Hey guys! So I have a couple of things to say before the chapter, 3 to be exact.
1) I'm so sorry if you couldn't See chapter 10 before. I accidentally uploaded chapter 9 twice and had to take it down.
2) you might notice I changed the name of the story. Never be Alone was kind of something that popped into my head when I first posted the story. Hereafter just suits the story better.
3) thanks so much for your suggestions and comments. I really appreciate them so so much and take every single one into account. I even try to incorporate some of the stuff that you suggest, so if you have anything you'd like to see leave it in a review and it might appear in the story.
So without further ado, the chapter...
Clary's POV
I've been packing all of our stuff into boxes for the past few days. Wow, I can't believe I am moving. How did my life change so much in just a few weeks?
"So these have everything that's in the kitchen cupboards" I explain to Jace who's helping me pack, "and that box over there has all of Grayson's toys, except the ones that I put on the couch".
"Do I pack those?" He asks referring to the toys on the couch,
"No" I says as I tape up one of the boxes, "those are coming with us".
"Alright" he goes get a glass of water and the door bell rings, "I'll get that".
"Jace" I hear my mother's voice coming from the door and I am frozen solid.
"Hello Jocelyn" he greets her and she walks in.
"Mom!" I say surprised.
"It's nice to see you too, honey" she gives me a kiss on the cheek. I usually go see my mom at least once a month. It's only a couple of hours driving, but I haven't gone since Jace found out.
"What are you doing here?" I ask trying not to sound ungrateful.
"I wanted to see my daughter and grandson" She looks at me like I'm in trouble, "especially now that my daughter has decided to move to Los Angeles".
"I'll go get Gray" Jace excuses himself from the conversation and heads out to pick up Gray from playing in the park with the neighbors
"Were you ever planning to tell me?" She's pissed off.
"Well..." I dont really have an answer for that. I didn't plan on not telling her, but I didn't really plan on telling her either.
"What's gotten into your head Clary?" She starts yelling a little, "Moving in with Jace"
"You say it like he's a stranger" I fight back, "we were together for 3 years before"
"Yeah" she nods, "and you haven't seen him in 5 years, Clary. People change".
"He's Gray's dad" I shake my head trying to ignore everything she's saying, "I don't want Gray to go through what I went through with dad".
"Jace is not your father Clary" her tone gets a little more compassionate, "he's not going to leave if you don't move in with him".
"How do you know that?" I hear my voice crack as I hold back tears.
"Because you're father has a lot of problems" she explains, "he can't commit. Change scares him. But Jace isn't like your father". I remain silent and she brings me into a hug. "I'm not saying you shouldn't have Jace in Gray's life. I just want you to think this through, Clary. Make sure this is really what you want before you make a drastic decision".
Later that day, after my mom leaves and Gray is already in bed, I have time to think everything over my head. Maybe we are rushing into this a little too much. Im certain that I want Jace to be there for Jace, but do I want to be with Jace.
"Hey" I see if his awake next to be.
"What is it babe?" He says, his voice raspy.
"Do you think this is the right choice?" I wonder and it immediately catches his attention.
"Why are you having second thoughts?" He turns to face me.
"I just.." I take a deep breath, "what if this doesn't workout. Us, I mean. We're not the same people we used to be".
"I know" he agrees, "and I had those exact same doubts before asking you"
"You did?" I pout
"Yes" he nods and runs a hand through my hair, "but I am willing to take the chance".
"What about Gray?" I keep wondering, "you just came into his life. If this doesn't work I don't want him to be disappointed"
"Take a chance Clary" he presses his forehead to mine before leaning in for a kiss.
"Okay" I nod still wondering what if. But I'm willing take the chance to find out.
"Is this it?" Gray says as we pull up to Jace's house. He climbs over me to see out the window. We took a plane to get here, but Jace had most of our stuff shipped so it won't be here for a couple of days.
"This is it" Jace explains as the driver parks the car.
"Wow" Gray smiles surprised and I have to agree. It's not that big of a house compared to the other ones in this neighborhood, but it's extremely luxurious. It's made mostly out of glass and wood, there's a long driveway with a 3 car garage, and even from the outside I can see an infinity pool.
"So this is your house" I look at the amazing view and Jace stands next to me
"It's just 2 bedroom, 2 1/2" bathrooms" he explains, "but it works".
"This is amazing" I smile and he wraps his arms around me.
"You're amazing" he kisses my temple and we head inside to checkout the house.
This house is more than I could have ever pictured myself living in. The living room flows perfectly into the kitchen and the dining room. The master bedroom in incredible, and the master bath is bigger than the room I used to have. To my surprise, he had already had someone decorate Grayson's room. He's so excited when he sees it that I tear up a little. I can't help but cry a little when he jumps into Jace's arms and tells him he loves the room. I'm glad I made this decision.
I wander off while Jace is showing the pool to Gray and stumble across Jace's room. It has a huge fish tank that covers most part of a wall, a huge Tv, and the biggest bed I've ever seen. I run my hand over the sheets, Egyptian cotton no doubt.
"So?" He comes stand behind me
"This is your room?" I ask looking at the bed
"This is our room" he corrects me and kisses the side of my neck. I'm about to turn around and pull him down onto the bed when Gray runs in.
"Come see momma" he takes my hands and starts pulling me out of the room, "there's a whole room full of guitars".
A few days later, the rest of our stuff finally gets here. Jace had some meeting with his label today, so I have taken it upon myself to get these boxes unpacked. Isabelle picked up Gray earlier today to spend the day with him, and they should be back any minute now. I asked her where they were going and she said the mall, so I feel kind off bad for Gray because Izzy that girl will shop and she will not drop. I also asked her to bring me some food because I'm starving. I'm so hungry, I'm actually starting to get kind of nauseous.
"Hey" Izzy walks into the house with Gray whose eating some ice cream, "here's your food". She has at least a dozen bags from different stores. We go into the kitchen and I sit on the counter. Izzy lifts Gray so he sits on one of the high stools.
"Did you bore Gray with all the shopping?" I ask opening up the food and spotting the huge hamburger.
"I actually got him a bunch of stuff" she smiles proud of herself.
"He has clothes Izzy" I start eating my burger, "you didn't have to get him anything"
"I wanted to" she gloats, "plus this little man was such a great shopping companion". She hugs him and I notice his face dripping with chocolate ice cream.
"Well you better get your little shopping companion cleaned up before that ice cream ends up on his shirt" I say trying to sound threatening since she knows I don't like him having too much sugar.
She goes get Gray cleaned up in the half bathroom and I finish eating my burger, the fries, and a milkshake.
"Did you finish the burger?" She says with her eyes wide open. I don't understand the shock, "those are the biggest burgers ever. I have never seen Jace finish one of those, let alone the fries and the shake".
"I was hungry" I shrug, but she looks at me not finding my excuse believable.
She stays over for a while helping me organize my clothes in my closet. Eventually it's only her organizing since she kept yelling at me for not doing it right.
"Remind me to take you shopping next time" she sighs looking at my clothes. My head suddenly spins and I feel my stomach churn. Maybe I shouldn't have eaten the whole burger. I bolt to the bathroom and spew my guts out in the toilet. I haven't gotten sick to my stomach since Gray was born. I guess I didn't have time to be sick. I had forgotten how horrible it felt.
"Clary?" Izzy walks into the bathroom, "are you okay?"
"Yeah" I flush the toilet but stay sitting in the floor, "you were right. I shouldn't have eaten the that whole thing".
"Have you been nauseous lately?" She frowns.
"A little I guess" I get up and reach for my toothbrush, "but I haven't been eating that well with all the moving". She stares at me for a few seconds waiting for me to say something. Then I realize why she asked that. There's no way. "I'm not pregnant Izzy" I spit out a little defensively.
"I'm just saying" she shakes her head and throws her hands in the air, "your boobs have been looking mighty fine lately"
"Izzy!" I shriek a little offended, "there's just no way". I start brushing my teeth.
"Okay then" she nods.
My head start going over how crazy it would be if I did get pregnant. Do the whole thing again but with Jace by my side. I remember everything that happened when I was pregnant with Gray, and I just wish I could have shared that with Jace. But there's just no way. I would have missed a period, and I would be much more nauseous. My morning sickness was horrible with Gray. There's no way I'm pregnant.
"So your birthday is next week" Izzy changes the topic
"Yeah, 22" I respond and then everything sinks into perspective. If my birthday is coming up, that means I did miss my period. I turn slowly to facade Isabelle "Oh my god".
"Oh, Clary" she laughs, "22 is not old, no need to get all worked up"
"No Izzy" my voice cracks, "I think I really might be pregnant".
"I'll go get you a test" she rushes to grab her bag.
"No, wait" I stop her, "I don't want the paparazzi to think you're pregnant". I take a deep breath, "I'll go. They won't know who I am. Just stay here with Gray".
I run in and out of the store with my hood up. I'm not recognizable, but that picture from the hospital was in the news a few weeks ago so I don't want to take any chances.
"Did you get it?" She asks when I walk back into the house. She's sitting on the living room floor playing with Gray, the Tv playing some cartoon.
"Yeah" I say in a really low voice, "I'll be right back". I go into the bathroom and open the test. I stare at it for a few seconds remembering how it felt 5 years ago. For some reason, I'm more nervous now than when I was 17. This could change everything. I do what I'm supposed to do and set a timer on my phone.
"How long?" Izzy ask when I go back into the living room and sit down on the couch.
"I set a timer" I say, almost a whisper, and my voice cracks like I'm about to cry. She wraps her arms around me and pulls me into a hug. She doesn't say anything, but she doesn't have to. The hug says it all.
After a few minutes the timer on my phone goes off and I just sit there for a few more seconds.
"Do you want me to look at it for you?" She offers
"No" I shake my head and get up, "I can do it".
I walk slowly into the bathroom trying to stall as long as possible. I stare at myself in the mirror as I grab the little white stick from the counter. This is it. I turn the stick around and stand ther emotionless.
Pregnant.
So, a lot is going to happen now.
I want to hear your opinions on what should happen.
How should Jace find out?
What should Clary have?
Thanks for reading!