MikoPony: Sorry darlings! I had the week from hell but it's over now. I'll update more, but I hope this chapter will make up for it. It lacks quantity, but it's got quality...sort of? Anyway, enjoy! And remember - Light will be extremely OOC before he gets normal again. He's seriously messed up. How much? You'll find out soon enough. Also, notice the increased rating.

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"Excuse me. Where do you think you're taking my patient?" She laid a hand possessively on Light's shoulder and stopped him from following me. I turned and faced her.

"It's okay." Light answered her before I could. From the look that passed between them, I deduced that the doctor knew what was wrong with Light. The childish part of me felt hurt, but I was determined to figure it out.

"Are you certain?" She asked, concern wrinkling her brow. Perhaps I had misjudged her before – she seemed to genuinely care about Light. The teen smiled but I saw the worry in his eyes. Doctor Lovell didn't see it because her eyes were on me.

"You will have to tell him everything." She said. My eyes found Light's just in time to see him pale. His eyes avoided mine and he swallowed deeply.

"I know. But I don't think I'll get better until I face the problem, which I can't do here." He seemed to regain his composure, because he lifted his hands and showed her the shackles. "Besides, I'm no danger with these, and I'm sure Ryuzaki will keep them on me for quite some time. And he should." Dr. Lovell gave me a strange look but sighed.

"Very well. I will miss working with you, Light. You were my most interesting patient." She smiled at him and directed her attention back to me.

"Ryuzaki, you better know what you're doing. Light is not a case I would recommend leaving at this point in his development. Good luck." With that, she strode away, not even looking back. When she turned a corner and the sound of her heels couldn't be heard, I indicated to Light that we should continue.

We walked in silence to the car Wammy had parked out front, and all through the car ride Light avoided all my questions. I had never understood how such a short time could stretch to hours, but the two minute car ride lasted all day.

"Would Light-kun like to see his room, first?" I asked when we got inside. Light just nodded, and I let out an exaggerated sigh. This wouldn't be easy.

It took a matter of minutes for me to realize I was thoroughly unprepared for Light. I was certain I could deal with his mental state, but already his presence was driving me crazy. He had been out of my sight for a brief twenty minutes and all I could do was stare at his door, wondering what was going on. I turned to the monitors, and saw Light sitting on his bed, mouth moving quickly. I cursed myself for not putting any sound devices in the room. Finally, I couldn't stand it any longer. I strode over to Light's door and reached a hand out to push it open, but it had opened. Both of us had been moving forward quickly, and when we collided, we fell in a tangle of limbs.

"Hello, Light-kun." I was on my back with Light on top of me, propped up on his hands, hovering inches over my face but making no move to get off. I could feel his breath on my face. He looked at me with a strange expression for a moment before pressing his lips to mine lightly. I froze and he pulled back.

Before he could push himself off me, I pressed our lips together roughly and wrapped my hands in his hair. When he pulled apart for a breath, I shifted him so he was under me and he hitched a leg over my hip. I kissed down his cheek to his neck and his breath caught in a moan.

"Stop!" Just as quickly as it started, it stopped. Light was up, halfway across the room with his hand on the wall. His normally perfect hair was disheveled where my fingers had been in them; his pressed clothes ruffled beyond help. He was panting and looking away from me. I stood just as quickly.

"Light-kun…" I took a step towards him but he snarled at me.

"Stay away from me." He said. "Just. Stay. Away." I couldn't keep the hurt from consuming me. Light pressed himself in the furthest corner, as far as he could get from me.

"Please, Light." I inched closer to him and this time he made no move to stop me. "What just happened?"

"We can't, L." Light said, pressing a hand to his head. "We just can't." I ignored the hand he put up to stop me, and he fell against me, gripping my shirt to hold him up. I wrapped my arm around him, and it didn't feel awkward at all. "I'm too messed up."

"I'll help you, Light." I said, enjoying the feel of him against me. I couldn't believe I hadn't realized how right it felt. Of course, the rightness was marred by the sobbing and clinging of the independent boy in front of me. I had to find a way to make him whole again.

"I…L…I…" And he fell into another round of hysterics. I rested my chin on his head and slowly lowered us to the ground so he was sitting on my lap, head resting on my shoulder. We sat like that until his sobs stopped and he was silent. Slowly he pushed himself up and slid away from me before standing on shaky legs. I stood facing him but didn't say anything.

"T…Thank you, L." He said. "I'll see you in the morning." He walked as quickly as he could to the room and shut the door. I looked after him, suddenly feeling empty in a way I had never realized before. I had no intention of sleeping that night.