Breathe

by cowgirl dressage

This follows Spock's relationship with Kirk from its beginning to end in short drabbles. It is full of angst. Beware. Based on several episodes and some of the movies. See if you can figure out which episode goes with each drabble.

10. Chapter 10

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Breathe.

This feels wrong. These people are wrong. There is a taint that permeates this place. He feels compulsion, pressing the back of his mind.

He is forced. They make him experience that which he cannot bear. He laughs, he cries.

He cries out, grief swamping him. He might hurt these men he loves and protects. He feels uncontrolled emotion burning through him.

He feels.

Breathe.

He must control. He is becoming dangerous, predictable in his anger and fear.

Breathe.

Uhura and Chapel are offered like sacrifices to their bizarre desires. He cannot prevent what they will him to do. He touches Christine too intimately, destroying the fragile trust between them. He feels her break beneath him.

Breathe.

He can barely contain himself. He wants to kill them, rip them to pieces. They destroy his family, his friends, and his home. There is no punishment great enough.

Breathe.

I am ashamed that I could not fight them. I am afraid that I harmed these fragile humans, whose trust I guard and keep.

Breathe.