I was going to take Josh and Ashley through my fear landscape today since Four was reluctant to show anyone but me his. I had six fears; the dark, Storms, Killing Family, Being found out, and Intimacy. Though me being found as Divergent changed from failing initiation all together. Ashley was first...

"The trick to go unnoticed is to find some tool, some method to survive." I explain as we both shut our eyes

When we awoke I could see nothing and began to panic. Now I know how Four felt confined and waiting for me to find a solution. My mind began to make up noises I knew weren't there as I heard Ashley shuffling for something. She started trying to calm me down as she struck a match she found on the floor. The scene then changed to us in the middle of a field as the wind and rain bore down on us. Looking behind us we both saw a funnel headed our way.

"The house!We have to get there!" Ashley shouted

Though I didn't see it before she was right and we took off running. As soon as we slammed the door the scene changed. In front of me stood my parents and sister.

"You know what to do..." A voice behind me stated

I turned to see Jeanine Matthews holding a gun. Though this was the easiest it was still the hardest for me to get through. Reluctantly I took the gun, shut my eyes and fired three shots. I found myself in Fours room. A spot I have come to know and love until Four wasn't being Four. Ashley watched as he pushed me on the bed and began kissing me passionately.

"Four...Four stop!" I said struggling beneath him

'Well aren't you Dauntless..." He looked back at me with a different hunger in his eyes

That's when Ashley stepped in. She pulled him off of me and hit him in the face. My last fear...me being fund out about my divergence. Again I was shackled and in front of all the Dauntless

"Becca Prior...You know why you are here. Divergent's threaten our system. Truthfully I am surprised you lasted this long. A poor little stiff...a poor little...dead...stiff."Jeanine laughed

"This will be fun." Eric laughed as he raised the gun to my head and pulled the trigger

Ashley then shot up from chair as I awoke breathing heavy.

"Wow...is that how my final will be?" asked Ashley

"Only if you let it...that's all for today." Four said as he walked towards me.

As always I didn't feel like talking so I stood up and ran to the training area. Once there I picked up some knives and started throwing.

"Wow...I haven't seen you this bad since the first day of initiation..."remarked Four

"Black and gray..." I said

"I'm sorry..."

"Black and gray...those are the colors I want. Aside from Max being master of ceremonies. I want Tori making the cake as a chocolate cake. It would be nice to do it all by the Ferris wheel after all its where we first met."

"OK...ok whatever you want. I want to know are you ok?"

"Lynn can do the flower arrangements..."

"B!ARE YOU OK!?"

I then stopped and looked at Four since I ran from the room. I just fell into his arms and started sobbing.

"It changed...its no longer me failing initiation is me being found divergent and killed by Jeanine and Eric. I still cant have you touch me the way you want and my family is still there."

"B have I ever pushed you to do anything you don't want to?" Four spoke softly never letting go of his hold of me

"No, but I know you want to and I do as well..."

"When your ready yes. For now I'm just happy being with you. As far as Jeanine and Eric they will never harm you as long as I am around." He smiled a kind of half smile and put his lips to mine.

It was familiar in every way and I loved how we fit together.

"I love you Four..." I smiled as we parted still embraced in each other

"I love you..." He responded

-Later that evening-

Four and I headed to the mess hall and as usual sat with Christina, Will, Mar, Uriah, Lynn, Zeke, Shawna, Ashley, and Josh.

"So I think our colors are going to be black and gray...the represent us well." I said to Christina

"Yea but Four aren't you afraid of your faction finding out about your so well hidden past." Chuckled Christina

" I would be if I hadn't told them to just call me stiff from the beginning. Plus I was wearing my Abnegation robes till I put on the Dauntless black in the dorms that day." replied Four in between bites of hamburger

I still had trouble with putting sauces on my food unlike Four who had a mess of Ketchup and Mustard on his. I never learned that Ketchup was from tomatoes and when mixed with found sometimes enhances their flavor. That was one of the many things that brought my group together that first day. Upon remembering a bit of sorrow came back with the memory of Al. Four must have seen this because I then felt his arm protectively around me and his lips gently on my cheek. We parted ways and headed back to his apartment. I got changed into one of his shirts that was way to long for me and he got into an old shirt and pants. As always we curled up and fell asleep but that night was different...

-DREAM-

I didn't fall into a dreamless sleep as I was used to but I was back as an initiate in the mess hall as Al asked for my forgiveness. I once again told him to leave me alone and if he ever came near me again I would kill him. The scene then jumped to the chasm as Al looked over and thought about jumping. I tried to reach out and tell him I forgave him but I watched as he once again jumped. I saw the crowd of Dauntless gather and pull out Al. Then the thing I hated most happened and mummers started about how I killed Al. I tried to fight it but did the only thing I knew how to do...run. I hit something hard and looking up I saw Four and Eric.

"You want to explain to me what happened? Why did you feel the need to kill Al?" Eric asked coldly

" I...I.,,I didn't. Four you have to believe me," i pleaded as Four sighed, shook his head and turned to walk away, "Four please..."

"You really expect us to believe you stiff? You really think Four is EVER going to look at you the same?" Eric laughed

With that two Dauntless guards came and drug me to the darkest cell in Dauntless and threw me in like a rag doll slamming the door. I sat there confused, alone, and crying till I went to put my head in my hands and saw the blood...Al's blood.

-REAL-

I then shot up drenched in my own sweat and tears to Tobias shaking me. Not even thinking I bolted to the nearest corner and wrapped myself up in it.

"B...B what happened?" Tobias asked softly slowly getting out of bed.

"NO! DON'T MOVE!"

"OK,...ok. Please what happened?"

I took a minute to answer and said, "Al...I was being framed for Al's death. All you did was watch as they threw me into the cell. Eric said you would never look at me the same again."

Tobias slowly made his way to me and gently picked me up as if he might break every bone in my body and laid me back in bed.

"Its ok your safe now...I promise."