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BPOV
Over the past couple of days everyone hanged around in the house and around the pool. Most of the time you couldn't even find Emmett and Rose but you could definitely hear them. Alice, Rose and I would cook dinner some nights instead of going out every night. I talked to Abby everyday to check in on her, but it only made me miss her even more.
It wasn't awkward between Edward and I, we tended to just ignore what had happen the other night and start to try and be good friends, but we both knew that we needed to talk everything out and soon.
Seth had called yesterday to ask everyone if they wanted to come to their cookout in Sunday and if course Emmett was excited about that. He gave us the details and directions for the resort they were staying at.
It was now Saturday and we had almost been in Barbados for a week. Today Jasper was taking Alice out the whole day to do whatever she wanted and then tonight he was going to surprise her with a romantic dinner on a boat he rented, while Emmett and Rose were taking a tour of the inland today.
I was cleaning up my dishes from breakfast when Edward came strolling in the kitchen.
"Hey." I turned to him and saw a huge smile on his face and I noticed he had already put his bathing suit on.
"Hey where are you headed off to this morning?"
"Well since it is such a beautiful day and all of our friends ditched us I figured maybe we could head out for a day at the beach."
"That sounds perfect just let me finish the dishes and put my bathing suit on and then we can go."
"Alright."
I finished with the dishes and went upstairs to pick my swimsuit on and cover up. I put on my baby blue bathing suit(Picture on profile) and grabbed my beach bag and headed downstairs to find Edward waiting for me in the living room.
"Hey you ready to go?" He asked me.
"Yep all ready." I said with a small smile appearing on my lips.
We made our way out to the beach to find a spot. We were getting settled when I looked to find Edward removing his shirt. His stomach was a perfectly defined six pack which led to the small 'v' leading on downward. His arms weren't overly big but just the right amount of muscle. I found myself wanted to lick every inch of him from head to toe.
Oh my god where did that come from Bella?
I turned away quickly when I found him staring at me while I was ogling at him and then of course I could feel my blush creeping onto my face.
"Oh don't worry Bella you can stare all you want." He said jokingly with a huge grin on his face.
"Oh god let's not inflate your ego."
Now it was his turn to watch me. I stood up to remove my cover up. I knew I looked good in this particular bathing suit, it was part the reason I picked to wear out here and I knew that my body was in shape. I worked hard to have the body I do. All that time working out finally paid off because I looked to find Edward now staring at me. Edward's gaze didn't make me uncomfortable in fact he was probably the only guy I wouldn't feel uncomfortable with. Now it was my time to tease him.
"Edward if you keep your mouth open any longer flies are going to pick up residence in there." I laughed as Edward immediately closed his mouth.
"Sorry."
"Oh don't worry about it I know I look good." I said teasing him.
I settled down beside him on my towel and looked over the ocean. It was the perfect day for the beach. It was sunny and hot but there was enough breeze to cool things off. The beach wasn't crowded at all. There was barely anyone near us. I took in all the scenery, this place truly was paradise.
"It is so beautiful out here." I said while taking in everything around us.
"It really is. This place is so relaxing and calm. It makes me never want to leave."
"Come on I'll race you to the water." I got up and started to run but Edward was right behind.
"No fair you cheated ."
"Oh come on Cullen, catch me if you can."Right as I said that he caught up with me, picked me up and threw me over his shoulder.
"EDWARD CULLEN, put me down right now." I shouted but that did not stop him as he went deeper into the water before throwing me into the ocean.
"Oh you are going to pay for that." I said as I started to swim back over to Edward.
"What are you going to do about it Swan." He said with a sly grin on his face.
When I was close enough I tried jumping on top of him but instead he caught me in his arms.
"Hey no fair, I have a disadvantage." I said as I turned in his arms to wrap my arms around his neck and my legs around his waist. It wasn't weird between us when I did it. We both treated it as if we were both friends and I know was beginning to think we actually were friends.
"Oh and what would that be?"
"I don't have muscles like you."
"Oh well I have my own disadvantage too." He said while wrapping his arms around me tightly as if he never wanted to let me go.
"And what's that?"
"You. You are my only weakness." I didn't know what came over me it was as if I was being pulled to Edward at that exact moment. I pressed my lips to Edward in a soft gentle chaste kiss because I didn't want to give Edward the wrong idea. After I pulled away I pulled him into a hug, just wanting to feel his body against mine. I don't know how long I sat there in his strong arms and it wasn't until Edward said something that I was pulled away from him.
"As much as I would love to stay in this exact place I think we should get out of the water before we turn into prunes."
"Ok." I untangled my body from his and started to walk back to the beach.
After a while we went inside and got something to eat. After we ate we both took showers and then for the rest of the day we found some old movies in the cabinets that we watched. After the current movie we were watching turned off we took and break and started to talk.
"So what are you going to do about Tanya?"
"Well I am not going to try and contact her anymore and when we get back to Charlotte I am going to pack up her shit and send it Alaska. I don't even want to see her fucking face." I sat their because I didn't know what to say. "But you know I tried so hard to lover her and tried to convince myself that I loved her but deep down I knew that there was only one person in my heart." I sat there trying to digest what Edward had said. Maybe one day and one day soon we could finally be together again. The only thing I ever wanted was to be with him, but it wasn't that simple anymore. I wanted so bad to crawl up against him and have him hold me.
"So what is going on with you and Seth?" Edward asked unsure of what I would say.
"I don't know I really do like him and he is a really great guy but I think I see him more as a friend or a brother rather than a love interest."
"Why?"
"I don't know, I don't really see myself with him."
"You mean he is not your type?"
"He's not you." I whispered looking down at my hands. It was my turn to tell him where I stood. It was time that we talked and left everything out in the open.
"Over the past five years, I have tried moving on, tried to live my life the way a 25 year old is suppose too. Alice tried repeatedly to get me to go on dates. I went out on a couple of dates, but I never really knew why I didn't like them." I looked over to Edward who was gazing at me. "I went onto my date with Seth open minded. It was the first real date that I had been on with a guy I actually liked without Alice's interference. On that date I realized why I never liked any of the guys. They weren't you Edward."
Edward left his seat on the other couch and walked over to join me. He intertwined our hands and encouraged me to go on. It was my time to speak.
"Every guy that I went out on dates I looked to find you in them but they aren't you, no one will ever be you and I can't give anyone a chance because my heart is with you and I never got it back. I guess all this time I was waiting for you to come back to me but you never did. I thought maybe one day I would find you at my door or get a call from you but I never did, not once." I was crying right now letting everything from my heart out. Edward pulled me into a hug but I pulled away from him.
"Why Edward? Why did you leave me?" I sat there waiting for Edward's response but he said nothing. I was about to say something but Edward started to talk.
"I know it stupid to say this but I got scared. I loved you so much that I thought it wouldn't last. I thought you would realize you loved someone else or leave me and I would be left heartbroken. When I started to feel this way that is when I started to pull away from you. We rarely saw each other because of school and I was already in deep with my father. He kept badgering me about the career I had chosen. I constantly felt pressure to live up to my father so I threw myself into work so that one day maybe he would be proud me and what I accomplished. I would be up late working, I barely got any sleep. I kept thinking about you and I finally cracked." He finally looked up into my eyes but my blood was boiling.
I pulled away from him and stood up trying to calm myself. "You thought since you loved me so much that I didn't love you as much and you thought I would leave? You wanted to end the relationship so you wouldn't get hurt first? Well you know look at what happened I was the one who got heartbroken. You were the one to leave me not the other way around. I was the one who got their heart torn into a million pieces by the one they loved. Me not you."
"I am so sorry Bella, I can't tell you how sorry I am and I hope that one day you will forgive me so I can spend the rest of my life making it up to you. I want to be with you. I want you to be my wife one day, the mother of my children." I immediately tensed and Edward got up to walk over to me. "I want to be with you forever." The look in his eyes was genuine, he meant every word and I wanted nothing more than to be with him too but I needed to tell him one more thing.
"Edward I need to …" He didn't let me finished when he crashed his lips to mine. I needed to tell him about Abby but I just wanted to be in his arms right now, so I forgot all about what I was going to say and I let myself get lost into Edward. I would tell him later.
The kiss was the most passionate kiss I ever experienced. He withdrew his lips from mine so we could catch our breaths but Edward's lips immediately went to my neck. My hands found their way into Edward's hair. Edward's hands were running along my body inside of my shirt. I pulled closer to him so there was no room between us.
Edward picked me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist.
"I have wanted you so much since I came back to Charlotte." He said out of breath as me made his way with me in tow to the bedroom.
I brought my lips to his ear, "Don't stop I want you." I whispered. He layed me down in his bed, moving over, his eyes roaming all over me. I pulled his shirt over his head, I didn't want anything between. Edward responded in the same way pulling my cover off my shirt. I let everything go in that moment and let myself get lost in Edward.
EPOV
She was absolutely beautiful. I settle myself between her legs and made my down to her breasts. I took her breast into my mouth lightly sucking on it while I kneaded the other one in my hand. Bella started to remove my pants and boxers but I could tell she was nervous because she could barely get them off, so I stood up removed my hardened cock from my pants.
I heard a gasp escape from Bella's mouth as she stared down at my engorged cock. I climbed back on top of Bella and made my way down her body so I could remove the one last article of clothing that separated us. I started to tease her by pacing light kisses on the inside of her thighs. She started to squirm underneath my touch. She was already dripping wet for me.
"Please Edward." She moaned
"What do you want Bella?"
"Please just touch me." I started to lick her wetness and then I plunged my tongue deep inside her. Her hips jerked instantly.
"Oh god, Edward." She moaned. Hearing my name on her lips made my cock twitch. She brought her hands into my hair and guided me looking for more friction. I could feel her orgasm starting to come. Her legs began to shake and I could taste her arousal.
"Edward." She screamed. I flicked her clit and pushed my face into her one last time before she climaxed into my mouth.
I made my way back up her body. She pulled her mouth to mine frantically trying to get as close as possible. My cock was right at her entrance waiting. I needed to know though if this was what she wanted.
"Oh god Edward, I need to be inside of you. Please. Fuck me." She begged. That was all I needed to hear.
I put my hands on her hips and pushed myself deep inside her. "Oh god Bella you're so tight." I started to move in and out of her. She wrapped her legs around me allowing me to thrust deeper inside of her.
"Ah, Edward." She moaned. "Fuck me harder." I couldn't resist something like that so I began to thrust into her harder each time. She started to meet each one of my thrust and I could feel I was getting close.
"Cum Bella, I want you to cum all over me." My breath was ragged from being out of breath. I reached between us a flicked her clit.
"Oh god Edward." She said right before she tightened around me and came. That was all I needed and I released my seed inside of her.
"That was amazing!"
"That doesn't even describe it."
My body collapsed on top of hers. When I moved to get off of her she stopped me. "Please just stay like this for a little while." I rested my head in the crook of her neck.
"Whatever you want my Bella." We stayed like that until our bodies had calmed. I was still buried deep inside her when I heard Bella's stomach growl.
"Come on Bella let's get you something to eat." I gave her one last kiss before I reluctantly started to pull out of her.
"No I don't want to move. I want to stay like this." She said as she pulled my body back to hers.
"As much as I would like to stay right here you need to put some food in your system."
"Fine but could you not put a shirt on. You look so damn sexy without one on."
"Ok." I chuckled.
We got up from the bed and Bella dress in my shirt and her panties while I put on some gym shorts on and made our way down to the kitchen.
After we got done we went back to the living room to watch some more movies. Bella this time cuddled in to me between my legs with her back against me.
Half way through the movie I looked down to a sleeping Bella. I unwrapped myself from Bella and picked her up so I could carry her to her room. My room needed to have their sheets washed after today's festivities. I layed Bella in her bed and pulled the covers around her. She looked so beautiful and peaceful asleep. Then I turned the lights and left her alone to sleep.
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BPOV
I woke up to find myself in my bed rather than in Edward's arms. Today everything had changed in our relationship. We told each other everything that needed to be said. Except Abby. I was about to tell him when Edward attacked me and I allowed myself to get lost in Edward. I don't regret how things happened. All I wanted was Edward. Things were finally starting to seem right between us. I needed to know what this meant for us though.
I looked over at the clock. 8:23. Crap. How long had I been out?
I put some shorts on and made my way downstairs. I looked around but I couldn't find Edward anywhere. I went into the kitchen to get something to drink when I found a note on the refrigerator.
I'm on the beach if you would like to come and join me.
-Edward.
I made my way to the beach and spotted Edward. I positioned myself between his legs like how we were on the couch earlier. He wrapped his arms around me and gave me a kiss on the cheek. We sat there in silence watching the ocean. I finally broke the peaceful silence.
"Edward, what does this all mean now?" I said looking up into his eyes.
"I want you. Forever. But what do you want this to mean?" he asked with a bit of fear in his voice.
"I want you too. I want this, I want us back. But I can't handle you leaving me again. I couldn't bear it."
"I'm not leaving this time. I have learned from my mistakes. I wouldn't be able to put you or me through that pain again." There was a moment of silence between us. "I love you so much Bella."
"I love you too Edward." I said without a bit of hesitation.
We continued to sit there a bit longer enjoying each other's company. "Can we not tell everyone yet about this? I don't want to have to explain everyone right now. This is a shock even to me to be where we are."
"Of course. But the next time we are alone you are mine."
"Oh you can count on that." I laughed.
"That means tomorrow you are going to cut your ties with Seth right?"
"Yeah I mean I still want to be friends, I think the only reason that I even went out with him was because he was a nice guy and I wanted to make you jealous." I admitted.
"Oh well mission accomplished."
We sat on the beach a little while longer before we made our way into the house. I was surprised that Emmett and Rose had not made it back yet but I wouldn't have been shocked if they had checked into a hotel because of certain reasons. I had anticipated not seeing Alice and Jasper till the next morning since he rented the boat all night long.
We made our way upstairs to go to sleep but when Edward started to go his separate way I pulled him back to me.
"Will you stay with me tonight?"
"I was hoping you would ask that." He smiled that breathtaking smile I loved so much.
That night Edward and I cuddled into each other all night. I couldn't have been happier in that moment, to be in the arms of the man that I loved.
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