A tragedy need not have blood and death; it's enough that it all be filled with that majestic sadness that is the pleasure of tragedy

~Jean Racine

"When you encounter Travis, he won't surrender nor go down that easily. He firmly believes that Selena is his sister, Emily. Don't try to arrest him or antagonize him. Just inform the others and wait for back up." Rossi briefed officers as they set out on the patrol to find Travis.

Hotch insisted Lily to stay at the station but after few minutes of arguing, they came to compromise. Hotch would allow her to go on the patrol as long as she stays with Morgan and JJ.

Morgan shot a amused smiled at Lily as she pout and sulk in the back seat.

"Seriously. I'm not a baby! Why does Hotch always treat me like one?" Lily grumbled. JJ turned around gave her a motherly smile. "I mean really JJ! Do I act like a kid?"

JJ and Morgan exchanged a look.

"What?" Lily pouted.

"Nothing" Morgan smirked. Lily opened her mouth to protest, but the phone rang. Lily glared at Morgan and flipped open her phone. "Yes, Garcia?"

"Okay, I looked into any possible property he would have been using..." Garcia started.

"Wait Garcia, let me merge the call" Lily fumbled with the phone and quickly called Hotch. "Hotch, Garcia might have something"

"Okay, I found out that Emily owned a small warehouse on the outskirt of the town. It's suppose to be vacant. No one claimed after her death but my guess is that Travis has been there."

"Where is it?" Hotch asked as he stepped on the gas. As soon as Garcia gave them the address, Lily hung up and grabbed anything she could so she won't fly off the car.

Lily gently pushed the door and found it unlocked. She looked at Morgan who nodded her in response. The door whined as it opened. Six lights darted around as the team entered the building. The corridor was long and full of doors. They all checked the doors as they approached the end of the corridor. Lily checked the door at the end of the corridor and it was also unlocked. She pushed it open and stepped it... or she thought she was stepping in. There was nothing underneath her feet. She gasped as her body dropped down. With loud thud, she hit the ground.

"Lily!" Morgan whispered. He knelt down to see where she had fallen. Few steps on the stair were missing and there was no railing. She must have mis-stepped and fell off the stair.

"I'm fine... Watch your step" Lily grunted. She looked up as she rubbed her lower back. There, she saw someone. She gasped and raised her flash light, followed by her weapon. The person gasped and ran off. "STOP! FBI!" Lily screamed as she scrambled to her feet.

Morgan was carefully coming down the stair when he heard Lily yelled and started running after someone. He jumped down from the stair and ran after Lily. He could hear Hotch and JJ doing the same.

"I SAID STOP!" Lily yelled again. The person turned the corner and she followed. As soon as she turned the corner, something flew toward her. She ducked and heard Morgan grunt behind her. She didn't have time to turn around and check if he is alright because something shiny flashed in front of her. She jumped back and something grabbed her hand and twisted it behind her back. She felt her gun dropping.

"Damn it" Rossi cursed as he saw two men dart after Lily. They didn't go that far. Soon Rossi saw Morgan getting knocked over. Hotch ran next to Morgan to help him up while keeping gun pointed toward where they thought mystery person was. They heard Lily grunt and something metal dropping to the ground.

Rossi finally found the mystery person holding Lily's arm behind her back and had a knife on her throat. It was clearly Travis.

"Who are you guys?" he asked in hoarse voice.

"We are FBI" Hotch answered.

"What? Why is FBI doing here?" Travis tightened his grip on Lily's arm. She flinched.

"Travis, I know this is hard, but your sister is dead." Hotch's voice was calm and gentle but Travis flinched as if Hotch was yelling.

"Wha-what are you ta-talking about? She was just wi-with me" Travis stuttered.

"Travis." Lily said gently as she touched Travis' hand that was holding a knife with her free hand. "Listen. Emily is dead. She died a year ago. Remember?"

"You shut up." Travis tighten his grip even more. Lily flinched but didn't stop talking.

"It was car accident-"

"Shut up"

"You guys got in the car accident while going to picnic."

"I said shut up"

"Travis, believe me. I know how it feels like to lose your family."

"Shut up! She is NOT dead!" Everyone tensed at the sight of red liquid start trickling down the knife.

"Travis... I know you must have felt so helpless when you saw Emily dying." Lily continued regardless.

"Shut up or else I will kill-"

"I lost my entire family and couldn't do anything, too." Travis flinched at Lily's voice. Her voice was honest and sad. "One day, someone came into my house and killed my family. I was there. I... just watched as he killed my family. I couldn't scream. I couldn't fight. I just stood there helpless as they died. I couldn't do anything"

Travis didn't say anything for a while. He just blinked and swallowed. He bit his lips and finally spoke.

"I... should have been paying attention while driving instead of getting angry at stereo."

"Travis-"

"I should have kept my eyes on the road!" tears started to trickle down Travis' face. He slowly lowered his knife and let go of Lily's arm. Hotch and others tried to slowly move in. Travis was still holding onto the knife and no one knew when he will try to use it again. Lily raised her hand and gave the team a look not to come near yet.

She turned and faced Travis fully. Travis flinched when he felt a gentle hand touching his face.

"It hurts. Doesn't it?" She whispered.

"What...?" Travis gave her puzzled face.

"The guilt. You feel like you killed her. It hurts so much that it immobilize you. You wish it would have been you instead of her." She stared into Travis' eyes. He stared back then suddenly, he broke down.

"Yes... it hurts..." Travis felt face crumpled like a dry withered leaf. Something in his stomach that has been there for so long, but he didn't noticed, started to come out of his mouth like vomit. This tiny girl in front of him touched deep inside of him and brought it out. The knife hit the ground with the saddening echos as something warm trickled down his cheeks.

Rossi quietly came behind him and gently cuffed him.

"Travis. I need you to tell me something." Lily asked right before Rossi started to take him away. Travis looked up with wet face. "Where's the last girl you took?"

"She... is in the basement... down... the hall...There's...a key in my...jacket pocket." He breathed out in between the sob. Rossi patted down Travis' jacket and found the key. Lily took the key and ran down the hall with Morgan.

Lily stood there watching ambulance wheel Selena away. Selena was dehydrated but she was overall fine. Lily sighed to herself and turned around to find Travis being taken away. Right before local cop tried to shove him in the car, their eyes met. They stared at each other for a long time. They both looked at each other knowingly about their pain until cop closed the door and drove away.

"That was fast case. We found him even before we gave out the profile." Rossi said as he approached her. Lily didn't turn to look at him. Rossi frowned and said, "You know, that was dangerous."

"I know... but I also know what he was struggling with. I just wanted him to know that there's someone that shares his pain."

"So it hurts?" Rossi asked.

"What?" Lily gave the identical face that Travis made when she asked that question previously.

"Back there, you asked Travis that. But it sounded more like you are talking about yourself to me." Rossi commented.

Lily just looked down at her feet. "Yes, it hurts a lot. I once thought that physical pain will dull the sense of that pain in my chest but it turns out it won't..." She said as she raised her hand palm up and stared down at it. Rossi caught a glimpse of a scar around her wrist. She suddenly looked up at the sky as if she remembered something. She looked at her watch and walked away.

"Where you going?" Rossi asked. She silently turned around.

"To see Julie." Rossi raised his eyebrow at her answer. "Don't worry I won't tell her everything." She shrugged and started walk away.

"You know Hotch will be pissed at you." Rossi yelled after her.

"About Travis or Julie?" She yelled over her shoulder.

"Both!" Rossi had to yell louder over the sirens. Lily just waved her hand and walked away.

There is no coming to consciousness without pain

~Carl Jung

So it's the end of the first part of the story.

The next one, "Scars from the past" will be up soon. I haven't started writing yet. But outline of the story is done.

Epilogue will be up soon too.

Thanks for reading!

Please read my next part of the series too!