Hey guys, here is my next update I hope that you enjoy it. I am putting off my homework to do this. I seriously hate school, it is the worst. Let me know what you think in the reviews or if you have any questions. Lastly, I have thought about putting a random fact at the beginning of each chapter let me know if you want me to do this. I will do it this chapter just for fun, but don't forget to leave a yes or no in the reviews.

Random Fact: i have spent almost $2,000 on books and that number is slowly rising….oops

Disclaimer: I don't own the characters sadly *sighs* and some inspiration comes from Every Day by David Levithan

Clary Pov

As we leave the cave I start to think more and more about how I am slowly coming to terms with everything that has happened to me. I think that now that Jace knows I could be okay with him loving someone else. I have learned in life to prepare for the best and to always expect the worst. It has never been easy for me and it has taken a lot of self convincing and encouragement from Simon. I remember that night where everything took a turn for the worst.

I was sitting at home, in Aline when I got the call. She was of Jace's close friends. He had helped her come out to her family just like he had done with Alec. I looked for Aline's phone and found it was on the kitchen counter. I looked at the caller ID and saw that it was Celine. I pickled the phone up warily, since Celine rarely called Aline. I dreaded picking the phone up the moment it reached my ear. I heard crying on the other end of the line and sirens.

"Celine, what's wrong? What has happened? Is someone hurt?" I was practically screaming into the phone at this point.

"Aline, Jace was..he was in a wreck on his bike. They don't know how bad it is, but the are rushing him to the hospital now. Can you please meet me there." It was taking all of Celine's strength to speak to me.

"I'm on my way now Celine. It'll be alright, Jace is a fighter." I got off the phone, ran to Aline's car, and raced off to the hospital. When I arrived everyone else was there too. I tried to calm myself down, so I could be there for the others. We sat there in that waiting room for hours waiting for news from the doctors. Finally, one came out to us and told us the news. Jace had broken an arm, his leg, he had a severe head injury that they were worried could lead to brain damage, and minor cuts and bruises covering his body. They had rushed off to surgery after he arrived at the hospital. He was now in his room and they were worried that he might not make it through the night. When I heard the last part I almost broke down and suddenly the hospital seemed to be closing in on me. I ran away from the doctor, the hospital, all those people that cared for Jace, and the one person in this world that I had other than Simon. I was up all that night thinking. I thought about the cycle that I was stuck in. How there was only one person in this world that cared for me. How my true love may never know that I love him. I decided that night that there would be minimal damage if I left this world. I didn't think about the consequences. I didn't think to consider that I may just end up back in another person's body or if i would kill my host either. None of that mattered to me anymore, nothing did.

It was Simon that stopped me, that came racing through through the door, and took the kitchen knife out of my hand. He kept me from possibly ending myself and Aline. He made me realize that people cared about me even if they didn't know they did. He helped me believe that my parents were still out there looking for me, even though he had no idea. He made me realize that one day I might be able to live a happy life. I would just have to accept myself first. That was the night that I decided that no matter how I felt I would live my life for the people I stepped in for and so that one day I could be happy with him. Everything got better after that, I was able to go back to living other people's lives for them each month. At least that is until Sebastian showed up again.

I was knocked out of my thoughts went I felt myself being shook. I looked up and was met with a gold gaze. Jace was standing in front of me with his hands on my shoulders. I realized then that I had just been standing there stuck in my thoughts cut off from the world.

"Clary, are you okay you weren't responding to me?" Jace seemed genuinely concerned for me. I shifted my gaze back down to the ground. I wasn't sure if I wanted to tell him the truth or not. I was at my most vulnerable at that time. After a short debate in my head I realized that I had already confessed my love for him, so why not tell him about that night. I opened my mouth to tell him what I was thinking about when "I looked around and noticed that it was already dark outside. We had been talking in there for longer than I thought or maybe I had been stuck in my head for longer. The only thing that was worrying me was that I didn't know how late it was at night. Even worse was that I realized today was the last day of the month. I suddenly became very frantic and nervous.

"Hey Jace, um...what time is it?"

"It's 11:00, why?"

"Jace i'll tell you what was going on later, but right now we need to go back to the apartment so that i can get everything ready for when I shift. I have to prepare Izzy's memories, hide my phone, and then I have to make sure that I get rid of anything that may make Izzy suspicious." Jace looked at me, nodded his head, and then we both took off running.

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