Welcome to Part 2 of Cyberwoman.

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Lucy laid there in silence, trying to make her breathing as quiet as possible. All she could think about was Ianto's face when he found out that she had been lying to him and the despair when he knew that he couldn't save the woman she loved.

She would not have been able to say how long she was in the cupboard, waiting in silence, her gun pointed at the door ready to shoot the minute it was opened.

The silence was broken by the sound of a phone ringing. She could hear Owen and Gwen frantically trying to turn it off and the door open next to her. The minute she heard that she also scrambled out keeping her gun pointed at CyberLisa and more specifically the unprotected stomach.

"Turn it off!"

Lisa stalked after Gwen and Owen grabbed a knife from the side.

"Don't you touch her." He hissed, she walked forward to attack him instead and two things happened at once.

Lucy shot Lisa, the bullet going through the revealed flesh on her side, and Owen stabbed her in the stomach.

Lisa stumbled backwards into the wall and Lucy positioned herself between Owen, Gwen and the cyberwoman.

"What the hell was that?" Gwen asked

"What?"

"Snogging me!" She retaliated

"Last kiss for the condemned man." He replied and Lucy could see him give a small shrug out of the corner of her eye. "Little embarrassing given we haven't been killed. What? It's not like I fancy you or anything."

"I was on top of you. I could feel your hard-on" She replied

"Yeah... well you didn't exactly struggle did you?"

"Can you two shut up?" Lucy asked over her shoulder, "Owen don't snog her again she has a boyfriend. Gwen don't respond to his snog, you have a boyfriend. Happy now?"

Before they could respond Ianto ran in, he glared at Lucy who still had her gun trained on Lisa's body.
"Lisa" he breathed.

"We had no choice Ianto." Owen said seeing that Lucy wasn't going to say anything. "It was kill or be killed"

He refused to look at them but jumped back when Lisa's eyes opened again, Lucy grabbed him and pulled him behind her. "You guys move. NOW! IANTO MOVE! RUN"

They all started to run out of the autopsy room, followed by Lisa who pulled the knife out of her body without any problem.

Jack was also running in the main area and they all moved towards him.

"You should be dead" Owen said

"I'm the stubborn type" He replied, grabbing a wielding torch and some sauce. He turned the torch on and held the flame in front of them.

Lisa continued to walk towards them

"This'll at least give you heart burn." Jack gloated at Lisa

"The power will run out. I can wait." She said in response.

"Jack stop this." Ianto said suddenly and Lucy sighed, she had thought he had worked it out. In fact she knew that he knew they had to kill her but the cyberwoman still had the face and body, at least partially, of the woman he loved. Ianto arguing and fighting against her when she was just trying to help, hurt and Lucy did her best to ignore it. She knew this would happen when she agreed to help and didn't tell him that she knew how it would end, and that it would not be pretty.
"Give her a chance to surrender, she can stay in the cells. We can reverse it."

"I told you we're past that!" Jack said not turning round, "Hold him back." Owen and Gwen did so whilst Lucy refused to look at him and instead kept her gun poised to shoot. Ianto may not like it and he may always hate her for it, but there was nothing else she could do.

"What are you going to do?" Gwen asked

"You don't want to know." Lucy replied

"Just get Ianto on there and hold him." Jack added before looking at Lucy, "You ok?"

"I'm fine." She replied not letting any emotion into her voice, "Let's just do it."

He threw the sauce over Lisa and the two ran onto the paving slab.

"What is it?"

"BBQ sauce, so she knows what's for dinner" Lucy said void of emotion.

"NO!" Ianto had worked out what was going to happen. "You'll kill her"

"Come on Tosh." Jack mumbled playing with his wrist strap as Myfwany flew in. The slab began to rise and Ianto continued to struggle, Gwen and Owen held him back and Lucy steadfastly refused to look at him or the sight of the pterodactyl eating her dinner.

"You'll kill her. Have some fucking mercy"

"She's already dead." Jack replied and they were soon out in the open.

Tosh ran up to join them, and Lucy got herself ready to do what she had been psyching herself up to do all evening, whatever happened she couldn't let Ianto go back into the hub.

"It worked" Tosh said when she reached them. "What happened?"

"Don't ask" Jack replied as they all caught their breath and tried to start to get over what almost happened.

Ianto turned round and punched Jack.

"You could have saved her" He shouted as Gwen pulled him back, "you're worse than anything down there. One day I'll have the chance to save you and I'll watch you suffer and die. You're worse than any of the monster out there"

"It was the only thing that would stop her" Jack replied angrily "You and Lucy both let this thing free in the hub. But at least she knows that what she did was wrong, she was willing to die to stop her and protect her team-mates. You just continued to put them in danger."

Tosh tried to stop the argument so spoke, Lucy winced at what she was saying.

"Listen when I was in reception I managed to trip the lockdown timer. The power should be coming back on any second. We could get back in."

Ianto started to run and as Lucy was the only one expecting it she was the first one to follow him.

"IANTO!"

They were catching up with him.

"Ianto stop." Jack shouted

"She can't have survived that" Gwen tried.

"I used my initiative" Tosh was apologising. "I'm sorry."

"When I want you to think for yourself, I'll tell you" Jack snapped at her.

"Maybe if you'd told me your plan I wouldn't have done it." Tosh replied, "How was I supposed to know?"

They ran into the tourist office and Ianto pointed the gun he had grabbed from behind the desk at them.

"Ianto don't be stupid." Gwen said

"I've nothing left to lose" He replied and Lucy could feel herself break at that sentence. Ianto truly believed he had lost everything. She was reminded of the worst day in her life, which considering how bad her life had been was saying something.

"There is always something left to lose." Jack said and Lucy agreed with him, you could always find something, even the smallest thing, that you still had. The tiniest part of your life could give you enough hope to keep fighting through the dark.

"I'm going back in to save her." Ianto said "Anyone tries to stop me I'll shoot them."

"Ianto put the gun down" Gwen begged, Jack grabbed the gun and threw it on the floor as he shoved Ianto against the wall, and pointed his gun at Ianto's head.

"You make a threat like that, you'd better be prepared to follow it through. See? You disobey me now, I really will shoot you"

"Get off me." Ianto was struggling in the hold Jack had him in but was unable to get free.

"You want to go back in there? You go back in to finish the job."

Everyone complained at this but jack ignored them, Lucy however just checked her gun. And, upon seeing she had emptied it earlier, took the one off the floor that Jack had taken off Ianto.

"If she's still alive" Jack continued, "you execute her"

He turned Ianto round so he was facing them.

"No way" Ianto said quietly, refusing to let himself cry but they could see that he was breaking.

"You brought this down on us, you hid her. You hid yourself from us. Now it's time for you to stand as part of the team."

Lucy knew this was her cue and stepped forward.

"He wasn't the only one to hide her and he's definitely not the only one hiding himself, Captain." She said the last word mockingly and from the look on his face she knew he'd understood what she meant. He turned to face her but continued to keep his gun pointed at the Welshman.

"I'll deal with you later." He faced Ianto again, "The girl you loved has gone, your loyalty is to us now."

"He's not going back in there." Lucy said firmly as she took another step forward and was now next to Ianto. "I won't let him."

"He allowed the cybermen to have a foothold in this world again!"

"I know." She was as calm as she possibly could be, "and I know why you hate them more than any other creature in the universe apart from the daleks. I get that. I really do. But look at him Jack, he lost everything in Canary Wharf, everything he ever knew and you lost one person. Just one person who meant as much to you as Lisa does to him. He's not going back in there."

He pointed the gun at her, Gwen stepped forward to try and calm Jack down but he just shrugged her off.

"You do it or I'll execute all three of you myself."

"Ok" Lucy shrugged, and looked straight into Jack's eyes. "I will go in there and deal with whatever is left. But you cannot make Ianto go back in while I am. He will break and you will never fully get him back. Give me half an hour, I'll tidy up as well. Just keep him safe and I'm sorry. Really Jack, I am sorry."

With that she ran down the corridor pressing the button on the way to put the hub back into lock down. She turned to see the team on the other side of the door trying to get her to open it, everyone apart from Jack who just caught her eye and nodded. Lucy knew that it would take Tosh at least ten minutes to undo the lock down from where they were which gave her time to kill... to do what it was that was needed.

Her gun was held tightly in her hands as she walked down the stairs to where she knew Lisa would be.

"LISA!" She called and the take-away girl walked out of the basement. Lucy was suddenly unsure if she would be able to go through with this. Lisa looked human.

"Lucy. It's me, Lisa. I took this body for Ianto so we can be together again." Lucy's gun wavered and she knew Lisa had seen it. "He fought so hard for me so I had to fight for him. We'll be together forever, we can get upgraded together and you can join us."
"Sorry." Lucy said, her resolve hardening at the word 'upgraded'. Lisa might look human but she wasn't. She pulled the trigger, the girl's body collapsed and she shot again just to make sure.

Now she had killed someone she felt part of her innocence leave for good and knew that there was no going back. Even if she was retconned she would always know there was blood on her hands.

She slid down the wall.

"I'm so so sorry," She swallowed tightly then forced herself to stand up and pulled her ipod out of her pocket.

While it played in her ears she walked up the stairs to get two body bags, one for the girl and one for Lisa, she had to get it done before Ianto saw it – she hadn't been lying. This truly would break him. She was already broken and didn't really exist in this world, Ianto had been brought to breaking point by Torchwood and by life but he could be mended. Jack would be able to mend him but if he saw what CyberLisa had done no matter how hard Jack tried he wouldn't be able to put the pieces back together. He would be destroyed for life even though he would wear a mask so the world never knew. She allowed that thought to overtake her as she got on with what needed to be done.

When the team ran into the hub she had put them into body bags and hidden the second one, she left the body bag with Lisa in by the door with the face still showing. She was dismantling the cyber conversion unit tears streamed down her face as she pulled it apart but she ignored them singing to herself along with the music.

"...tears and fears and feeling proud

To say I love you right out load.

And dreams and schemes and circus clowns.

I've looked at life that way.

But now old friends are acting strange,

They shake their heads.

They say I've changed.

Well something's lost but something's gained.

From living every day.

I've looked at life from both sides now,

From win and loose and still somehow

Its life's illusions I recall.

I really don't know life at all..." the tears got too heavy to ignore now and she stopped pulling it apart to dry her eyes, before starting to sing again, needing the music to ignore the thoughts running around in her mind, to ignore what she had done.

Ianto went to the open body bag and pulled Lisa close, the words reverberating with him and he held his dead girlfriend. The rest of the team just watched the two knowing that there was nothing else they could have done.

"I've looked at love from both sides now

from give and take and still somehow

it's loves illusions I recall

I really don't know love.

Don't know love.

Don't know love

At all"

Ianto sobbed quietly and somehow that sound got through where the others hadn't, she turned round and spotted them as she pulled the head phones out her ears.

"Jack..."

He looked at her and her tear streamed face and strode foreword pulling her into a tight hug, his anger at them for hiding this dissipating instantly, for now anyway.

"Owen, Gwen can you finish breaking this for me? Tosh can you help Ianto back to his flat? I'll speak to him later." The rest of the team nodded and Ianto was pulled up by the smaller woman, and the two walked out. Jack held her close while Owen and Gwen got to work silently. When she had calmed down enough to talk properly she looked up.

"There's another body." Owen and Gwen stopped and Jack took an intake of breath and she continued, "I couldn't let Ianto know so I hid it. The pizza girl, Lisa killed her and then transplanted the brain. I shot her, twice. She wanted them to upgrade together, Icouldn'tletherandIknowshehadalreadybeenkilledbut..." She descended into sobs again and Jack stroked her hair and held her tight.

"It wasn't your fault." She heard Gwen make a sound of protest but she ignored it. "where is it?"

"Room after next" she whispered

"Go find it Gwen, and let Tosh know she has to set something up. Make sure Ianto doesn't know." Jack ordered, Gwen left and Owen tactfully left with her.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Jack. I know I could have done something, I should have done something but... she made him so happy and I had to try."

"I know" He replied, "come on, let's get you out of these blood stained clothes and I'll take you home."

Lucy started sobbing even harder.

"He's going to hate me. Jack, Ianto will hate me. I can't, I can't Jack. I want to go home."

"He won't hate you Lucy, don't be silly" Jack said soothingly trying to calm the distraught girl down. Not mentioning about how he couldn't get her home no matter how hard he tried. It was a miracle she had survived travelling through the rift, he had no idea how to reverse the process or even if she would be able to live through it again. She was as lost as he was, but he had managed to make a life in Cardiff and hoped his youngest employee would be able to do the same.

"He will, I killed her and he's kicked me out anyway. God all the blood, it was everywhere." She started trying to clean her hands, to get as much of the blood off as possible, but Jack held them to stop her hurting herself.

"Listen to me Lucy Smith, you're going to be fine. I'll get that blood off you in a bit don't worry. Ianto could never hate you. But you can stay here tonight, I'll set up the sofa for you but you need to calm down."

"I want my teddy." She said quietly into his coat after a couple of minutes of silence.

"I know you do Lucy" He said soothingly, "But we don't have him" he continued to stroke her hair until he felt her fall asleep in his arms. Jack gently wiped the blood off her hands so she wouldn't wake to them, although they would haunt her for a while.

He sighed at the mess that had happened today, but picked up Lucy and carefully put her on the sofa. Lucy immediately curled up into a ball as small as she could, as though even in her sleep she was trying to escape from everything. Jack sighed again and pulled off his coat and covered her with it, it wouldn't do for her to wake up cold on top of everything else. She suddenly looked young and Jack was reminded that Lucy Smith was only 23 years old, although she never acted like it.

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About an hour later, he had come back from Ianto's with clothes for Lucy to wear tomorrow and Ianto on suspension for a month. He still hadn't worked out what he was going to do to Lucy, as although she had helped the cyberwoman.

Lucy was still on the sofa but she had managed to kick Jack's coat off her as she succumbed to a nightmare. He could see the pain on her face and could hear the scream before it happened. Only it didn't, Lucy sat bolt upright and screamed as he predicted but it was silent, Jack was at her side in an instant, trying to calm her down.

She had woken up but when she saw him Lucy immediately pulled away from him and curled into a tight ball trying to calm herself down and stop shaking. She refused to look weak in front of him.

He sat at Gwen's desk pretending to get on with some work while he continued to watch her until she fell asleep again – half an hour later. They both knew that he was watching her but as long as neither of them mentioned it they could pretend he wasn't and Lucy wouldn't feel as bad. Once he was sure she had actually gone to sleep he put his coat over her again and actually did get on with some work. He continued to look after her throughout the night, replacing the coat every time she kicked it off, he wanted to make sure she didn't have another nightmare. She was part of his team and that made her well-being his responsibility, he couldn't help feeling as though it was something he had previously failed in. Something he had failed Ianto in as well. Jack resolved to never fail his team in the same way again.

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The next morning when Lucy woke up it only took a few seconds to remember what had happened the day before and the fact that she now had blood on her hands that could never be washed off. As she sat up and pulled Jack's coat off her, she realised she was holding it to her like she would hold Teddy.

Jack was working on her desk nearby and noticed she was awake. "Hi."

"Hi" Lucy replied dumbly not sure what else to say.

"Why?" The immortal man asked plainly.

"I had to try Jack." Lucy replied knowing that if he didn't agree with that she said she would be retconned and lose all memories of Torchwood and Doctor Who, as it had been part of her life since she was 14, that was not an idea she was happy with. "I knew how it could and would probably end. But I had to try and save her even if it was impossible and I knew it was. You all look through Ianto, like all he is is his ability to tidy up after you and to make amazing coffee and you don't even thank him for any of it. I had two choices, allow it to happen or to try and help. And if the only help I could offer was not letting him do it alone, then fine."

"Why did you kill her?" Jack's face showed no emotion.

"I killed the body of a girl she had already killed. I can't make it up to that girl family, because I let her die and I'll have to learn to live with that." She said as though it was unimportant, pushing the emotions involved to the back of her mind. "And Lisa died months ago, Ianto just didn't know it, or just didn't allow himself to acknowledge it. I couldn't let Ianto do it. You hate Torchwood 1 so much because it took Rose that you forget about everyone else who lost someone. Everyone whose family worked there and the people who were lucky enough to survive it. They lost everyone that they worked with and you just shrugged it off as unimportant."

Jack glared at her, currently refusing to admit she was right although he knew she was. He also knew that if he had cared about the survivors, he would have spoken to Ianto about it months ago when he first joined and could have been able to stop this whole incident then and there. But his face didn't show it as he continued to question her.

"But why you?"

"Because it couldn't be Ianto." She replied simply with a sigh, "I couldn't let him know the full horror of just a single cyberwoman with his girlfriend's face. All he needs to know is it killed Dr Tenzaki and that I killed the cyberwoman. He doesn't need to know about the pizza girl."

"Surely that's up to me as the boss to decide?"

Lucy was annoyed and showed it.

"To be fair Jack, like I said before if you cared more about him than his coffee you wouldn't have told him to go in there and kill her. You would have known that he would have done it and then hated himself for the rest of his life. And I don't know that because of the show." She continued before he could interrupt "Because on that it looks like he gets over it. I say it because I know Ianto. I know that he would just put on a mask and carry on with life because that's Ianto, that's what people like us do" He gestured to show she included Jack in that as well as herself. "So you know what, I don't give a damn if you retcon me, I wouldn't know any different anyway would I? But if you think that I was going to let Ianto destroy himself you've got another thing coming."

She and Jack were now standing and were in each other's personal space when the door opened and Tosh and Owen walked in. Tosh was carrying cups of coffee from Starbucks.

"Wow, that looks like quite an argument." Owen commented as he pulled his coat off and threw it over his chair.

"I thought I said you should come into work late." Jack said glaring at them.

"We did." Tosh replied, "even stopped to get coffee."

"Yeah, didn't think you were going to let tea-boy in." Owen said sarcastically.

Jack looked at Lucy's angry eyes and then stepped back out of her personal space before saying.

"His name is Ianto, Owen. Learn to use it, he's more than just the tea-boy." He sat down on Lucy's chair and looked back at her. "Go home, he's not angry at you. I don't want to see you and Ianto back here until I say so. You're on suspension, I'll come and see you both when I've calmed down and can sort this out rationally. You can come in tomorrow to get a couple of DVDs if you want, but you will be accompanied at all times"

Lucy nodded and picked up his coat from where she had left it on the sofa, she handed it to him with a sad smile.

"Thank you, Jack. I'm not sure I'll take you up on your offer straight away maybe next week if that's allowed."

"Just call and let me know. Go." She smiled again and went to leave but Tosh blocked her way.

"I brought coffee for you, and Ianto as well."

"Thanks Tosh." Lucy gave a sad smile to her as well in understanding, "I'm sure if you want to come visit..."

Tosh looked up at Jack who was staring at the pair of them,

"Maybe."

Lucy knew what Tosh meant and just nodded in understanding. At that moment Tosh couldn't commit to anything more than a maybe, and that was understandable, the events that Lucy had let happen the day before almost led to their deaths.

"Well I doubt we're going to be out much. Although Ianto might go stay with his sister for a bit. Anyway," she shrugged, "I've got to go."

Tosh let her past this time and Lucy left the hub holding two cups of Starbucks coffee.

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A/N: I love cyberwoman, I know some people think it's the worst episode but for all the character moments I love it. And I loved writing it too. Next week is an in-between chapter where Ianto and Lucy have a 'conversation' about why she didn't tell him.

See you next week

Rea

P.S Please don't forget to REVIEW, they make me happy!

P.P.S I don't own that song, it's called 'Both Sides Now' and belongs to Joni Mitchell. John Barrowman did a great cover of it and that's the one that Lucy is listening to