Yay!! It seems like a lot of people liked my last chapter I am so happy that so many people like it! Well here is this chapter I hope its liked as well! Sorry for the wait, it would be longer but… I felt like you guys really needed an update!
My wonderful dream of Jasper was completely ruined by the sound of Dominic's voice yelling my name. "Joanna you have to come see this!" he was shaking me, I hit his hand and turned around to go back to sleep. "No wake up now!" he shook me harder. I sat up in bed and looked at the clock. 6:53.
"What the hell is so important it couldn't wait till morning?" I asked angrily as he pulled on my hand. He dragged me into the hall way and was pulling me to his room.
"It's a picture, I found it when I was doing my research for the Civil war." I pulled my hand away from his, he was completely nuts!
"I know I told you I like History but this is overboard, let me go back to sleep." I hated him at that moment, I couldn't believe he woke me up to show me a picture of a solider!
"No Joanna you want to see this I swear." If this wasn't good I was going to hurt him. He led me into his room and sat down at his computer desk. "Look at that name." his mouse was on the name of the youngest Confederate officer, Jasper Whitlock. I looked at Dominic, why was he showing me this, was it because his name was Jasper? He put his mouse on the link to see his picture, he looked at me then clicked it.
"Oh my God" My vice was no more than a whisper, this Jasper Whitlock man looked exactly like Jasper. It was a perfect copy, not mater how you looked at the picture there were no differences in them. My first thought was a relieve but no one could look that much alike, it wasn't possible, even for twins. I ran my hand through my hair and looked at Dominic. "What the hell, you had to have done that!" he shook his head, I didn't know why I said he did it.
"How would I have done this?" He asked loudly, I knew he couldn't have done that. I sat on his bed and thought. Was the thought of vampires truly that observed? Some one from the 1800's looked like Jasper to a scary extent, his eyes changed color when he was angry, maybe when he was hungry. He told me he would have killed me if he didn't care, a vampire would do that. But in all movies I had seen vampires were soulless evil creatures incapable of love, however those were just movies and this was real life.
"This is the real world, vampires are not real!" I said out loud as Dominic looked at me then to the picture.
"What if they were real, and what if they were actually all vampires." I looked at him, how would I react, I knew that I wouldn't treat most of them different…. But what about Jasper? Would I still like him if he was a blood sucking vampire? He had told me and proven that he would hurt me… that should have made my answer no but if he was a vampire and he cared enough to not kill me then it made me like him even more. I looked at the picture, he was just as beautiful as Jasper was now, but I wasn't sure that was Jasper at all. I mean it could be a relative. Just as my mood fell my cell phone went off , I looked at my phone, Jasper. I looked at Dominic and answered my phone.
"Hello?" I tried to make my voice sound steady.
"Are you ok? You sound a bit off."
"Oh no nothings wrong, I'm just wondering something." I bit the inside of my lip.
"Oh, ok, what is it?" How was I going to ask him? Was I just suppose to come out and ask if he was a vampire?
"Um, have you ever heard of someone called Jasper Whitlock?" There was no answer just silence. "He was a confederate solider and…"
"I've never heard of him." I knew him well enough to tell when he was laying and now was one of those times.
"Jasper you don't need to lie to me! I know you Jasper!"
"Do you really?" I looked down avoiding my brothers questioning gaze.
"I want to, Jasper, you don't have to hide anything from me!"
"I told you I'm not hiding anything!" his voice was more of a low growl than anything else and it scared me. I quickly closed my phone and walked back to my room.
I knew he was lying to me! I told him he was and all he can do is get angry! Jasper didn't have to lie to me, I thought he trusted me but I was obviously wrong. The thought didn't make me angry only upset, I tried to be angry but it wasn't working. Why didn't he trust me, I didn't ask if he was Jasper Whitlock, only if he had heard of him. Why did he get so angry with me to! I didn't like it when he was angry, all I could picture were his angry black eyes.
Dominic obviously got the message that I didn't want to see anyone because he hadn't been to bug me, or ask questions. I simply laid on my bed dozed off, but not for long. I felt weight on the foot of my bed and kicked thinking it was Dominic, but it was to hard to be Dominic. I kicked again and my foot hurt from the force. I opened my eyes and sat up rubbing my foot.
"I had to come, I didn't like how I made you feel." My head snapped up at the sound of Jasper's voice. He wasn't looking at me, his eyes were looking all around my room but not at me. "I have never actually been in here, even when I come by, I've thought about it but never really done it." I looked at him, what was he talking about? When did he come bye, was he talking about when he visited. "Your right you know, I shouldn't have to hide anything from you. My family gave me the okay, and encouraged me as well." he sounded depressed but I didn't think he really was. He looked at me then emotions overcame me anger, sadness, love, lust, annoyance, happiness, numb, hated, confusion, fear and many more. "Do you feel that?" he asked grabbing my hand with his ice cold one. I couldn't speak I just nodded, "I'm doing it, I have been all along." I looked at him with wide eyes, I knew he was doing it. "And its because I'm…" "A vampire" I interrupted with a breathless voice. He pulled his hand away from mine and was in the corner of my room in less than a second. I wanted to talk to him but I had to posses this in my head. Jasper was a vampire, and so were all of the others, they were all murderers. I know I said it didn't matter before but was that the truth now? Could I still be friends with murderers?
"What are you thinking?" he knew what I was feeling and that cause a bit of urgency in his voice. I looked down at my hands, could I say that out loud?
"I… I don't know…" he looked at me curiously, "If I could be friends with murders" my voice was quiet but I knew he heard me by the look on his face.
"I am murder yes!" he was angry now, he was making me feel it. "I am a ruthless killer! But the rest of my family is not!" I flinched as his voice echoed through out my room. "All of us but Carlisle and Bella have killed humans but the others all have changed! Edward fell in love with Bella as a human and he didn't kill her and Rosalie only killed the monsters that raped her, she hasn't had human blood!" I looked at him in shock. 'The others are still better than I am, they are no where near the murders I am!" He closed his eyes and leaned against the wall.
"I… I'm sorry." I felt tears come from my eyes as I felt his weight back on my bed, I opened my eyes and he was sitting on the edge of my bed as far away from me as he could be, which made my cry more. He hated me now.
"Don't cry." I shook my head as a wave of calmness filled me.
"Stop it!" I yelled, "Let me be upset! You don't even like me anymore why are you trying to make me happy?!" He grabbed my arm tightly and I winced as he pulled me up to his face.
'What the hell gave you that idea!" his eyes were pitch black and was dangling in the air, causing my fear level to rise. "I care about you more than I have cared about anyone before! I'll be damned if you sit there and say I don't! I have worked to hard for you to even half way think that!" his voice was softer at the end and almost all of my fear was gone but soon it was replaced bye pain. His grip on my arm was almost bone crushing, he didn't seem to notice until he let me go with a scared look on his face as I fell on to the bed. He ran to the corner of the room again but this time he looked like I had never seen him before, truly terrified. "I'm sorry!" he cried out. "I'm so, so sorry!"
"Its ok!" I said looking at my arm, a bruise was already forming but I was more worried about him. "Bruises will go away and so will pain." he ran his hand through his hair and looked at me. "Vampire strength hu?" I asked cracking a smile, he looked at me and walked over to me and grabbed my arm gently running his cool fingers over the bruise, he nodded in response to my question. "What else is there?" I asked quietly as he continued to rub my arm.
"We can run extremely fast, we are quiet, don't have to breath, we can see things better than anyone else, our smell is great and I can fell and change the emotions of those around me." he looked at me as I started at him. "I can feel yours everywhere I am, no matter how far I've gone I can feel you." I smiled as he moved a strand of hair out of my face. "I like that, it keeps me from worrying a small bit." I looked at him as he traced his fingers over my lips. "You don't mind me touching you, now that you know I mean." He looked at me truly afraid of my answer.
I looked at him and slowly grabbed his hand. "I always knew." I rubs my fingers over his smooth palm. "My dreams told me all I needed to know, I tried to say they were wrong but they are never wrong." I looked at him "And I love it when you touch me." I felt my face heat up but it stopped when he stood up laughing.
"How could I do this to you?" He was mad at him self and I didn't quite understand why. "I know I did something to make you feel that way and I meant to do it in away!" I looked at him confused. "I was debating for a while, if I should just tell you how I feel or if I should leave and never comeback!" I sat up straight.
"You can't leave!" I said a little to loud. "Just tell me how you feel and forget leaving!" I felt the tears coming to my eyes.
"Don't cry, I can't stand it when you cry." his hands were at his sides and he looked at me. "Leaving would be safer for you, so much safer." he sat next to me in an instant. "But telling you would make me happier, and it would be easer." he grabbed my hand lightly and kissed it lightly causing my face to burn intensely. "You are my warmth." he presses my warm hand to his ice cold cheek. "All night I think of you, good thoughts as well as a few bad ones. I can't sleep at all so when I can I come here, I've never actually trusted myself in here with you. I only did tonight because I scared you, I've told you I can't handle that. I know I should want you scared but I care about you to much for that." I smiled as he ran my fingers over his lips. His eyes were on his picture of the roses.
"What?" I asked him looking at them as well, he turned to me and smiled.
"Remember when I told you that the rose was the one that worked?" he asked quietly with the small smiled still on his face. I nodded as he looked back at the picture, "You are the Rose Joanna." I looked at Jasper and shook my head, he was lying to, there was no way he felt the same. "I would never lie to you." he could feel my emotions. "When I would talk about the person I liked, it was always you."
I looked down, my face was redder than ever before. I could feel his eyes still watching me as I felt the tears come to my face. "If this is your way of a sick joke Jasper stop it now!" there was no point in hiding anything now so I le all of it out. "I don't care what you are, I don't care what you've done, but I have always liked you, and if this is a joke…" before I could answer jaspers hands held my face a bit close to his.
"I would never tell you if it was a lie, if I didn't trust you with my secrete 100 I would have never told you! Joanna, over a hundred years of life and you are the only person I have had more than a physical connection to!" I nodded then realized what he said, over a hundred years old. He mused have sensed my curiosity because he pulled away and looked at me.
"How old are you?" I asked, I didn't mean to sound judgmental or anything but it seemed like he thought I did. Jasper stood up and looked down at me, "I was born Jasper Whitlock in 1843." I was taken aback a bit, but I smiled as I realized something.
"You were an actual confederate solider." I said in awe "You were there! You could tell me how it actually went down! Wait what rank were you?" I asked, I knew he was some kind of officer but what, I wasn't sure.
"Major." his voice held an amusement that if I wasn't so wrapped up in my own fantasy world I might have cared.
"Oh wow that so cool!" I said smiling big and squirming around. He sat next to me and rubbed my face.
"You find out I'm a vampire and I get more emotion when you find out I was a rebel solider." he laughed and smiled at me. "You should sleep little one." he stood up and I grabbed his hand I wasn't ready for him to leave yet. "Oh don't worry I will be back when you wake up." he smiled as I reluctantly let go of his hand.
He smirked as he opened my window and did one of those action movie jumps out of it. I laughed "Show off!" I could hear his laughter fade as he got further away from my house.
As soon as I was sure he was gone I ran into Dominic's room. He was sitting on his bed looking out the window when I jumped on his bed. "Guess what!?" I asked excitedly.
"There vampires?" He asked looking down at me. He was happy, but not as happy as I was. I didn't know why I was so happy, but I was, sure it was a little weird, but so was I.
"No! Well that to but no not what I was talking about!" It really wasn't, I mean at times I did that to him when he guessed right but not this time.
"What are you talking about then?" he asked interested, I smiled big and looked at his ceiling.
"Jasper likes me!" I yelled and looked at Dominic. "He said I'm his bloody rose!" I was so happy at the moment and I didn't have to hide it.
"Your happy you're his bloody rose?" Dominic's voice was questioning my sanity, no doubt.
"Well, he said that I was the one that works so maybe he more than just likes me." I said quietly with a shrug. I wanted it to be true but when I thought of the two of us tighter I could hardly believe he even liked me.
"I think so, but I couldn't even tell that Alice liked me, even with you telling me so." He looked down and I sat up and hugged him.
"No its ok, I mean a lot of guys don't see it." I smiled at him. "Girls are just good at things like that." he turned to me and smiled.
"You were right though." I looked at his smiling face. "She really, really likes me." I hugged him tight. "I have a girlfriend for the first time in my life." he threw himself back and I couldn't help but laugh.
"Oh calm your self Romeo!" I yelled laughing at my brother, I liked this. Dominic was happier than I had seen him in a long time, I owed Alice big.
He took a deep breath and propped himself up on his elbows, "Do you think Jasper is your boyfriend now?" he was still smiling but mine faded.
What was he to me? I know I wanted him to be my boyfriend, but did he want to be? "I don't know." I said with a shrug. All that was clear to me was that they were vampires and that Jasper liked me. "I would love for him to be but I just don't know." I let my mood get down, as well as Dominic's. I didn't really like that.
"Hey well at least you know he likes you!" I nodded as my smile came back. "That's something right!"
"Yeah, it's a lot more than I had before!" I said happily. I laid down next to him and looked at the clock, 3:25. Automatically upon seeing the time I yawned, I was always one for staying up late but I was woken up twice so I was really tired.
"You should go to sleep Joanna." Dominic said smiling at me, I hugged my big brother and sat up pulling him with me. "Stronger than any one thinks." he said smirking.
"I am!" I laughed as I walked out of his room smiling. As I closed my door and laid on my bed I thought about tonight. So much had gone on today, and the bad things led to the greatest thing of all, Jasper saying he liked me. He may not be my boyfriend but he was something. All I knew was I was in love with a vampire, and he liked me back.
OK there is is!! Now the real struggles begin! The next chapter of this won't be out until I have the second chapter of "Her Blood is Chocolate" out! If you haven't checked it out you should! Its Jasper side of this story!!