I Love You But I Can't

Hey guys I am SO sorry about chapter 9 and believe me, I was spending most of my day trying to get it up yesterday! But no matter! To stay on schedule (cuz I like schedules) I shall put TWO chapters up today! I put up chapter 9 today and now I'm doing chapter 10! Yay!

Chapter 10 (The Turning Point)-

Barney had finally got over his stomach virus by the end of the week. Every day afterschool, not caring of what anybody thought because Barney comes first, he stayed with him until 8 at night. "He is so good to me..." Barney said to himself one night.

Barney was looking through his email when he found the thing that he's been waiting for for about 5 months. The email that could change his life forever. The email read:

"Dear Mr. Barney Castwell,

You are one of the 5 selected students attending the Austrailian Math and Science school in Melbourne, Austrailia. You shall be here on May 12, 2013."

May 11?! But that was 3 days from now. 2 because it's almost time for bed. Barney's hands started sweating and it was just one of those times when he would get a panic attack. He started breathing heavily and shaking. Then his heart started beating so fast and he couldn't breathe. He felt like he was underwater, drowning, when his oxygen tank was all used up. He felt like he was dying. His chest was burning, like a wildfire was just traveling up his chest. He was starting to feel dizzy and light headed, and he felt like throwing up even though his stomach virus was gone. Then he told himself, It's going to be ok! Then he snapped back to reality.

How was he going to tell Jewlie?! He couldn't tell the love of his life that he was moving thousands and thousands of miles away! But, if he didn't tell him, then Jewlie would think something had happened to him.

The next day, Barney went up to Jewlie and said, "Jewlie... I have to tell you something very important."

Jewlie heard the seriousness in his voice and felt scared. "Yes?"

Barney took a big breath. "I- I'm moving."

"Again? For a few months?" Jewlie asked.

"No... Jewlie, I got accepted."

Barney had told Jewlie about the program, but he forgot all about it. "Oh... That... That's wonderful. I- I'm happy for you."

Barney could see the sadness in Jewlie's eyes. "No you're not. Now, why don't you sleepover at my house. I'm going in 2 days."

"2 days?! Wow... um... yeah. I'll come today. I'll come as soon as I can!"

After school, Jewlie rushed to his house to get his pajamas and things and Arianna saw him. "What are you doing?" Arianna said.

"Not now," Jewlie said and went to the bathroom. He sneezed. That's not good, he never sneezed. He checked the thermometer in the cabinet. He put it in his mouth and waited for the beep. 100.3!? Oh, no. He must have got it from Barney, but his stomach seemed fine.

This is my last night to sleepover at Barney's house. I'm not gonna let a little cold stand in my way.

Then he thought about it. It was his last night to sleepover at Barney's house. He could feel tears stinging his eyes, but he let them fall. He held them in when Barney was around. But now nothing could stop him. He cried until he decided he must go to Barney's house. He grabbed his bag of stuff and ran to Barney's house.

This time he didn't have to go from the fire escape, since they would hang out in the living room too. Barney opened the door. "Hi," Barney said.

"Hi, " Jewlie said in a hoarse voice. Whoa, it wasn't like this a few minutes ago...

Barney thought Jewlie had a cold. "You alright, man?"

"Course," Jewlie said in a hoarse voice again and he cleared his throat.

"Ok, well come in."

Jewlie stepped inside the house. "You wanna play on the XBOX?" Barney asked.

"Yeah." Jewlie said hoarsely.

Barney and Jewlie played on the XBOX and then before they knew it, it was 3 am.

"Wow," Jewlie said clearing his throat. "I guess... it''s time for us to go to bed." Jewlie said.

"No." Barney said. "We're going to have a no sleeping contest! You have to lay on the bed and not all asleep."

"You're on!" Jewlie said. In the weekend, Jewlie had no problem not sleeping. But his cold was more powerful than his competitiveness and sleep took over. Barney could hear his lover breathing weirdly, like when you're sick. Barney smiled and got a marker and wrote "I'm stupit" on his cheek and smiled and went back to bed.