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Hannah pov.

(Recap)

"Guys,the dinner is ready,then we gotta do the concert,so be quick"- We heard James coming in.

"Logan what are y- Hey,what's wrong?Hmm?"- James sat beside us and looked me concerned.

I just shot my head down. I wanted to tell them but I couldn't do it. Soon the rest of the guys were here with us. Trying to make me feel better but mostly trying to figure out what happened with me.

"Since you can't tell us now you'll tell when we got back alright? Don't worry,now come and eat with us,we made Logan's favorite."- Kendall said to me softly.

A smiled a small. They got the sign. They just smiled back after they give me a big hug we went to eat. Then they went to arena to do the concert. I was on the bus with Fox,Sydney and Jasmin.

End of Recap

Meanwhile the guys were out doing their concert,I was in the bathroom giving a bath to Jasmin,then we went to the kitchen area and made cocoa for ourselves.

"Ana can you read me a book before bedtime?"- She asked as she sipped down the last sip of her cocoa wiping her mouth with one arm. She put into the sink her cup.

"Sure,come here"- I said opening my arms,she jumped on me and we went to his and Kendall's bunk.

I read her the book,her favorite I kiss her forehead," Goodnight little angel"- She nodded small and drifted into a deep sleep in an instant. With a sigh I jumped down the bus floor and went back to my "bed". I grabbed my phone and put it on BTR - You're Not Alone. I was laying on my stomach closed eyes and not paying attention at all what's going on around me.

I only felt hands on my waist then I got sandwiched between the couch and somebody. Probably he laid on top of me thinking it's funny. But the truth was not so funny. I was crying. Not thinking about who sees it. I looked up with my teary eyes. I tried to hide it with my hair but he saw it and I could do anything but it wouldn't change the fact. I met with Kendall's sparkling green eyes. Fast I looked away. He got up from me pulling the ear buds out of my ears.

It was unexpected that he was here so I just sat there looking up at him from my spot not moving at all. I don't even heard when they came back on the bus.

"hey,don't cry your heart out"- He said so kind pulling me into his lap after he sat down beside me.

"But it's hurts."- I blurted out. In shock what I just said I put my hand over my mouth. Wait,did I just say it out loud. Noo. His grip on me just got tighter. Holding,keeping me safe. I started to cry even harder and sniffling.

"I believe it hurts. We'll talk that over and we will find a way to help you. The guys are in the living room you want me to get them too ?"- He asked concerned. From this I knew they finished the concert already. He wanted to help and I know this but I don't think he can. IF I'll tell them my secret they will think I'm a weirdo. Okay,it's not really a secret, I just keep it as it would be. I'm afraid to tell to anybody. What if they'll look at me differently,that's why I hate to talk about that.

But eventually I shook my head yes to him. He put a last kiss on my forehead before he went to get the guys leaving me alone. I laid back and covered my face with my hands. I sobbed. I couldn't help it.

Seconds later I heard the guys murmuring about something, then they saw me and smiled. Their smile faded once they saw me like this. Carlos rushed up to me giving me a giant bear hug. Weakly I gave back a hug.

"Tell us what's wrong Hannah,so we can help to you,please "- Logan said softly and I heard he was pleading. I just shook my head no,rushing into the bathroom locking the door. I slid down against the door. The guys were banging on the door but I didn't go out. I just cried.

"Okay,if you won't come out we'll sit here and wait till you will."- Kendall said seriously. I whimpered.

I just can't beleive this,I'm here with tour with my Idols and what im doing? Having a breakdown. THis is My luck...

I don't know what time is was but I calmed down,washed my face and unlocked the door. Slowly not wanting to make any noise I cracked the door open to see the guys sitting on the floor playing cards. They shot their heads up.

"You really want to know?"- I asked almost whispering as I put my arms around myslef insecurely.

They nodded smiling warmly. I told them that I want to go to bed so went to the back of the bus. I sat down with them around me either on the bed or the floor.

"YOu want to cuddle?"- I heard Kendall asking after everybody find a seat to himself. Logan was on my left next to him Carlos,on my right Kendall and James. I looked up and my lips turned into a slight smile. I said, " You wouldn't mind?"

"Silly,you think if I wouldn't want it I would ask you?" He said jokingly. I blushed but eventually nodded. So he laid against the couch pulling me to his chest resting his arms around me. I laid on him. I heard his heartbeat.

"So,going back why you were crying when Kendall come to see what are you doing?" - James asked carefully.

I hid my face into Kendall's flannel shirt and began to tell them the whole story,

Flash Back :

I've been bffs with a girl ever since 5th grade,we were Sophomores in high school. Ever since 8th grade she's been acting different. I used to be like the only girl she would hang out with then she has started to talk to more people so now she has a lot more friends. Well, I made plans with her to see a movie and she said she'll be able to go. We were talking about the movie after and how excited we were to see it then all of a sudden two days later she told me she couldn't go because her mom grounded her.

I told her we could re-schedule. Then the night we were supposed to go to the movies I went to the mall with my sister and I saw her outside of the mall with two of the popular kids smoking! (i never knew she smoked!) I was completely shocked I didn't even know what to do. Since that our friendship is over. I never thought she could do this with me. Never ever,but I was wrong.

Guys she was my best friend for years. All she could do is betray me. Months later I felt like I lost. Then I got new really good friends and everything was okay until one day I get sent home of the school cause I broke down. My mom took me to a doctor and they said I have anxiety disease. I always have anxiety attack or just simply feel worthless cause im different.

And when you guys had fun this feeling come over me again. I couldn't make it stop. Oh and Logan sorry for yelling with you,I don't meant it I hope you know."- I said as I lifted my head to see their faces.

James was concerned just like Carlos. Logan sent me a smile.

"Wow,this is sad"- Carlos said.

"I-I know"- I said trying to not cry.

"Look whatever made you feel insecure in the past you don't have to feel that way anymore, I promise you this Hannah. I love you and all of your beauty. You are perfect to me." - Kendall said smiling down at me.

"You're not a weirdo Hannah! That's totally fine. Even I could have this disease and you would say even to me that 'im weirdo cause of that? I know you wouldn't. This goes to you too. We are love the way you are,that's now changes on the fact that we love you. Love is not like that."- Logan tried to reassure me. It really made me feel better. I got out of Kendall's arms and gave them one by one a big hug saying thank you,and being there for me.

"It's okay if you have those ups and downs once in a while. That's totally fine,now get some sleep you'll need it tomorrow"

It passed 11pm when we done with the talking so they had to head to bed. They gave me a goodbye kiss on my forehead and my cheek than they left. Before they went to their bunks they turned around and said,

"Get ready for the Time Of Your life,put on a smile don't show us that sad face. You aren't like that." - they said.

" Thanks again,night guys"- I said turning off the lights. They said night also and went to sleep. I went up on twitter and tweeted :

Be proud of who you are. Only you can be YOu. I love these guys : TheCarlosPena jamesmaslow HeffronDrive 1LoganHenderson ( Y/T/N) :)

You hit the send button and went to sleep. Knowing nothing can go wrong from now on. YOu wonder what the tomorrow is holds. It's more than sure that the guys are planning something.

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