Edward POV

She just sat there, her mouth hanging open. I was afraid that i had hurt her. I heard the door open and close softly, i didn't have to turn around to know it was Bella. I hoped she wasn't angry at me for telling her. I couldn't have kept it from her any longer. A tear slid down her left cheek as she looked up into my eyes for the first time since I told her.

"You're my daddy?" She whispered bringing up her small hand to clutch my White button down shirt.

"Yes, Its me" I whispered back to her, stroking her Brown curls. Her facial expression quickly changed and i knew that she wasn't happy about the news.

"You didn't want me," She cried, slapping her tiny hand on my shoulder. I quickly grabbed it before she could hit me again and clutched it to my own before bringing it up to my face and kissing it.

"Im so sorry, i didn't even know about you, I'm so sorry" I whispered again, holding her to my chest tighter as if she would suddenly jump up and leave. Its emotional moments like these where I wish I wasn't a vampire, I wanted to cry with her, my tears a mix of happy and sad.

We were silent for a while until Bella finally sat on the bed instead of standing behind me. I looked down at my lap, not wanting to see the anger or disappointment on their faces. But what surprised me was that Caitlin released her hand from my shirt and brought it up to cup my chin, making me look at her.

"Its okay, Daddy," She whimpered, wrapping her small arms around my neck, "I love you."

I smiled so brightly I thought my face was going to break in two. This overwhelming feeling surrounded my whole body, a feeling i thought id never experience. A love that was so much different to what i felt with Bella, a love that only a father had for their child. "I love you too darling."

"Now," I started, pulling back from her but still holding her in my arms," You can't tell Renesmee, EJ or Shane okay? It has to be our little secret" She nodded, smirking a little.

"Of course, i pinky promise!" I chuckled at her enthusiasm and looked at Bella who was smiling also. When i looked back at Caitlin she was holding out her pinky for me to link with my own.

"Honey," Bella looked at her and frowned, which made Caitlin frown,"Daddy has to go away for a while-" Before Bella could say anything else Caitlin jumped up and glared at her, hugging my face to her small chest forcefully.

"No! You can't take away my Daddy!" She yelled and squeezed her arms tighter around my neck; if I were human I would have suffocated.

"No baby, its okay Daddy's not going anywhere, he just has to go away on a little trip with Renesmee and your brothers, He'll be back within a week." Caitlin's grip on my neck loosened till her arms were just draped around my neck.

"Sorry Momma, I didn't mean to yell." Her head hung low as she let go of me and hugged her mother.

"Its okay baby." Bella said kissing her moment was so sweet, if i had known all those years ago that this was something id be able to give her, a family, our own children, i would never would have left. That being one of the deciding factors of leaving, me knowing i couldn't have provided Bella with being a mother. I was certainly wrong.

The door suddenly slammed open and there stood a sheepish Renesmee with a doorknob in her hand.

"Sorry mom, you know this room is silent proof, I wanted to know what you guys were talking about" I breathed out I sigh of relief when I found out that she hadn't heard anything. I looked down at Caitlin who had her mouth wide open as she stared at the doorknob in Renesmee's hand. Renesmee followed her eyes down to where she was staring and chuckled awkwardly.

She walked over to us slowly and placed it in Caitlin's open hand; her eyes narrowed as she looked at the knob then back at her sister.

Renesmee smiled uncomfortably and walked backwards slowly to the door but before she got there Caitlin growled loudly; almost like a baby cub and threw it forcefully at Renesmee's forehead. She stumbled back a bit and growled back at her, it was only seconds later that Caitlin launched herself off the bed and towards her sister. Renesmee let out a small squeal and took off running out the door and down the hallway. I could hear the two yelling at each other from up here.

I turned my head to look at Bella, she was smiling at me, I just couldn't help but smile back.

"Bella I want to apologise, I know i shouldn't have said anything to her, but i couldn't lie to her, not when she was so upset." She chuckled and nodded.

"Now you know how I feel every day" I laughed with her and placed my hand on hers, which was resting next to her on the bed.

She sighed, "Edward what are we doing?" I shrugged and looked down suddenly becoming interested in my own feet.

"Did you mean it Edward?" I nodded and looked up at her holding her face in my palm.

"A vampires mate is forever, I will love you for all of eternity Bella, i want you to let me prove that to you, to bring our family together. Ive missed out on 13 years of our children's lives" My thumb stroked her cheek as i continued "Im filled with such regret, i should never have left you, I'm sorry i lied to you, but it was only ever for your benefit"

I had meant every single word, I was still in love with her and that was never going to change, I needed our children too. I had only known they were mine for 2 days but i never wanted to be apart from them again.

"Edward, I want you, but i don't know what id do if you ever left again" I shook my head and leaned in.

"Never, my Love" I kissed her gently at first but soon became more urgent, my hands gripping her waist, hers in my hair, tugging gently. I needed her more than air, if I actually needed it that was. She's my sun, she makes me feel warmth, she relieved me of the clouds in my life and shone through, capturing me with her light.

It was impossible not to love her.

Because we needed no air we didn't have to pull back, but what surprised me is that she did.

"Edward, I love you." She whispered, "I just need you to prove that I can trust you"

"I will Bella anything, I love you too" I kissed her forehead and pulled her to my chest. It felt wonderful.

All those years alone cooped up in a dirty, cheap motel in Brazil;I thought about Bella, if I was human I could have stayed, I could have gone to college with her, gotten married, had beautiful babies with her gorgeous mahogany curls and her heart shaped face.

I wanted it all, but I was lucky enough to get the last one, we did have beautiful babies, but what I wanted and how I wanted it wasn't in the right order. We should have gotten married first then I would have showed her how much i loved her on our wedding night not in Bella's small single bed on her 18th birthday. The 17 year old boy shone through that night, taking Bella's virginity for my own selfish reasons, my own pleasure. The best night of my existence had only been a parting gift for myself in a lesser way of explaining.

She deserved more. Not a monster.

"Edward what are you thinking about?" She asked, looking up and kissing my chin softly.

"You deserve better, that night on your birthday i practically stole your innocence for my own selfish pleasure, i should have made it better, more romantic" I was surprised to hear her burst out into laughter.

"Oh Edward thats what you were worrying about? That night was perfect Edward, because i was with you, you could have 'stolen my innocence' as you say in an alleyway and it would have been just as good" She giggled and hid her face in the crook of my neck.

"Im still sorry my love, I hope you'll give me the opportunity to redeem myself." I stood up and winked at her before holding out my hand to her, but quickly dropped it when Renesmee, Shane and EJ ran in with mischievous smiles on their faces. They were directed at me, I don't think I had felt more scared in my whole life.

"What," I asked them slowly.

"Edward were going on a road trip!"

Oh god….

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