A/N: A brand new chapter. You're finally going to discover where Regina is. I know what you're thinking "at last"

Anyway, enjoy the show

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Regina

I slowly made my way back to my mother's house, trying to take in the bomb Ned had just thrown at me. He'd fed me the most preposterous stories that I'd had trouble believing. But mulling it over helped, and halfway to my destination, I'd accepted the thruth in his words.

" I can tell you that it's for your own good"

" My own good?" I cried out " I was abducted! How can that be for my own good?"

" You wouldn't have ended up here if you didn't need it. It's the hate Regina"

"The hate?"

" Yes, you're full of it. Ressentment about everything that's ever happened to you."

"And what do you know?"

"Not much, I admit, but I know what it's doing to you. You're sinking Regina. Soon you wouldn't be able to ever leave again."

"You know nothing about my life. You're just a boy afterall"

"I may be a boy,but I've been here for decades and I must tell you, all the negative feelings you're holding onto are pulling you down, drowning you like an anchor. You have to let go, so as to be light again, and fly away from this place before it gets you"

"If you know all this, why are you stll here. Are you some kind of guardian?"

"No Regina, I'm just like you. Except for the fact that I've been able to give up enough griveances to stay afloat, but not enough to fly. You on the other hand are sinking and you're sinking fast"

I'd been forced to admit it all: the pain, the anger, the want for vengeance. All the things that I thought surpressed but were only lurking under the surface, waiting for a way out.

And although it'd hurt a bit, it still felt good at some point.

The past few days were hard, as I tried to look past all that my mother represented to me to see who she really was. As a matter of fact, I only succeded after a frightening revelation. It appeared to me all of a sudden that I was very much like her, trying hard to regain the long lost love of a child. It pained me inside that I'd somehow inflicted the pain my son had made mine on my own mother.

The sight of her pleading and hopefull eyes brought me to tears. I felt like holding her to me but I found it impossible, not until I'd assimilated this woman to the one who'd hauned my nightmares and been in my dreams.

I felt lost, between three women: the one who cared, the one who approuved and the disappoined one, each of them fighting for the sacred place of mother in my mind and heart.

This Cora was so soft, so caring and so sorry for all the things she's done that I felt cruel for refusing her the pardon she wished for. And once I'd forgiven her, I felt it: the feeling like I was a little feather, waiting for the wind to carry me. But unlucky as I was, Cora wasn't the only one I needed to forgive. I figured the wind would just have to wait.

Emma

I ran for hours, but this time, I didn't puke. I bravely kept in the empty contents of my stomach.

I ran to and fro through Storybrooke's streets, until I arrived at Regina's place. The mansion was still looming over dark shadows, casting it's sad complaint on everything near.

It struck me that when Regina lived there, though the place looked intimidating it never looked so sad, neither did it ever affect me with such force.

I slowly walked to the door, anad ignored my first reflex, which was to knock. With a sigh, I pushed open the door and stepped into the foyer. It was cold, uninviting and screamed loneliness.

I made my way to the her study, her domain, and headed straight for the tumbler filled with cider. I needed a drink, that was for sure. And I needed to think, a task that I tried desperately to keep at bay, because of all the demons it would bring.

I was responsible for the death of someone who meant apparently much to me judging by the sinking feeling that had been latched to my stomach ever since I realised she was defintely gone. But as brave and courageous as I wanted to be, there was a right time for everything, and it seemed like the perfect time to break down. The sun had set and nobody was there to witness this fleeting moment of weakness.

I cried hard, and wished and prayed. I would have given anyhting for relief under any form. And when it came, I gratefully embrassed it like an old friend.

I was awoken by the sound of shuffling feet. Someone had broken into Regina's house. Probably some citizen who thought himself entitled to one thing or an other.

All the anger that I'd been feeling began to concentrate into one compact ball of fire, burning me from inside out. I reached out for my gun, and made my way out of the study, ready to at least beat the hell out of the insolent pesant.

I barely had the time to register the sobs before I pounced on the intruder. Who turned out to be the last person I was expecting.

"Mary Margaret?" I asked, incredulous.

She looked up to me with wet and puffy eyes before falling over my shoulders and crying her eyes out.

I would have preferred her using her husband as a shoulder to lean on, since I was still a bit pissed at her. But I didn't have the heart to turn her away. So I awkwardly patted her back and told her that everything would be alright, which was apprarently the wrong thing to say.

She burst into more tears but still managed to push herself away from me.

"No, it not" She whined "I'll never get a chance to...to"

Whatever she was going to say was apparently to painfull as she burst into more tears.

It took me hours to get her to calm down and say what was on her mind.

" Emma" she started "I know this may seem weird to you and that you only care about Henry, but haven't you wished today, that she could come back? Because I do!"

I was shellshocked. My mother, Snow White, was wishing that her mortal enemy would come back from the dead. There was probably a trap somewhere. A trap I wanted nothing to do with. It would only cause more drama and angst and that was one thing I didn't wish for. So I didn't say a word, waiting for her to continue, which she did of course.

"It's just so painfull to know that she'll never come back. It's like I've lost a part of me."

Once she was started, she didn't seem to want to stop, so I let her

"She saved my life once, you know? And then, she used to be my mother, and she used to be so kind and sweet... I guess sadness can do a lot to you..."

Her eyes were somewhere far away, certainly in a place where Regina was so kind and sweet. Even I couldn't help but imagine what kind of world it would have been, and if I'd ever still have a chance with her if so.

I sat there, lost in thoughts, while Snow White babbled on how happy her childhood was.

" Do you think she still loved me? Even a little bit?"

I didn't know what to say. So I nodded. She seemed pleased with my response but then she started to cry all over again. All the anger that Snow had started to push away by saying that she still loved Regina, was coming back again. I had a lot on my plate and didn't need a sobbing mess with me. But I couldn't just push her away, I'd already done that, and twice in 24hours seemed to be a tad too much.

And since it was revelations time, a little bit more thruth wouldn't hurt.

"I love her too, you know" I whispered

" I know Emma, trust me I know".

A/N: Of course, don't forget to review XD