Two weeks had passed since the first day we came back to Iran, and I was walking home with Angela on my side. Oh yeah, that was another new thing; normally Edward and I would walk home together but now he would leave without me or if he was still at the hospital he would say that I should already go. This was one of those days. Edward was still busy with one of his patients and I was walking home with Angela.
"Bella you should talk to him. I don't understand how you two got from happy to...to" Angela tried to find the right word for what we had become "Cold? Strangers?" I tried. "You could say that" she sighed. "I don't know what to do Ang. Something is bothering him obviously but he won't talk to me. Maybe I should threaten him?" I suddenly came up with that idea but the look on Angela's face told me that the idea wasn't such a good idea.
"Threaten him with what? Spanking? I don't think that is a good idea Bella. Just keep trying to talk to him and give him some time. Tell him that you're there for him, and if that doesn't work, then drive him crazy" Angela said as she stopped walking, when I looked around I saw that we were standing in front of her house. "We already have on crazy person in that house, we don't need a second one" I answered sarcastically.
"Everything will be alright sweetie, don't worry" she said as she gave me a hug. "I hope so Ang" I said as I returned the hug. After saying goodbye she walked inside and I continued my walk home.
I was lost in my thoughts when I suddenly heard a cry. A cry that turned me pale in a second. I started walking to the place from where the sound came. I started hearing more cries but also pleas. Suddenly I heard a small child yell for her mommy. I started running thinking I could save them.
I was running in a small street and over the end at the street was a sight that made my blood boil. There were terrorists holding a woman by her hair and a small child by the waist. They were both crying in pain, but the woman's cry stopped when the terrorist held a gun to the child's head.
She pointed at herself as in meaning that they should take her and not the baby girl. I didn't even realize that I had stopped running, but seeing that sight made me go crazy. I want to go and save them but right when I was trying to run someone pulled me aside. I wanted to cry but the person shut my mouth by placing his hand on it.
This was it I was dead, just like that woman and child. I couldn't do anything, I couldn't save them, myself or Edward. He would be alone now and blame himself for this. I tried to get away from the man but his hold on me was so tight, and he was whispering things in my ear that I didn't understand. I was completely lost.
"Bella, you're scaring me. Please, it's me" the voice said and that's when I realized that I knew this voice. It was the voice I wanted to hear every second of my life. The voice that could bring me back from anything. But I couldn't say anything, I kept watching the woman and the child.
I heard two shots, two cries, a gasp, a sob and then silence. Nothing but silence.
Edward was taking me home but was it my legs that were walking or his arms that dragged me home; I had no idea. Everything was surreal. He kept whispering things in my ear but nothing, I could hear nothing. I wanted to, I wanted to tell him that I loved him and that I would not let that happen to us; but I couldn't.
"Bella please talk to me" Edward begged and that's the moment I snapped back into reality. "I love you Edward, please...please don't leave me. Please talk to me, I'm here for you. Please don't let me go" I begged and held onto him for dear life. I didn't even realize that I was crying until he wiped away my tears.
"Bella, my Bella I will never let you go. I love you, of course I do. I'm sorry for-" I couldn't hear his apologies, I had already heard what I needed to hear. Edward loved me, he wouldn't let me go. "Love me" I said flatly "I do love you" he answered not understanding what I was talking about. "No Edward, make love to me. Make me yours. Prove that you love me" I said looking in his eyes with determination.
"But Bella-" I cut him off before he could come up with reasons to not do this "Please" I whispered. That was all it took for him to agree. We walked upstairs to his room in silence. Silence that was both killing me and him, but it was silence that was going to be followed by our love so I took it without regret.
We undressed in silence keeping our eyes locked with each other's. I saw pain, lust and most importantly love in his eyes, and I was hoping he was seeing the same in my eyes except for the pain. I didn't want to be the one that caused the pain in his eyes. He took me in his arms and placed me gently on his bed. "I love you my Bella" he kept repeating while kissing my face, neck, arms, shoulders...any place he wanted.
He kept repeating it when he entered me in one swift motion. I didn't even budge, I didn't even feel pain, all I felt was love, his love. "Love me Edward" I asked. He nodded and started moving slowly. Edward kept his eyes locked on me, his hands were holding me tightly, and my legs were securely wound around his waist. He kept going on slowly showing me how much he loved me, never increasing the pace.
"I love you my Bella" he whispered in my ear, and that was the moment we both came. We kept holding on to each other, eyes locked, hands held very tightly. I was totally consumed by him as he was by me.
"I love you Edward" I said to him, and then we both fell asleep in each other's arms.
I was still in the same street, Edward was not here. We didn't made love or confess our love. I was all alone, except for the woman and the child. This time there was no one who was holding me, trying to stop me from seeing them, but still I couldn't move. I was frozen to my place.
They were going to die and there was nothing I could do. The baby girl looked at me in pain. Tears were streaming on her face. She kept looking at me, not once did she move her eyes away from mine. She stopped crying and mouthed 'Help'. I wanted to do but before I could do something she was shot. She died with her eyes still locked on mine.
I woke up gasping for air. I looked around and saw that Edward was still sleeping. Everything started to come back. The terrorists, the woman, the child, Edward, me. We had made love. He made love to me because I had begged for it. I stood up and took the first piece of clothing I found.
I walked downstairs and avoided mirrors at any cost. I was probably looking like hell. I couldn't believe I had done this to him while he was dealing with his own demons. But with me being so desperate he couldn't say no.
I couldn't believe I saw a woman and a child being murdered in front of me. It's a sight that will never leave my head, and my nightmares neither. I let the tears fall freely and even enjoyed for a minute that I could let it out from the first time. Normally it would take months, years before I could let go something that happened to me.
After some good crying I went back upstairs and went to sit next to the open window in Edward's room since I didn't feel like sleeping at all. I watched the houses, the streets. Everything looked so peaceful and beautiful, you wouldn't even think that this place was being terrorized.
I watched the sun come up which meant I had been sitting here for quite a while. I turned to look at Edward and was surprised to see him awake. "How long-" "Did you-" we both started on the same time. I pointed at him to say that he should go first. He sighed "Did you even sleep Bella?"
"How long have you been awake?" I asked not answering his question. "Five minutes tops. What about you? Did you sleep Bella?" he asked again. I sighed and turned to look outside. "I slept" I answered, after all he asked me if I had slept. "Are you ok?" he asked worried. I didn't turn around to answer him I just nodded.
"Damn it Bella talk to me" he said sounding irritated. "Look who's talking" I answered coldly. I heard him stand up and walk to either outside or to his bathroom. I jumped when he slammed the door harshly. "It was not supposed to be like this" I heard him repeating in the bathroom.
He was silent for a moment and then I heard the door open again. "Bella it was not supposed to be like this. Not like this" he whispered in pain as he came to sit in front of me. "Please forgive me, please" he pleaded. I turned to look at him in confusion. "What are you talking about Edward?"
"I shouldn't have taken advantage of you yesterday. Not in that state" he answered looking very hurt. "That was not your fault. I pushed you. I wanted it. I'm the one who should be apologizing Edward" I said stubbornly. "I don't understand" Edward said frustrated.
"Just leave it. I'm outta here" I stood up and started walking to the door, but I didn't get so far because Edward stopped me by holding my arm. "We're going to talk this through Bella"
"Oh are we now?" I asked sarcastically "Well I have a clear answer for you. Nothing, it's nothing. Got it now?" I used the same answer he always gave me when I asked him what was wrong. Normally I would have left but he was still holding me by my arm. "After nothing I'm supposed to leave Edward, remember?"
"Stop this" he demanded. "Let go of me Edward, I want to go. I don't have time for regret and stuff" I said looking away from him. "You think I regret this?" he asked sounding mad. "I don't know what to think anymore!" I yelled in frustration. "Oh really and what about me. You tell me that you love me and the next morning you are acting all cold and harsh"
"I don't want you to feel guilty for what happened Edward" I told him honestly. "Bella, the only reason I felt guilty was because I thought that I had taken advantage of you"
I looked him straight in the eye and for a minute I felt strong and like I was doing the right thing. "Edward Anthony Cullen I love you. I love you so much I can't even describe how much" I didn't know what to expect so I was definitely surprised when Edward took me by my hair, pulled me to him and kissed me. After a while I started kissing him back. It soon turned into a very heated passionate make out session. "I love you doctor Swan. I love you even though I sometimes think you're crazy" he teased and continued kissing me.
"It's still early" I said looking at the clock on his wall. "You're right we have enough time to do some stuff" he smirked at me. "And what did you have in mind?" I asked innocently "Something that does not include this" he took of the shirt I was wearing "and this" this time he took the sheet that was strapped around his body. We both looked at each other and sighed contently. "You're so beautiful that even beautiful doesn't describe it Bella" "Perfection is what I see when I look at you Edward"
"I love you" he said and pulled me to him placing his lips on mine. Our kiss turned hot and very passionate. I placed my legs around his waist as he pushed me to his bathroom door. I was ready to beg when he suddenly entered me. We both moaned in delight. "Please, Edward " I begged needing him to go faster. "Oh fuck Bella, I love you so much" he groaned.
After we finished our 'stuff' we were both very satisfied and happy. We were grinning like idiots and walking around holding hands. When Angela saw us she smiled and winked at us but didn't approach us knowing that we needed some time alone.
"Let's have lunch together. I still have some questions for you" I said as we walked in to the hospital "The same goes for you Bella" he answered as he pulled me to him. "What do you mean?" I thought he was the one with the issues "Bella are you really okay? I mean what happened yesterday…I thought I was going to be the one to break down, but I didn't because I have you, but is it also the same for you?" he was worried about me and to be honest he had every right to.
"I don't know Edward. I mean yes I didn't break down because of you but am I really ok? I don't know...I think I am but it could also be that I'm still in shock you know. What happened yesterday is something I never had seen before and I never want to see it again and it scared me. It scared me like hell but I am with you and this feels so right and I...you know... I just...I should stop rambling" that's me being nervous. There was so much that I wanted to say and tell but I couldn't get it out.
"I promise you Bella it will get better. We'll get through this, and this" he pointed at us "is absolutely right" he said and planted a kiss on my forehead. "You're right" I sighed and pulled away from him "Now go, we need to work" I said and gave him kiss on the lips.
"See you later, love" he said and started to walk away. Right when I was about to walk away too Edward stopped me "Oh Bella" I turned around and looked curiously at him "Yes Edward?" "You're cute when you ramble" he grinned "I hate you" I mumbled as a blush rose on my cheeks. "Love you too!" He yelled still grinning. I shook my head and walked away with a big smile on my face.
Edward and I had lunch with Angela and Ben. It would have been nice if Angela wouldn't have been nervous the whole time. "Ang what is wrong?" I asked her a bit frustrated that she wouldn't tell me what was going through her head. "Nothing Bella" she answered nervously. "I really hate that word" I said irritated. "You hate your name?" Edward teased. "Ha-ha very funny mister" I glared at him. "Bella can I have a word with you?" Angela asked me as she fidgeted with her dress. "Finally" I exhaled and stood up.
"Now?" she asked looking afraid. "I'm not going to bite you Ang" I said to which Edward coughed trying to stifle his laughter. I gave him a pointed look "It's not like she's a vampire or something, right?" Edward teased looking at me. I blushed at the memory. I might have bitten him when I was riding out my orgasm. "Let's go Ang" I chuckled.
"Sure" she said and followed me. We walked to my small office in the hospital. "Now will you tell me why you are so nervous? And don't try to say it's nothing because I swear to god I will explode" I said very seriously . "I think you already exploded, honey" she smiled. "Funny" I said dryly "now start talking woman" I said to her and in a second she turned from teasing Angela to very nervous and serious Angela.
"Bella you have to promise me that you won't be mad at me and that you won't kill me. Actually you can't kill me because I'm pregnant" she babbled "Angela, get to the point" "I'm leaving Iran" she told me. For a minute I couldn't say a thing. My best friend was leaving me "I'm not mad" I felt the need to assure her that I wouldn't kill her. "But?" "I think I understand why you want to go but that doesn't mean that I'm completely okay with it" I continued.
She sighed "It's just I don't want my babies growing up here and neither does Ben. We want our babies to grow in a nice environment, and maybe later on you can also move back. This doesn't have to be goodbye, you know. I mean you're not going to spend the rest of your life here now are you?" she had a point there "No I'm not, actually I got a nice offer" I told her with a smile.
"Oh really? What kind of an offer?" she asked curiously "When I was in Port Angeles with Edward, I helped a bit in the hospital he works. Later on the chief asked me if I wanted the join them" she looked very surprised probably because I hadn't told her earlier. "That's a nice offer, and you and Edward would be working together, and we'll still be able to see each other you know. I'm only in Seattle, not in Jamaica or something" she joked.
"You're right but I'm not going to Port Angeles right away. I still want to spend here some time. I can't just drop everything and leave you know?" I answered "You're right but uhmmm are we ok?" She asked nervously. "Am I really scaring you that much?" I asked with raised eyebrows. "Well, you're a bit intimidating" she mumbled. I laughed out loud at that. Me...Bella Swan intimidating? Too funny. But my laughter was cut short when I saw that Angela wasn't laughing with me.
"You're serious" I stated. She nodded softly. "Well I'll be damned. Haven't heard that one before" she shrugged at my response. "I was scared for your reaction, not for you honey. So don't let it get to your head" I huffed at what she said. "Best friends?" she asked. "Duuh!" I yelled and hugged her to me. "You scared me for a moment with the serious face" she said as she hugged me tightly. "I understand why you're doing this and I agree with you but I'm going to miss you, that is for sure" I said as we walked back to our men. Oh yeah, my man.
"They look good" Ben said as he looked at us. "Yep, they have talked" Edward nodded with his eyes on us too. "Then it's time we have a talk too Edward" Ben said as he turned to Edward. "I think so too Ben" Edward replied very seriously as he looked at Ben. They were both silent for a minute and kept looking at each other.
"What are we actually talking about?" Edward said and turned to look at me. I laughed and went to sit next to him but he wouldn't have that. He took me on his lap and kissed me on the lips "I love you" "I love you" I said back "Ben and Angela are leaving" I told him with a sigh. "Oh they are?" he murmured against my neck. "Yep, it's only me and you now". "Look Angela, no worries Bella already forgot you" Ben teased.
"Leave the girl Ben. She finally is not moody anymore. Let's keep it that way" Angela teased back. "Oh aren't you two just perfect for each other" I said sarcastically to them. "Abso-freaking-lutely" Angela exhaled and kissed Ben. "You ok?" Edward asked softly so they wouldn't hear it. "Yeah...but it also means that I'll annoy you more now since Angela is leaving" I answered teasing him. "I don't care as long as I have you" he whispered and then kissed me.
"Lunch is over people, now instead of sucking each other's face go heal some patients" Ben said and stood up. "You should talk. I am not the one who knocked up his wife" I replied facing Ben. "Yes but dear Bella let me teach you a lesson. Knocking up your wife - which includes sucking each other's face and other things- is something you do after healing your patients" he said acting all serious. "Ben?" Angela asked looking a bit disgusted. "Yes my dear wife?" he answered with a grin. "Could you please shut up" she demanded. Ben looked surprised but nodded, to which we all laughed. Ben and Edward left together to see their patients and Angela and I walked back to our patients.
"Oh Ang, have you seen Roma?" I asked since I hadn't seen her for a while. I was a bit worried that something had happened to her. "She's staying with her mother. Roma got in a fight with her husband" I gasped at Angela's reply. Roma never had a fight with her husband. "But she never has a fight with her husband. They love each other very much" "Yes Bella, but every couple fights once in a while" she explained as if I didn't know that. "True, but I wouldn't go to my mother if I had fight with Edward" I said stubbornly.
"Sweetie your mother is in I-don't-know-where-land, so you obviously wouldn't go to her" she chuckled. "That's not the reason smart-ass, I've always wanted to have make-up sex. They say it's very hot" I smirked at her. "Don't let Edward hear that, otherwise you'll have a fight every day" she laughed. "Hmm, maybe I should" I said in thought. "You're crazy" she said and walked away. "So are you" I yelled back laughing. What was it with people saying thing and then walking away?
"Are you really ok with Angela and Ben leaving?" Edward asked me later on that night. We had a nice dinner and were now sitting on the front porch, me between Edwards legs and let me tell you something, it feels very nice. "I don't know. The offer I got from the chief is starting to be more appealing. I have known Angela for a long time and even though I have you I think I will be a bit lost without her. She's the girl with whom I share my most craziest things" I told him thinking about the couple of times me and Angela had gotten drunk.
When Ben had told us what we had done all night long, we decided to not drink anymore, and if we would drink then we would lock our door so we couldn't get out of the house...long story. "Like?" Edward murmured as he planted soft kisses on my neck. "Hmm...like how much I would love to have make-up sex with you" now that got his attention. "We need to fight to have make-up sex" I agreed with him. "Let's fight" he suddenly said as if he got a brilliant idea.
"Uhm no. I'm not in the mood for fighting" I replied hugging him closer to me. I was sure that we would definitely have a fight without wanting it, so no reason to fake one. "But I'm in the mood for the sexpart" he whined. "I said I'm not in the mood for fighting" I said as I turned to him. "The sexpart is something I will always want" I smirked, but before we could start something that definitely included sex we were interrupted by a phone call.
"Hi mom" Edward said as he answered the phone. "Yes, she's here. Okay I'll give here" he said and handed the phone to me. "You would think that since I'm here son she would want to talk to me" Edward mumbled as I chuckled. "Hi Esme, how are you?" I said smiling at Edward. "Fine sweetie, you? I hope Edward is treating you right. Oh btw how are things between you two. Oh and how are things with Emily?" Damn the woman could talk. "Uhm I'm fine thank you. He's treating me very well. Edward and I are great, and we have talked that topic through and decided to leave it at that" I said answering all the questions.
"Geese mom, one question at a time" Edward yelled at the phone. "Oh sorry sweetie, I just talk a bit too much sometimes" she chuckled. "Ah it's ok Esme, I don't mind" I said honestly. I love...loved talking to Esme. She was an amazing woman. "Oh Bella, has Edward already asked you?" she answered sounding very giddy. "Has Edward asked me what?" I asked with narrowed eyes. Suddenly the phone was out of my hand and at Edwards ear "No mom, I haven't but thanks for asking" Edward replied sarcastically.
I was really curious what they were talking about, but there conversation turned to the 'how are you', 'how is work' etc... After Edward and I said goodbye to Esme, I looked at Edward expecting an answer. "Why are you looking at me with the tell-me-now-or-I'll-kill-you-eyes?" Edward said nervously as he looked away. "You know why mister. Now tell me, what is it that you're going to ask me?" I was a woman on a mission, and my mission was to get the answer out of Edward.
"Alice-dear had asked mama-dear to ask me to ask you if you would like to spend some time with her" he said avoiding my eyes. "Edward I'm a terrible liar but so are you" I answered very calmly. "Woman it's nothing" he said to which I gave him a pointed look. "Uhm it is not anything?" he said trying to correct himself. "Pff fuck you" I stood up and walked to the bathroom. "Please!" I giggled at his plead.
Things were good now, but soon that would change.
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