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"Clary I made you some..." Simon´s voice pulled Clary out of her dreamless sleep.

She slowly opened her eyes and glimpsed at her best friend: Simon was holding a plate with pancakes on it and had a very shocked expression on his face.

The question "What´s up?", formed in her head but then she took her surroundings in and she was fully aware of the situation: She lay in the arms of a half naked Jace, whoms clothes were all over the floor.

He was still sleeping and Clary, even though she found it very comforting in his arms, poked him in the side: "Jace, you have to wake up."
Simon still stood there as if he was frozen.

Clary knew what this had too look like but then again, she had the right to do what it looked like.
Somehow she was getting annoyed by everyones need to protect her when she needed no protection.
Jace opened his eyes and looked at her.

His back faced Simon so he wasn´t aware of him.
"Good morning, you look beautiful." Then he kissed her.
Clary pushed against his chest and sat up: "Hey Simon, everything all right?"
Jace, finally getting what was happening, looked at Simon and grinned:

"Hey Dude, what´s up? You made us breakfast? That´s nice."
Simon finally moved and put the trey on the floor: "This is for Clary."
He sounded very annoyed and angry, which made Clary angry.

Jace got out of bed and Clary saw Simon flinch when he noticed that Jace was wearing nothing but his boxers: "Then I will go for a jog, see you later."
He winked at Clary, gathered up his clothes and left the room but not without taking a pancake from the trey.
When the door shut, Clary looked at Simon and suddenly felt like she had to explain:

"It´s not what it looks like."
Simon looked at her with all anger gone.

Only sadness filled his eyes now. He sat down on the bed and focused on his hands.
Clary felt immediately guilty and than angry again, because she felt guilty:

"What is it with you?", she asked in an angry voice:

"You always act like we´re a couple but we are just friends.

Why is it, that I get the feeling as if you are jealous even if you have no right to be?"
Simon looked at her now: "I always waited."
She shook her head: "Waited for what?"

Now he looked annoyed again:

"You really want me saying it out loud?

Saying out loud what is so damn clear for years now?"
Clary said nothing, just locked eyes with him.
He sighed: "Clary, I don´t know if you know this, but I´m in love with you for what feels like ages. Do you know how hard it is, to see someone you love to be completly ignorant to your feelings?

I always waited for you and I always stayed with you, even though it was very hard.
When we were younger, I just waited for you to finally realize that I was the one.

You know, I never questioned it, that we would finally end up together. Everytime I saw you I thought someday, when she is ready, she will be my girlfriend.
And then you met this jackass Kent in eighth grade.

I really hated this guy and I really hated the feeling of knowing, that you were his girlfriend.

I still stayed with you, hoping that you would get how wrong this thing was.

When he finally moved to Canada I thought this is it, this was the last test, now she is going to come to me and we will be a real couple.
When we were going to the summer camp, I imagined hundrets of scenarios, how we finally would end up together.

And then you met James.

That was the time, I really got to know, what agony felt like.

It was ten thousand times worse than with Kent.
You guys always kissed and made out in front of me and you didn´t even care.

I thought about quitting being your friend but then it was too hard because I still loved you and I know how pathetic this sounds but it is the truth.
I suffered trough every moment you and James shared.

New Year´s eve when I caught you guys doing it in his bedroom, your birthday when he was totally attached to your hip...

It got worse and worse but finally you dumped him and believe me, I wanted to break every single bone in his damn body because he hurt you, but I was grateful too, because I knew, life gave me another chance.
And then I asked you for a date.

I still don´t know were I got the courage to ask you but I did and you said yes.
When we we´re together everything felt right for me and I thought after waiting for years, I would finally be with you.
Our night, the only night we ever shared, was still the most amazing thing I ever experienced.
And then you asked me to go back being friends.
I thought this was all some big bad joke but it wasn´t.

You dumped me not even half a year after we started going out.
But I still stayed, because at least then I knew I had a chance to be your man and you weren´t seeing someone else so there was hope because our friendship wasn´t weird at all after all this.
And now...

Now you seeing someone else again, not even aware of what I´m feeling, and I´m done Clary.

I´m done wating for you to make the right decision, I´m done staying with you through every mistake you make, I´m done getting my heart broken by you over and over again without you even noticing it.

I´m done."