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Charlotte's POV

I knew where this was going. Again. I couldn't do this. Not with everything hanging in the air like this, he was hiding secrets from me he just wanted one thing from me! She is such a egotistical boisterous hormonal… ooo my! that little finger…..

To close!

"Paul stop" I whispered

"Are you sure because I don't think you do."

His voice was full of lust. Nothing more. I was nothing more to him.

"Paul. I cant do this anymore." I whispered. He was breaking me. Slowly but surely breaking me.

He stopped. He pulled my over so we both where chest to chest and we both looked into each others eyes.

"What do you mean Char?"

Paul looked puzzled, there was some vulnerability in those eyes something I never saw in him before.

"I'm…I'm…not like other girls Paul."

I really wasn't. I wanted to wait for the special time. Where I know I am with someone who loves and completes me. Not like this.

I didn't think he could hear my reply, I said it so low. To low for humans to hear. Or I thought that anyway.

"Char? What's the matter?"

Paul's was almost pleading. I could hear in his voice the vulnerability. It scared me to think I caused it.

I know that it was now or never, I wanted Paul to know the real me. I don't do these sort of things. If it was all Paul wanted then what was I to him? Just some other girl he could add to his list?

Paul was kissing my ear lobe and I knew that I was correct after all. He was playing me. In a way that was so cruel because he was playing with my heart.

I could feel my heart beat painfully because the truth was that I had always loved Paul, what would he see in me? I am just a plain ordinary girl. Paul was the most beautiful person I had ever met and the worst thing about it? He knew it!

"I think you should go now" I said. Paul suddenly stopped and gasped.

"What do you mean go? I…I th-ought you wanted me?"

Was that all he ever thought about. I never really thought about the way boys minds work. With Chace he was comfortable. We had a level of understanding. With Chace I knew where we stood. But with Paul I didn't know what I was even doing. He made me feel so weird and confused.

I turned around and looked into his eyes. I felt safe and protected almost cozy…

Paul leaned in to kiss me and I was suddenly shot back into reality.

"NO" I whisper shouted.

Paul's body shook violently.

"What the hells the matter with you huh?"

His tone was venomous and his hands retreated back and sat up. I wanted to desperately cry.

"I mean what the hell Char? You just say get lost? Stop? Whats wrong with you why cant you just want me?"

He was almost shouting I was afraid that my mum would wake up because GOD he was being so loud!

"Paul! Be quiet! Show some respect my mum is in the room."

He scoffed and got out of my bed. I suddenly felt cold and alone.

I could see his obvious arousal through his boxers I imagined all the other girls who have submitted to him. It made me sick.

"You want to know why I told you to stop Paul?"

"Wouldn't that be a good idea Charlotte?"

I knew he was pissed because he used my full name. sarcastic git.

"Because am a virgin Paul. You always try to push me. Push me to get what you want. Cant you just leave me alone? I am not like all the other slags you screw I…I…"

I didn't realise I was crying until Paul came up to be and started brushing away my tears. I was now just a vulnerable girl wanting comfort. I was so confused and tired with it all now. What ever Paul would say next would go straight to my soul and it could destroy me.

"Char…I didn't know. I would never have….what have I done….am so sorry…you are so important to me and I have lost you before it even started. Your right. Am a monster, you should stay away from me am not good enough for you."

I then broke. Tears where flowing so fast I was finding it hard to breath. He's not good enough for me? that's a new one! More like am not good enough for him.

Did I want him to go? No I didn't. I never wanted him to go. But he was keeping secrets from me about everything. All the people I loved he was involved with. It was almost like it was ment to be, me and him. Our mums where best friends, they always wished we got together. Got married and lived the dream life. Jacob was gradually becoming my own best friend, he was Paul's friend, Jacob was almost always around him. We had known each other all our lives, it was a perfect fit. Like fate wanted it this way.

Paul looked broke. Like he knew he lost me. Take the step that was too far. I should of let him go. My brain was telling me that in the long run he will brake my heart and stamp on it for good measure. But I suddenly felt so much doubt for what I said to him. About the other girls. After all Jake said they all looked like me. Could that mean he liked me?

I got up from my bed just as Paul was about to jump out of the window in his wet clothes he must of put back on. This would be my only chance I knew he wouldn't come to me again. This was it.

"I knew you only wanted me for one thing"

I hoped it would make him stop, and it did.

Paul turned towards me. He walked up to me and placed a gentle hand on my cheek. He looked into my eyes and got down to my level.

"You are so much more important than that Char. I am who I am, you know me probly better than my own mum, I will make merstakes"

Then like a switch he was the Paul who was caring, the boy who I loved not the boy he is becoming. But he is still keeping secrets. I think these secrets wasn't little ones but big ones. I needed to know them. Now.

"Paul" I whimpered. Suddenly all confidence went. Would this be the last time I would see him? My heart thumped painfully at the thought. A part of me needed him now so badly. But I wouldn't be lied too.

"Yes Char? What is it?" his voice was laced in worry and concern. I took three deep breaths.

"You are keeping something from me. You and Chace both are. I know it" at the end my voice broke. I was breaking. Paul Meraz was breaking me and I would be irreparable after he left.

Paul's body immediately froze. This was it.

"Char, I will tell you. I promise, but you are not ready just yet. I want you to get to know me and me the same with you. Give me a few more weeks. Then I will tell you. I promise"

He said weeks as in this was all the time he had with me. Why would he think that? did he think that was the amount of time it would take for him to take my virginity? I hoped and prayed it wasn't.

I needed to know if Chace was involved in all this. He went away with just a text. And why did he go with Seth Clearwater? that's just strange he don't even know the boy!

"Is Me and Chace involved in your secret?"

"Yes. But for different reasons. Trust me" when he said the end of that his grin spread across his face like a Chester cat.

"Ok. I will wait for now. But Paul Meraz you best tell me soon or else. Ok?" that's was my 'I am a strong willed woman and I can control a hunk of a man who is made of steel' voice. I did pretty good if I may say so.

"I love it when you use that tone with me"

Annndddd Paul was back. YAY?

Sorry it is soo late! I have been so busy it is unreal. I hope to update by Thursday. Thanks for all the support once again. Sophie xx

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