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Rena's eyes wandered around the room, it was night, the moon spilling through the windows and illuminating the room. Rena looked beside her, Sesshomaru was sleeping soundly. He hadn't left her alone for a second since she woke, which she wasn't really bothered by, but it disturbed her none the less. He was currently sprawled out across the bed next to her, Rena wasn't sure if he was aware of the fact that he moved in his sleep, but if he was he obviously wasn't bothered by it.

The blue eyed girl was thinking, rather hard actually. While she was asleep that voice kept calling her Kagome, and she was confused... She couldn't remember her life before living with Sesshomaru, Himitsu and Rin. They were all see knew, just like the castle, she'd never been outside it's gardens, never even seen the outside world. She wasn't allowed to leave, Sesshomaru and Himitsu said it was to dangerous. But why was it dangerous? Was someone after her?

Rena's eyes suddenly went wide, the man... The one with the silver hair like Sesshomaru and Himitsu, is he why I can't leave? Does he have something to do with my past? Does the Lord know who he is? The something suddenly came to Rena's mind, when she first woke up, Himitsu called her something... What was it? Karin... no... Kara... no, Kana? A name filled her head, and only one that made sense, Kagome... Perhaps Himitsu knows something from my past? But he would tell me wouldn't he? He would tell me, right?

Rena shook her head and slowly got out of bed, and grabbed one of Sesshomaru's swords that were laying on the floor next to him. She made sure not to disturb him as she took it. Holding it tightly in both arms, Rena slowly slipped from the room. She headed towards the bath houses, knowing there were mirrors there. She was happy that there were no servants out this time of the night, otherwise she would surely be punished for being out past curfew. When she reached her destination she tip-toed her way towards the mirrors and gazed at her self.

Her hair was long, just passing her hips. her blue eyes were the color of azures and her skin was pale, like milk. Rena unsheathed the sword, it was heavy but she managed. Pulling her hair up she quickly sliced the blade threw her locks. They fell to the floor without much noise, and now her hair was at her shoulders. "I am not this Kagome girl, I am Rena. That is who I am..." Even as she said this, Rena didn't know whether she could truly believe those words.

Rin struggled against her restraints, biting at the enchanted rope, kicks at the guard, it was all she could do. "Stop acting out of place runt." The guard snarled, snapping his teeth at her. Rin scowled, she was scared, terrified in fact. But she was acting courageous, trying to escape on her own, she didn't need to be rescued every time she was in a fix.

"Lord Sesshomaru is going to kill you all." Rin said strongly, confident her savior wouldn't leave her there.

"What a joke! That man is weak compared to Lady Amarante." The guard chuckled, "He'll die from her first attack."

"Lord Sesshomaru is not weak! He can beat anyone!" The human child protested, "Lord Himitsu will come for Rin as well!"

"His brother is just as pathetic as him, he got himself turned into a pup!"

"They will come for Rin, they won't leave Rin here..." Rin whispered and kept quiet for a long time.

"What... Did you do to your hair...?" Sesshomaru was standing in front of her, he still had his stoic face in place, but his eyes were filled fill confusion.

"I decided I wanted a change." Rena ran her fingers through it, actually missing her long tendrils of raven black hair, "Is it not to your liking my Lord?" Rena avoided his gaze, she did not know why, but she could no longer look into his amber orbs.

"It is fine, but... This Sesshomaru does not understand your motives. You have never liked quick, ill thought decisions. What has brought such a such change of heart?"

"It is no change of heart, I just wished to make it clear that I am who I am." Rena murmured.

"Hn..." Sesshomaru turned on his heel and left her alone. She was currently out in the gardens again, near the koi pond. It was no longer tinted pink, and the koi were still willing to swim next to her, nothing had changed. Rena realized that even if she did cut her hair, she really wasn't changing anything. Everything was still the same, she was the same, the mystery of her past was the same, Sesshomaru and Himitsu were all the same. Nothing had changed, and she doubted that anything would.

Rena lifted her kimono, its erratic blue designs stretched across her chest and down her legs. She stepped into the water and the koi instantly started to brush against her legs. "Nothing will change will it?" She whispered. Rena tried not to think of it but what she couldn't stop thinking about was that name. "Kagome... It is so familiar... Yet unfamiliar..." Rena narrowed her eyes slightly, "That thing, called me Kagome and so did Lord Himitsu when I first awakened. Is that my name? Are they really hiding my past from me?"

The blue eyed girl crossed her arms, the bottom of her kimono falling into the water, but she didn't care. "Perhaps they do know something? But why wouldn't they tell me? I can be trusted!" Rena said in anger, "Maybe it is them who cannot be trusted? NO! I cannot doubt my lords, or Rin. They would tell if they knew, right?"

A/N: Sorry this is so short, I've been having a hard time trying to write this chapter, I've rewritten it at least six times. Anyway, I hope you liked it, I'm not sure whether I like it or not... Should I discontinue it? I've been updating later and later, so should I end it? What do you guys think?