A/N: A quick reminder that none of these chapters have been properly corrected by a BETA, I skim, but that's about it. So sorry for any errors.

"You can close your eyes to reality, but not to memories." - Stanislaw Jerzy Lec

When I got there I was content, taking in a breath of spiritual air, I began on my exersies. I stretched my arms and legs, grateful that there wasn't going to be any scolding for some time. Now for what I came for.

I walked towards the Goshinboku and sat at the base, if there was anywhere in this whole place where I would feel the most connected - it would be here. I plopped down and crossed my legs, the whisps danced around me and I closed my eyes and assumed the proper meditation position.

Just like I practiced, I managed to draw my power out, but when I tried to grab it, it slipped through my fingers. My face contracted, it was pracitcally hopeless. It slipped through my fingers every time.

I opened my eyes and growled, why couldn't I just grab it? It felt just like water, so how was I supposed to control it? My eyes widened, What if I could...redirect it? At this point any idea would be better so I began to meditate.

I thought back, the memories being foggier than before, but I could clearly remember the big things. I remembered my first examination, the first time I met Kikyo and Kaede, then I even went to where I first opened my eyes.

I hit that wall, I breathed in and brought the power to my finger tips. I imagined that it was aimed at a demon, my hands warmed up and I focused it on the wall and fired. Something within me snapped and I gasped.

Images flooded my head, one by one. It was overhwleming, but I stood rigid. I gasped, Bank! Ma! I sobbed, my hands were shaking and tears were burning down my cheeks. "My name...!"

How could I have forgotten!? I cried harder, what happened to Bank? Ma? I was about to just run to Dr. Taishou and ask, but I realized that he would find out everything.

I remembered what happened after I got into that truck. I was dragged to a facility and immediately stripped. I remember crying because they injected various thing into me, the whole scene was brutal and I shivered at the memory.

I heard footsteps approaching and I glanced up, wiping the last of my tears Kikyo stared at me wide eyed before sitting down beside me and pulling me to an embrace. "I..." My voice cracked, but Kikyo nodded her head and whispered an 'I know,'

I relaxed and calmed down, she understood. And right now that was all I needed. Soon Kaede came and perked me up. Wiping my tears away I began telling them what happened, Kikyo congratulated me while Kaede screamed in glee.

"What's your name?" Kaede practically begged and I rolled my eyes playfully. "Rin." I replied, enjoying the way it sounded, it was a little plain. But I loved having a name again, being someone.

The rest of the day was spent training, my barrier became stronger since I learned to direct and not grab. Kkyo was impressed, for once the day wasn't filled with repremending, this was something I could get used to.

After I finished forming balls of pure energy I stopped with a pant. A clap resounded from behind me and I whipped around, my hands filled with two more. I relaxed and couldn't help but scowl when I saw Roku.

"Nice to see you, Rin was it?" He said with a smile and it took every inch of my will power to not roll my eyes. Kikyo greeted him fondly and immediately began conversing, I was kinda happy for that since I didn't have to talk to him.

WAIT! How did he know my name? I turned to Roku to see him and Kikyo laughing. Kaede, like me, was scowling at the guy. "Where you watching us?" I said and Kikyo shot daggers at me, Roku just smirked.

"You are a clever one." He said with a smile, extending his hand towards me in greeting. Being me, I didn't take it and instead quirked a brow, "My name is Miroku, but for obvious reasons it stays Roku,"

I scoffed, obviously the guy was talking to me like I was dumb. But I didn't say anything and instead grabbed the bow and arrow from the ground (was it there before?) And began to practice my archery.

I missed a few - scratch that, I missed every single shot except one. I pouted and turned to everyone only to see their shocked gazes. "What?"

"How did you do that?" Miroku asked, glancing at the bow and arrow in my hand. "It was on the ground, and I picked it up." I stated and he placed a hand on his head in surprise. Kikyo smiled at me, and for a moment I began to think back on what I did wrong.

"You materialized it," Kaede informed, I was so thankful for Kaede being here. Other wise I would be completely alone with Miroku and it would have taken ages for them to tell me anything.

"I told you," Kikyo poked Miroku, a school girl smile on her face. Everyone turned to me and I felt my face heat up at the sudden attention, "Rin is the one, she is the Miko who will free humans from our slavery."

Something gleamed in their eyes, and in that moment my life was snatched up away from me. I was branded, I couldn't be what I wanted to be. I had to be their savior, and I could not fail. Demons weren't the ones who terrified me, the fear of failing was what truly scared me.

With a sigh, I retrieved the arrows and tried again, this is going to be a long practice.

I apologize for the shorter chapters lately, I know what I want this story to be, and the plot. But i'm having a hard time filling it in. Next chapter we can start with Sesshomaru's POV. Thanks for reading and please leave a review!

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