I am who I am
PG –13 turning to M soon
Summary: Sakura. A very poor, very dirty, skinny but pretty girl goes into the royal palace in the hope to get a job to be a servant. Why does she have to be a servant? Will she be staying a servant forever? Is this end of her life? – I doubt it –
"…" – Speaking
… - Remembering or dream
… – Thinking
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Syaoran: 19
Sakura: 18
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China, Beijing - year 1845
Chapter 9: Rumors? They're true!
After the Queen of China approved Sakura to be Syaoran's personal servant, (or friend, as Syaoran puts it) the news was spread all around the Palace. The other servants were all sighing when they heard about this; Sakura was just a normal girl- but one that was really lucky to be allowed to serve Syaoran from day till night, always at his side. While the servants reacted with envy, the cousins of the emperor got extremely angry and irritated. They started to write long letters to the Queen, telling her she made the wrong mistake, and assuring her that Syaoran should simply marry instead. The Queen was speechless. Speechless at how a girl, a simple, mere servant girl can prove to be such a treat to her people, and thereupon cause the whole of Beijing turn against their ruler. But Syaoran could care less, as long as he has his friend, Sakura. He'll do anything. Simply anything.
Sakura wrote a long letter to her father and brother; it was months ago when she last contacted them. She missed them very dearly, thinking every day, what conditions their lives are in now, worrying what necessities are they are still missing and in need of. What they needed and wanted for a long time.
Dear father and brother,
Guessed what? I'm now serving the emperor of China, and the first and only girl servant who has ever done so. Emperor Xiao Lang is very nice, he treats me very well. We are very good friends. It was not easy to work my way to the highest level, but obviously if Syaoran didn't help me, I wouldn't even be able step foot in his bedroom!
I trained here in the Palace at first, then the Royal Uncle seemed to warm up to me and he wished to place me in the emperor's chambers before already, but the Queen of China, well, her Highness didn't approve, you see. And somehow, I got to the Chans. They were mean and horrible to me. If Touya hasn't read to this part, please don't let him read it. They dragged me to the royal palace and there was the Queen and Syaoran. They saved me again, well, Syaoran did.
After that Syaoran decided to get my job back, and so I could work in the palace again. There was this huge fight between him and the Queen. Even the clan has no choice but to let me serve Syaoran. So the Queen must give in, or else Syaoran will be asking for more. Then Syaoran argued there will be no personal guards. Queen also hastily approves, but she said if Syaoran misbehaves then there will be double guarding and consequences for him.
I'm so excited; I'm finally getting a real job.
Love
Sakura
P.S. PTO dad
When her father received her letter, he hurriedly ran to the pigeon and tugged off the parchment. He impatiently unrolled it and read through it, scanning it swiftly. Touya read the letter at the same time as his father. Obviously seen the part which Sakura wrote
'They were mean and horrible to me.'
"She's coming back," shouted Touya, as he grabbed his thin, worn coat and ran out the door. "I'm getting her back."
"No Touya, come back. Yes, your sister did suffer before, but not anymore. She's at the highest serving point, serving the emperor."
"Also about the emperor, you never know what his intentions are. You don't know what he wants to do."
"Touya, if Emperor wanted to kill Sakura, he would have done it before hand. Before he saved her before everything happened."
Touya sat down on the ground, ran his hand through his messy hair.
"I just don't want her to get hurt."
"Nor do I, would you think that I would let Sakura get hurt?"
Touya nodded to tell his father he understands. Touya slowly walks to the kitchen basin and started cooking or making their light meal.
Fujitaka turned over his paper and began to read again.
Hello father, how are you? I cannot write for a long time, the emperor needs my service. I must resume my chores and tasks soon. However I must tell you something. I am unsure, but I think I am seemingly beginning to like the Emperor, and no, I don't mean as a friend. He's nice, brave, good looking, and most importantly, he understands me. He is the man every girl in the kingdom is dying for. And I also happen to be the lucky girl. He seems to like me too, because yesterday, he just gave me a kiss on the cheek. When his lips made contact with my cheek, my skin was so hot that it could have melted the earth. It is not what her majesty and many others wishes, I am sure, but yet, my body seems to be aching for more, and my heart itself is craving, longing for his return of my emotions. He gave me a feeling that no other can give me. When he gave me that gentle kiss, I could feel it. It was as though he was the one that will give me warmth in the cold, and stay by me whenever I feel lost.
He's the one. I will always remember the things you taught me, to be educated and polite, and how gracious and well mannered girls are not to show their deepest emotions, nor their desperate longing, passion, desire, hunger, yearning, and thirst, but rather, to simply stay calm, cool, composed, and controlled at all times. I will, and I will remain that way. Until, perhaps, he tells me.
Love and missing you,
Sakura
Fujitaka smiled into the letter, and he finally understands why Sakura needs to bet her life to simply get this job. One reason is to pay for the dept the family owned; the other is to stay with her most beloved person, the Emperor.
He folded the letter inwards and placed it in his pocket, smiling as he brought out a fresh sheet of paper. And beginning to write, he placed the brush on to the paper.
"There's a pigeon."
Sakura rushed out where she was and picked up the pigeon tentatively. She strokes its feathers, and retrieved the parchment that was tied to the pigeon's leg. After that, she lightly released the pigeon from her delicate hold as so it is able to fly freely.
"Sakura was that the sound of pigeons flying?"
"Good morning Syaoran. It's from father." She said excitedly.
He chuckled at her excitement. "Calm down girl."
She stuck out her tongue and laughed.
She unrolled it messily and read it aloud.
"Dear Sakura, I love you very much and I hope you have a good experience in there. I'm sorry to hear about your pain at the Chans. I hope you were alright. Your brother Touya have been very worried, but fortunately I stopped him before killing the Chans. He's also worried about the emperor."
Sakura blushed slightly before she read on.
"Is he treating you nicely? Are you eating well in the palace? We're fine here and don't worry about the money, Touya worked very hard to earn us some money to live. Anyways, I'm very interested in ……."
Sakura stopped and stared at the parchment open mouthed.
Cannot believe what she just re read that sentence again.
Syaoran was curious why Sakura stopped reading to him.
"What is he interested about?" asked Syaoran curiously.
Sakura hesitated before she answered. "I'm not too sure…" She laughed nervously.
He walked over to her and gets the piece of parchment before Sakura could struggle.
He continued on where Sakura stopped, "Anyways, I'm very interested in how your relationship with the emperor is." Sakura blushing hard and cover her ears.
"Oh dear gods. This is so embarrassing. Sorry, Syaoran. Ignore my father, he's just joking and I mean I'm here for my father and my brother."
"You're not here for me?" he did a cute pout; his voice sounds like a 5 year old.
"No…You know I can't stand puppy eyes, Syaoran." Sakura begged.
He continued to tease her, "You don't care about me anymore? I don't deserve a place in your heart and mind? I feel so alone now."
"Aw….of course you deserve a place in my heart and mind, you're my good friend Syaoran. Of course you are in my heart."
His teasing tone was gone back to the light tone he used to have.
"No, not as a friend Sakura, I meant like the kind when you like a person very much."
She was still confused. "I do like you very much Syaoran." She laughed.
"I don't mean the friend way, I – I meant this way-."
He leans close to her and slowly makes his way to her lips. Sakura closed her eyes. He's going to kiss me; he's going to kiss me! He's going to kiss me…..
The spilt second Syaoran' soft lips made contact with hers, Sakura's world stopped. Time stopped, and everything paused, seemingly as though the universe, and all forms of space and time on earth, was put on hold. Everything stopped except for their hearts, which were beating fast and rhythmically with each others. His left hand caressed her left cheek, stroking the pinky-white, silky surface with his thumb and index finger. Sakura draped her arms around his neck and leaned in, fragile and baby bird- like, closer to him, feeling the warmth of his chest, the definition of his muscle abs, the pulsing of his heartbeat. He had stopped stroking her face, and his strong arms were now wrapped around her slim waist. He gently licked her full pink lips, asking for entrance, and without a single second lost she parted her soft mouth willingly to him. His tongue darted through those luscious, sugary lips, exploring. She moaned, returning the act of desire with just as much passion into his mouth. He pressed hard against her slender but curvy body, leaning towards the nearest wall.
Sakura drew back, "Syaoran, not now, remember what you promised your mother. Try and control yourself. I know it's hard around me," she teased.
He simply sighed and ruffled his hair with his hand, leaning against the wall. "Right. I forgot I'm the Emperor of China. Why can't I just have a normal life?" She gave him a look, one that says- you should be grateful for what you get. "Yes… I'll be thankful," says Syaoran, placing a gentle kiss on her lips.
Great, now there are two women ruling over me. One is trying to stop my actions, and the other's aiming to stop my emotions.
Shaking his head, "And I'm supposed to be the Emperor of China, they say…"
A/N: I hope you enjoyed that … if not, I understand. Please review; tell me what you think about this story.