Not just any spell 10
*disclaimer* I don't own Harry potter.
yes it's short sorry I really wanted to post this then start the next chapter a little after the last scene. No please no tears but it might be sad. You'll see it gets better though.
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It's been a few day since I woke up in Tonks's arms the night after she made love to me. It was my first time, it was more amazing than I ever imagined, and I couldn't get enough. I gave her all of me the past few night but not without reveling in having all of her. Though I spent the days at home or at Hogwarts cleaning up we found a way to spend our night together. Dinners together with teddy and time alone talking or wrapped up between the sheets in bed. We would not see each other for mouths before the first hogsmeade trip which I swore I would make it to if it was the last think I did.
One week went by and there had been no word from Hermione or Minerva but I didn't expect there to be it's a big deal. I also understood why Tonks had endless jitters. She was nervous that if they didn't want to follow through that she revealed her secret which one day could come back to bite her In the butt. I did all that could to calm her. Two weeks came which finally led to a letter I received from Hermione.
Ginny,
Since we last talked Minerva and I have made a mutual desicion. I know you and Tonks have waited patiently that is why I decided to write you while Minerva writes Tonks. We would like to meet up somewhere Tonks is comfortable performing what needs to be done. Though you and I may or may not be allowed present I'm not sure. I have news which though breaks my heart it's for the best. If we are un welcomed perhaps I can borrow your ears and ask for a friend in my distress.
Write soon,
Hermione
I couldn't imagine what Hermione could have to say since they were following through they should be happy. I wrote her back later that day and waited till the next day after Tonks was off shift to speak to her to see what Minerva said. Something similar to the letter I received but nothing much into what Hermione mentioned. Though now we finally had a day set for Minerva to change. A few days later we all stood inside the whomping willow. Minerva was familiar with the spot and we all agreed it would be useful for this particularly. Any screams that could be heard would be just a reminder of how creepy the shrieking shack really was.
Hermione and I stood off in the distance not quite comfortable but not too bothered to leave. A small reminiscing between us about the time Harry, Ron, and she sat where we were now as Remus stopped them from killing Sirius. The same night they all realized he was innocent and pettigrew was my family's rat. The actually action of changing looked gruesome and certainly did force my heart as well as Hermione's I'm sure to pound in fright that the limp body of our professor wouldn't open her eyes or wake again. Long hours between when Tonks started draining her only to give her her blood in return we spent in silence. I cringed at the sight of Tonks drinking away the woman's life but I knew it wasn't the end of that life.
We spent the night there waiting and talking. I felt as though I was guarding Tonks as she slept beside Minerva. They passed out after the exchange not having time to even clean themselves up. Hermione the more talented of us cleaned them with hardly any effort. Her was quietness pushing me to ask about her letter. There were a few times I'd see her staring as if it was her last time. By the third time I got fed up and demanded answers.
"Why the hell do you look like your not going to be seeing her after tonight? She'll wake up! Stop worrying."
"I'm not going to be seeing her after tonight." My mouth gapes. "We agreed I need to finish my schooling so if I teach at Hogwarts in the future kids don't think I didn't earn what I really have. If I go back I can't be with her like this."
"Oh" I get it I mean I do Tonks and I were about to do this ourselves but we couldn't. Then again we didn't have this kind of risk. "I'm guessing you don't want to hide it. I mean you two are the smartest witches I know surely if anyone had a teacher/student affair to hide you two could do it." All she did was nod back at me although I could see the tempting look in her eyes. It was there and then gone again as she looked at Minerva.
"I couldn't risk it for her. I-" what ever else she was going to say was suddenly cut off with a whimper sound from her lover 'Temporary ex-lover?'. Another whimper closer to a cry of pain this time and she was making her way over to her side.
"Don't." Tonks muttered before sitting herself up. She looked weak and I stood at her side to help her stand. "She's going to be like this I will have to hold her down when it gets closer to the end. I need rest and blood." Her eyes shift to me, a involuntary shiver goes down my spine. I know she's looking to me so I can retrieve her blood we brought with her but the look in her gaze has me feeling a number of things thrll and fear among them.
"What if I can comfort her?" Tonks shrugs as she drinks half her container in just a few gulps.
"You might but if she smells you that close she might also be in a state to bite you. If you want her to choose animal blood let her be." With that she drinks more and we are sitting in the same strange silence I pulled Hermione and I from. I sigh at my ruined efforts and lean into Tonks's side more than happy to feel her in my arms knowing she's awake.
"Are you ok? You looked sick when you were.. drinking from her." I asked seeing how she looked better now than she did at the time.
"I'm fine I just don't like the taste since I didn't have that my first time when I changed. It's a reflex not her." I hummed letting my head fall to Tonks's chest and seeing the understanding expression reach Hermione.
I woke from a deep sleep exhausted and alight with pain as if it originated in my veins. I couldn't move myself but my body clenched and my voice cried out loudly. I knew something was wrong though I couldn't think straight enough to remember what has happened to be like this. A few scuffling sounds give me hope for help but I feel a pressure on my already heavy body it reacts without me giving any message to. It feels like a lot of force I'm using but the pressure won't move. A flash of being buried alive crosses my mind but somehow I know that's not it. The searing pain makes my ears ring just as voices start up so now they sound muffled.
"Get.. Deer.. Waking up...she... feed." I thump hard at the last word as if it's my reason for living. Minutes, hours, or and eternity passes before I stop thrashing for release and open my eyes slowly. Blurry figures hover above me the pressure holding me down is a person with bright hair instantly I think of Tonks and the rest comes back to me. Sure enough my vision clear and brown wavy hair line the face of my love. A soft snort brings my attention to the deer I remember hearing about. I croak my throat dry and my stomach aches with hunger. I know I can't hold off I look to Tonks my maker, then to Hermione my love with pleading eyes, and hope they see my eyes fall hungrily on the deer.
"Back up Hermione Ginny. Give me the leash of the deer." Taking the leash she leads the terrified deer to me. My intense stare has it bucking and pulling back. The only thing to bring my gaze away is hearing Hermione wince in pain. Looking at her I see Ginny caring for a gash on her forehead. Towel in hand blood coating it is patting away the blood still on her head. I growl at the sight though I feel more hungry than concerned though I want it the other way around.
"Shit! Move Ginny!" Tonks says that's when I realize I'm no longer under her hold and I'm headed straight to Hermione baring my fangs. I try multiple times to stop, to retract my fangs, but I'm stuck watching myself go. It's not like I can't feel the tingle in my body that grows the closer I get. Rapidly turning into a pain in my heart i know it's there telling me I'm going to hurt my mate. "No!" Tonks shouts as Ginny steps in front of me in defense and a powerful force crashes into me. I curse at the broken rips I received but thankful because now I have a sense of myself back. I groan sitting up slowly. Tonks is gone in back holding the deer in front of me. "Eat this not my fucking girlfriend." I comply not willing to piss her off more.
I didn't think that feeding would be like this. Once I started I couldn't stop due to the same intense feeling I had moments ago. This satisfies me much better and I don't have to hurt Hermione I tell myself. Sighing as I release the drained deer I look up around me, quick to find her.
"I'm sorry I don't mean to attack you my love." I whisper feeling embarrassed. She leans down beside me places her hand on my blood stained cheek. The warmth that fills me at her touch has me nuzzling her hand. "My mate." I say aloud not quite intending to but glad as her heart skips a beat then beats faster. She cleans me with a small spell and engulfs me in a hug. Already I know I can't follow through with our plan to not stay together but I'm sure she will. I ease my arms around her back and run my hands in small circles. Her lips brush my neck assuring me how she feels about me even more. It doesn't save me the pain when she pulls away and runs out the shack crying out 'I love you my mate.' I know she's trying to save me but all I can feel is absolutely broken.
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