Shattered

Chapter 10

By: Hope

Author's Note: Hey guys! Sorry this update is a day or two late. Grad school is already kicking my ass. I'm hoping to have Chapter 11 posted tonight as well. If not tonight, it will be up tomorrow. Thank you for everyone who read and reviewed the last chapter. Seeing your reviews makes me happy! I hope you enjoy this chapter as well. Let me know what you guys think!

Read on :)

"I think that's it" Donna announced to her sister as they put the last box onto the moving truck. Donna and Becca had spent the entire day packing up everything that was hers from the apartment she shared with Marshall in Boston. It was a tough day but Donna was grateful her younger sister came along.

"You have a lot of shit" Becca, the blonder Paulsen, observed as she wiped her forehead. Why the hell was it so hot out?"

Donna ignored her statement and spoke, " Thanks for coming here with me, Becs"

Becca smiled, as she readjusted her ponytail, "Ofcourse. Abby wasn't going to come. You know she hates manual labor"

Donna nodded, in agreement, before staring back at the beautiful brick building which was her home, "I guess this is it. Back to New York and single. I didn't expect my life to.. go this route"

Becca looked hesitant.

"What?" Donna asked, noticing the middle Paulsen's facial expression.

Becca shrugged, " Honestly, I would have been more surprised if you married Marshall"

"You didn't think I would?" Donna asked her sister.

"Donna, I love you and Marshall he is a great guy but, let's be real here. The only man I can see you spending your life with is Harvey"

Donna took a deep breath, " Harvey and I.. just can't seem to get it together. Maybe it's time to let that go"

"Isn't that why you left, Donna?" Becca asked, she loved her sister but she needed to face everything. It was now or never, " You went to his house"

"I just.. didn't want to settle" Donna responded, pulling her sunglasses up on to her head.

Becca took a deep breath, " The night before your wedding – almost wedding- we stayed at mom's house. Harvey showed up"

Donna looked confused and angry that her mom and sisters hadn't told her this, "Why didn't anyone tell me?"

"Mom told us not to tell you" Becca confessed, " She didn't want him showing up to influence you. She wanted you to make your own decision on your future. You and Harvey.. well you're super fucked up but, I would kill to have what you two have"

Harvey was having the world's shittiest day. Today, Harvey learned his favorite client, Godwin Enterprises, was changing leadership. Charles Godwin was retiring and giving the company to his douche of a son, Spencer. Harvey hated Spencer. Spencer was terrible with business decisions and only wanted to make money. The only reason Spencer got this promotion was because he was his father's only son. Fucking Nepotism.

Harvey had to spend three hours at a bar with Spencer and his just as douchey friends at request of Charles which was exactly what Harvey wanted to do on a Friday Night.

It was 9 pm when Harvey walked back into the halls of the firm. It was quiet. Everyone had already gone home. As he walked to his office, he noticed Donnas' light was still on. He wondered if she were still here. It had been about a month since Harvey and Donna took the trip to Rochester.

Gretchen had already left for the night. She asked to leave early. It was bingo night. With his hands in his pocket, Harvey walked into his office. He stopped when he saw familiar legs comfortably resting on Harvey's desk. Donna had a glass of wine in her hand as jazz music was playing in the background.

"Make yourself at home, Donna" Harvey joked, "What are you still doing here?"he asked, surprised, walking over to where he kept his scotch. He poured himself a glass as he took off his gray suit jacket, throwing it on the couch.

"Catching up on some work. It's always quiet on Friday nights" Donna answered, " and what else would I be doing? I would just be watching Dateline in my pjs"

"You're really living it up, Donna" Harvey joked, taking a seat on the couch

"How was your meeting?" Donna asked, already know Harvey's answer.

Harvey took a drink before answer, " It was awful"

"Yeah, I heard Spencer is kind of an ass" Donna agreed, drinking the rest of her wine and sitting down her glass.

"Spencer made us do keg stands" Harvey told her, shaking his head, " What am I? 21 in college? I'm a fucking Harvard educated lawyer"

Donna laughed, "But you were 8th"

Harvey rolled his eyes but grinned, " Funny, Paulsen"

Harvey stood up to refill his glass. Donna slowly pushed her glass over, silently asking Harvey to fill her glass with the half empty bottle of wine.

"So" Donna began, as Harvey handed her her glass of wine and took his seat back on the couch giving her his full attention, "You dated Felicity?" referring to her college roommate.

Harvey's eyes bulged a little, " Who the hell told you that?"

Donna shrugged and said, " Don't avoid the question, Harvey"

"Yeah, for a few months" Harvey answered, feeling awkward, " like two years ago"

Donna took off her nude heels before continuing the conversation, " That's it? What happened? She couldn't handle the Specter charm?"

This was a conversation Harvey really wanted to avoid having. He was embarrassed that he actually dated Felicity. He wasn't sure if dating was even what it was. They had dinner a few times and hooked up. Harvey didn't consider it a serious relationship. He didn't even really consider it a relationship in general. Harvey knew her told Donna. It had to have been Louis.

"Nothing happened, Donna. Why does something have to happen? It was what it was. She was nice but it wasn't what I wanted" Harvey said, feeling aggravated.

"Are you ever going to settle down?" Donna joked, the glasses of wine affecting her as she took another sip from her glass.

Harvey sent a serious glance, " You don't want me to answer that"

"Harvey, you're so serious. I was just.. joking like friends do" Donna said, feeling sad. Things were better between them. It had even begun to get a little flirty but there were no many things unsaid. Donna was ready to go there and have that conversation. The red wine also helped.

"We aren't really friends. We used to be." Harvey said, sounding more harsh than he meant, " We're.. co workers"

Despite her drunkenness, Donna felt her heart break a little. She tried to slow her heart beat down before speaking, "Why the hell can't we be friends, Harvey?"

"We haven't spoken in three years, Donna" Harvey said, quickly, knowing it wasn't a legit excuse.

"I called you!" Donna yelled, standing up from her seat in Harvey's desk chair, "I called you so many times I couldn't even count. I tried. I left you messages. Us not talking isn't my fault. That's a lame ass excuse. You're a lawyer. You can do better"

Harvey shook his head as he stood up, "I don't want to do this right now"

Donna started walking toward him, barefoot, "Well, that's too bad, Harvey because I do. Why didn't you answer my phone calls?"

Harvey started walking towards the door, "You're drunk. It's late. I'm not doing this"

"Just leave, Harvey. This is what you do best. Avoid shit. Grow a pair of balls and let's talk about this. We should have talked about this years ago but we both suck at serious conversation" Donna said, walking towards him in a navy blue dress, her eyes were watering.

"Why didn't you answer when I called, Harvey?" Donna threw her hands in the air, asking the question again that had been on her mind for months.

"If I answered, what was there to say? What the hell would we talk about?" Harvey asked, standing a few feet from the door

"I would tell you.. about how many times I got lost in Baltimore, that I taught your dad how to eat crabs when he came to visit, that my sister was getting married.. that my parents separated" Donna said, " I would get your advice and input on cases that I was struggling with. I would tell you that I was lonely and that I missed you" Donna confessed, looking at the ground and avoiding his eyes which she felt on her.

"Donna" Harvey said, quietly, " You broke my heart that day in your apartment when you told me you were going to Baltimore"

"It wasn't easy for me either" Donna admitted, " I knew what we had was.. different. It was special but I didn't think you were ready. I wasn't sure I was either. The reason we even connected initially was our goal and focus on graduating law school and becoming lawyers. I didn't have much choice in the position I took- it wasn't going to be in New York. I thought ending it was the easiest option for both of us"

"I don't need you to make decisions for me" Harvey said, angrily, " You are the only woman I've ever told I love you too"

"I know" Donna took a deep breath," When I left for Baltimore, I always knew in my heart that it wasn't over for us. It just wasn't the right time in college. We had to build our careers first before we could really .. do this. The last thing I wanted to do was hold you back or affect any decision you made about your career. You deserved every opportunity that came your way without having any attachments"

Donna walked closer to Harvey standing inches away from him.

"When is going to be the right time for us?" Harvey asked, honestly. Despite not seeing or talking to Donna the past three years, he never not thought about her. He tried not to but he couldn't. He would lay in bed after working all day and think about their moments together. She meant more to him than he could ever truly explain in words.

"Kiss me, Harvey" Donna requested

"What?" Harvey asked, surprised at her response.

Without asking again, Donna decided to take it upon herself. Donna tried to not think too hard before she pressed her lips against Harvey's.

At first, it took Harvey a few seconds to react. He pressed his lips back just as hard. His hands went to the sides of her face and down to her waist.

The kiss felt like an eternity. But to Harvey, it wasn't long enough when they finally separated.

Donnas' hands were still holding onto Harvey's tie, " It's nice to know after a few years, that it's still there" she smirked, "I'm a little wine drunk"

Harvey smiled and nodded, " Go grab your stuff. Ray can take you home"

Replies Appreciated