[Shindou's POV]

Aoi. Why did I say her name? I didn't even like her. How could I like a person who hangs out with the one I love all the time, anyway? Why couldn't Kirino just say he loved me and he didn't want to practise. I wasn't even sure anymore if he actually didn't have feelings for Mamoru. And if he did? Then what? Well, luckily I could still get him to practise kissing and maybe sex with me. But it would hurt so much knowing that he didn't even want me… Oh Kirino, you're lucky I want you so much…

Kirino was still looking down. "Hey," I nudged him. "Everything alright?" He nodded.

"Can we… can we just practise kissing again… before you get together with Aoi and live with her forever? 'Cause then I won't have anyone to practise with anymore." I smiled.

"I'm not planning to ask Aoi out anytime soon, so there's enough time for us to practise."

"I can ask her for you. Or at least ask her what she thinks about you." Oh no! No, no, no!

"Oh sure, that would be nice." I faked a smile. "But I told you I don't wanna date anyone at the moment. Maybe never." I sighed. I didn't want to date anyone except for Kirino, of course!

"I can still ask her."

"I can ask Mamoru if he likes you." He just nodded. "So you do like him?" He rolled his eyes.

"How can it take you that long to find out how I feel?"

"So you do like him? Alright." I knew he would never want to date me…

"Idiot," he whispered and lay down in his bed, curling up in his blanket. "Such an idiot." I sighed and lay down as well. I thought about what he had just said for a while, then fell asleep.

The next morning I got woken up by Kirino's alarm. "Morning," I growled and stretched.

Kirino yawned. "Where's my good morning kiss?"

"You're not mad?" He shrugged.

"You know, everything's fine the way it is." I pecked his cheek.

"Oh really?" Technically he was right. I did still get to kiss him and cuddle him… It was like we were a couple. Kirino nodded and giggled.

"I agree," I said, smiling at the other. "Now come on, we gotta get ready for school." He nodded.

"If you want we can go to my place after school. We can do our little practice there and no one will complain," I offered, hoping he would say yes.

"I'll be there. Dressed like a girl, I know." He giggled and winked at me.

"Just tell my mom you've been feeling lonely at home without your parents there and they'll let you stay as long as you want." He nodded.

School that day was pretty uneventful. Well, except for the fact that this girl ran into me with her lunch tray and spilled milk all over me… But that was my own fault. I had been thinking about Kirino all day instead of paying attention to other things.

After school Kirino came to my house, wearing the same dress as the first time he was here. He had his hair in a bun this time.

"You look so cute!" I smiled and hugged him. He blushed. "Th-Thank you."

"By the way, my parents aren't home yet. Just saying so you're not worried about embarrassing yourself." I winked.

"Embarrassing myself? How?"

"Well, since we wanted to practice sex, and from what I heard…" I grabbed his hand and led him to my room. "…the first time can be pretty, you know, painful." He frowned.

"I'm sure it won't be that bad."

"You hang out with girls all the time. Do they not talk about these things?"

"Well, Aoi said it doesn't hurt that bad when you're… ready."

"Aoi had sex before?"

"Yeah. She was dating Tenma!"

"She had sex with Tenma?"

"I suppose so. They were dating for two or three years. Did you not know that?" I rolled my eyes.

"I thought they were just really good friends. Like you and her are now." He chuckled.

"Well, I can assure you I did not have sex with her. I don't even like girls…" He blushed.

"Like… not at all?" He shook his head. "So… you're gay?"

"Well, is that a problem? And I told you that there's a guy I find hot."

"It's not a problem, and… sorry for asking."

"It's fine. I'll do my best to pretend to be Aoi for you. I'm even wearing a dress."

"I don't mind. I like boys too… and… Aoi." Kirino giggled.

"Aoi's the only girl you like?" I nodded and sat down on my bed.
"Let's stop talking about Aoi. Come here." He sat next to me.

"What is it?"

"Well, since we're here to practise let's get started. So… are you sure you're ready for this?" He nodded. I looked at him, not sure what to do next. "Umm… okay…" I paused. "Kirino?"

"Yes?"

"Did the girls tell you how… you get started with this?"

"Not exactly… But… don't you know?" I sighed. This was just so awkward.

"Well, I do, but I don't know how to do it the romantic way." He frowned.

"There's a romantic way to have sex?" I shrugged.

"Don't ask me! But… I can't just do the things I… know about… to you…" I closed my eyes.

"Well… then think of something."
"Aoi would know what to do."
"I don't think Aoi would be too happy about a clueless sexual partner."

"I'M NOT CLUELESS! Just… take off your clothes I guess." He frowned.

"Not like that!"

"Well do you know how to do that? Then you start!"

"You start…" he repeated and rolled his eyes. "I don't know exactly how to start, but the girls say that usually they start by making out with their boyfriend… until… you know… they get… turned on." He blushed hard. I chuckled.
"What if I don't get turned on from kissing you?"

"THEN WE CAN'T HAVE SEX, ALRIGHT? Stop asking me!" He blushed darker.

"Alright." I leaned in and started kissing him, sliding my tongue in his mouth. He moaned slightly. I broke the kiss after just a few seconds.

"Are you turned on yet?" I tried not to laugh. Kirino was too cute trying to explain sex to me.

"Don't stop!" He grabbed my shirt and pulled me on top of him, starting to kiss me again. How could he be so cute? I blushed a little as well. Soon he broke the kiss, smiling at me.
"Now I am."

"You're what?"
"Turned on!" His cheeks were bright red.

"Oh, you are? That's good. So now we take off our clothes?" He got up and took off his dress, then lay down on his stomach. I looked him up and down.

"So now I just start… fucking you?"

"NO!" He gasped. "Not right away!"
"But in porn they do." He rolled his eyes.

"You… you should finger me first."

"But they usually don't do that in porn."
"Forget about porn!" he shouted. "They're not virgins!" I laughed.

"You're so cute when you're annoyed." I slowly pulled down his underwear and grabbed a bottle of lube from my nightstand. "I heard that this makes sex feel better." I smiled and put some on my finger. "Ready?" Kirino looked at me.

"This is not exactly romantic… but yes. I am."
"Not romantic? Then what is romantic?"

"You know, kissing, well, kissing all over, making out some more…"

"Always complaining, hm?" I started rubbing the lube around his hole. He gasped.

"So… so cold!" I chuckled.

"Sorry!" I looked him in the eyes, sliding my finger in slowly. Kirino groaned.

"Ngh… Sh-Shindou…"

"Does it hurt?" He bit his lip.

"A little."

"So sensitive!" I smiled. "Don't worry, it'll feel better soon."

"Shindou…" I looked down at him.

"You know you could just call me Mamoru…" I sighed.

"B-But I don't want to… I don't want to imagine that you're Mamoru." He groaned. I started moving my finger in and out of him. "Ow! Shindou… it hurts!" I chuckled.

"This is gonna get interesting as soon as my second finger goes in."

"Second finger? But…," Kirino started cramping up.

"Calm down! If you're not ready for actual sex now, don't worry. This is just practice after all."

"But… I don't wanna disappoint you."

"Disappoint me? Why?"
"This is your first time as well." He looked down. I nodded.

"It is. But don't worry. I'm way happier about this than you think." I blushed. I wanted to tell him how I really felt about him. If I just wasn't so scared of him rejecting me…