A/n: I know, I know I've been gone for a while. Well I am pretty short on this chapter, but I felt it needed to end there. I hope you guys enjoy it.

by the way I have put up Unexpected: Outtakes from Do you think of me? Leah & Justin. If you guys want to check it out go ahead. I kind of posted it awhile already haven't had feedback as I wanted. If you want me to continue that, please go over and read it and leave me a review telling me you want me to continue and what you thought of the chapter.

more on a note, I know I said I didn't want to write anymore for the twilight genre. But I got this great Idea for a new story. It's going to be called The Wives. It starts off in Bella's POV, but it isn't only a Bella/Edward fic. I got some fun I want to go with that. I might post that soon. So stay tune,

I'll try to update The next chapter for this story soon. I think in two more chapters this story will be done. I didn't intend for this story to be long at all it was more of something short.

Well that was a long authors note as you were the good stuff. Let me know what you think.

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Chapter 10: Too cold, too hot, Ah Just right!

Nessie

Things haven't been easy nor have they been extremely difficult. I wonder each day about my choice. I know I tried to make logical sense of things. Not like I would have chosen it any other way.

The days were longer and longer. Some were short. My mind still tried to make sense that he wasn't coming back anytime soon.

Anthony cried his head off for days straight. That was one of the harder days in when I felt it wouldn't be able to stop. He missed his father, I understood that. What could I do though? There isn't one thing I would trade though.

My past may have their iffy moments. But I am glad that I have Jacob as the father of my child.

Only a few months have passed since Jacob has left.

Some days I wish time could go faster or time travel and live in the perfect time. I decided I had to coupe one way or another. It just wasn't happening for me.

It was one of those lazy Sundays in were my mother decided she wanted to take Anthony out for a grandma and grandson day. I was happy because well Anthony was happy. It gave me a chance to try and be normal. Though I knew I was far from being so.

I decided to turn the TV on and see what was on. What I saw next shocked me to the bone.

/"We have breaking news today." The reporter with the short blonde hair went on. "The plane that carried singer Jake Black crashed near Rio de Janeiro. It is presumed that no one survived since they are still scourging the area to check for survivors." She shuffled her papers and continued. "It was led to know that the pilot lost control of the jet and it crashed into the water it was so fast that, the officials aren't sure if anyone made it safely off the plane or not. Aboard the plane were singer Jake Black, Seth Clearwater that plays the drums, Embry Call and the two pilots that were steering the plane. We will have more details and a watch on updates at six." I clicked the TV off as I was in shock. /

I couldn't believe a word that I just heard. I refused to believe it. Out of anyone in the planet .why him?

I shook my head furiously and I couldn't believe this. Not my Jacob. No my Jacob couldn't be dead. I had faith in my heart that he wasn't. He was still alive somewhere I could feel it in my heart.

The phone rang.

I was afraid to answer. I was afraid to know what was to come. I didn't even realize that I was crying until I felt the tears fall down without a stop. What was I going to do? How could I adjust to know if he is really dead? I know in my heart he isn't and my optimism is all I have.

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Jacob

I felt weird.

One moment I was drinking champagne goofing with the guys and the plane hit the water. Luckily for us we were able to make it off the plane safely.

One problem though one of the pilots is seriously injured and we landed on what has to be a deserted island. It was something strange. I felt like I have been on this island before.

We hadn't been here long; we tried giving medical attention to the pilot. It was impossible we had little to none resources. We were stranded. I was worried. I didn't know what to think I was losing my mind.

I wondered what would become of us. Would I ever see my family? Nessie? Anthony? They were my top priority. I missed them. How would I explain to Ness this whole mess? Would she think I was dead if I couldn't get home in time? What about my son?

I pulled at my hair as I fell to my knees in the dirt. Someone put a hand on my shoulder. I turned to see it was Seth's hand.

"Jake we're going to be fine. I am sure we will be home in no time." Seth said. Seth was always optimistic. He made this experience a little better.

"I am worried about Ness and Ant. I am pretty sure the crash is on TV by now. The pilot tried calling saying we had difficulties. I am stressed out by this. We have never had problems with the jet before. Why until today would this happen?" I pulled on my hair.

"Jake relax we will get out of this one. Soon we will be home with our loved ones and this will all be a distant dream. I promise." He gave me a smile and I took his word.

Only Seth could make a situation like this positive. Like being stranded on a deserted island is positive.

"I think we should scout the land to see if we can find anything." One of the pilots recommended. The Pilots name was Ben, the one who was injured his name was Thomas.

"I think that's a good idea. I volunteer Seth and I" I had to take charge. It was like my inner Alpha male saying I had to make this into a better situation. I had no choice. I vowed to get every single person that was with us safe and home. I vowed that on my life. I had to get it done.

The island was larger than I thought it would be. There were tons of trees, wild life. I thought it was small there was no way that we could scout in half a day. I decided to leave a marker and we would be back tomorrow.

We went back to the rest of the guys. We settled on the beach. We built a small shelter of trees and leaf. Thanks to God there was good weather. No rain. Only clear blue skies and heat. We ate fish for dinner and coconut water. Not that it was bad. This was an island paradise. I could admit being away from civilization was nice.

I didn't have to worry about crazed fans, stressful work. It was peaceful. Just being able to kick back and relax.

The mosquitos were annoying. That was for sure. We made our time here peaceful, Relaxing.

It had to be more than a couple months. We searched the island and we would finally be making it to the last part. (The other side of the island.)

The island had forests, caves, waterfalls, rapids. It was beautiful. An island paradise it was. I would love for Nessie and my son to be here with me. We would live care free away from everyone. It would be perfect.

"Come on Jake just a little more and we finish the Island." Seth called out. Embry, Ben, and Thomas followed close by.

What we saw next was surprising.

A house on the beach?

It wasn't just a house, it was a beautiful house; something out of house of the year magazine.

This island wasn't deserted.

That meant we could go home soon. I could get to my family soon. We all ran to the house. What we found out next was what shocked me to the bone.

We went inside the house. It was fully furnished, but no one was home. This must be someone's vacation island.

There was a large portrait in the living room. The people in the picture I knew. That's what shocked me to the bone.

The people in the picture were…..

Nessie

Every day I waited.

Every day I had hope he would come through the doors pick me up and sweep me off my feet. It didn't happen that way.

Every day became a disappointment.

Anthony didn't know what was going on and that made me mad. My heart was breaking. Piece by piece. Snip..snip… snip.

How could I get through this?

My brain was treacherous. Bringing the very of negative thoughts to mind.

Jacob Black is dead move on.

No one had been able to locate them.

No one.

My heart was the only hope I had. My heart was what kept the hope alive that he was alive. That he would be coming home soon. He would be in my arms again. And I would never let him go.

My mother and father came every single day to check in on me.

They were afraid I would do something to hurt myself.

Though life was pointless without Jacob. My life was only complete with him.

He was my other half. I knew it.

I was the rib, Jacob's rib. I was made for him. As he was for me. God had made us perfect for one another.

That thought couldn't leave my mind.

I knew that.

I had to live though.

Even though if it were true. That Jacob was dead. I had to live. Not for myself, but for Anthony.

He was the only strength I had to keep on living.

I thought so many times, countless of times since I saw the news that day. I shouldn't have let Jacob come back in my life. It would hurt less.

I let myself believe that.

That letting myself love Jacob the way I was supposed to was what cause the hurt in my chest.

I knew that wasn't true.

I was never in my life happier than when I was with Jake. I loved him.

I prayed every night to God to bring Jacob back to me safe. Somewhere deep in my heart I knew God was working on it.

That Jacob would soon come home and be safe in my arms. I didn't care what I would have to do I would never let him go ever again.

I started looking through boxes in the attic. I hadn't been up here in what would have been a matter of months.

My relationship with Josue was over. That seemed like it was so long ago. Josue was a best friend. I still talked to him. I guess he was a rebound. We knew the relationship died. There was no intimacy there. I didn't desire him. Not like I desire Jake anyhow.

Josue was in Anthony's life. (The beginning years anyhow). He did love Anthony. He called me here and there to check on him. He told me about his new girl friend Angela. He sounded really happy. That made me happy for him.

Looking at the old things that reminded me of him was something nice. It reminded me of simpler times. When we could just go to the park with Anthony and eat ice cream.

Those times were nice.

I went even further and found an album named Isle Esme.

It was my dear grandmother's island. The one my grandfather gave to her on their 20th anniversary. I remember spending so many summers there as a child. I hadn't been privileged to take Anthony.

I thought about it closely maybe it was about time to do so. It was secluded from the world. We could get lost from all stresses. We could just lose ourselves in the island paradise.

I was pretty sure Anthony would love going. He always enjoyed new exciting things. He was smart for his age and I couldn't ask for anything more. He was the best son ever.

I did the only thing I could think of.

"Hello Mama Esme, I wanted to know if Anthony and I can spend some time on the island?" I said through the phone with a smile on my face.

I already knew what her answer would be. She would be delighted to have us go and stay at the island. She might even make it into a family vacation.

I hope I was right about my gut instinct.

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