Chapter 10

(Alexa's POV)

As I reach Pan's camp I then realize that the boys might be there. And let's just say that that would be awkward.

I get to the border and I see Felix coming with some firewood.

I say "Felix come here. Please."

He comes over and sees me and starts chuckling. "Well well, what do we have here? Alexa in just a towel."

"Shut the fuck up Felix. Are the boys there?" I ask

Felix pretends to think about it and says "I don't really know. They could be, or they could be playing a game."

"Okay Felix, I know you don't really like me that much because of the kiss, but please. I am sorry, just please are they there?"

"Okay fine, they are playing a game, and they aren't in the camp."

"Thank you Felix."

"Yeah yeah."

I head into camp and Felix told the truth. I go over to my hut and close the door behind me. Turn around a jump a little. I see Pan lying on my bed holding my clothes, smirking.

"You took my clothes? Why the hell did you do that?" I ask him.

"Well you see I overheard your little conversation with Tinkerbell, and since you think you would be able to escape with the mermaids. You're never leaving me. Ever!"

He gets up from my bed and comes over to me. I back up and he advances. I back up into a wall and he is on me now.

I try to get out of his grasp and he just puts both is arms on either side of my head. He lowers his head to mine and whispers "You know Alexa, I was willing to let you go see Tink whenever you want, but now that you were planning on running away from me." He shakes his head and says "Why can't you just stop running from me and let me have you." He runs a finger on my cheek as he says this.

He lowers his other hand down to my leg left leg and he puts it around his waist. He smirks as he trails his fingers up to my thigh. I try to wiggle out of his grasp, but he takes that as a sign of pleasure. He growls and starts kissing me.

He bites my bottom lip and he starts exploring my mouth.

I try to get out of his grasp, but I realize that there is no stopping him. So I stop struggling and let him kiss me. I hope that he will stop before he takes things too far.

He stops kissing me and looks at me with a look I do not get. He lets go of me and backs away.

"Alexa," Peter starts "Why did you stop struggling? That was the fun part in all of this."

"I stopped, because I was hoping you would stop kissing me. And it worked. So would you please leave so I could get dressed? Please?"

"Fine. But do not leave the camp." He says

"Whatever." I say to him.

As he leaves I flip in off and he says "I know you're doing that."

I get dressed in tight black leather pants and a tight dark purple V-Neck T-Shirt with purple ankle high boots. I put my hair in another side ponytail covering the bite.

I go out of my hut and I go over to Felix.

He looks up and says "What do you want?"

"Okay like I said before I'm sorry for kissing you. Can we go back in time and pretend that that never happened? Because I would like to at least have one friend in this fucking camp."

"You're really desperate aren't you?" he asks with a chuckle

"Well you I don't hate too much. Felix I am begging you."

"Fine whatever." He says

"Felix, do you like Tinkerbell?" I ask

He looks at me with wide eyes and says "Why would you say that?"

"Just asking. Because if you do like her I am friends with her and I could always set up a date for both of you."

"What's a date?" He asks. I stare at him and say

"A date is when a boy and a girl go out and have fun. They talk about each other. Their likes, their dislikes."

"Sounds interesting, have you ever gone on a date before?"

"Yes I have. I have a boyfriend back home, his name is Logan. Me and him have gone on a lot of dates. We have been boyfriend and girlfriend since I was sixteen and he was seventeen. We've been together for three years."

I start to get lost in thought and Felix says "Do you miss him? Do you miss your family?"

"Yes I do. I was just walking home from my friend's house and this shadow knocked me out and I woke up on the beach. Then you people found me and now I am on this fucking island forever."

"I'm sorry Alexa. That must really suck. All the boys have been here for a long time. But we all have something in common. We all felt as though no one loved us. Peter brought us here and we do whatever he wants us to since he took us away from home.

"We never have to worry about adults and we never have to worry about growing up. We can have fun and do whatever we want."

I shake my head and say "But Felix, not growing up may seem like fun, but it's not. I had a plan. When I was young I always wanted to be an actress. And I was the lead in all my school plays and musicals. And then I was going to meet a great guy and we would get married and have kids.

"But now Pan has me here and I can't fulfill my dreams all because of FUCKING PETER PAN!" I yell loud enough for Pan to hear me. Some of the lost boys turn to look at me like I'm the crazy one.

I look up at Pan's tree house and I see him looking down on my smirking and shaking his head.

I flip him off and raise's his eye brows and smirks a bigger smirk. If it's even possible.

I go back to talking to Felix about dating. He asks "So who was your boyfriend? What did he look like?"

"Well my boyfriend has short light blond hair, with pale skin. He has hazel eyes and he is a little taller than me, but shorter than you. He is lean and he is just so amazing." I tell Felix. Some of the younger boys gather around to hear.

"Was he good to you?" Felix asks

"Yes. He is good to me. And will you stop talking in past tense. He is my boyfriend yesterday, today, tomorrow and always. I will always love him." I look back at Peter's tree house and for once I don't see him. But I have a feeling he was listening in.

After a while it's starting to get dark. Felix gets up and asks "Wanna collect wood with me?"

"Sure, but I'm not going to join you weirdo's." I say

He laughs and says "Okay, but Peter might try to get you to come."

"I so don't give a damn. Besides I got you to laugh."

He laughs again and we go collect firewood.

After we come back I go into my hut and make sure that the door is locked and the windows are closed as well.

I get into a pair of black pajama short shorts and a tight purple tank top from my dresser and I brush my hair and get into bed.

I don't know how long it's been, but I feel a pain in my heart and I get up turn my bed lamp on and see an angry looking Peter Pan.

"Why didn't you come out for the festivities?" he asks and he gets closer to me.

"I was tired. So I decided to go to bed early. Besides what's it to you?" I say

I turn and pull the covers over my head and all of a sudden they are pulled off of me.

I see Pan holding my blanket in his hand and an angry looking face.

"I want you to come. Besides I missed your beautiful face."

"Oh get over it. Besides I don't hear the boys going crazy, so I'm guessing that the party is over." I say to him. If looks could kill, his would.

He then smirks and climbs into bed with me.

"What the hell do you think you're doing Pan?" I ask as he pulls the covers over our bodies and he puts his arms around me so I can't move and I have to face him.

"Well love, I'm getting tired and I don't think I could make it up to my place. So I might as well sleep here." He says with a smirk. He leans forward so he's just close enough to kiss me and says "You know I could always make you have sex with me. I mean you did sagest that anyway."

"There is no way in hell I would ever sleep with you Pan." I try to get out of his grasp, but he only smirks and I can feel his cold breath on my lips. I try to avoid eye contact.

"Alexa look at me." he says and he then says is a little more firmly and I meet his beautiful green eyes. "Alexa, do you want me? Because I think you do. Girls always tend to want me in the end."

"Pan are you sure you don't want me? Because you seem to want me by you or around you 24/7? I mean you always kiss me like you want to, and not in a 'I want to break you' kiss, but a 'I want you' kiss.

"And trust me, I know the difference between those two types of kisses. My boyfriend first did that to me before as well. Well not a 'I want to break you' kiss but a 'I just want you because you're very beautiful' kiss."

As this he looks surprised and then he looks longingly into my eyes, and he puts a hand around my head to hold it. He leans down and says "Alexa, you are reading too much into this. I just want you for your body and beauty."

He then crashes his lips to mine. I don't know what to do, then he bites my bottom lip to open my mouth, and he starts to explore my mouth. He rakes a hand down my hair to my back to my butt. He squeezes it and runs his hand down to my leg and brings it up to around his waist.

He breaks away to kiss my neck and I try, with all my might and strength, to not moan. But I think one escapes because I feel him smirk against the nape of my neck. He moves over to the bite mark and kisses it tenderly.

He lifts his head up to meet my eyes and I see him smirk and say "Now go to sleep Alexa. I will stay with you tonight and tomorrow we will see what to do then." He kisses my forehead tenderly and says "Goodnight Lex, and remember that I will be in your dreams forever."

He mumbles some stuff and my eyes fall and I drift into a deep sleep filled with crazy lost boy and a charming Peter Pan, who seems to be everywhere I look.

In the forest, in the tree house, in the stream, in the fire, in everyone.

Why do I keep seeing him? Why do I feel like I want to kiss him, then hit him, then kiss him some more? Why do I have these feelings for him?