There for You
Author's note/ Warning- This story contains some things parents may not find suitable for young kids. Context more than language so please read with caution.
Part 10
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Tamaki heard his phone going off; it was probably Kyouya, again. He must have been really stupid if he didn't understand the words 'I never want to talk to you again.' Rolling back over, he shut his eyes as sleep was overcoming him. He dreamt about his mother again, ever since one of Yuzuru's maids came across her number he dreamt about her. It took him days to build up the courage to call her but when he did he was so happy. To hear her voice again, it brought tears to his eyes. Now he debated if he should move to France to be with her again. He hated living alone, he may have lived alone since coming to Japan but he knew his father was close by and could stop for dinner some nights. Now he knew those nights would never happen again. Even if his grandmother disproved she couldn't stop him. He wasn't fourteen anymore, he could do as he pleased. It wouldn't be hard to find work so he could support the two of them.
When he opened his eyes he noticed the pain he felt before wasn't as bad. Looking at the clock he noticed he could still go to school. He hadn't been since he got called out of class. How long ago was that anyway? A few days, a week maybe? The school told him he could take as long as he needed knowing it wouldn't be easy to go back. If he didn't attend a school his father owned and worked at it would have been better, for there everything would feel like him. Maybe he would try it; he couldn't lie in bed anymore. Time hadn't stopped for him the way it had for his father. It was still moving forward and he had to as well. It was time he took that step forward, for standing still would change nothing. As he sat up he grabbed his phone from the nightstand. He had a missed called, from Kyouya, last week. Brushing it off he checked to see that Haruhi called him the other day and the twins text him to see how he was doing. The date on the main screen took him off guard, it read October twenty-seventh. Had he really laid in his bed for a month? It was a sign though that today was the day to take that first step back into his life.
As he sat in his car he was a little nervous, could he do this? He would give it a shot at least, if it was too hard he would go home. How would he react to seeing Kyouya? Well he sat in front of him so once he sat down he could ignore him the way he had been. As the car pulled up he took a deep breath and got out. He stared at the building in front of him before he took that first step away from the car, and then another, and another until he made it to his classroom. Stopping outside he jammed his free hand into his pocket as his fists clenched to prepare to see Kyouya in there. He just had to walk in and sit down, he could keep his head down to avoid seeing the other; he could do that. Kyouya could be ignored as he was for the past month. When he stepped in her heard a bunch of girls say his name and run over to him. They seemed so happy to see him finally come back to school. They all promised to help him with his work if he needed it so he could be ready for finals in a couple of months. As they were talking to him he couldn't stop his eye from wandering to his seat. Kyouya wasn't there, the seat was empty and his bag was missing. Was he running late? Looking in the room he didn't see him anywhere, so he didn't change seats. When he focused back to the girls he noticed they said something to him but he hadn't heard any of it. Before he could ask them to repeat it the bell for homeroom rang and they all sat down.
He may have asked them what they said at lunch but he had been called down to the office. The assistant principal was now in charge until someone else was decided by his grandmother. He was grateful he didn't have to step into his father's office; he didn't think he would be able to do it. The assistant just wanted to see how he was doing since he heard that he came back.
"If you need help with anything or need to talk please know you can talk to me."
"Thank you sir, I will."
So far he was doing okay, just a few more classes and then the host club, he could handle it. As he walked back to class he felt a sudden urge to turn back and ask if he knew why Kyouya wasn't in school. Why would he care to know though? Him not being here made today easier.
By the time he got to the host club he was the last one. He had to stay a few extra minutes to get all the notes he missed. He had enough homework to last him till Christmas break.
"Tama-chan, your back!" Everyone stopped what they were doing as they saw Hunny run to the door as Tamaki was walking in.
"Yeah, I'm back. Sorry everyone for not returning you messages right away. I just got them this morning."
"How are you doing Senpai?"
"I'm getting there, it's taking me a while but I think I can do it. Thank you guys for all of your support."
"Don't mention it mi' lord." Hikaru had his normal smile on his face though his voice sounded embarrassed.
"Well I see the clubroom is still in one piece so that's a relief."
"We are smart enough to keep it going Tama-chan."
"Yea, Haruhi here had been working non-stop to make sure it would be here for you."
"Wait, Haruhi? I'm grateful but why hasn't Kyouya helped you? Did he leave the club or something?"
"What, you don't know? Haven't you seen the news lately?" Tamaki looked at Hikaru and the others, what was going on.
"No to be honest with you I haven't. My TV hasn't been on at all actually. Tell me what's going on with Kyouya." He wasn't sure why he was asking. He couldn't really care could he? He had planned to throw him out once he came back so why did he care?
"Well Senpai, Kyouya-senpai had been helping us up until last week. Then he, well, he left school last Monday. None of us have been able to get through to him."
"Is he okay?" He felt himself start to panic as it seemed no one wanted to tell him.
"Tama-chan, last Monday morning Kyo-chans father went public about his pregnancy. Some of the ladies in his class told us he walked out before third period. He hasn't been back since. Someone outside of school told someone here because everyone in school knew by the end of the day. We heard about the press conference but we didn't know he left until they told us."
As the words registered in his mind he remembered all that was going on before his father's death. Kyouya was pregnant and thanks to Yoshio he was the father. He had promised him, that he would be there for him when this happened. Why hadn't Kyouya called him? He suddenly got this sick feeling as he recalled earlier checking his phone to see a missed call from Kyouya last week. Last Monday to be exact, Kyouya had tried to call yet he ignored every call from him.
"Oh God what did I do?" As he was hit with the memory of the last time he saw Kyouya he ran out of the room, his voice yelling at Kyouya echoed in his ears. Running out of the building he called his driver that he was running to Kyouya's and to meet him on the road. He wasn't going to stop running until he got there if he had too.
The further he got from the school he hoped his car could get him soon, Kyouya's house wasn't just up the road. Not to mention the sooner he got there the better. He had to apologize for what he said and did. He got so wrapped up in his grief that he forgot about everything else. He wondered if Kyouya would talk to him. Maybe he could fix this, even if they weren't best friends anymore maybe they could be normal friends, or at least on speaking terms. He slowed down as he saw his driver pull up next to him. Thank God, he was starting to slow down from being out of breath and his legs hurting from not moving this much in weeks. Once in the car he called Tachibana since Kyouya's phone was off. At least he seemed happy to hear that he was coming over, maybe Kyouya would be too. He couldn't believe how stupid he had been. How could he forget that his promised Kyouya that he would be there for him? How could he have gotten so mad at him when he knew from the start it wasn't his fault?
As the house came into view he prayed Kyouya would see him. Tachibana was outside waiting for him. He seemed worried but glad. "Hello Tamaki, he is in his room. I know he will be glad to see you." Without being told again he ran inside and down the hall to go to the next floor where his room was. Without knocking he opened the door and walked in. Unless Kyouya was watching TV he wouldn't hear him knock anyway.
The room seemed dark though it never seemed that well lit to start. The downstairs was quiet and empty. Kyouya must be upstairs sleeping. He stopped when he hit the top. Kyouya's back was towards him but that wasn't what worried him, it was how he seemed, lifeless. He couldn't see any part of him moving. What if something happened? What if he was too late? He couldn't lose him too.
"K…Kyouya?" He heard his voice crack as his mind started to panic. "Hey Kyouya, it's me, can we talk?"
Kyouya opened his eyes as he heard his name. He recognized that voice but there was no way it could be him. His mind needed to stop playing tricks on him already. "Tamaki?"
"Oh thank God."
"If your here to yell at me can you just do it and leave, I'm not in the mood for a long argument."
"I want to apologize to you." He rolled over to sit up in the bed. It was Tamaki he heard, he was standing at the top of the stairs. He didn't seem angry but upset. Why was he here? Tamaki moved a little closer, he quickly caught himself as his eyes were moving to stare at Kyouya's stomach, it was noticeable now. Of course it was, he was pregnant and though he hadn't talked for a month didn't mean time would stop for him. Time was moving forward for Kyouya while he had stood still. "Kyouya, I'm really sorry for how I acted. I messed up. I got so wrapped up in my sorrow that I took it out on you. I never should have blamed you, deep down I knew you didn't kill my father or want him dead. I just needed someone to blame for my pain and we had things going on so I attacked you. I broke my promise to you." He moved closer, Kyouya moved over so he could sit in the bed.
"I thought I was dead to you, that you never wanted to see my face again."
"I know and I'm sorry I should never have said those that, you're my best friend."
"I am? I don't see how. I didn't think best friends blamed each other for things they didn't do and never pick up the phone."
"Kyouya, I…" He was right, for the last month he didn't treat him like they were best friends or even friends at all. "Your right I didn't but I want to try and fix that if you'll let me."
"I tried to give you space after the funeral. I could tell how much you hated me and I wanted to give you time before we tried to talk again. You promised me you would stand by me yet when I really needed you, you wouldn't call me back. The one time I really need you and you're not talking to me. Last week I could have really used my 'best friend.'" He felt like a girl saying that but it was all true.
"I know, I screwed up big time. I let you down. I made you go through so much alone. I'm sorry Kyouya. Is there any way you can forgive me? He noticed Tamaki's eyes became watery as he got ready to cry.
"Don't cry Tamaki, please." He knew that if Tamaki started to cry he would too thanks to the hormones. "If I forgive you will you not cry?"
"Maybe."
"Then I forgive you." Deep down he didn't want to stay mad at Tamaki, he didn't want to lose him. He hated not being able to talk to him this past month especially with so much going on. If Tamaki could forgive him for what his family did then he would do whatever he could to get his best friend back.
"Really, you'll take me back?"
"We weren't a couple."
"Maybe not, but you were my best friend, and you're having my baby."
"You still want to be involved, I'll understand completely if you don't."
"I do, if you'll let me." That was all Kyouya needed to hear to lose his hold on his emotions and start crying. "Kyouya are you okay? Did I somehow hurt you? Hey say something, why are you crying?"
"We are such losers you know that right."
"Yea I know but that's why we're friends." Tamaki smiled as he wrapped his arms around Kyouya's neck to hug him. He was so grateful for Kyouya, after what he said to him and the baby he didn't expect to be forgiven. He had such a great friend, how could he say what he did.
They sat together and talking about different things that happened for both of them this past month. Tamaki told him about talking to his mother, he was going to tell him that he was thinking about moving there to be with her but he didn't feel it was right to bring it up. Kyouya told him about the varies club things he missed and would have to look forward to tomorrow. As they talked Kyouya noticed something, Tamaki was sweating, and that he had been since he showed up. Was he getting sick? Finally, deciding he wanted an answer he asked and was a little surprised by what he said.
"I started to run here from the school."
"What! I'm twenty minutes at least if you drive and you decided to run?"
"I heard about what happened last week and I wanted to talk to you as soon as I could. I didn't want to wait at the school for my driver to show up. I felt really bad for what I did to you and so I decided that I would do whatever I could to get here and try to make it right."
"You're nuts you know that right" He was grateful though that Tamaki came over as soon as he realized what happened between them and to him. He didn't realize he would do that though it seemed just like him.
"Now it's my turn; I know it's chilly today but what's with the turtleneck, it isn't that cold out."
"My wardrobe is limited right now. I'll take what I can get."
"Can I fold it down then, your making me hotter then I already am."
"Then take your jacket off."
"Oh come on let me lower it."
"Please stop Tamaki, let it go."
"No, because now I know you're hiding something. What do you have a hickey or something?"
"What? No, now Tamaki stop, plea…" Tamaki got past Kyouya's hands and pulled down the material.
"What…how could…is this from me?" His voice was soft as he stared at his neck.
"I told you to stop." He moved Tamaki's hands easier now as they suddenly lifeless and pulled it back up to cover the pink line running across the left side of his neck. It didn't seem old, maybe a few days to a week at most. It seemed almost as if the blade touched the skin and broke it but it was taken away before it could go deeper.
"Kyouya, I…I'm so sorry. Why did you do this?" He looked into his onyx eyes for the truth. Both found it hard to speak to the other. Both blamed themselves for this, one for letting the other see the scar of his moment of weakness. The other knowing this was all because of his actions, this was all his fault. "Answer me, please Kyouya."
"Last Monday when I couldn't be in class anymore from their eyes, I decided as I ran out. I just couldn't handle it anymore. I came home and was done. The blade touched me but before I could press harder Tachibana caught me. My uncertainty over if I wanted to die ended up saving my life."
"So this is my fault, you wouldn't have done this if I wasn't such a dumbass. Oh Kyouya I'm so sorry. I'm sorry for what I did to you, I'm sorry for what I put you through." He wrapped his arms around his neck again to hug him tightly. "Please don't attempt anything like this again. I don't want to lose you. I promise you I won't leave you alone so if you need to talk know I'm always here. Are you okay now? Did you cut yourself anywhere else?"
"No, Tamaki's it's just this and yes I'm fine now."
"Move your sleeves, I don't want to say I don't trust you but I don't trust you." Rolling his eyes he pulled back his sleeves to have Tamaki grab his arms and examine them.
"Stop this okay."
"Okay." Both were whispering as that was all their voices could handle. There were red and pink lines on his left arm, all seemed to be healing. These were deeper than the one on his neck and a few seemed recent, a few days ago at most.
"Do you promise me you'll stop?"
"I do, I'll stop I promise. Please don't tell my father."
"Okay I won't. If you break your promise, I'll know so don't do it."
"I won't. Please don't cry again."
"This is funny Kyouya, I'm serious."
"I know."
They just sat in silence for a while, lost in their own thoughts over everything that happened recently. Tired of the silence Kyouya moved to get off the bed.
"I want to show you something."
"I'll get it, just tell me where." Tamaki could tell he was having trouble getting up from being in bed so long.
"If you want, on the coffee table downstairs, bring up the folder."
"Okay be right back." He slid off the bed to run downstairs to get what Kyouya asked for and run back up. "Here you go, one folder, which reminds me that I have a ton of homework waiting for me." Kyouya went through it looking for something while he listened to him.
"Oh just copy mine, I know you want to."
"What's the condition?"
"Help me with my French homework so I can pass the class."
"Done. Now what did you want to show me?" Finally finding it further back then he thought he handed an envelope to him.
"You can break the seal on it and take a look."
It took a second for him to get it open, when he did he took out what was inside and smiled.
"Oh! Is this the baby?"
"No, it's my dog, dumbass."
"I knew that, jeez, I know you don't have a dog. When was this taken?"
Kyouya rolled his eyes at him before answering. "The Sunday before my father told the public. He wanted as recent as he could."
"So he used this when he…?"
"No, thank god. I'm not sure what he did exactly for I was in class when it happened. But, I know he didn't put it up, I believe these pictures are for investors."
"You'd swear he is going to our baby off to the highest bidder."
"I don't think he is but he hasn't talked about its upbringing so I don't know what he is planning."
"No! He can't do that!"
"Relax I didn't say he was."
"I don't want him to touch our child, ever. I can't forgive him for everything he's done. I know he's your father but I can't."
"I understand, you know I do, remember I can't forgive him either. I won't let him touch the child, not when I know what he is capable of. But, how are we going to raise a baby?"
"I…I don't know. But, we still some time to figure things out. If your concerned then does this mean that your starting to love the baby?"
"A little."
"I did it! It was me right?"
"It was a lot of things." Actually it was after Tamaki came to talk to him and wanted to be involved again. Knowing that he wasn't alone anymore he could finally love and be excited for the child, their child.
"Can I feel him?"
"Forget it."
"But…"
"Forget it. I don't want you to touch me."
"Pleassseee?"
"Forget it."
"Oh come on, you can't do that to me. You can't show me a picture and not let me feel them."
"Just so you know I haven't felt them kick either so relax." *Thank god, I haven't that just seems strange.* "So how about when I do, you can to."
"Fine, deal. Guess we have to stick together for when it happens."
"I guess so, oh joy. I'm stuck with you. Now, I have a question for you."
"Forget it your being mean to me and I don't want to help you."
"Fine, whatever I've waited this long."
"Waited for long for what?" Kyouya internally smiled as Tamaki fell for his trap.
"To know if it's a boy or a girl."
"What! You don't know yet? Kyouya haven't you seen this picture?"
"Well it was in a sealed envelope, and you broke the seal so no. When they made me get the ultrasound I didn't look, I never look at the screen. Up until recently I haven't wanted to."
"Your hopeless; well fine I'll help you then." He moved closer to sit next to him so they could look together. "This is your son in this picture."
"I know who it is, I'm not you…so we are having a boy."
"It does look that way. Nervous?"
"No more than before."
"I bet you'll be a great parent." As they looked at the picture they talked about the baby and in general. They realized how much they missed this. They both hoped they would never fight the way they had again.
For dinner Tamaki stayed in the bedroom to avoid Yoshio. Kyouya had food brought up to him so he could eat something as well. Once they were together again they sat downstairs and watched TV. Kyouya didn't want him to leave right now and Tamaki didn't seem to have anything else to do for the night so he didn't worry about leaving. He watched as Tamaki grabbed his knees to his chest as the news mentioned that it had been a month since Yuzuru's passing and police were still investigating the details of the crash.
"Are you okay Tamaki?"
"I miss him Kyouya. I still can't believe he's gone."
"I am sorry, for what my family did to you, for what you've been put through. I know that if you hadn't been involved none of this would have happened. Yuzuru only became involved because you had to be, that's why I'm a little surprised you still want to."
"Well I'm not one to run from things."
"Yes, but this isn't from something we did. If you didn't want the responsibility of a baby I wouldn't force you too."
"It's fine. I want to be involved for this. I want to be in our baby's life. Whether we slept together or not is irrelevant because I'm still the father so I want to be there the best I can."
"That's your choice Tamaki."
"…January right?"
"Yes."
"Six months already wow."
"What do you mean six months already? I can't believe it's only six. It should be nine already so this can all be over."
"It will come fast enough I bet."
"Everyone has been saying that but it's still not soon enough."
"Do they have an exact day yet?"
"They haven't told me one but most likely."
"I know we aren't a couple but if you want to you can move in with me in one of the guest rooms so we can raise our son together."
"I can't."
"What?"
"I can't. I can't move in with you."
"Why not? It's not gay to live with another guy, lots of people do it."
"That's not it. My father is watching me much closer than he was before. If I had to guess I would say it's to see if we make up or not. I don't want him to know that we have because I fear he'll go after you too."
"When were you going to tell me this?"
"I wasn't planning on it."
"But I should know, I want to protect you."
"You're the one in danger not me. If anything I should protect you. Which I am trying to do."
"Okay fine, so we don't stay together outside of school unless I sneak over. But, what do we do about our baby?"
"You set up a room at your place and I'll do the same here. That way if we can't stay under one room he'll still be able to stay with both of us if one of us can't watch him."
"Okay, I'll do that then."
As the night got later Kyouya found it impossible to keep his eyes open but he didn't want Tamaki to leave. He also didn't feel like trying to sneak him out of the house. He missed this so much and he didn't want it to end. Both walked upstairs to his bed so he could get comfortable. After telling him that if he wanted to he could borrow his pajamas in the drawer downstairs he moved over so Tamaki could sleep in the bed. He was too tired to hunt down a maid to get a futon, if they even had one.
"I can handle the couch."
"This is fine, why sleep over if you're in another room practically right." Tamaki smiled as he Kyouya told him the almost the exact same thing he told him months ago when he first started sleeping over.
"Just know that if you try anything, you will be sorry.And I'm serious I'll castrate you in a second."
"Point taken."
Tamaki laid in the bed and stared at the room with his back to Kyouya who he could hear was already asleep. He was happy they were back to how they used to be. He was prepared for this take time and work hard to get it all back. Everything worked out in the end and now he knew he could handle anything with the certainty Kyouya held. Both had grown up and evaluated everything in the past month and so they could handle the challenges they had yet to face.
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How many actually thought I was going to keep them apart? I thought about it but then decided that wasn't like Tamaki to stay mad like that. Okay so thoughts, ideas, leave them in the review.
~Femalefighter~