Miss You When I'm Dreaming
Chapter 10
Tric was filled with people that night which filled Haley's stomach with even more butterflies that night as she knew what she had to do. Everyone will be listening and watching as she done it too which didn't help the situation. She looked at the picture that she had stuck at the top of the mirror to motiavate herself to do it. She lightly brushed it with her fingertips and smiled weakly. There was a knock on the door which made her jump. She didn't need to answer it as the person was already in the room. She sat were she was not moving a muscle. Just staring at him. He was the last person she expected to see in her dressing room before her performance after a complete week of them arguing, shouting and screaming at each other. She didn't want another arguement not now, she just didn't have the time for it. She plucked up the courage to speak. "Nathan, I don't want to talk about this now, I have made up my mind" Haley said playing with her hands and not looking up. "Haley please you know I can't live without you, I made a mistake, I am only human" Nathan said sadly. "No, now leave me alone I have a show to prepare for" Haley said. Before Nathan could say anything there was another knock at the door. It was Peyton. "Haley your up" She said confidently before she seen Nathan standing there. Haley jumped up grabbed her guitar took one last look in the mirror and left but she turned round on her heel and said "If you two decide to repeat your little webcam show, sorry there is no webcam for the world to see it, clean the room after you I don't want the cleaners shouting at me for stains and underwear strewn all over the place." With that Haley left to do her set.
Lucas had just arrived at Tric and thats when he saw her. She was dancing with some greasy blonde haired guy who didn't look half as good as what he did. He got so angry when he tried to pull her close but she had always refused. He wanted to remove those filthy hands of his from that beautiful body that used to be his. He looked up on stage and noticed that it was Haley playing that night. He always liked it when his best friend played, it was always her dream to do that. He walked over to the bar and sat at one of the bar stools. "Hey Lucas whats wrong, your looking troubled" His mum said handing someone their change from their purchases of alcohol. "Nothing just fine do you need any help tonight? It looks pretty crowded" Lucas said seeing all the people forming at the bar. "No thanks Lucas, I have enough staff on, go and enjoy yourself" His mum said and with that she started taking more orders. So Lucas turned round and payed attention to the stage as Haley's second song had just ended.
"This is my third and final song of the night and this song is dedicated to all the people in here tonight who have been heartbroken in any shape or form and you still miss them very much and it goes out to the two people I loved the most in my life that I lost, they know who they are " Haley says before starting to play the first few notes of the song. Nathan came rushing to the side of the stage to hear the song Haley was about to play for him. Was she going to say it was ok that he was stupid but she still loved him no matter what?
Today I didn't think of you
Today was alright
I had a lot of things to do
I was moving on with my life
But now I need some answers, some answers
I'm tired and I'm getting weak
Some answers, some answers
I only miss you when I'm dreaming
That's why I don't wanna close my eyes
Tell me why you only hurt me when I'm sleeping
The only time I can't put up a fight
Is when I'm dreaming
Another hour passes by
It's gonna be a long night ahead
Cause I feel you creeping up inside my mind
Everytime I look at my bed
But now I need some answers, some answers
I'm tired and I'm weak
Some answers, some answers
I only miss you when I'm dreaming
That's why I don't wanna close my eyes
Tell me why you only hurt me when I'm sleeping
The only time I can't put up a fight
Dreaming
The only time I can't live without you dreaming
I can't let you go
Oh no
I only miss you when I'm dreaming
That's why I don't wanna close my eyes
Tell me why you only hurt me when I'm sleeping
The only time I can't control my mind, oh
And the only time I can't put up a fight
I miss you when I'm dreaming
Haley finished her song and lifted her guitar and left the stage the side that Nathan wasn't standing on.
Lucas looked across and seen her standing by herself. There she was all by herself. No one to comfort her after such a beautiful song. He wondered did she miss him her dreams like he missed her. The song had fitted perfectly for him. Those beautiful words have such meaning and understanding in them for him. Lucas knew what he had to do. He didn't want to lose her, he couldn't live the rest of his life knowing what would have happened if had to have taken the chance of going to talk to her. He needed release and he needed it now.
"Haley wait" Nathan shouted as Haley was turning round the edge of her dressing room. He chased after her only to catch the back of her throwing the guitar into its case. "Is it true Haley? That song was wrote for me but it makes no sense you said two people" Nathan said. "You just don't get it do you? You still haven't realised what happened to us not so long ago?" Haley said with a sarcastic tone in her voice. "I lost the baby too but you seem to think your the only one who did lose it does take to create the little mircale" Nathan said angrily. "No Nathan no, you don't need sympathy from me, you got it when you slept with Peyton live on her webcam, did the silly slut forget to turn it off or did you want to give me a proper showing of all the action?" Haley said now turning round with such rage and anger in her voice she sounded as though she was going to explode. "Haley it was a mistake I didn't mean it I was only going round to Peyton's to ask her if she could slot you in for tonight's performance here I didn't want any of it, it all meant nothing" Nathan said walking slowly towards Haley. "That's supposed to make me feel one hundred million times better is it Nathan! Well I am sorry to burst your happy little bubble but it isn't going to make me feel any shade better, infact it makes me feel worse, you happy now? As if the life of Haley James Scott wasn't bad enough you decide to sleep with one of my friends! Great timing Nathan, I married you for that. Well thanks for ruining my life Nathan, I really am greatful. This is what I love doing best having my heart broken and then having to go and put my life back together again. I don't want to see you again now get out GET OUT!" Haley screamed finally falling to the floor in tears. Nathan just stared at her there huddled in a mess on the floor. He backed away not taking his eyes off her. He backed out of her life for good. Or at least for a while.
"Brooke, can I talk to you?" Lucas said nervously as he thrusted his hands into his pockets. Brooke turned round, her shining hair swinging in the air, her beautiful smile turning into a frown and those big hazel eyes lost their sparkle dropping to the ground as soon as she seen him. She softly placed her glass into someones hand. "What do you want? Looking for a blonde girl with curly hair? Yep she is probably backstage somewere and at least you don't have me this time to cheat on" Brooke said nastily. "Five minutes Brooke, would it kill you just to hear me out?" Lucas said in a pleading sort of way. Brooke thought about it. She breathed out an angry sigh and got up and said "Well come on then I haven't got all night" and wondered off towards the back exit leading to the stairs outside of Tric. Lucas followed and closed the door behind him. He leaned up against the wall of the club and felt as though he was lost for words. He had to do it now, it was now or never, don't make yourself look like a fool Lucas just tell her he kept playing through his mind over and over again. "Brooke, I realised something tonight, something stupid that I should have realised a long time ago and I know we aren't on the best of terms from what I did but just hear me out. Its quite simple acutally" He said but stopped and took a deep breath and looked at her and he knew he had her full attention. "I miss you when I wake up in the morning, when I am eating breakfast, when I am at school, when I am coming home, when I eat my dinner, when I'm playing basketball, when I'm reading or listening to music but most of all, I've missed you when I'm dreaming. Just like Haley's song, I can fight the memories at lunchtime, when I'm reading all those times, but not when I'm dreaming because you invade every single one with your beautiful life and all the beautiful times we had together and I know I hurt you Brooke but I just can't go on missing you espically in my dreams" Lucas said finally feeling as though the world had been lifted from his shoulders. Brooke stared at him with tears in her eyes, she didn't know what to say she was speechless. "Lucas I, I don't know what to say, I guess you can answer me this question please" Brooke said sweetly tears running down her face. "Tell me why you only hurt me when I'm sleeping? No wait you answered it. I love you Lucas Scott" Brooke said jumping up and throwing her arms round his neck and pulling him into a tight embrace. Lucas was in shock, he held her so tight. She broke away slightly and then moved his face towards hers, lightly touching his lips with hers. "Guess we found the answers for that song" Lucas said smiling widely pulling Brooke into another tight embrace not wanting to let go, never again, he won't need to though, he won't miss her in his dreams because she will already be there.