Only The Good Die Young
Chapter 10
When I wake up, I open my eyes to see Finn watching me. He looks like he's been crying because his eyes are puffy but he just sits up and smiles at me.
"How are you feeling?"
Shall I lie? No, I can't lie to Finn anymore.
"I feel bad, my stomach is in knots and my head is banging. How are you?" I reply with a laugh.
"Aw Rachie, I'm here for you, I'm fine as long as I'm near you, what do you want to do today?"
"I'm giving you a welcome home tour of New York remember! Nothing is going to stop Rachel Berry taking a good trip around her favourite city!"
"Are you sure Rach? We can go another day if you feel unwell?"
"We are going Finn! Come on lets get up and get ready, I'll meet you down stairs in half an hour."
I still feel awful but I just want to make Finn happy. And besides, New York is an amazing place, I'm sure I'll forget everything anyway! If I take some painkillers now I should be fine for the day, and I'll take some with me just in case. Finn and I are going to have a fantastic day!
"Rachel, I'm ready do you want a coffee before we go?"
"I'm fine Finn, we could go to get breakfast at a cafe?"
"Sure, great! See you in the car."
My hands won't stop shaking, that's why I don't want a coffee, I don't want Finn to see me like this, we'll go for coffee later, I should be okay then.
3 Hours Later
"That was the most amazing breakfast ever Rach, how have we never been to that place before? Where to now?"
"My dad's actually showed me this place when we went out together one day whilst you were away, but now you're back we can go all the time! Well I actually need to pop to the theatre because I haven't actually told James about the cancer yet but I'm really nervous, do you mind coming with me?"
"What do you mean? You haven't told him about the operation or you haven't told him at all?"
"I haven't told him at all Finn, please don't be mad but I'm just scared he'll fire me, if I lose that job I've got nothing!" I feel like crying again, I think it's a side effect of the tablets but I'll try and hold it in.
"Hey, calm down Rachel, everything will be fine, you are the star, they're not going to fire you but you need to tell them the truth."
"Sorry for all this Finn, I'm trying to not cry but I can't, everything is just going wrong, today was meant to be our day, a welcome back day for you and now I've turned it into the day from hell, I'm sorry, please just go home Finn and I'll see you there, I know Noah wants to see you so maybe you should go round there?"
"I'm staying with you Rachel, why do you keep telling me to leave? I love you more than anything and I am not going to leave you. We will go together to the theatre and whatever happens you will always be the most amazingly beautiful and talented woman I've ever known and you are going to keep taking Broadway by storm! I love you Rachel Barbra Berry, never forget that!"
Just as Finn is breaking my heart with the most amazing speech ever, a large group of paparazzi's have swarmed us and have started taking photos and asking us questions. Tears are falling freely from my eyes now and all the photographers can see, Finn grabs my hand and pulls me out of the group while trying to hail a taxi. I can hear the paparazzi's asking me what's wrong and all of a sudden, one grabs my arms and begins pulling it hard in the opposite direction of Finn. I don't really know what's happening but my arms is beginning to hurt now as the man holds it tighter, Finn has turned round now and starts shouting at the man. I can see what's happening but I'm boiling and feel like collapsing, I need to stay up though because I can't have photos of this in the papers. Finn punches the man in the face and carries me into a taxi, which has now pulled over.
"The Mitch Theatre please, fast!" Finn tells the taxi driver. I can see that he's breathing heavily and I worry that if we don't hurry he might go back and hurt that man more. I break the silence.
"Thank you Finn, you're always my hero!" My voice is shaking but Finn doesn't seem to notice.
"Did that idiot hurt you?"
"My arm aches a little and he dug his nails in my shoulder but that's all, it's fine Finn. He probably wanted a private interview!"
"He did hurt you then, I don't care what he wanted he has no right to be anywhere near you!"
"I know Finn but its okay, I'm absolutely fine just a little shaken up, nothing else. What about you? You hit him pretty hard?!"
"I wish I'd hit him harder! I just hate to think that when I'm away that could happen and you don't have anyone to protect you, the thought of you in pain kills me, I just love you so much!"
"I love you too Finn Hudson, so much but this is happening and as much as I pretend it's not, I'm dying. I know you love me but you need to let go and find someone else. I don't want you to be alone, I want you to have a family and be happy"
"I am happy Rach, I'm happy with you and I want to have a family with you, there is no way you are gonna die, we're gonna take you to have this operation and then everything will be back to normal but first we need to tell James."
"I love you Finn Hudson."
"I love you Rachel Berry."