Hello, I know. I suck, you hate me, I'm the worst, I'm a bi***. Yeah-yeah, whatever.

Explanation: As you might have heard, I'm a senior in High School. Teachers are tiring and homework is a biatch. But I'm back, and for good. Ill try to make it up to you guys. I'll really try.

Anyways, I already have ¼ of the Chapter 3 for Forever Mine written and it will possibly be updated Saturday, followed by a possible update of New Dawn Sunday.

I'm not promising, I but Ill promise to try. Hard.

Anyway, Leave reviews, they encourage me to write.

Tiaa xx

*This chapter contains Rape and unsuccessful attempted 'accidental` death. Please don't hate me. 18+, PLEASE AND THANK YOU!

"Didn't expect this, huh?" He growled deeply.

"H-h-how did that happen?" I gasped, looking at my-once-loyal-friend. Mike Newton.

"Eh, some red-head called Sephraya turned me. She wants you dead, but since I'm stronger now, I decided to have some fun with you first." He explained, his red eyes glowing with eagerness.

"W-what kind of fun?" I asked with fear tracing my voice with every word I said.

"Oh come on Bella. You cant be that innocent." He laughed freely. I gasped, Mike, my only loyal friend, was going to… I cant think about it… Rape Me.

"You're going to rape me?" I gasped again. He smiled now.

"Pretty much." He agreed, shoving me hard against the wall hard. I looked at him with pleading eyes.

"Mike, please don't .Please! I- Ill ask Aro to give you a position in the Main Guard… And … I'll do anything. Please, just-just don't." I begged, sobbing now. He let me go, and I fell to the floor. He knelt beside me and whispered in my ear.

"Oh hush Bella, sweetie, Ill take good care of you ,baby." The deadly voice said. He picked me up, and went further down the alley, to a dead end. He threw me against the hard, cold wall and I collapsed again, feeling useless. He walked to me slowly, like a predator stalking its prey. But that's exactly what I was, prey. Nothing else. He pressed his cold, painful lips to mine, and I gave in to the torture, knowing, that the faster he'd be done with it, the faster Ill be dead. Gone. His tongue parted my lips painfully and I groaned in pain. Mike being… well Mike, though I moaned and he reached under my shirt, and grabbed one of my breasts, playing with it hard. He shoved his hips into mine, and my body gave me away, making me wet. He tore the shirt off, and left my lips, leaving me panting for my life. His lips then attacked my nipples, and my body being the traitor, answered with another wave of wetness. He left my breasts, and inhaled sharply, followed by a moan.

"I knew you'd come around." He said. He then tore his blue wife beater off and threw it behind him, and grinned his hips into mine again. I groaned in pain again, and wished for death. Oh how I wish for someone to come and kill me already. Anyone.

He tore my skirt off and shivered with delight as he saw me in only underwear. He smirked, taking his shorts off, followed by his underwear. I looked away.

Just do it. Kill me. Please . My mind pleaded with soft yelps.

He grabbed my shoulders, and shoved me down, causing me to fall to my knees. Great, now that fucker wanted a blow job. He grabbed my hand, and wrapped it around his erection, and pumped it several times. He grabbed my head harshly and thrust it forward.

"Open your mouth sweetie." He said. I obeyed, reminding my self that it will be over soon.

He thrust himself into my mouth, me instantly choking a bit. I cant believe I'm saying this, but yet again, every vampire did. He tasted sweet. And yes, I think I'm turning into a whore . I slapped my self mentally.

He pulled my head back, and then back again.

"Yeah like that. Suck it Bitch." He ordered. I obeyed, thrusting him into my mouth, maybe if Ill be good, he'll let me go. But he's Mike, stubborn like hell. He eventually came, and I was forced to swallow it, and again, I slapped my self for saying that he tasted sweet. Yep, I'm defiantly a whore. I pulled back, waiting for instructions, waiting for death. He laid down on the ground, and positioned his erection upward. This is so not the way I wanted to lose virginity. I moaned in defeat.

"Please Mike. Don't do this to me." I begged.

"If you'll do this, Ill let you live longer." He snarled. Me, being taken aback by the offer, obeyed and positioned my self on the erection. I pushed my self down lightly, but it wouldn't budge. Mike having enough of the 'nonsense' pushed me down harshly, instantly braking my barrier. I screamed in pain, and then the tears came. Mike stood up and pushed me against the wall, thrusting into me fast. I screamed again, and this time, Mike covered my mouth with his hand. I tried screaming again, but only quite sound came from my lips. I tried pushing him away from me, but nothing happened. He was too strong.

And then I heard the voice of my savior, my best friend, my sister.

Jane. And pretty much half the guard. I fell to the floor, realizing that Mike ran away, and sobbed even harder. Heidi and Chelsea ran to me, taking me into their arms. Jane and Felix ran after Mike, and Demetri stood staring at the ground, his fists clenching do hard that his knuckles were turning whiter than healthy.

"I-I'm so s-s-sorry Heidi." I sobbed, apologizing.

"What for?" She asked curiously.

"I-I ruined y-your pa-par-party." I said ashamed of my self. She rolled her eyes and kissed me on the forehead.

"The party was finished. We started panicking about you. I swear to god, that once I get my hands on the fucking dickhead…. Ill cut his balls right off, and make him eat them." She vowed, I laughed. She suddenly seemed happy that she made me laugh. "And don't even get me started on Alec." She added.

Alec, I had cheated on the love of my life. I'm such a slut.

I started crying now. He'll leave me too. And Ill be alone, no longer loved by anyone.

"What's wrong honey?" Chelsea cooed.

"Alec." I explained.

"Oh Bella. He would never blame you for something like this." She said.

"But he might." I protested.

"He wont. I know him. He's my brother. He would never do that." she said.

"Are you sure?" I asked.

"Yes." She said confidently. "Lets get back to the castle." She added, picking me up and sitting me in the car. Demetri sat in the drivers seat, Chelsea got shot gun, and Heidi sat beside me, and hugged me to her the entire ride to the castle. Once we parked in the garage, Heidi ran me to my room, opening the wardrobe, and putting on a black halter dress, and sat me on the bed. Demetri and Chelsea followed us.

"Dem, get the kings. We need to tell them." Chelsea said.

"W-Wait. No. I don't want everybody to know." I protested.

"Bella, we need to tell them. They will be furious if they find out later." Demetri explained, and like the wind, he was gone. I sighed. Chelsea and Heidi sat beside me on the bed, hugging me again, whispering 'sorries' to me over and over again. Demetri opened the door, and the kings followed. Marcus ran to me, taking my face into his hands.

"Did he hurt you? For the love of Jesus Christ, I'll kill that bastard." He yelled.

"Marcus, Marcus, Marcus, Marcus, of course he hurt her. He will pay." Aro said simply. Heidi stood up, giving him his hand. Aro gasped in shock.

"Bastard." He shouted. " He just has to wait until Alec gets his hands on him." He retorted harshly, and everyone in the room shivered.

"Tell me everything honey." Marcus said while stroking my cheeks. I gulped down the knot in my throat, and began.

"It's my fault. I sneaked out of Heidi's room to get something to eat, and went outside-" I was cut off.

"Oh My God! Food! I am such an idiot. It's all my fault."Heidi shrieked, I threw her a look that said 'I was talking' and she muttered 'sorry'.

"- ANYWAY…. As I was saying, I was going to get some food. I walked down the street, seeing a little food boot. There was a path leading to it. So I took it, I was nearly half-way there until I was thrown against a wall. I turned around and saw Mike, he had red eyes. I then asked him what happened, and he said that Sephraya changed him so he could kill me , but wanted to have some fun. And then.. He raped me." I finished with a sob, mymind wandering back to just a couple minutes ago. Everyone in the room besides Chelsea was still. Chelsea was sobbing beside me like there was no tomorrow.

"Ill get Afton." Heidi said softly. Aro nodded and then she was gone. I hugged Chelsea to me and started rocking her on my bed. I don't know why, but possibly she was in more pain than me. Had something happened? Something that she remembered all of a sudden? I was going to find out, but for now, she needed to go with her mate. Afton entered the room with Heidi. He grabbed Chelsea into his arms and kissed her. He started pulling her to the door.

"Come on Princess, Ill make it feel better." He cooed to her as she nodded into his chest. I so don't want to know what they were about to do.

"Where is Sephraya?" Aro said through clenched teeth.

"She might be in her room." Heidi suggested. "Ill check." She added, Aro nodded. Marcus sat on my bed and hugged me to him. I laid my head on his shoulder as he began rubbing soothing circles on my back.

And then Chelsea ran into the room, somehow breathless.

"She's gone." And with that I began to sob. I heard a loud, and long snarl come from Aro, but I ignored it, just giving in into the darkness.

2 week later

Its been two weeks. Two weeks without Alec. Two weeks since I last seen him. Two weeks since my 'encouter' with Mike. Two weeks since I last kissed. Two weeks since I felt… dead.

I might have been over-reacting a bit, but I just cant feel better. Just fucking cant. I cant feel a part of me. Its like my heart is gone, and instead, there is an ache. Never going away. Never during eating, Never during bathe's and showers. Never during sleep. I'm pretty much dead as it is. I wished for death, oh so ,so ,so many times, but instead, I get more heart ache.

Maybe it's a bad sign, maybe something happened to Alec? Maybe Edward hurt him? That was a bad thought to have in mind.

My lungs went tight and it was hard to breathe. I just longed for death to come and take me. But nothing. I always get the opposite.

During the two weeks, Jane had been feeding be lots, taking me shopping nearly everyday, then going for a tour around the castle. But nothing helped. Sure , I had fun. But I still felt empty. And then there were the times that Jane had to go and spend time with Felix, during those time, I just stayed in bed. Waiting for my Alec. Wishing he was finally here.

So here I am, like the idiot I always was, always will be, cutting the bread with a sharp knife. A slight pressure had already cut the bed in half.

I heard someone enter, and dropped the knife by accident and started bleeding on my wrist. The person ran out, leaving me there. I fell to the floor from dizziness and weakness. Instead of just walking down to the sink, and putting pressure on my hand, I stayed on the floor like the moron I was. I knew I could get any help, because the vampires would go crazy.

I laid there for few minutes, help didn't come.

So finally, I said my final goodbyes.

Good bye Dad.

Good bye Alice, Esme, Rosalie, Carlisle and Emmett.

Alice, oh Alice!!

Goodbye Jake.

Goodbye Jane, Chelsea, Heidi, Afton ,Felix ,Demetri.

God bye Marcus, Aro and Caius.

I saved best for last.

Goodbye, my one and only love, my soul-mate, my savior, Alec.

And with that, I gave into the dreamless blackness, hoping that death finally came.

Hey, I'm back . Hope you liked the chapter. But don't worry, she's not dead.

Please R&R and the next chapter should be up Sunday.