What I Live For
"I'd rather die for what I believe, than live a life without meaning."
-The Word Alive
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Fairy Tail belongs to Hiro Mashima
Flashback / Song Lyrics
Previously:
"Her name is Juvia Lockser. She was five years old when her father died and her mother committed suicide. A few months later she was adopted by a man named Jose who had also adopted another kid, only one year older than her. They grew up together in a large house, with lots of stuff and they got along pretty well..."
"Gajeel what the fuck are you talking about?" Gray asked, looking at this friend shocked. "How do you... Why do you?..."
"The boy Jose adopted was me. When Salamander and I were kids we lived in an orphanage together. But then we got adopted and went our separate ways. Four years ago, Jose died, and Juvia got in some trouble so I tried to help her. We ended up in an accident and the next thing I knew I couldn't find her anywhere. I searched for a while, but ended up running into Salamander and his folks took me in. I decided not to say anything about Juvia so he doesn't know anything."
Gray's eyes widened at Gajeel's words. He had no reason to doubt him. Gajeel was one of his best friends and he had no reason to lie about something like this.
"Wait... So you're saying that you have a little sister... And your little sister is my girlfriend Juvia who lost her memory..."
Gajeel balled his hands into tight fists and looked away from Gray. "Your girlfriend is my little sister Juvia, who lost her memory because of me."
X. One Night
"Gajeel-kun! Gajeel-kun!"
The voice of his adoptive sister awoke him that night. He grunted a bit when he felt a weight on top of him, as well as water droplets hitting his body.
"Juvia? What the fuck?"
"You have to help Juvia..."
She was panting heavily, and it was pouring rain outside. He sat up and glared at the younger girl who was drenched in water. Her eyes were red and her face puffy. She looked scared. That was something he rarely saw on her.
"What is it? What time is it?"
She wiped away the water mixed in with tears on her face. "Last time Juvia checked it was about midnight."
Gajeel turned his head to look at his alarm clock and growled. "It's three am. You do know I have a test in biology tomorrow."
"... It's Bora..."
"Not that fucker."
"Gajeel-kun! He doesn't leave Juvia alone! And he did something to Juvia's car." The long haired young man rose an eyebrow. She looked him right in his red eyes, messing with her fingers and fidgeting a bit. "There's... Drugs... In Juvia's car..."
Gajeel's eyes widened, he grabbed the girl by her shoulders. "What did you say?"
"Gajeel-kun! Juvia has to get rid of them and she doesn't know what to do! Bora said he'd leave Juvia alone if she transported them to this location!" She showed him her phone screen with an address on it. "But Juvia doesn't want to do it... But if Juvia doesn't then Bora will..."
"Juvia how the fuck did you get into a mess like this?!"
Her bottom lip trembled. "Juvia doesn't know. She just wanted Bora to leave her alone but it didn't happen. Gajeel-kun! Please help Juvia." She lowered her head and began to cry. "Juvia doesn't know what to do..."
He got out of bed, pulling on a sweater and his boots. "Don't ever fucking talk to that psycho again after this alright?"
She looked up and nodded quickly, jumping off of his bed. "Juvia won't."
They walked out into the hall, grabbing his car keys and walked out the front door. Raindrops fell heavily from the sky, drenching the two of them immediately. They climbed into the car, and Gajeel started it up.
"Where are they?"
She sniffled a bit. "Bora said he hid them, and that the person Juvia was supposed to meet knows where they are."
As he drove down the narrow road, the rain began to come down even heavier than it already was.
"Why the fuck haven't you looked for them?!" He shouted, startling her a bit.
She looked at the road ahead which was barely visible, even with the lights of the car on. "Juvia tried. Juvia couldn't find anything."
Thunder began to roar, and Gajeel began to speed up. "I can't see shit with this rain coming down."
Juvia pulled her knees to her chest, hiding her face. "Juvia is sorry. Juvia is sorry."
He sighed, and looked over at her. "Let's just get you out of this alright?"
"Gajeel-kun... Juvia is sorry." She couldn't help but to cry.
Gajeel continued to speed down the road, swerving a bit because of the slippery road. He was pretty pissed off, but not at Juvia, more at himself. He knew Bora was no good, yet he didn't stop Juvia from getting close to him. She lifted her head a bit when she felt the car speed up more than usual. She looked over at her brother with worried eyes.
"G-Gajeel-kun... Slow down a bit... It's raining after all..." He seemed to ignore her, and instead went faster. They couldn't see the road in front of them at all. The rain had gotten heavier, the road even more slippery. "Gajeel-kun!"
"Look I'm trying to get your ass out of this mess as soon as possible! Let me fucking drive!"
"But..."
"Juvia! I said let me fucking-"
"Watch out!"
...
Gray shot up out of bed, drenched in sweat and panting heavily. He ran a hand through his hair, and attempted to regulate his breathing by inhaling air through his nose. "Shit..." He mumbled to himself, turning to look at his girlfriend who was asleep right beside him. He shut his eyes and rubbed his forehead before getting out of bed and walking towards the kitchen. He grabbed a glass from the cupboard and filled it with cold water, chugging it down quickly. He set the glass down and leaned against the kitchen countertop, his head in his hands as he lost himself in thought. Gajeel Redfox was his girlfriends brother. Juvia had lost her memory in a car crash, and ran off.
"N-no... There were more people in the car... And the rain and..."
The words she had said at the hospital. She had remembered something from her past. Gray pressed his lips together as he stared at the wall. Juvia had never once mentioned she cared about knowing her past. Once they started officially dating, she was always so cheerful, always smiling. At first it annoyed him a bit. How could someone be so happy all the time. Even to this day it's hard for him to put on a genuine smile. But now, he knew the truth. He had the ability to help her remember her past. So, why was he struggling so hard to tell her? He had no idea why. He heard small footsteps coming towards him and he turned his head to look at his girlfriend.
"Can't sleep?"
He shook his head and looked away from her. "This Pandemonium thing must be getting to me." He lied.
She smiled a bit and walked towards him. "Juvia heard your band playing today. Gray-sama your band will do amazing. Juvia is certain." She looked over at the counter, her eyes landing on the empty glass. "Maybe some warm milk would help you sleep better instead of ice cold water."
She reached her arm out to grab the glass but froze when Gray grabbed her wrist. She gasped lightly, and her eyes widened as she looked up to meet his gaze. His eyes seemed colder, his facial expression was way too serious, and his grip was a bit too tight.
"Juvia..." He said, deeply.
Her eyes shifted from the grip on her wrist to the look in his eyes. "Y-yes, Gray-sama?"
He grit his teeth together, and looked her straight in the eyes, refusing to let her look away. He furrowed his brows, wanting to say so much, but words did not escape his lips. He felt as though his lungs were about to explode, and he was running low on air. He thought back to his conversation with Gajeel, after he had told him the story.
"Turns out, Bora drugged her. That creep was obsessed with her, but I didn't stop her from getting close to him." Gajeel admitted. He pulled out a carton of Cigarettes from his pocket and lit one up. "She was tripping. And because I didn't realize that, I went and got her in even more trouble then she already was."
Gray was speechless. He didn't know what he was feeling. Whether it was anger, betrayal, or confusion. He was feeling a mix of them all.
"You've known that Juvia is my girlfriend for almost a month now. Why the fuck would you wait so long to tell me something like this?"
"I wasn't gonna say nothing in the first place. But when I heard you were planning on marrying her, I don't know, it just came out." Gajeel exhaled a breath of smoke.
Gray swallowed a lump in his throat before standing up. "I... I don't want you telling her..."
Gajeel's eyes widened a bit as Gray turned to look at him. "Wait? You're gonna decide if and when I tell her?"
He didn't know what to think. Gray's mind was full of emotions at the moment. None of them positive. "Yes. Yes I'll fucking be the one to decide alright? I love her! I love her more than anything I've ever loved, and anything that has ever loved her. I'm the one who took care of her, I'm the one who she'll spend the rest of her life with so yes, it's gonna be me who decides."
Gajeel sat back, not saying one word while Gray went on his little rant. He placed the cigarette back in his mouth, crossing his arms as a breeze blew by him. The air seemed to get chillier in that very moment. The pierced man exhaled yet another smoke filled breath.
"It don't matter to me." Gajeel walked passed Gray, towards the music building where Natsu, Jellal, and Juvia were sitting. "I've done my part."
"How did you just let her run away?" Gray asked. "I still don't get that part. And what about the other car? Who the fuck was in the other car?!"
Gajeel looked back at Gray, dropping the remainder of the cigarette on the ground and stopping on it. "I can't answer that. Everything after the crash is just a big blur to me."
Juvia continued to look at Gray with confused eyes. "What's the matter?"
He opened his mouth to speak, but closed it immediately. He leaned forwards, pressing a kiss on her forehead before he walked towards the door. The bluenette remained frozen, as she was shocked by his actions. After a moment, she turned and looked back, following her boyfriend.
"I'm sorry." He said quickly, pulling some clothes on. "I need to... I need fresh air."
"G-gray-sama... No! Come back to bed."
He ignored her, and pulled on a sweater as he walked towards the door. "I'll be back soon alright."
"Don't go... It's the middle of the night!" She grabbed his sleeve staring at him with concerned eyes. "Please..."
"Sorry."
He rushed out the door before she could get in another word.
"Gray-sama!" He heard her cry through the closed door.
A piece of his heart felt like it was going to rip open, but another piece felt as though it had been turned ice cold. He rushed out of the apartment complexes, and the cold air hit his body. He climbed into his car, with no destination, when suddenly his phone rang. He ignored it, and drove off.
...
"Of Mice and Men? That's a book Gajeel."
Gajeel rolled his eyes and he turned on his side to face the small woman. She was seated on his bed, her knees to her chest as she sorted through his box of seemingly hundreds of CD albums.
"I'm telling you shorty, it's in there."
She sighed as she continued to look through the cardboard box. It was just as messy as the rest of Gajeel's room. He had clothes scattered all over, books and CD's all over the place, and guitars, in their cases, lying on random corners of the room.
"It's not in here Gajeel, I've triple checked."
He grunted and laid on his stomach, shutting his eyes. "Fuck it. I'm going to sleep then."
She looked at the clock on the wall and gasped. "Whoa, I didn't even notice how late it had gotten."
With his eyes still shut, Gajeel smirked. "What does it matter? You've basically been living here since the whole battle of the bands thing."
Levy blushed a bit, setting the box down and laying beside him on her back with her hand over her stomach. "It never seemed to bother you."
Gajeel didn't respond. He reached up and flicked the light switch off.
"I don't care if you do or don't. It's your life."
She turned her head, looking at the back of his. "You okay? I know you're tired of hearing this but..."
"Why wouldn't I be?" He asked.
"You've been acting weird lately... Well for a while now."
He let out a breath and laid on his back. "If you're gonna keep talking at least let me put on some earphones."
Her eyes fell to slits as she glared at him. "You can't keep your feelings bottled up inside you forever you know."
"Hm..." He grumbled, sounding annoyed as he turned more over.
"I'm serious! If you need someone to talk to or listen to you I'm here Gajeel! I don't want you going through anything alone! That's why you have friends, you're supposed to trust them an..."
Her eyes widened when he sat up quickly and pressed his lips against hers. He pulled away quickly, "you got a really annoying mouth you know that," and laid back down without saying another word. Levy on the other hand remained frozen, laying at his side, her face as red as a tomato.
"BAAD NEWWWS!" They heard a voice shout from the other room.
...
Natsu sat inside his living room with Wendy and Happy at either side with him. They watched the television, with an almost empty box of pizza in front of them.
"This is boring." Wendy complained, her eyes half open.
"There's nothing else on Wendy."
"But there are like 500 channels... There's gotta be something interesting on."
Natsu leaned back and sighed, lifting up the remote control in his hand. "Well then how about-"
"BAAD NEWWWS!" The door slammed open, making the siblings jump from their seat to spot a drenched Jellal standing at the door.
Gajeel walked into the room with Levy following behind him. They both had confusion on their faces.
Levy rose an eyebrow, looking passed her cousin to the outside. "Why are you soaked? It's not raining."
Jellal let out a breath, panting heavily as he moved more into the apartment. He collapsed on the couch with his eyes shut. "I ran all the way here from school."
"It's like 4 blocks from here." Natsu commented, chuckling a bit.
Gajeel smirked. "It's time for Jellal to hit the gym."
The blue haired man glared at his friends. "This is no time for jokes, something happened..." He lifted his head up, his brows furrowed as he looked around the room. "Hey, where's Gray?" Everyone in the room exchanged glances as Jellal sat up from the couch. He pulled out his cellphone with an eyebrow raised. "He hasn't even opened my texts yet."
Gajeel leaned against the wall. "It's one A.M. He's probably sleeping."
"Yeah, it's one A.M. SO WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU DOING BURSTING THROUGH OUR DOOR AND YELLING?!" Natsu shouted loudly.
"OI SALAMANDER, NOW YOU'RE YELLING TOO!" Gajeel exclaimed, glaring at Natsu.
"Um... You're all yelling now." Levy said softly, taking a seat at the table. She pulled her short hair back into a high pony tail.
Natsu looked back at Wendy. "Hey Wendy, go hang out in my room alright?"
The girl pouted, picking up Happy and walking away. "I'm never around for the good stuff..."
Once she had walked away, Levy looked back at Jellal.
"So what happened?"
Jellal walked forwards. "It's the music room... I was walking towards it a while ago to get some practice in and then I saw a sign that said its gonna get teared down!"
Gajeel rose an eyebrow. "Is that all?"
Jellal blinked, before nodding. "Yes."
The dark haired man turned on his heels. "Then I'm going to bed."
"Me too." Natsu agreed.
Jellal glared at his friends. "What? You guys don't care at all?!"
"If its getting teared down what are we gonna do about it? You said it yourself, students there don't care about music anymore." Natsu said.
"He's right, Jellal." Levy stood up. "It can't be helped."
Jellal looked down, falling back on the couch once more. "It's important to me. It's our hang out spot. It's not just where we became a band- it's where we became friends."
Gajeel gagged. "When did this become some cheesy bromance novel?"
Natsu interlaced his fingers behind his head. "Besides, there really is nothing we can do. We're just four students there, and my grades suck. The headmaster isn't gonna listen to me."
"There's gotta be something..." Jellal began.
"There ain't." Gajeel said, walking back to his room.
Natsu sighed. "It's not like we actually need that place anyway, we can practice here or downstairs." He walked towards his room as well.
Levy offered him a smile. "Things will workout." She walked away leaving the young man alone.
He sighed and rested his chin on his hand. There had to be something he could do... Something. Something. Something...
He smirked when he got an idea.
...
Juvia slowly opened her eyes when she heard noises coming from outside of her room. She furrowed her brows, and shifted to her side, trying to recall what had happened the previous night. The last thing she remembered was Gray leaving. She removed the covers from her body, finding herself in one of his t-shirts. She glanced at the clock which read 8:30 A.M then she jumped out of bed and walked outside of her room slowly.
"G-Gray-sama?" She called out.
"More like best friend-sama." A voice called back, walking out of the kitchen and facing the bluenette. Juvia rose an eyebrow when she spotted Lisanna in her house, wearing pajamas.
"Lisanna?"
The short haired girl winked, "so I guess you're feeling better. When you called me last night I got pretty worried, but by the time I had come over you were asleep on the couch."
Juvia looked at her with confusion, moving to sit down. "Juvia... Juvia doesn't know what happened."
Lisanna set two mugs on the table, placing one in front of Juvia. She then pulled out a a chair, a took a seat. "Something about Gray acting strange and leaving." Lisanna lifted her hand and swiped her finger underneath Juvia's eye. "You cried. A lot. You still have red marks here."
Juvia placed her hands against the warm mug for comfort as she looked down at the table. "Gray-sama didn't come back?"
Lisanna shook her head no. "He's probably with his friends. Don't worry too much okay."
"Juvia loves him..."
Lisanna's chuckled a bit to lighten the mood. "He loves you too! I mean anyone could see that! And geez, that ring he got you is beautiful! Why didn't you tell me by the way?! Planning on running off and getting married without consulting me?"
Juvia rose her head up, raising an eyebrow. "What ring?"
Lisanna's eyes widened. "... Did... Did I say ring? I meant... I meant..." She attempted to cover up her words.
"Gray-sama got Juvia a ring?"
Lisanna face palmed, and leaned forwards. "I need to learn to shut up."
The bluenette gasped, her eyes lighting up a bit as she pictured her boyfriend proposing to her. She fell into a daze, forgetting all the negative feelings and simply feeling peace and happiness at the thought of Gray popping the question.
"Juvia..." Lisanna waved her hand in front of the bluenette's face. "Cmon! We're gonna be late for work! Elf-niichan needs us there today!"
...
"I'm tired. I don't wanna do another encore!" A blonde woman complained, stepping into her dressing room. She threw herself on the couch and kicked her boots off. She could still hear the crowds cheering. "Erza! Do something!"
A scarlet haired woman entered after her, glaring hellfire at the young woman. "Listen Lucy! I didn't become your manager to baby you. I did it to make your career better! Now get your ass up and go sing one more song!"
Lucy growled and turned to lay on her back. "Can't you play a song from the album or something?"
"They're chanting your name out there!"
Lucy sighed and sat up. She looked at a poster of herself before turning to look at Erza. "This concert is also being aired live on Fiore TV right?"
Erza nodded, scrolling through her iPad. "Yes, why?"
"You think he's watching?" Lucy asked. "He could be..."
The scarlet haired woman looked away, adjusting her sweater. "Lucy..."
"I know he didn't support my music career but still there might be a chance that..."
"Children don't get to chose their parents. You of all people know that fact too well, Lucy. When it comes to him... I'd like to think he's living his own life, just as he left you to live yours."
Lucy looked down and nodded. "Yeah..." Her voice cracked. "I love singing. Ever since I was a little girl, all I wanted to do is sing. But with my mom gone, and him not supporting me its hard sometimes." She looked out at sky through the window on the ceiling. "Sometimes I wish I didn't have feelings. I wish I was the perfect singing machine. Then I wouldn't let anyone down anymore."
"You're an amazing singer Lucy. While you may not have any blood relatives, everyone here, your staff, your team, we love you. And we'd rather die than give you up to a life where you're not happy." Erza smiled. "How about I cancel all your appointments Saturday and give you a free day? Anything you want."
The blonde smiled, and stood up, letting out a breath. "Alright. I know exactly what I want to do! There's this competition thing called Pandemonium. I say we throw on some disguises and go watch?"
Erza chuckled. "You want to go and see those Etherion idiots, don't you?"
Lucy stood in front of the mirror. "They blew me away Erza. I have to see them for myself."
"Whatever you want." The scarlet haired woman said before walking out of the room.
Lucy smiled and walked out after her.
I'm a lazy piece of shit who lost inspiration for this fic so sorry about the wait. I hope this is turning out different than you all expected and please review and I may update faster :3
Until next time! & yes, more twists and turns in the future! REVIEW PLEASE! I know this chapter wasn't great, but its something :)