

You know the typical 'the wheels on the bus' and other bullshit like that

I guess it's because she's always in the children's part of the hospital

But still, there are only so many things I can put up with

And that is definitely not one of them

I force another sigh out and sit in for the long haul

…

I was lied to

The two hours there and back didn't account for the fact that Cathy cried, and we stuck around for another 3 hours

My Saturday is gone, dead where it stands

Granted my original plan had been cancelled on me, but I could be doing so much more

And I could be warm

Oh warmth how I miss you

Finally I pry Cathy away from Caleb and let him make his way back into his dorm room

His roommate must think we are crazy people

'He's just so grown up' Cathy sobs a little as we now make our way home

It doesn't matter that we left at 10am by the time we get home it will be five

I still feel a little burst of energy- hopefully it lasts and I can at least get another run out tonight

I don't want my muscles to relax to much otherwise I will freeze up in class on Monday and no way do I want that to happen

With the Christmas holidays coming up, Mondays session will be the last one this year

I had to be ready

…

I can see the town ahead of us

I can't wait to get home in the real warmth; the heating in the car makes me feel sick

But alas that hope was killed, by the beeping of Cathy's pager

'Fuck' She whispers under her breath before turning the car left instead of straight on

Straight on was home, left was to the hospital

'Tris, there's an emergency and I have to go straight the hospital- are you okay to make you way home, can you get Chris to pick you up ?'

Before she had even asked, Chris had replied saying she was on her way

'Yer that's fine' I say smiling

I can't wait to get out of her company, four hours in the car is way to long

We pull up to the hospital, and Cathy runs off

Waving over her shoulder

I stand in the parking lot scanning the cars for Chris's but I can find it

So screw it I'm going to sit in the waiting room

The blast of hot air if beautiful when I enter the building, smiling at the receptionist I take a seat

Not ten seconds after I sit down, I hear it

'What do you mean it's broken?' I look up, and leaning over the counter with a metal cast over his thumb is peter

I tune out the rest of the conversation, praying that he just walks past and doesn't notice me

'Ever heard of privacy' I look up

Great

'Privacy is hard to have when shouting all over the waiting room' I say, standing up

I don't like the feeling of him towering over me

'Watch your fucking lip stiff' He snarls before walking away

'Fuck you- coward' I say under my breath

I'm about to sit down when he turns on me, his face red

'You think I'm a coward- I broke this fighting, not pansying around learning to meditate. I have fucking medals in things you wouldn't even fucking dream existed' He's closer now

Before I even have chance to come up with a comeback I hear a small voice behind him

'Oow scary- come on Tris'

I step around him and follow Chris to her car, parked right outside the doors

I don't get how this girl doesn't have parking tickets coming out of her ears

'What was that about?' She says sliding into the driver's seat and passing me some fries

'No Idea' I say laying into the salty goodness

'I grabbed ice cream as well' She says patting the giant tub in the back

'Whoa- whats the occasion' I try to say around a mouthful of food

'Well I thought since Four ditched you today- you could do with cheering up' She smiles sympathetically

Great, way to make a girl doubt her powers

I know I'm plain, there's nothing really special about me

I'm just plain old Tris prior

And if my best friend can't even think a guy like Four would be interested then I have no chance

Maybe that kiss was a one time thing

I feel like he has been avoiding me all week, I have barely seen him and when I have its just been fleeting

And once again I feel like I'm obsessing

But dam this boy confuses me, he's so hard to understand

At times he's a prick, while others he is so caring

And yes, all the time he is sexy

I don't know how he does it

I settle into the hamburger and decide that I will find out if that kiss meant anything to him

And if it did

I'm not letting this chance go

I just want to thank the lovely reviewers- the key reason this chapter is up now and not tomorrow

You guys are so sweet- I love that you like the story, and soon- very soon we shall have our tris and four :p

xoxo

Sammy